Half a month later, I took my last exam before the winter break. Feng Shao said that he wanted to take me to see his family's old mansion, and we drove to an antique courtyard in Yicheng, which was very similar to BJ's courtyard house.

Feng Shao told me that this is where he was born, when Mayor He was not Mayor He, and he was always happy until he was ten years old. But after the age of ten, Mayor He began to rise all the way up to his current position, and from then on, Feng Shao's life began to follow the route his father had planned for him, step by step.

"Yu Qiao, can you understand the feeling of not being able to control your own life?" Feng Shao and I leaned against the railing in the courtyard, his eyes contemplative, looking at the pond that had frozen. "Before I met you, I thought my life was like this, but after I met you, I wanted to make my own decisions once. I've always thought that way, and that's what I've done. ”

He suddenly held my face in his hands, his gaze tangled and painful, "But no matter what, he is my father after all." Now I'm having some problems, and as my only son, I can't leave it alone. You're my favorite, I don't want to disappoint you, but I can't leave my loved ones behind, what should I do?"

My heart began to sink, and I asked him tremblingly, "Are you going to break up with me?"

He closed his eyes in agony, and was silent for as long as a century, and then he opened his mouth to say to me, "Leave me, the farther away the better, I am not a man worthy of your affection!"

"No, it's not like that, you're lying to me!what's going on between us?" I looked at him, tears beginning to fall disobediently, "Did I do something wrong? Don't you leave me, okay?" I grabbed his right hand tightly and looked at him with an almost pleading look.

His brow tightened, I had never seen him with such a solemn expression, and after a while, he forcefully broke my hand away, "Yu Qiao, I'm sorry," he lowered his head, "We may not be able to be together anymore!"

I can't hear what Feng Shao said later, because I ran out like crazy. Feng Shao also chased after him, I stopped a taxi, and watched Feng Shao's car with tears in my eyes and stopped after chasing for a while, and I cried uncontrollably.

After returning to the dormitory, I locked myself in my room, the light was not turned on, I just sat in the dark and cried silently, the phone kept ringing, and I didn't see whose call it was, so I just pressed the shutdown.

Peggy knew the news of my breakup with Feng Shao, and she tried to enlighten me and said, "It's not a big deal, who hasn't fallen out of love once or twice? ”

"There will be no more future, I will not love someone so wholeheartedly!" I murmured, desperate in my heart.

For the next two days, I hid in my dormitory, without eating or drinking, completely enclosing myself from contact with the outside world. Feng Shao couldn't get through my phone so he called Peggy, Peggy said to Feng Shao in a protective tone, "She is so depressed now thanks to you, since you want to break it, then break it completely, don't contact her again." ”

On the third day, Peggy helped me bring takeaway back, and when she saw that I was still looking like this, she suddenly cried, "Yu Qiao, don't scare me like this, okay? I may not understand how painful you are, but I know that my uncle and aunt will definitely be ten times sadder than you when they see you like this! For the sake of your uncle and aunt, I beg you, you can eat something!"

Peggy's words suddenly woke me up, and I quickly turned on my phone, and sure enough, a bunch of unread text messages and missed call reminders followed.

The first thing I received was a text message from my mother, "Yu Qiao, your mobile phone is turned off, and your mother can't contact you, so I'm worried." Turn on the phone and call mom back!"

There are also more than 50 missed call reminders, which are from Feng Shao. I wiped away my tears with my hands, my heart was mixed, and I looked back at all the WeChat chat records of me and Feng Shao, which recorded all the memories since we met, and they have been kept since the first day of acquaintance. I hesitated for a long time, and finally clicked "Delete All".

Then I squeezed out a smile and said to Peggy, "I want to eat, I'm hungry!" Peggy quickly put the lunch box in front of me, and I mechanically sent the food to my mouth, and suddenly I was choked, and tears suddenly welled up, and drop by drop fell into the rice.

Two days later, the school was on winter vacation, and when Peggy and I walked out of the campus with our suitcases, I saw a familiar figure, it was Feng Shao. I subconsciously wanted to run, but he was held in his arms first, "You have lost a lot of weight!"

"You let go of me!" I broke free from his embrace and subconsciously took a step back.

His hand was raised in mid-air, and finally put it down in frustration. "I'll take you to the airport!"

"No need, I'll take my own taxi!" I deliberately didn't look at his face.

"Come with him!" Peggy said in a voice that Feng Shao could hear, "It's better to make it clear!"

