As he spoke, Ding Fengjun was about to get up from the recliner, Ding Qingsheng hurriedly held down Ding Fengjun's hand, he smiled at Ding Fengjun and said, "Second uncle, you don't have to prepare anything for me, I don't need to bring anything, I just need to bring the guitar you made for me." ”

Ding Fengjun nodded a little tiredly, he lay back in the chair, and said in a serious tone: "Birthday, it's no better than at home, your temper The second master understands, the outside world is not as simple as you think, no matter what happens, you just remember a word, endure the calm for a while, take a step back and open the sky, of course, if you feel tired and tired outside, you have to remember that there is still your home here." ”

Ding Qingsheng inexplicably felt a sad emotion welling up in his heart, he thought that leaving would be a very easy thing, but in the face of family affection, he was difficult to give up, although Ding Fengjun and Zhang Fengrong withheld Ding Qingsheng's admission letter, but when it came to parting, Ding Qingsheng was inevitably a little tasteless, of course, Ding Qingsheng would not forget that leaving at this time was also because of Ding Fengjun and Zhang Fengrong, what they did was too chilling to Ding Qingsheng.

Ding Qingsheng said lightly: "Second uncle, I won't forget that there is a home here, but I also want to tell you, either I don't go out, or I will make a name for myself and come back, I won't let others look down on me, although there are some things I don't have the ability to change, but some things I can achieve through my efforts, I believe that even if I don't go to college, I can still complete my dreams, because of what I decided, I will definitely make those people regret what they did today through my hard work." ”

Although Ding Qingsheng didn't say it explicitly, there was some information between his words, and he wanted to see Ding Fengjun's reaction, but unfortunately Xiang Fengjun didn't pay attention to the deepest meaning of Ding Qingsheng's words.

Ding Fengjun only sighed and said: "I know you are a strong child, but some things are destined to be impossible to change, so you don't have to think about changing anymore, you just need to do your best." ”

Ding Qingsheng smiled bitterly, he didn't understand, why he had said everything to this, Ding Fengjun still didn't want to let go, was it so difficult to let him hand over the university notice? Maybe it was really as Chen Binglian said, the family could no longer afford the tuition fees of these children? Therefore, he could only ruthlessly exclude one person, and the person who was unfortunately excluded could only be Ding Taisheng, because he was not Ding Fengjun's biological child!

Even if he invests more things for Ding Qingsheng, in the end, it can only be a bamboo basket for nothing, Ding Qingsheng held back the pain in his heart, and he said thoughtfully: "Second uncle, I still have a request that needs your consent." ”

Ding Fengjun simply cleaned up his sadness and said, "If you have anything to need, just say it, as long as the second master can help you, he will do his best to help." ”

Ding Qingsheng said lightly: "Second uncle, you don't need to think too much, I don't need your help, I just want to go back to my father's notebook, I want to take it with me, so that when I think about him, I can also open it and look at the bits and pieces he has written, so that I can always feel his existence." ”

Ding Fengjun nodded and said, "Okay, you are grown up now, I should also return the things left by your father to you for safekeeping, you wait here first, and I will go to the house to get it." ”

As he spoke, Ding Fengjun got up and walked towards the house.

Ding Qingsheng looked at Ding Fengjun's back, he couldn't help but feel sad, because suddenly, he felt that his second uncle had become old, his originally straight waist seemed to be a little hunched, and he even walked a little staggering, if he hadn't deducted my college admission letter, if I hadn't been admitted to college, if the people in the post office hadn't told me the truth, if Chen Binglian hadn't heard what he said, would I have stayed by the second uncle's side and taken care of him until he was old.

It should be, which old man would be willing to let his children face the ignorant world alone, which old man would be willing to suffer his own children, and which child would not want to be by the old man's side forever?

However, if these are always just ifs, but this child has the intention to stay with the old man, but the old man does not regard this child as his own biological child, then this child can only choose to wander in the outside world.

In a moment, Ding Fengjun walked out of the house with a notebook, followed by Zhang Fengrong and Ding Qingsheng's sisters, of course, except for Ding Xiaoqi.

Ding Qingsheng hurriedly stood up from the stool and looked at them with some apprehension.

Ding Fengjun handed the notebook to Ding Qingsheng, Ding Qingsheng hesitated, took it in his hand, he had no intention of looking through the notebook, only looked at these people blankly, their faces were not very good-looking, and most of the emotions that Ding Qingsheng could see from their faces were sadness and reluctance.

"Birthday, are you really going to BJ?" Zhang Fengrong's voice was a little choked, her eyes were deep, full of too much emotion.

This is Ding Qingsheng's first close observation of Zhang Fengrong, he has never observed Zhang Fengrong so carefully, it's not that he doesn't want to be close to Zhang Fengrong, it's just that since he was a child, Ding Qingsheng was afraid of being close to her, and now seeing Zhang Fengrong's face covered with wrinkles and a little older, Ding Qingsheng's heart is also a little bitter and distressed.

Regarding the matter of the admission letter, Ding Qingsheng has already let it go, and it is better to bear it silently if he can't change it, in front of family affection, Ding Qingsheng will always choose to be so cowardly.

