In the afternoon, after Lu Tao sent Yangyang to school, he came to the hospital with me. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

As soon as I walked into the ward, I was hugged by Guo Mei, she hugged me and buried her head in my arms and kept crying: "Why are the stars so stupid? Why did you jump off the building?"

I don't care about Guo Mei now, push her away and walk to Xingxing's hospital bed! I want to see what Xingxing is doing! I see him lying quietly on the white hospital bed, with all kinds of tubes stuck in his body, and he doesn't react to the movement around him! I leaned down and called his name softly, but he didn't open his eyes to look at me, nor did he respond to me, as if he couldn't hear me at all!

The doctor on the side told us that with the help of oxygen and a ventilator, the star's breathing and heartbeat were still there.

"Why is he so stupid, why is he so stupid?" Guo Mei repeated to me with tears on her face.

I think she's annoying, so annoyed that I want to kick her out! At the moment, in my eyes, she and her husband are the murderers who pushed Xingxing downstairs! So I don't want to comfort her, let her cry.

I pulled the doctor out the door and asked about the stars, but the doctor didn't answer me, just sighed and shook his head.

Guo Mei's husband was not in the ward, but sat alone on a chair at the end of the corridor smoking a cigarette. I ignored him either, because in my mind he was the culprit who killed the stars!

I saw that I couldn't help Xingxing, so I left a thousand yuan for Guo Mei, and said to her, "Don't be too sad, pay attention to your body, Xingxing will definitely get better." After such a polite remark, he left the hospital.

I had to get out of the hospital quickly, I was worried that I wouldn't be able to control myself and get angry at Guo Mei and his wife! I really wanted to ask them, "How did you take care of the child, how did you make him commit suicide by jumping off the building?"

I didn't know the details of Xingxing's suicide with Guo Meiduo, and I don't want to know, and I don't need to know, because the matter is irreparable, what's the use of asking so much?

On the third day I left the hospital, the ventilator in Xingxing's mouth was unplugged. This is what Guo Mei told me by phone. She said that the doctor said that in fact, the stars have long gone, and the ventilator is just an illusion, just maintaining a physical cycle of the body, and there is not much meaning except for burning money. I agree with this point of view, and I also think that inserting so many tubes into a patient with a broken body and brain death is a kind of torture and humiliation for his body. Let him go quietly, since he has chosen to leave!

On the day of the cremation, I did not attend his funeral. I didn't have the courage to go and was afraid to see his picture framed in black. I think it's better for me to forget about this as soon as possible, I have my life, I have my family, I can't let this matter affect my mood for a long time, not to mention that I can't do anything about it, I can't do anything but sigh and sigh!

As I expected, Guo Mei and his wife will not be sad to death, they came back a month after Xingxing's death, working part-time, earning money. Of course, this is also true, and the living should continue to live well!

One day, she came to my house and told me the story of Xingxing's suicide in detail, as if to give me an explanation, which should be counted as the end of Xingxing's suicide. After she calmed down, she was able to speak more clearly and in detail.

She finally said this: "It's all his father's fault, his father shouldn't have scolded him as a waste!"

"What?" I asked repeatedly, not surprised, I knew that Star's dad could say anything nasty, and I just wanted to confirm it further, just like a police forensics!

"His father scolded him for being a piece of rubbish!" Guo Mei said again loudly.

I heard you clearly! Xingxing's father was the murderer of Xingxing! Her mother was an accomplice! They not only deprived Xingxing of his freedom in the name of love, but also harmed Xingxing unrestrainedly in the name of love! They just want to use Xingxing to bring glory to their faces and use Xingxing to create more wealth, but they keep saying that it is for their children! The process of raising their children is a process of investment, and if the business fails, they will naturally be angry!

"It's really incomprehensible, Xingxing studied so well when he was in elementary school, but he kept planting it after he went to junior high school," Guo Mei continued to say to me, "His brain seems to be rusty all of a sudden, and he can't turn anymore!"

I didn't say much, and let Guo Mei find various reasons to shirk her responsibility.

"Maybe he felt that he couldn't stand our training for him and took that path, and our contribution to him was really too great, and we had to pay him thousands of yuan every year for the tuition fee! What do you see me and his dad eat? What do we wear? All the money we earn is spent on him!"

Continue to listen to Guo Mei.

"Anyway, I have a clear conscience, I think there are fewer conscientious mothers like me!"

"But he repaid us in such a way!"

"I thought that when he grew up, we could follow him to enjoy happiness, but I didn't want him to leave me and his dad alone?!"

I really didn't want to listen to Guo Mei's nagging, so I interrupted her and asked, "Don't you really feel guilty?

"What am I guilty of? What is wrong with me? It is that he is not talented and has no conscience!"

Guo Mei's words had already made me speechless, and I didn't want her next sentence to make me dumbfounded, she finally said: "I can't let the next child become like a star!"

"You've decided you want to have another child?" I asked Guo Mei in surprise.

"Of course, is it okay not to give birth? Who will take care of me when I am old without children?" Guo Mei said in a heartfelt manner.

"Yes. Hearing Guo Mei say this, I nodded, and I suddenly realized that I can't always think that Guo Mei and her family are doing something wrong, and I can't always want to instill my own views to others, Guo Mei is not wrong to think about herself, this is the survival instinct.

"I really don't understand what he thinks, he actually said in his last words that he didn't want to go to college, that he just wanted to open a coffee house when he grew up!" Guo Mei continued.

"Really?" I asked, surprised.

"Yes, that's what he wrote in his diary! Are you stupid?"

Of course I don't think Xingxing is stupid, he's a very smart kid!

Guo Mei didn't leave my house until it was almost dark. I admire her toughness, unlike me who regard her children as important as my own lives, and when my children are in danger, I am scared as if they are dying.

After Guo Mei left, I talked to Lu Tao about it, and finally I asked Lu Tao: "What do you want Yangyang to do when he grows up?"

"As long as it's the right thing to do, you can do anything, it depends on what he likes to do. Lu Tao said.

"Yo, when did you become enlightened?"

"What's the matter? I'm already understanding, but you're the one who doesn't!"

Yes, I can't become a well-informed person! Whatever Lu Tao says about me, as long as he treats Yangyang not only staring at his test scores, and not forcing him to go to a prestigious school, this may be because of my influence, I seem to have changed this person a little bit!

In the evening, Yang Yang was writing an essay, and what caught my attention was the title of his essay: Who is the murderer?

"Who is the murderer? You want to write a criminal mystery novel?" I asked Yang Yang curiously.

I don't want Yang Yang to say to me like this: "Today our teacher asked us to write an essay on the suicide of the star, I thought about it, and thought that the star was not actually a suicide, but was killed by the current almost distorted education model, so I drafted this essay topic. ”

It seems that Yang Yang thinks more than me, and I have been having trouble with Guo Mei and his wife, in fact, Guo Mei and his wife are also victims, and what really led to the death of the stars is just as Yang Yang said, it is a distorted educational concept and model! )