Chapter 4: Sexual Fantasies

Cheng Donghao ate with Li Xiaoyan for three days and said, "I'm leaving tomorrow, you wait for me obediently alone." Pen × fun × Pavilion www. biquge。 info" Li Xiaoyan said: "Okay. Cheng Donghao said: "Why don't you go to watch people play basketball?" Li Xiaoyan said: "It's boring to watch people, and it's better to watch people fight than to fight yourself." Cheng Donghao said: "Will you?" Li Xiaoyan said: "Look down on people." Cheng Donghao said: "Who are you fighting with?" Li Xiaoyan said: "There is a basketball court in our community, and many people play in the morning, men, women and children. Cheng Donghao said: "I will fight with you in the future." Li Xiaoyan said: "You have to practice first to fight me, I have signed up for class." How do you know I like basketball? Cheng Donghao said: "Guess." Li Xiaoyan said, "Tang Mei?" Cheng Donghao said: "Do you still need to ask?" Li Xiaoyan said: "What else are you talking about me?" Cheng Donghao said: "I didn't say anything about you, I didn't ask her, she said she likes basketball, I don't think she looks like a sports-loving person, you ...... it, well, it's very similar." Li Xiaoyan said: "Where is the elephant? Cheng Donghao said: "It's like everywhere: walking, manners, spirit, appearance, weather, etc." Li Xiaoyan said, "What else do you know about me?" Cheng Donghao said: "Tang Mei said that she likes comics, I don't think she really likes it, but you ......, well, it's very similar." Li Xiaoyan said: "You look like a KGB agent." Cheng Donghao said: "Oh? I didn't mean it, I saw it at a glance at the time, and I didn't blame it. ”

Li Xiaoyan's hobby since childhood is all kinds of comics and cartoons, and in the summer vacation when he was admitted to junior high school, he was recommended by his cousin Guo Mo to watch Slam Dunk, and he admired the fairy Daozhang in Slam Dunk very much, very gentle, very considerate, very open-minded, very straightforward, very free, very focused, very persistent, with demeanor, mind, connotation, and conduct, in a word: the best among people. She is determined to be a female immortal and cultivate into an immortal. In order to express admiration, the main thing is to be awakened to the sense of sports, and suddenly feel that there are many benefits to loving a sport in life: exercising the body, exercising the will, avoiding excess energy, avoiding crankiness, and avoiding idleness. Since there are so many benefits, it's worth sticking to.

Li Xiaoyan appeared on the basketball court for the first time with a basketball, and it was rare for girls to play basketball here. The men were alive and well, and Li Xiaoyan unashamedly insisted on wrapping himself in it and shooting. But no one chased her, but they all circled her. Li Xiaoyan didn't pay attention to it, and she didn't realize how much she was in the way. Although I watched some tutorials on the Internet, because I didn't know the essentials, I basically didn't stick to the three. Sometimes, when it's so stupid that people can't stand it, someone will come out to point out.

Later, when school started, Li Xiaoyan got up at 6 o'clock every morning and played basketball for half an hour on the basketball court in the community, which has persisted until now. There are many people who play ball, both men and women, young and old, all acquaintances, and occasionally outsiders. At first, it was just a stumbling block among these people, but later I spent a summer vacation and a winter vacation to practice hard in a high school basketball training class, which greatly improved. The coach praised her for her understanding, but unfortunately she was a girl, and she was not very tall, so she had to develop as a professional basketball player in the past, so Li Xiaoyan was proud for a long time. One day, I suddenly thought of the coach's demeanor, and suddenly realized that he knew that playing basketball was purely a hobby, and he didn't want to develop professionally, so he deliberately said that to amuse himself, that demeanor was very cute, and people were really subtle.

Li Xiaoyan doesn't like to fight with people who are worse than him or of the same level, and he is usually wrapped in a group of young and middle-aged people with more superb skills, and he is willing to mix in it even if he is turned upside down. She knew that everyone was letting her, and although she didn't feel necessary or appreciative, it was true.

Playing every morning, it has been more than five years, she has grown up, her height has reached 1.63 meters, and now she is no longer a stumbling block, she has played very well in that group of people, and ordinary people can't stop her. Girls who love sports, although they are thin, are fit, agile, and truly fluttering, graceful and graceful, full of blooming vitality. But she usually looks gentle and moderate.,It's a demure girl.。

The basketball court in the community is in the park outside the community, there are a total of ten pairs of ball racks, which are full every morning, and when Li Xiaoyan arrives at six o'clock, it has already started to play. Li Xiaoyan didn't say a word, he went straight in and followed, this is an unwritten rule, anyone can do this, most of them are acquaintances, they are naturally divided into two teams, and there is no limit to the number of people, and they will follow which team they see if they are pleasing to the eye.

There are many handsome boys and men among the people who play basketball in the morning, and Li Xiaoyan's first sexual fantasy man was taken from here, when it was still the second year of junior high school, and Huang Weiliang couldn't interrupt.

