"No, I remember hearing people say that there is a shuttle back to the city, and I can take that. Qin Yafu heard Lin Zihang say that she would come to her as soon as Nian Yue's matter was dealt with, and she was busy refusing, since she decided to stay, she just didn't want him to be distracted anymore.

"There is a shuttle, but it has to be four o'clock in the afternoon, so long, you" Lin Zihang is still not at ease, but he also knows that his time is even more uncertain.

"It's okay, the scenery here is good, it's time for me to walk around, I'm not a child, can I still lose it, you go quickly, Sister Nian's situation is unknown, if you delay it any longer, I will also be uneasy." ”

Qin Yafu gritted her teeth and sent him away, she really didn't feel at ease, in case there was any big accident in Nian Yue, she couldn't bear it.

Time waits for no one, how Lin Zihang doesn't understand how he can be a doppelganger and take care of both ends when he is just one person

Lin Zihang sighed, and insisted on accompanying her to the gate of the temple before leaving.

Qin Yafu was dragged by the bustling crowd and walked towards the temple.

She didn't believe in Buddhism, but for Lin Zihang's peace of mind, she had to go in, so she also put a pillar of incense with everyone.

When she knelt down, she raised her head, and the solemn Buddha statue was in awe.

What wish did she make, she thought silently, asking for a safe life, wishing for a safe life, for happiness with the people she loved, or for a good marriage that would last forever

What is a "good marriage", is it to completely let go of the love and happiness with Lin Zihang, or continue to be entangled in the current emotional relationship that is constantly cut and broken

It's sad to say, since the day she met Lin Zihang, she has always suspected that this is a sweet dream that will wake up, it's not that she doesn't love him, it's just that she doesn't believe that she can be worthy of him, she is always afraid of losing, she always wants to leave as soon as possible, so as not to be too sad when she loses, but one day, she let go of herself, only to find that the pain is not necessarily less than when he abandoned her.

So, she regretted, sad, and felt the sadness that life was worse than death, but it was just her nature, and when she met again, she still turned back to the original point, carefully tried again, and did not dare to approach him at will.

And he seems to have changed, on the surface, the feelings are still hot, but there is more elusiveness, no longer as single-minded as before, it seems that she has begun to hesitate and hesitate, although she has been blaming herself, admitting that she caused him so sad, but the pain of leaving is really unbearable.

Qin Yafu spent a little longer than others kneeling on the futon and thinking about her thoughts, but she didn't ask for anything, or in other words, she knew in her heart that no matter what she asked, it was all man-made, and if she didn't work hard, if she didn't fight for it, God couldn't do anything.

Fortunately, everyone's hearts are more religious than her, and although everyone is full of thoughts, no one has a word to blame her for wasting other people's time.

After kneeling, Qin Yafu continued to walk forward with the unfamiliar crowd, seeing that many people went to draw lots, she had always been afraid of fate, and kept saying that she didn't believe it, but in fact, she didn't have the courage to face it.

She shook her head, but walked around anyway.

The entire temple, filled with cigarette smoke and the scorching sun, Qin Yafu was able to hold on to it for so long, it could be regarded as a temporary forgetfulness, anyway, Lin Zihang had already gone away, and she slowly squeezed out of the crowd.

In the bright noon sunshine, men and women come and go, there are those who are frowning and sad, and there are also those who are happy and smiling.

In the mortal world, among all living beings, a familiar back suddenly flashed.

Qin Yafu's heart moved, and she hurriedly chased after her, but when she got closer, she couldn't remember what the person was called, so she had to reach out and gently pluck the other party's arm: "You, do you remember me?"

That person turned around, but Qin Yafu was greatly disappointed, looking from behind, such a similar person was not the blind man he had met back then.

This person has the same figure as the blind man, and he is also wearing a cane, but his eyes are not blind, and he looks at Qin Yafu with blazing eyes: "May I ask who you are?"

"Oh, I'm sorry," Qin Yafu hurriedly apologized, "I recognized the wrong person." ”

"Well, it doesn't matter. The other party smiled tolerantly, did not entangle, and left on his own.

Qin Yafu stood in place for a long time, unable to come back to her senses.

She still clearly remembers that many years ago, on such a bright summer day, the blind man smiled and told her a truth: let go and be at ease.

It's just that Qin Yafu knows that she can't do that kind of realm, so she lives so tired.

She has been in a dilemma for many years, isn't it because she can't let go?

Wait until half past three in the afternoon, Qin Yafu came to the station to wait for the bus, there are not a few people, but it should be able to squeeze in, she can go home safely, although she didn't eat because of stomach discomfort, but after a long time, her mood has been stable, and I believe that there will be no more motion sickness.

Qin Yafu took out the phone several times, for fear that she would ignore someone's call because of the noisy surrounding environment, but unfortunately, no half of the call came in.

