cpa300_4(); I never knew that the original Mulan sculls, the spring kingfisher, and the warm water in the south of the Yangtze River would also have such a cold wind, whistling in my ears, like a person's crazy laughter.

The tears on his face had long since dried, and they were blown by the cold wind, like a knife cut.

My heart, too.

Step by step, I walked back to Jixiang Village from the town, and saw the familiar village from a distance, but the people inside all looked at me with hostility, and there was slow disdain in their eyes, and even an aunt passed by me and snorted at my face: "Shameless!"

"San'er is such a good husband, he is not satisfied, and he goes out to find a foreign family, what a shameless slut!"

"This kind of woman should be cut with a thousand cuts!"

"Liu San'er doesn't know what she is doing, she actually marries such a woman!"

I looked at the resentment of those people, and suddenly felt that I couldn't cry anymore, my dry eyes flickered from the faces of those people, and I was so strange, so dazed, I silently turned around and walked towards my home.

It was still that hut, the window was full of faint, orange-red light, although it was so cold outside, but that little light was the warmest in the cold winter, once, I only had to look at the light, I felt that my heart was full of strength, and my whole body seemed to be warmed.

It used to be the home I longed for the most.

But now, step by step, every step seems to weigh a thousand pounds, the home I longed for so much, but I didn't dare to go at this moment, I didn't dare to go back, I didn't want to destroy it, I really didn't want to, this was what I used up to get, the most precious thing in my life!

No matter how hard I struggled, I finally made it to the door, only to see that the door was open.

The room was full of people, almost all the people who had just seen the terrible scene in the town, all of them were around the table and talking about something, and the noise in the room was like a nightmare that was too real. I stood stiff in the doorway, listening to their voices, as if they were coming from far away.

"San'er, we really didn't lie to you. ”

"That woman is so cheap, she actually did that kind of thing, you must not spare her!"

"Yes, we saw it with our own eyes, she was in bed with that Yuan Gongzi-"

In the center of the room, Liu San'er sat there with the child in his arms, although all the people around him were talking to him noisily, but he sat blankly, looking at the candlelight on the table with a pair of dark eyes, as if he hadn't heard anything, hadn't seen anything, and the whole person had even disappeared from his soul.

At this moment, someone in the house looked back and saw me, and immediately said, "Look, the woman is back!"

I stood outside the house, looking at the people inside looking at me with disdain, and someone immediately said, "Do you still have the face to come back?"

"Take her to the pig pen!"

I didn't seem to hear anything, just stood in the doorway and looked at the man in the room.

It seems that it was only now that Liu San'er suddenly understood what was going on in the outside world, and slowly turned his head to look at me, with no expression on his upright face, which was distressing.

At this time, the village chief next to him immediately said: "San'er, you can't have such a woman anymore!"

"That's it, we didn't agree when you married her, you see now, really did something ugly!"

"Divorce her!"

In the midst of a noisy voice, Liu San'er slowly stood up and said calmly with an expressionless face: "Everyone, this is my family matter, please don't interfere." ”

……

"Please go back. ”

The men were speechless, looked at him, then at me, sighed, and turned away.

The person left, the door was closed, all the howling cold wind was isolated outside, only me and him were left in the room, and the child in his arms, although the child was small, there was no consciousness of his own, but it seemed that the sensitivity of the animal also made her aware of the surrounding atmosphere, a pair of black eyes looked at us cautiously, slightly shrunk, shrunk into Liu San'er's arms.

Is she scared too?

Afraid of losing something, or are you afraid that all your dreams will be shattered?

Liu San'er looked at me silently, I don't know how long it took, before he slowly spoke, but his originally clear voice was hoarse at this time, and he said in a low voice: "You, do you have anything to explain?"

The tears that I thought had dried up filled my eyes again at this moment, and the hot feeling made my heart sour.

“…… No. ”

These two words, like a thunderbolt, suddenly fell from the clear sky, and a crack suddenly appeared on Liu San'er's face that was frozen by ice.

His voice was also trembling: "You and him have been related for a long time, haven't you?"

"Yes. ”

After saying this, I also seemed to feel something completely broken, and the sharp pain in my chest made me unable to even continue breathing, so I could only look up at his face, even if I looked at it a little more, a little more, in order for me to persevere.

"Remember, if you still have a trace of nostalgia for him, for you, I will kill him!"

This sentence echoed in my ears like a spell, I can't let him be hurt a little, I can't let him die, so I can't let him have a trace of nostalgia for me anymore, I can only make him hate me ruthlessly!

Not only his voice, but at this moment, even his whole body was trembling, his gaze slowly moved from my face to the child's body, and he looked at me tremblingly: "Li'er, is it his child?"

"Yes. ”

At this moment, I felt that the last ray of light in his eyes had disappeared, and the whole person seemed to have suffered the heaviest blow, and he staggered back two or three steps, finally stood firmly, looked at me, looked down at the child, and suddenly laughed.

"Hahahaha, hahahaha, it turns out, so that's it!"

“……”

"It turns out that I really, have been taking care of other people's wives and taking care of other people's children. ”

“……”

"It turns out that this qiē, really, is not mine. ”

Looking at his laughter, listening to his words, every sound was like the sharpest knife, cutting my originally bleeding heart to pieces, and the pain was unspeakable, but I couldn't speak, I didn't dare to speak, I could only watch him laugh, and in the laughter was the despair he had never had.