After Li Xiaoyan menstruated, her mother let her read two books: Hu Ping's "Growth and Sex", and the American Al couple's "How to Talk About Sex with Children". The most enlightening thing is not these books, but the Japanese love master Junichi Watanabe's two-sex relationship book series: "Man This Thing", "Women This Thing", "Husband This Thing", "Lust Lesson". After reading it in one go, I feel that I know everything in this world. The scientific, physiological, and spiritual nature of sex is somewhat underpinned, but these cannot satisfy the growing sexual desire, and the fundamental thing that can satisfy this desire is only men. Li Xiaoyan clearly knows that it is not yet time to bloom, although there is a heart for sexual debauchery, but the behavior can only follow the rules, sex is not only sex, but also affectionate and take considerable responsibility, for themselves and for others, after the outbreak of destruction is not the life he wants, nor is it the main body of social development, after all, it is still safe in the mainstream society, alternative, it will only be crushed by the wheel of history, but it will not be able to get into the car. In view of this rational thought, Li Xiaoyan respected, loved and distanced himself from men.

But he aroused her sexual urges, he is a silent athletic man who likes to wear dark blue tracksuits and white sneakers. Very tall and fit, with deep eyes. Li Xiaoyan is not a person who talks much, although he has a very good impression of him, but he is shy and misguided, and he doesn't dare to look at him, and he communicates naturally with others, and when he touches him, it is difficult to speak, so he simply doesn't speak. But the radiant eyes, touching the man's cold and deep pool, still hit the ripples, the man met Li Xiaoyan's eyes, stunned for a moment, lowered his eyelids, if you know, sparkling eyes, Li Xiaoyan captured, imagination bursting, crazy want to commit to him, but the behavior is more careful. The man never looked at her again, and she knew he had her in mind, even if it wasn't, who cared? She was willing to think so. Deliberate avoidance, unbearable thoughts, physical impulses, and mental depression, Li Xiaoyan struggled for two months, seeing that the man didn't take her seriously at all, but let go, no longer to dodge, approached him willfully when he was playing, looked at him more and more boldly, and gradually did not hide his love for him, the man saw that she let go, as if he had also opened the pressure relief valve, and looked at her eyes openly, gently, and mixed with a little helplessness, but there was no intention to provoke her, like parallel bars, let Li Xiaoyan dangle on it, Not responding at all. Li Xiaoyan was affectionate, polite, and did not act too presumptuously.

Gradually, each other's liking and appreciation became more and more natural, and every morning when the two of them played together, they were happy, but they still didn't say a word. He was already there when Li Xiaoyan went at six o'clock, and he was still there when Li Xiaoyan left at half past six. Li Xiaoyan guessed that he was already working, very big, not as old as his parents, but he should be at least ten years older than him, or twice his age.

After two years like this, I never said a word. Li Xiaoyan went to high school, and once when Li Xiaoyan picked up the ball and came back, he stood there, and Li Xiaoyan asked, "What's your name?" He said, "Qin Guan." Li Xiaoyan smiled: "If the two love for a long time, how can they be in the Qin Guan of the morning and twilight?" He said: "It is the pass of the Qin Shi Mingyue and the Han Shiguan." The people next to him were staring and waiting for the kick-off, and the two of them didn't say much.

Li Xiaoyan recalled for a long time when he slept at night, trying to analyze a man's desires from his eyes, but there seemed to be nothing, just a very serious look, out of politeness? There must be something, there must be. Li Xiaoyan wants to roll in his arms again, coquettish, lingering, and boundless love, *** Sometimes it's a little difficult to control, I can't help but think *** but endure it, because she thinks it's better to let a real man do it, her body belongs to a man, she can't touch it herself, it only belongs to that man. This man shouldn't be Qin Guan, he seems to be too big, he only exists in sexual fantasies, the main thing is that he doesn't love her, he doesn't want her, he just likes it, he sees it, he doesn't see it, he doesn't see it, he doesn't feel in the way.

Since being hugged by Cheng Donghao, Qin Guan and Cheng Donghao have alternated in Li Xiaoyan's sexual fantasies. She felt that Cheng Donghao did not have the charm of Qin Guan, Qin Guan could make her crazy, she could make Cheng Donghao crazy. When it comes to desire satisfaction, Qin Guan is still strong enough, both psychologically and physically. After Cheng Donghao left, Li Xiaoyan thought about him for two days, because he would see Qin Guan every morning, and he missed Qin Guan unconsciously.

Originally, Tang Mei was very interested in a sports student from a basketball team in her class, named Xie Xiaoshan, and always pulled Li Xiaoyan to watch them train. Li Xiaoyan occasionally followed her because of the slam dunk. The more I went on, the more I realized that the gap between reality and anime was too big, especially the gap between people, and I gradually lost interest, and finally I didn't go anymore. Tang Mei went by herself, and finally Xie Xiaoshan found out, and when she leaned in front of Tang Mei, Tang Mei was frightened and didn't go. With the appearance of Cheng Donghao, Tang Mei didn't even look at Xie Xiaoshan, she clearly knew: There are very few people who can become professional basketball players, and they can't work for a lifetime, and the pressure is also very high.