Maybe the communication signal here is not good, Qin Yafu secretly comforted her increasingly uneasy heart.

When she returned home, Qin Yafu felt as uncomfortable as if she had fallen apart, and fell asleep on the bed.

It wasn't until after nine o'clock in the evening that Qin Yaya woke up from her chaotic and vague dreams, but she couldn't remember what she dreamed of at all.

The first thing she did when she opened her eyes was to find her mobile phone, and she kept thinking about not missing Lin Zihang's call.

When Qin Yafu came to the living room and took out her mobile phone from her bag, she was disappointed again: there were still no missed calls on her mobile phone.

Alas, she suddenly realized that she seemed to have been forgotten by the world, and no one paid attention to her existence.

Qin Yafu grabbed the phone nest back and went back to the bed, her fingers rubbed back and forth on the buttons, the eleven digits were familiar with her heart, but it was difficult to dial out through her fingers.

Although she has not had any phone contact with him in the past five years, she believes that he will not change his number, no matter whether the relationship between him and Nian Yue is real or fake, and even if they already have their own children, she always stubbornly believes that he will not lose the number that is only one place away from her mobile phone number, that is the testimony of their heart-to-heart connection, if he is willing to give up, he will not come to his trouble again and again.

However, even though she knew that she could find Lin Zihang by making this call, Qin Yafu still didn't have the courage to dial the number, she imagined that she should pretend to be an ordinary friend and ask Nian Yue's physical condition generously, but in case Nian Yue really lost her child, would asking this make Nian Yue think that she was gloating, although she couldn't give birth to a child, she didn't think that Nian Yue would think that she would inquire about her out of sympathy.

If she didn't make this call, Qin Yafu's heart would not be stable, after all, this is a big event in a woman's life, and it is still the same sentence: she hopes that Lin Zihang can have a child of his own.

Qin Yafu got out of bed again, came to the window, and looked at the buildings outside.

Most people haven't slept at this time.

In the bright or dim lights, the figures of each family are reflected in the tall, short, fat, and thin figures, as well as different voices coming from the open windows: the cough of the elderly, the noise of children, the reprimand of adults, and the affectionate and helpless roar of the male protagonist in the romance drama

Among them, the most special thing is that a husband and wife who are quarreling, the sound of cursing high and low, and the sound of falling things getting heavier and heavier, are mixed, one wave is stronger than another, and people are worried when they hear it, Qin Yafu sighed: Two people who will not have a good life again

Qin Yafu was distraught by the surrounding environment, so she had to come to the living room, she sat on the sofa, buried her head in her hands, and thought silently, just a phone call, call, or not

After hesitating for a long time, Qin Yafu finally dialed the number, just ask for a result, there is no need to talk nonsense, she persuaded herself like this.

"I'm sorry, the phone you dialed has been shut down due to arrears" The mechanical female voice ruthlessly conveyed the current situation of the person Qin Yafu wanted to contact.

Qin Yafu looked at the phone screen darkening in a daze, only to feel that her world had also darkened, it turned out that she had always been amorous.

Thinking back on this reunion again, it is clear that Lin Zihang has been reminding her all the time that he already has a young man, why does she still stupidly believe that he is constantly attached to her, what is she worthy of waiting for, or in other words, has she done anything worthy of his nostalgia

From the beginning of the acquaintance of the two people, she has always been the one who enjoys happiness, and she accepts his gift as a matter of course, and the return is too little, so she is not at ease.

Qin Yafu took a deep breath and stood up, wanting to go back to the bedroom to rest, but inadvertently caught a glimpse of the large bouquet of flowers on the dining table.

The blooming roses were wrapped in delicate colored paper, and because they were in a hurry in the morning, they didn't even open the wrapping paper, and a large bouquet of flowers stood there, like a beautiful lady, elegant but lonely.

She sneered: Lin Zihang, what do you want, no matter how good you are, for Qin Yafu, it is already the past, is it interesting for you to step on two boats with one foot now, can you stand firmly

Qin Yafu grabbed the flowers, she really wanted to throw them down from the window, considering the problem of public morality, it would inevitably cause trouble to the cleaning aunt, so she planned to put them at the door, and when she went out tomorrow morning, she would throw them in the garbage can.

"It's a pity that you came to the wrong place in the dark" Qin Yafu sighed softly at the flowers, this time, she would rather be a wasteful person than keep it again.

There was a soft "click", and the flowers that were picked up swept across the table, bringing down a small box.

Qin Yafu suddenly remembered that Lin Zihang handed over this small box with flowers in the morning, but at that time he was in a hurry to urge her to go, and accidentally forgot it, I still remember his appearance at that time, and he was obviously looking forward to accompanying him to climb the mountain, why did things change so much later

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