"Yes, I've already contacted my classmates, and I'll leave the day after tomorrow. Ding Qingsheng took his eyes off Zhang Fengrong's face, he was afraid that he would fall into the whirlpool of family affection and change his decision.

Zhang Fengrong said softly: "Birthday, since you have decided, the second aunt will not stop you, since you have been a child, the second aunt has also done a lot of things to be sorry for you, you are a child who has been smart since childhood, the second aunt believes that you can also understand the second aunt's thoughts, I don't ask you to be good to the second aunt in the future, I just hope you can be good, as long as you can be good, I and your second uncle are also worthy of your parents." ”

Ding Qingsheng's heart swelled with sourness, and he said: "Second aunt, don't say it, I know what I should do." ”

Zhang Fengrong didn't say anything more, Ding Xiaoqin supported Zhang Fengrong, she looked at Ding Qingsheng and said: "Brother Qingsheng, you must take care of yourself when you are no better outside than at home, and when you settle down over there, you must remember to call us back, don't always let us worry about you." ”

Ding Qingsheng nodded with tears in his eyes.

"Brother Qingsheng, I should also apologize to you, I didn't treat you well when I was a child, don't hate me, I really didn't expect the second sister to be such a person, if I knew that she was such a person, I should have stood with you and resisted her together. Ding Xiaoshu said with a little regret.

Ding Qingsheng smiled and said: "Third sister, don't mention the past again, we are a family, don't say these words." ”

"Okay, don't be too sad, the birthday celebration is just to go outside and break through, it's not that you won't come back, let's all relax, don't make the atmosphere so depressing." Ding Fengjun smiled, easing the atmosphere at this time.

"That's it, if you want me to say, don't sensationalize there, Ding Qingsheng is just a long trip, as for this, it's like those life and death, I think when I went out to college, you didn't say this to me. Ding Xiaoqi walked out of the hall, and she said angrily: "What are you talking about, you are really getting more and more ignorant." ”

Ding Fengjun turned his head and glared at Ding Xiaoqi angrily.

Ding Xiaoqi was frightened by Ding Fengjun's performance, she hurriedly took two steps, and when she reached the gate, she muttered to herself: "You have the ability, Ding Qingsheng, don't come back if you leave, hmph, see if you will regret it when the time comes!"

Ding Xiaoqi's voice was not loud, but it was enough for Ding Fengjun to hear it, and Ding Fengjun said angrily: "You dead girl, are you looking for a beating!"

As he spoke, Ding Fengjun was about to walk towards Ding Xiaoqi, and Ding Xiaoqi, who was so frightened, pulled out his legs and ran out of the door.

Several people took turns to comfort Ding Qingsheng a few words, Ding Qingsheng's heart was very uncomfortable, but what made Ding Qingsheng still couldn't think was why he had already chosen to go to BJ, and Zhang Fengrong was still unwilling to hand over the university admission letter to him.

Or are they really reluctant to let me go to college?

I can't think of it, and there is no need to defend it, in this family, Ding Qingsheng thinks that he is an outsider, and what qualifications does an outsider have to distinguish with them.

In three days, Ding Qingsheng met Li Dan again, Li Dan handed over his mobile phone number to Ding Qingsheng, and told Ding Qingsheng to call her after arriving at BJ to report that she was safe, Ding Qingsheng said that he understood.

In the end, Li Dan also said: "Brother Sheng, I want to see you off at the station." ”

Ding Qingsheng just smiled bitterly: "No need, my second uncle will personally send me to the station, besides, separation is always the most painful, I don't want both of you to suffer in separation." ”

Li Dan replied with some reluctance: "However, if I don't send you, I'm afraid that I will be more miserable." ”

Ding Qingsheng smiled lightly and said: "We will meet again, you don't have to be so low, when we meet again, it will be in the metropolis, I will wait for you." ”

Li Dan plunged into Ding Qingsheng's arms and wept bitterly.

Ding Fengjun also did a lot of things for Ding Qingsheng, he was worried that Ding Qingsheng would have a lot of unexpected places when he went out alone for the first time, he specially bought a brand new suitcase for Ding Qingsheng, and asked Zhang Fengrong to pack a few pieces of clothes for Ding Qingsheng in each season, until he saw that the suitcase was stuffed full, he was relieved.

In the end, Ding Fengjun called Ding Qingsheng to the bedroom and said: "Qingsheng, I went to the city today to buy you a mobile phone, remember to buy a mobile phone card and put it in after you arrive at BJ, and then make a call back, so that we can rest assured." ”

Ding Qingsheng looked at the brand-new mobile phone in Ding Fengjun's hand, his tears almost flowed out, he took the phone and nodded silently.

Ding Fengjun sighed secretly and said: "Qingsheng, you should face the world alone when you grow up, the second uncle has nothing in this life, and he can't give you what you want, I hope you can win back your own cut through your own efforts, the outside world is very exciting and noisy, the second uncle doesn't want anything else, I just hope you don't lose yourself in the world of flowers, understand?"