I sat in Feng Shao's car and didn't say a word, and the atmosphere was very awkward. Feng Shao suddenly grabbed my hand and put it on his chest, "Yu Qiao, I know you must be blaming me in your heart now. I'm trying not to think about you these days, but all that comes to mind is you, and I probably love you more than I ever thought. ”

I finally couldn't stop crying, "How do you want me to trust you, you love me but you want to separate from me!"

"I can't explain it to you right now, and I can't give you an exact time, but I'll definitely come to you when I've taken care of everything. His eyes were bloodshot, and his handsome face was full of exhaustion.

When I arrived at the airport, I pulled my luggage and said goodbye to him, and he suddenly hugged me tightly, "Promise me that you will take care of yourself." ”

I nodded, pulled my suitcase and walked slowly inside, and when I looked back at him with tears in my eyes, he had been standing there as he had been at the villa the night we had first met, and the countless nights he had taken me back to school.

He was like my protector, standing not far away to protect me......

Is there a person you want to love but dare not love, and if you want to forget, you can't forget.

The winter vacation at home was extraordinarily long, and Feng Shao didn't contact me again since the airport took me back that day.

I wanted to send him a text message several times, but I clicked and deleted the text I had just made up in the dialog box, word by word.

On the night of February 10th, he suddenly made a phone call, "Yu Qiao, I miss you so much!" His voice was slurred, and there were several people's voices next to him, one of which was like Hao Lei's voice, "Brother Feng, don't drink it, the old man won't be able to explain for a while!" Feng Shao's voice suddenly became excited, "Leave me alone, what kind of man am I?"

At this time, Hao Lei snatched the phone and said to me apologetically, "I'm sorry, Yu Qiao, Brother Feng drank too much, so I hung up first" There was a busy sound on the other side .....of the phone, I silently put down the phone, walked to the window, and looked at the brilliant fireworks outside the window, but I felt extremely lonely in my heart.

The next morning, I was woken up by a strange phone call, I wondered, who could it be so early? I pressed the answer button with a question, and a voice came from the other side that I didn't expect, "Yu Qiao? I'm Shao Feng's father!"

I suddenly felt completely sleepy, and my body sat up straight unconsciously, "Uncle He, hello!"

Mayor He's voice was as calm as usual, "I called today to tell you one thing, Feng Feng is about to get married." I hope you don't contact you again in the future!"

I didn't react for a moment like a lightning strike, and asked in disbelief, "What did you just say?"

Mayor He sighed, "I can see that you and Feng Feng have a deep relationship, and it is precisely because of this that you should know what is his better choice! Feng Feng is now on the rise in his career, and he needs a wife who will help him in his career." His wedding date is set for February 14th, you are a smart boy, you should know how to do it!"

I numbly pressed the hang button, slowly curled up my legs, buried my head in my knees like a wounded animal, and began to sobb lowly, then the uncontrollable cry grew louder and louder......

I finally understand now why I always had a premonition that Feng Shao would leave me one day. The ancients often said, "Those who are unsatisfactory in life, nine times out of ten", perhaps leaving regrets is the normal state of life. Happiness that seems perfect and easy to come to is often ungraspable in the end.

On February 14th, I sent a text message to Feng Shao, "Happy newlywed, I hope you will always be happy!" I told myself that Feng Shao had made what he thought was the right choice, and the vows he had made in his love had become a joke in the face of reality. In that case, why don't I set him free?

I looked at Feng Shao's WeChat avatar and finally clicked "Delete". When Feng Shao disappeared from the contact list, I knew that our love also ended with the end of my college career.

At this moment, I suddenly understood a simple but profound truth, in this world, no one can always be your big tree, and the only person you can rely on is yourself.

Although love is gone from me, life has to go on. I decided not to go back to Yicheng again, I wanted to leave that sad place, the farther away the better. I called Peggy at the end of the winter vacation and told her that I was not going back, and that "Qiao Feng" could not be taken away, so I would trouble her to find a caring person to adopt, and she must be good to the cat.

Peggy cried on the other end of the phone, she said that you are so kind and gentle, you will definitely meet someone who truly loves you, which is really unfair. I reassured Peggy that I wasn't that fragile and that I was sure we would all be okay.

When I sat in the taxi and looked at the streets of BJ and the tall buildings, I couldn't help but feel Feng Shao's face in my heart again. I silently said to myself in the bottom of my heart: Goodbye, former lover and my youthful age! Even if life is always mean and barren, I hope you can be treated gently by this world.