When the members of the idol project quit the stage and this episode of the show ended, Cheng Xiaoyu turned off the TV, turned off the computer, turned off the lights, and put himself in the dark, there was no moon in the sky of SH today, and there were not too many stars.

Cheng Xiaoyu feels that she likes the night, because without the night, we can't see the starlight.

We live in this vast universe, and the floating cosmic arrows and the light and dust of the stars are the eternal guidance, and we are so small that we are as small as the dust in this darkness.

Cheng Xiaoyu lit up the screen of his mobile phone, watching it emit a circle of colored halos, a qiē in the dark, no one could see it, and when he lit the beam, he could find that there was dust swimming in the air, he felt that for him, Su Yuxi was a silver candlestick, emitting a dim light in the dark, perhaps to be more precise, Su Yuxi to him, like a candle, like a candlestick, and like a dark space wrapped around him.

Although the loneliness of the two people is not the same, in essence, Cheng Xiaoyu is even more unique, and sometimes there is nothing more cruel in the world than uniqueness. Cheng Xiaoyu was extremely eager to feel that he should talk to Su Yuxi, and when he gave her comfort and warmth, he felt that he could also rest for a while in the warmth of her feedback.

He picked up his mobile phone and went to his own piano room to sit in front of the piano, and after arriving, he dialed Su Yuxi's phone, and he took the initiative to call Su Yuxi only a handful of times.

After the "beep" sound, Su Yuxi's joyless and sad voice came from there: "Hey." ”

Cheng Xiaoyu turned on the mobile phone to speakerphone, and said gently, "You bring headphones, I want to sing to you." ”

Su Yuxi returned "Wait", and after a while, her voice came, "Okay." ”

Cheng Xiaoyu held the guitar in the dark and began to play. (bgm "thisisliving" acoustic version singer HillsongYoungAndFree conditionally, please go to station A to search for the title and singer of the song, take the translation of this version, other translations and themes do not match, this band belongs to the Christian priest band, and the songs belong to the gospel songs, not the singing of male and female ****.) ）

The prelude he played on the guitar. When the lingering sympathy was mixed with a little moist guitar strings like the evening breeze, Su Yuxi felt that his heart was slowly wrapped in this calm gentleness, Cheng Xiaoyu here took the traditional soul music singing method "air voice singing" to sing, the so-called "air voice singing" is a kind of singing method with more air and less air leakage. It is a kind of eloquent singing that requires a very light and weak volume and a dark and sandy tone, and many gospel songs use this singing method, and the sound of this singing method is very infectious. When Su Yuxi heard Cheng Xiaoyu's voice floating out of the earphones, she could feel that it was a voice from the heart. It can make her soul tremble.

Wakingupknowingthere’sareason

It's not the alarm clock that wakes me up every day

Allmydreamscomealive

It's a dream that wakes me up

LifeisforlivingwithYou

You are the reason why I have zài

I’vemademydecision

This is my own belief

Youliftmeup，fillmyeyeswithwonder

You have redeemed me and brought me a miracle

ForeveryounginYourlove

Your love is evergreen."

After listening to Cheng Xiaoyu's singing, Su Yuxi was silent for a long time, Cheng Xiaoyu's voice like a twilight drum and morning bell still echoed in her heart, if it weren't for the sound of light breathing over there, Cheng Xiaoyu couldn't even be sure if she hung up the phone.

After a long silence, Su Yuxi's shallow cold voice finally came from there, "I still remember clearly, for the first time in my life, I felt that my IQ was suppressed." It was a 5-year-old entrance test, a female teacher took a picture of a bridge, there were several animals at the head of the bridge, and asked the monkey how to cross the river, and at that time I thought that the branches of the trees were so low, and the elephant's trunk on the other side of the river was so long, and the entrance exam was so important, it couldn't be as simple as walking over the bridge, right? After hesitation, I said that the monkey crossed the river on a swing. Naturally, I didn't pass the exam. The teacher said that the child had intellectual problems. Later, it was my mother who pulled the relationship, so I entered this SH key primary school.

On the first day of school, textbooks were distributed, and a few very simple books were distributed. After reading it in one day, I remembered it all. Then I didn't go to class for a whole semester, I didn't write a word of homework, and I spent all my class time playing or reading extracurricular books. To put it simply, I always finish one semester of classes a day, play one semester, and always come first in the final exam, and this continues until I finish elementary school. Yes. A strange kid who gets a perfect score every time he gets a test, but never gets any praise. During my studies, I didn't study much, I was reading books, reading everything, of course, reading so much purely for reading, I never thought about learning anything.

The reason why this is like this is when I was about 6 years old, one night, I had a dream, I dreamed that a mottled tiger from a far away place through the mountains, and along the road, and also ignored the pedestrians on the road, cars, just kept walking, I seemed to have been looking down from the perspective of God, and I didn't know where it went, until it walked in front of the house, I was very panicked, I didn't know what to do, the tiger went straight to my bedside, and for a moment it was very frightened, and woke up, sweating profusely. At that moment, I realized that the death of 'man' was inevitable, so I couldn't sleep all night, and I began to think about death and the universe in which I lived, obviously to no avail, so I sued myself, you are a child, you can not understand anything, and when you grow up, adults will naturally tell you the reason for these things. The next day, when I asked a question to my math teacher in a white dress with long flowing hair, and she couldn't answer it, I sadly realized that adults were just bigger people. And the answer I want may be that only God can give me. That day was the most lost day of my life, and I felt like I had lost something. It seems that nothing has been lost, and it is as if everything has been lost. At night I couldn't sleep, desperate to give myself an answer, so I looked at the stars and thought about it all night, and I suddenly realized that people can only perceive the world by feeling, and no matter how hard they try to perceive, the world can always be just fake. All the logic of human knowledge is built on the basis of "people", and this basic man can never be disproved. So I felt much better at that time, and no one could explain this qiē. Neither can I. That year, I was 6 years old.