Ding Qingsheng nodded desperately, in the future, this is a confused word, what is the outside world like, Ding Qingsheng doesn't know, he can only take one step at a time, maybe he will get better and better, or maybe he will really get lost in the outside world, after everything is ready, Ding Qingsheng came to Zhang Jilai and Luo Xinyi's grave again.

More than ten years have passed, these two tombs are getting smaller and smaller, the tombstone has been portrayed by the years as an old man with a wrinkled face, this wasteland has been opened by many people, the people who came are gone, and new people are coming, and it has never stopped, the years are passing, the world is changing, Ding Qingsheng is not sure that one day in the future, these two tombs will be razed to the ground.

When Ding Qingsheng set foot on this hot land again one day, perhaps, he really became an orphan at that time.

Ding Qingsheng took off the guitar, he sat cross-legged, and sang the song for his biological parents with tears, sad and tearful, longing and drunk.

When Ding Qingsheng sang about his parents again, Chen Binglian also started her own commotion, since Ding Qingsheng satirized her that day, her heart has been very uncomfortable, and at the same time she is uncomfortable, she is also wondering.

Listening to what Ding Qingsheng said, could it be that Ding Xiaoqi returned Ding Qingsheng's admission letter to him? How is this possible, didn't Ding Xiaoqi swear to Chen Binglian that she promised Chen Binglian that she would not let Ding Qingsheng go to college, but when Ding Qingsheng said those words that day, it didn't seem to be fake.

Chen Binglian was really depressed, she simply put down the dishes and chopsticks in her hand, and wanted to go to Ding Fengjun's house to find Ding Xiaoqi, just when she got up and wanted to leave, Ding Fenghai noticed Chen Binglian's strange appearance, he wiped his mouth, and said, "Where are you going, the meal hasn't been eaten yet?"

Chen Binglian glanced at Ding Fenghai and said, "I'll go out to breathe, you can eat first, just put the dishes and chopsticks on the table after eating, and I'll clean up when I come back." ”

Ding Fenghai didn't say anything more when he heard this, but only picked up the bowl and ate again.

Chen Binglian just walked out of the door, just happened to meet Ding Xiaoqi with a depressed face, at this time Ding Xiaoqi's mouth seemed to be muttering something, Chen Binglian saw Ding Xiaoqi hurriedly beckoned: "Xiaoqi, what are you going to do, come here, I just have something to ask you." ”

Ding Xiaoqi looked up at Chen Binglian, and she said angrily, "What's the matter?"

Chen Binglian said with a smile: "Xiaoqi, I heard that I was going to BJ for my birthday two days ago, why, did you give him the admission letter?"

Ding Xiaoqi pouted and said, "No, who knows which nerve Ding Qingsheng is wrong with, and he has to go to BJ." ”

Chen Binglian was puzzled and said: "What is he doing in BJ, besides, he is going to BJ, and your parents don't care?"

Ding Xiaoqi said unhappily: "You don't know Ding Qingsheng's temper, who can control him if he fights, I don't care anyway, he can toss as much as he likes." ”

Chen Binglian said suspiciously: "Ding Qingsheng wouldn't have known about our signing and acceptance of his university admission letter?" ”

Ding Xiaoqi scratched his head and said: "I shouldn't know, he said, he went to BJ to seek refuge with one of his classmates, it seems that his classmate is also engaged in music, if he knows the truth of this matter, he will not have to ask me for it." ”

Chen Binglian thought about it, at this time she had a number in her heart, it seems that Ding Qingsheng said those words that day is obviously defending Ding Fengjun, so when he said this, Ding Qingsheng really has a conscience, obviously heard what I said, he still has to do that, however, Ding Qingsheng is going to BJ, it seems that it should have something to do with what I said, Ding Qingsheng is going to BJ? Well, that's fine, at least as soon as he leaves, I have the topic of ridiculing Ding Fengjun, which is pretty good.

Thinking of this, Chen Binglian smiled slyly and said: "How about it, Xiaoqi, what I said is right, Ding Qingsheng is a white-eyed wolf, we have worked hard to keep him by your parents' side, but he is good, he obviously wants to abandon your parents, you said that your parents' decision back then was wrong, this time I think your parents will not regret death!"

Ding Xiaoqi glanced at Chen Binglian, and said angrily: "I don't know if he is a white-eyed wolf, anyway, I didn't regret it from my parents, on the contrary, I saw more of it or reluctance, I think when I was in college, my parents didn't treat me like this." ”

Chen Binglian pretended to sigh and said: "In the end, my own daughter is not as good as a foreign son, she has been bullied to such an extent, and your parents are still so partial to him, I feel wronged for you." ”

Ding Xiaoqi rolled his eyes at Chen Binglian and said: "Okay, don't sensationalize here, it's a thousand-year-old fox, don't play anything with me, let me tell you, this matter is over, I won't give Ding Qingsheng a college admission letter, as for where Ding Qingsheng is going, I don't care, but you, don't get involved in my family's affairs in the future, I heard that my uncle's health is not very good, you better spend more time and energy to take care of him." ”

After speaking, Ding Xiaoqi raised his legs and left, leaving Chen Binglian stunned like a chicken.