I don't know how long it took, he finally stopped laughing, and the once clear and resolute gaze was almost fragmented at the moment, with only the last residual temperature, looking at me: "I have one last question, you answer me." ”

“…… You ask. ”

"Have you ever been sincere to me, or have you never really loved me from beginning to end?"

I looked at him, at his face, that young and upright face, which used to be so clear, like a grassy wind blowing from the field, without a trace of impurities, always warm, bringing comfort and hope.

But now, his warmth has been frozen, as if at this moment my desperate heart.

Just waiting to be crushed, to be crushed.

I knew exactly what I should say, but when I opened my mouth, my throat was blocked by the tears that suddenly poured up, and I couldn't say anything, and my throat made a struggling sound, and I suddenly felt like I wanted to vomit.

It turns out that it is so difficult to deceive yourself.

"You sue me!" he was still asking, "I just want you to say this." ”

Looking at his trembling eyes, my soul seemed to be torn apart, and when some words were almost burst out, the voice of that person suddenly echoed in my ears.

"Remember, if you still have a trace of nostalgia for him, for you, I will kill him!"

All at once, my face turned pale.

Looking up at him again, a faint smile appeared on my face, but at this moment, I felt that the blood all over my body had congealed into ice.

I heard my own voice, never so cold, but it seemed to come from thousands of miles away.

"You have also seen that Yuan Gongzi is rich and decent. You don't know yet, in fact, he is in the capital, he is powerful, any woman, as long as she follows him, she will not have to worry about it for the rest of her life......"

“……”

"Just like me, if you follow him, you don't have to work every day, counting the copper coins to live, and you don't have to think that you have to go out every day, tired and tired to earn that little hard-earned money, in the end, you can't eat well, you can't dress well, and you can't accompany me every day to spend the moon and recite poems. ”

“……”

"Heh, you've been fishing in this small fishing village for half your life, I don't think you understand. ”

“……”

"You're good, I know...... But you have no power, no wealth, no power......"

“……”

"But the woman ...... It's about loving these. ”

“……”

"I'm better off with him, how could I fall in love with other ......"

Every time my heart beat in my chest, my words were annihilated, and I clenched my fist almost with the last of my strength, my nails dug deep into my palm, and the throbbing pain that came made me tremble, and I finally squeezed the sentence out of my throat -

"I've never loved you. ”

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As soon as these words came out, I seemed to hear the sound of the whole world collapsing.

And Liu San'er, the last glimmer of light in his eyes disappeared completely, he seemed to be unsteady, the whole person shook violently, and finally stood still, and when he looked up at me again, his face was full of anger.

He came over and gave me back the child, pointing to the doorway, his fingers trembling: "You go for me! ”

“……”

"Let's go!"

He had never been so angry, I knew that it was a humiliation that no man could bear, but this qiē was brought to him by me!

I didn't even dare to look him in the eye, turned stiffly and opened the door.

As soon as I opened the door, the cold wind swept in the freezing rain, which made me shiver at once, and it turned out that it was already raining heavily.

In the south of the Yangtze River in winter, there has never been such a pouring rain, mixed with cold snow foam falling from the sky, as if even God is crying, but such cold tears can't wash away the love of my life.

I looked at the vast rain curtain in front of me, and I just felt that I had never been so dazed as I was now, I couldn't see where I was coming from, and I didn't know where to go.

I took a step on instinct.

At this moment, his voice came from behind him: "Stop!"

I froze for a moment, turned around a little at a loss, and saw him come out, looked down at me, and his young face was humiliated and angry that could not be hidden, but he gritted his teeth and said, "I'll go!" But I hope that when I come back, you will no longer be in my home. ”

I was shocked, and before I could react, he had already plunged headlong into the rain.

"Liu San'er!"

I opened my eyes wide and looked at his back, and soon I was drenched in the heavy rain, my hair and clothes were clinging to my face, and the cold rain made my whole body shiver, but I never looked back.

At this time, Li'er in his arms suddenly cried.

As soon as I looked down, I saw that the child's swaddling clothes were still stuffed with a long-life lock, and the silver glittering lock surface was also carved with the pattern of auspicious clouds, and in the lock heart, a few words were carefully engraved -

Light.

Liu San.

Never leave.

Looking at these words, I finally couldn't help it, tears gushed out like a bursting embankment, put the child on the bed, turned around and ran out, just as he was about to walk out of the yard, I rushed behind him and hugged him.

"Liu San'er!"

He seemed to have been struck by lightning, the whole person froze, standing in the rain, let me hug him hard, I had never hugged anyone so tightly, both hands desperately forced, as if to integrate him into his body.

In the cold rain, only the person in front of him is the only warmth. But now, I'm going to lose him.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry!"

I listened to my own crying, I had never cried like this since I left the house, the hot tears were washed away by the cold rain, and soon became cold, like the happiness of me and him, in a short moment, it was irretrievable.

At this moment, there was a vague rain curtain in front of my eyes, but I saw the past scenes so clearly, his clear smiling face, so warm reflected by fireflies, he sat next to me in the wind full of the fragrance of rice at the edge of the field, and in the dark night, his bright eyes looked at me, held my fingertips with warm hands, and told me that we had a good time.

However, as soon as he is gone, I am going to lose him, I am going to lose him......