It took you six years from not being able to sign a contract for writing to signing a contract for your first book. Pen Fun Pavilion www.biquge.info From the first book of eunuchs to the end of a book, it took you four years. From a dozen collections to thousands of collections, it took you two years.

You have wanted to give up, cried in the middle of the night, looked at the WORD in black on a white background, cried hysterically, and tore an unknown amount of hair for the plot.

You're even wondering if you're really the right fit for the road. Don't give up halfway.

But in the end, you still chose to persevere. Because when you look back, you can see that you are improving. Little by little, although you don't have talent, although you don't have enough brainpower, but you have come step by step, six years of journey, how many confusions and setbacks have been experienced, to get to where you are today, except for yourself, no one else will know.

When you see the 2400:1 subscription, you cry again, but no one sees it. It is even said that you want to hide and not want to be seen. You are cowardly, you are helpless, you feel that giving is not proportional to what you get, but! After wiping away your tears, you are still persevering, and you believe that the current failure is only because your own efforts and efforts are not enough!

Twenty years old, a boy in a place on the border between the gray and the abyss. You don't have anything to rely on, you don't have a strong background, you don't have strong enough connections, all you have is your own life! Twenty-four hours a day for yourself!

You are not willing to succumb to others, you chose to write in the first place, you have sworn that the path you have chosen, even if you end up dying on this road, you will persevere until the last second of closing your eyes. Because you don't want to be poked in the back by someone else, scolded, look, this is the incompetent person who swore to write a novel at the beginning, but now he is mixed up with this embarrassed person.

So, it's been seven years, you're still writing, crying, tired, scolding, and finally, you're still gritting your teeth and persevering, enduring all the hardships, racking your brains to design the plot.

You may not be the best, but you can be the one you can stick to.

Two books, one subscription, it's okay, anyway, if you keep writing, isn't it the worst result? So, regroup your mood and keep going! Even if you have one more subscription, one more reader, it is your progress!

You have to believe in yourself and believe that hard work will pay off.

May one day you taste the sweet fruit of bitterness and turn sourness into tears of happiness. Quit, don't give up. Come on, even if there is no one in the world to accompany you, there is still you by your side, with you, every little progress you make now comes from their efforts, so don't let down your former self!

――――On the night of June 17, 2017, 12:54. Writing a narrative to his future self, tears in his eyes.