The after-effects of this incident were that I had a slight cosmic phobia, a bit like the immune phase of depression. Now that I'm older, I realize that there are still a lot of diseases like this. I don't know why I keep waking up in the middle of the night.

This disease is very similar to depression, and if you get stuck in it, suicide is possible. Looking at my classmates around me, I realized that I might be too smart to be beyond the reach of a 6-year-old. I regret my cleverness very much, and I don't want to kill myself. The only thing I could do was to resist my intelligence, and from then on I was no longer interested in learning anything, reading books purely to pass the time, but I found a lot of comfort in philosophy books. To put it simply, I abandoned a qiē logic and simply perceived the world. And philosophy makes me more and more silent, nothing can really make me care, except for the wind by the window, those natural and beautiful beings"

Cheng Xiaoyu listened to Su Yuxi's joyless and sad voice, and felt that she had finally begun to contact the inner world of this younger sister. He thought for a while and said, "Xiaoxi, you like to watch the animal world, have you ever seen wildebeest migrating on the African savannah?"

In the dry season, the mighty wildebeest army embarked on a journey, not only crossing the grassland where lions and cheetahs were ambushed, but also crossing a large river full of crocodiles and hippos.

Eventually, the wildebeest herd completed its migration. They continued their lives. For large groups of life, their most important meaning is to survive and pass on their genes. But for a single wildebeest, a single face. They can die at any time, they can be killed or sacrificed at any time, and the individual is not worthy of being cherished throughout the continuation of life. It can be said that individual life has little meaning.

Yes. Sorry to come to this conclusion. Life itself has no meaning. The survival of each individual is for the sake of continuation, to ensure the survival of the great life of the entire race. At the time of this conclusion, I was more desperate than you, feeling that my life was like dew and lightning in time and space, like a dream bubble, that there was no me before me, that no one would remember me after me, and that I might pass like a meteor.

Our generation, and even future generations, will be able to receive much more ideas in adolescence than ever before. We have a variety of readings, materials, and materials that we can access when we have a lot of time. I've been wondering if this kind of thing is good or bad for us.

The good thing is that when we are teenagers, we can stand on the shoulders of giants, gain a broader vision, and have a stronger ability to think critically. The bad part is that when the vitality is at its strongest, to think about the meaning of life, to come into contact with too many heavy things, will lose the desire for continuous exploration of life.

Yes, life is like a wildebeest, there is no choice, it keeps running, just to live. Such an empty life is what they strive for.

Fortunately, I'm glad that I'm a human being, a person who is fortunate enough to live in a stable environment. I can stop and look around without worrying about someone tearing my throat, and I don't have to look around while I'm eating. I can go and do something other than survival.

It was only after I saw the emptiness of life that I came into contact with Buddhist knowledge. Those great virtues all told me to do things. Whether it is useful or useless, do it with your heart and enjoy the process of doing things. Then the so-called emptiness in my heart was solved.

The meaning of life is precisely reflected in the things outside of existence, in those things that are attached to life. In addition to eating, sleeping, marrying a wife and having children, I can also read and write, listen to music and watch movies. Watch more and listen more, things other than survival, read more and earn one. When you don't need to think about life and death, do more meaningless things.

We are happy enough, most people in this world have so many embarrassing difficulties in their lives, they are struggling in despair, so much blank time, doing things that they can't help themselves, always tired, always confused, everyone is constantly doubting themselves, always hoping that they can be someone else, fearfully following the rules in the world of Nuoda, trying to find a safe hiding place, carrying family responsibilities, carrying the original sin of mediocrity, suffering unfair grievances, not making enough money, and not traveling as soon as they say.

There are so many helplessness and sadness in life, and even talking about it makes people feel tired.

So why do people live?

Whynot?

If life is a flower that only blooms once, then it will grow many branches, leaving flowers in every place, and blooming all over the garden fragrantly. If life is a meteor that flashes by, you should increase yourself more, make yourself larger, and make the light of the meteor thicker, brighter, and more durable.

If you feel like a wildebeest and have nothing to fill life with but to survive, run and run faster. Then you can stop for a while and take a look at the rising sun before the lion chases after you. ”

After Cheng Xiaoyu finished speaking, he looked at the few invisible starlights outside the huge floor-to-ceiling window, stopped his expression full of affection, and held two sentences in his heart, wanting to say but he couldn't say it: "The meaning of life lies in love." ”

No, the meaning of life is incomprehensible, and the good thing about love is that it doesn't have a lot to understand. ”

(There was a negative teenager in the group last night who felt that there was no point in living.) In fact, Su Yuxi is also a negative girl, so this important task is handed over to Cheng Xiaoyu, I hope that after reading this chapter, all those who have doubts about life can gain something) (to be continued.) )