Day 180 This is not what I wanted
Was it planned by Wu Chao or Wang Shi a long time ago?
Liu Yuan participated in the civil strife during the chaos, on the surface, it seemed that Liu Yuan himself participated, but in fact, he was lured in by Wang Shi?
So it's really not civil strife when it's chaotic?
yes, how can the three of them break up? Jin Wei had always doubted the authenticity of this matter before, but Wang Shi and Liu Sour never admitted it, if this is really the case, then the three of them deliberately wanted to hide it from her?
Su Lingrui should also know about this, right?
Teacher Jiang should also know, so in fact, she is the only one who doesn't know?
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Is she that stupid?
Maybe it's to protect her, Jin Wei remembered the note that Wu wrote to her, saying that she would wait for him for a year, maybe he would be able to solve this matter after a year, and then he would be able to be with her.
But thinking of this result, Jin Wei's heart was not so comfortable, Wu Chao was willing to protect her and wanted to be with her, which was something worthy of her happiness, but she couldn't help Wu Chao, it would only cause trouble for him, but Jin Wei couldn't let go.
If things are really as she thinks, it means that even Su Lingrui is helping them, but she can't do anything, and even, they don't want her to do anything.
This is to protect you, Jin Wei comforted herself, but this feeling of being thought to be stupid made Jin Wei feel very uncomfortable, she has never had much confidence since she was a child, she always felt that she was very bad and couldn't do anything, so no matter what she did, she didn't dare to whisper to others, so she didn't dare to tell the people around her after writing novels for so many years, because she was afraid that she would write badly and that she would be ridiculed.
Others don't know, in fact, Jin Wei knows herself very well, she is inferior in her heart, very inferior, inferior to sometimes feel that she lives a lot of life, which is also the second reason why she has few friends, because she doesn't know how to get along with others, she doesn't know how to get along with others to make others feel comfortable, because Jin Wei has always felt that in the eyes of others, she is a very boring and two-person person, what she thinks is different from what many people think, so she often can't chat together, and she won't look at words, To think about what to say and what not to say, so she never went to a class reunion or something, and it was too embarrassing to be cold.
Therefore, Jin Wei is very sensitive to the feeling of being disliked, and he cares a lot about it.
Although she knew that Wu Chao did this to protect her, she still felt in her heart that Wu Chao did it because she was too bad, even if she was similar to Su Lingrui, Wu Chao would not tell her nothing.
He must have known that she was in Lehe, right?
Jin Wei'an couldn't help the curiosity in her heart, and wanted to confirm this conjecture, wanting to know what her position was in Wu Chao's heart, but at the same time, she was too timid to take a step, because she was more afraid that the result of her verification was really the result she thought, and she was not ready to bear this result.
Because she never knew what her position was in Wu Chao's heart, she didn't know if he cared about her at all, and she didn't know who he was thinking about.
He gave her hope and despair to go deep into the valley, but he never gave her a clear attitude, whether she liked it or didn't like it.
In the past, Jin Wei was reluctant to think about this question, but now it is the same, Wu Chao is her dream, and it is the motivation that supports her to continue writing novels, she doesn't dare to think about it, if this motivation disappears one day, what will happen to her? Even not long ago, she was beaten into the bottomless abyss of despair by Wu Chao, she didn't dare to think about it, because she knew that once she thought about it, this kind of thought would linger, and these thoughts would be like a thick dark cloud, pressing on top of her head, no matter how hard she tried, she would never be able to deal with these shadows.
Therefore, she has been running away, like a heartless child, unwilling to think about those things, which is why Wu Chao is unwilling to tell her anything, right?
Because she is too simple, because she is too stupid, she can't help anything that happens, she can only be protected by them like a person who can't take care of herself.
This is not what Jin Wei wants.
Not strong enough, not capable of protecting the people around her, this is a life she has never wanted to live, if the meaning of her existence is just to be protected by others, then what is the point of her existence? Watching the people around her run around to protect her, going to the soup for her, and she, but she can't do anything, if this is the only way, then she would rather not have their protection, and she doesn't want them to do so many things because of her, and she can't do anything.
It was past ten o'clock that I got home in vain.
"Have you eaten?" As soon as he entered the door, he asked, "I brought you supper." ”
"Eat," Jin Wei put down the book in his hand and said with a smile, "What did you eat at night?" ”
"Barbecue~" smiled sweetly, and it could be seen that he was in a very good mood.
"It's not delicious when the barbecue is cold......
"You can put it in the microwave to heat it, you wait, I'll heat it for you." With that, he walked to the kitchen.
Jin Wei got up and followed, "Baibai, there is something I want to ask you." ”
"What's the matter?" Bai Bai asked as he walked.
"Fragments, do you know what you've been busy with lately?"
"Isn't she working in the sixth master's company?"
"yes, I'm just talking about the content of her work, she just called and said that she won't be coming back to live recently, so I'm curious, what she's been busy with lately."
"There are a lot of things to do with the new company." put the meat in the microwave in vain, turned to look at Jin Wei, and said, "Don't worry, she will definitely not be able to lose it, although the sixth master...... Actually, I think the sixth master should be a little fond of bits and pieces, you see, he hasn't come to you recently. ”
Said in vain. Thinking about it very seriously, "Could it be that the revelations on Weibo are true, and the sixth master really fought with Liu Yang because of fragments?" ”
"Possibly." Jin Wei also somewhat agrees with Bai Bai's statement, this is not because Liu Acid has not come to her recently, in fact, Liu Acid has not come to her for a long time, so Jin Wei also seriously doubted the authenticity of Liu Acid saying that he liked her, how can he say that he doesn't like it? Why can't she be so calm?
"You don't mind, do you?" Asked in vain.
Jin Wei said with an expression of "How is it possible, am I the kind of person who eats in the bowl and thinks about the pot?" Besides, I only like Wu Ran, okay? I'm infatuated. ”
"That's not what I meant...... said in vain, "I don't think I'm going to come back to live, it's probably because of this, she doesn't know how to face you." ”
"Is it hard to face?" Jin Wei pondered, could it really be that she thought too little and her brain cells were too simple, so she couldn't see what was going on?