"Young baby. ”

These three short words made me shudder.

It's a strange and familiar name.

In fact, outside Yangzhou City, that chaotic and sad night, after Jingxu and I met on the boat, I seemed to have returned the name "Yue Qingying" to her, and over the years, I didn't think about it anymore, nor did I think about my life when I was still called this name.

But now, she shouted the name out of her mouth, as if she had pulled those dusty past events out of the ashes of time.

Su Su frowned beside her: "What's her name?"

I didn't explain much to her, Zhao Shuyuan called me like this, I don't think she saw me and recognized me, but her mind was not very clear.

Sure enough, she stroked the back of my hand again and said softly, "When did you come back?"

Su Su listened even more inexplicably next to him.

I handed her the handkerchief in my hand and asked her to pack up the basin, and when Su Su walked out and closed the door, Zhao Shuyuan said to me gently: "Didn't you say that you were going to go out for a trip and wouldn't come back?"

“……”

What she said should be Yue Qingying, that is, Jingxu went out to travel, that is, because Pei Yuanzhen told the life experience of "Yan Qingqing" in the main hall back then, she was worried that someone would really go to Huangze Temple to find out the roots, so she made a trick and lied that "Yan Qingqing" had passed away from illness, and Jingxu naturally had to leave Huangze Temple to avoid this lie being exposed.

In the past so long, Huangze Temple was destroyed, but Zhao Shuyuan still talked about it, it seems that she is really a little confused.

I didn't break it, so I followed her words: "I miss you, so I'll come back to see you." ”

"Miss me, what do I have to think about? ”

I smiled and helped her to the edge of the bed and sat down, and she suddenly looked up at me again and said, "What places have you traveled and what have you done?"

I thought about it, sat down next to her, smiled and said, "I've been to many places, but I haven't done anything, I've achieved nothing, and I'm still struggling in the red dust. ”

"Silly boy, if people don't struggle in the red dust, won't they become Buddhas? ”

"Haha. ”

I laughed.

To say that I and this lady lady is actually very strange, in the past when I was still a palace maid and she had no contact, let alone dating, today is the first time to talk, but I found that as soon as I opened my mouth, I felt a little in love.

She was not conscious, but she spoke in an orderly manner, like an ordinary nagging old man, and asked me a lot of questions, and I answered her patiently. The two of us talked like this for a while, and when it was late at night, I let her lie down and sleep, and pulled the quilt over her shoulders and covered her.

Just as I was about to blow out the candle at the bedside, she suddenly pulled my sleeve and whispered, "Jingxu, have you found my son?"

“……！”

I was startled, and with a pop I blew out the candle.

The room was suddenly darkened, but it was as if something had been lit up in my heart.

I turned around and barely saw her emaciated figure half-lying on the bed in the darkness, her eyes slightly twinkling, looking at me.

My heart was pounding, almost jumping out of my mouth, and I took a deep breath to calm myself down, and I said, "I looked for it, but I didn't find it." ”

"Ah......h

She let out a soft sigh, although the voice was very soft, but I clearly felt her loss from that soft sigh, and suddenly, the whole person collapsed a little, as if it had collapsed.

I subconsciously reached out to touch her, but she reached out and grabbed my hand.

Her hands, because they had just been washed with hot water, were still a little warm at this time, and when she rubbed her palms, she even felt a little heat, as if she was eager, she said: "Then you have to help me find it, ask more people, find more, help me find him." ”

My heart was beating harder.

Actually, I didn't want to ask about this matter, but I just received her today, and I was also worried that asking about the past would touch her sensitive nerves and make her afraid, and there would be trouble on the way, so I didn't open my mouth;

I suppressed my throbbing heart and said as calmly as possible: "There is a vast sea of people, how can it be so easy to find someone." ”

Hearing me say this, she let out a soft sigh of loss.

"Ah......h

"Besides, it's been so many years. ”

“……”

"How many years have passed, do you remember?"

I felt her tremble slightly, and after a long time, she said very lightly: "It's been thirty years, more than thirty years......"

My breathing tightened a little, and then I said, "Yes, it's been more than thirty years, and your son, if he is still alive, is also an adult, maybe he has already married and had children." ”

“…… Marry a wife and have children. ”

"yes, it's so hard to find a child who was lost more than thirty years ago. ”

As I said this, I moved closer to her slightly, and looked at her flickering eyes by the faint moonlight that came in through the window: "You, do you have any credentials for that child?"

"Credentials?"

"That's right, a certificate of recognition in the future. ”

She shook her head blankly: "I didn't, I didn't leave him anything, when he was born, I didn't even have time to look at him, he was taken away." ”

“……！”

My heart trembled, and I couldn't help but secretly say: Queen Yin is really vicious!

Even if it was the Emperor Pei Ji, in order to protect the coffin that was regarded as ominous, he exchanged Pei Yuanhao for the queen mother's child, but he at least let the queen mother get along with the child for a while, after all, there is still a trace of time to remember between mother and son, but Queen Yin didn't even let Zhao Shuyuan see her child, so she sent the child away, such viciousness, such coldness, it is too much!

I even think that what she experienced afterwards, the crazy wandering and wolf bèi after the upheaval in Tiger Leaping Gorge, may be the retribution for the evil she once did!

only pity Zhao Shuyuan.

I looked down at her panicked eyes, and there was a growing grief in them, as if they were going to crush her whole body, and I could hardly bear to ask any more questions.

However, the doubts that kept pouring up in my mind kept churning.

I finally couldn't help it, and asked tentatively, "She, why did she do this to you, why did she take your child?"

“……”

"What the hell do you know?"