I recuperated in the countryside for two months, and only when the Spring Festival passed, the snow melted, and Yangyang could clearly call out the names of each elder, I resumed work. www.biquge.info But I didn't expect that during the two months of my recuperation, the personnel structure of the unit had undergone major changes: the director of the bureau had retired to the second line and became the secretary of the bureau party committee, and the new director was a woman, only in her thirties, in addition, the director of the office was promoted to the deputy director, and the original deputy director was transferred, I heard that he was the head of the township government, and Xiao Liu, who was five years younger than me in the same department, was promoted to the director of the office! I was very envious of watching others be promoted one by one, but I knew that I would not be listed as a training target for leading cadres in the organization, and the director would not recommend me. Sometimes, I really wonder if I'm a good fit to be a working woman.

Many women in the workplace are like me, they have to work and take care of their children, unlike many foreign women, who are in the workplace before marriage and return to the family after marriage. It is difficult for a woman who takes care of both ends of the workplace and family to do well, take care of many children, it is inevitable that it will be difficult to grow in work, and it will be difficult to fulfill her responsibilities in the family if she worries about work. In contrast, I am a more family-oriented person. I also want to have a rewarding career, but I can't sacrifice my family for work. I can accept the status quo of mediocre performance, stagnation in promotion, and only being a low-level small staff, but I can't accept the evaluation of not being a good mother. And now my son is all I have, my life!

The days went on like this, and I still went back and forth between the city and the countryside every day, and I rode my bike faster and more skillfully.

After Lu Tao left for the second time, he didn't come back for a long time. In the beginning, he also called me regularly and sent money regularly, and then the money was still sent as usual, but the calls to me became less and less. My classmate Liu Jia helped me analyze it, and came to the conclusion that he must have someone in Shanghai! Actually, I also think the same way, and it is no wonder that Shanghai is so big, and the streets are full of beautiful women, and if a big man falls into a bustling city, can he not be tempted? Not to mention that Lu Tao has long been dead set on me, and it is very easy for him to pretend to be a woman in his heart. But why didn't he hurry back to get a divorce? Wasn't he ready to marry that woman? I tried to call him many times to ask what was going on, but each time I couldn't do it because I was concerned about my own self-esteem.

During this period, I respected Lu Tao's wishes and took Yangyang to see his grandmother every month, and my mother-in-law shed a few tears every time she saw Yangyang, and she spoke softer to me than before.

But my sister-in-law wasn't very enthusiastic about me. Her daughter Yueyue also learned to run, not as tall as Yangyang, but fatter than Yangyang, every time I see her, I always jokingly call her a chubby girl. My sister-in-law doesn't like me to call her daughter like this, and I know that she will be happy if I call Yueyue a little princess. But when she saw his nephew Yangyang, she always called him a stinky boy. In this way, every time my sister-in-law and I meet, we have to fight openly and secretly.

Once, because Yueyue beat Yangyang to cry again, I criticized Yueyue a few words, but my sister-in-law stopped doing it, saying that I was an elder bullying children! I told her that children have to be educated, and they can't always be domineering and don't let people, she said that her children don't need me to take care of them, I said I don't need to take care of them, but don't let your daughter touch my son, arguing and arguing, the two of us actually started fighting. At that time, I also felt like I was fighting hard, but when I returned to my mother's house in the countryside, my mother saw that there were several blood lines on my neck and face!

"How did you get beaten like this?" my mother asked me at the time.

"Who told you not to teach me to fight when I was young, you see, I'm starting to be bullied now!" I took my anger out on my mother, because since I was a child, my mother often told me not to be angry with people, not to fight with people, so I can't even beat a little woman who is a head shorter than me now!

Originally, after Lu Tao left, I felt lonely and lonely in my heart, probably because I still had a trace of dependence on him, but after being beaten out of my mother-in-law's house by my sister-in-law, my loneliness and loneliness suddenly disappeared, in exchange for freedom and liberation, I finally didn't have a little nostalgia for the Lu family!

After returning to the city the next day, I did not hesitate to call Lu Tao and asked him to come back immediately to go through the divorce procedures with me! Lu Tao on the other end of the phone said that he had no time and would not be able to come back until the Chinese New Year. I said, okay, I'll wait for you, and if you don't come back, I'll go to court and sue!

I completely let go of myself, and whenever I had free time, I would make friends, go to the mall, watch movies, go to the song hall, and although I was not divorced, I had restarted my social interactions as single.

Of course, I see Liu Jia the most, usually I take Yangyang to her house to play, and a few times, I invite her family of three to my rental and invite them to eat my steamed buns or my baked pancakes. Now that I've learned to cook a lot of meals and dishes, I can entertain guests at home without hurrying.

This Saturday, Yangyang and I followed Liu Jia's family to Taiyuan Zoo.

Taigu is only an hour and a half away from Taiyuan, but I rarely go to Taiyuan at the age of 28, and as for the Taiyuan Zoo, I have never been to Taiyuan at all! What to do in Taiyuan? Go buy clothes? The clothes in the Taiyuan shopping mall are too expensive, so I can buy clothes with dozens of yuan in the small store in Taigu to wear, and there is no need to dress too well in a small county town, otherwise it will be incompatible with the house I live in and the bicycle I ride, just like a farmer wearing a straight suit and hoeing grass in the field. As an ordinary person with a monthly income of only 300 yuan, can he afford to go out to eat, drink, and have fun? Being sent out by his unit to participate in study and training? Dreaming, it is not my turn! And I went to university in Tianjin, and I took the train directly from Taigu to Tianjin, and I did not have to go to Taiyuan for a transfer at all. In total, I have only been to Taiyuan three times: once when I was in high school, the school organized students to go on a spring outing to the Jinci Temple in the suburbs of Taiyuan, another time was to accompany my mother to Taiyuan to see a doctor, and another time was to go to Taiyuan to buy a red dress and some wedding supplies to wear at the wedding before getting married.

Therefore, this trip to Taiyuan is the fourth time. More proudly than ever, this time I went in a small car, unlike the previous times, either standing in a crowded train box or vomiting in a bus! I had severe motion sickness. But I didn't feel dizzy at all when I sat in Wu Tian's car this time, maybe it was because I was in a good mood.

The animals in the provincial zoo are quite complete, such as lions, tigers, black bears, giraffes, peacocks, pandas, pythons, and so on. Like a child, I excitedly went from one exhibition area to another, watching all kinds of wild animals in front of my eyes. Yang Yang was not as excited as me, I held him and pointed to each animal to show him, but except for a few more glances at the peacock, he was not interested in other large and fierce animals, and even cried with fear after seeing the black bear. Our group was just halfway through the tour when Yangyang cried and wanted to go out.

"Is the child hungry? Let's go eat something first." Seeing Yangyang crying, Wu Tian proposed to go to dinner first.

Liu Jia's family of three walked in front, and I followed behind them with Yangyang like a tail. Wu Tian hugged his son Kai Kai, Liu Jia's body was close to her husband, and her right hand was holding her husband's arm. Looking at this loving family of three, I feel so pitiful, I can't get the care of a man, although I am married and have children like Liu Jia.

We came to a noodle restaurant to eat, I pulled the knife-cut noodle chop in my bowl into my stomach, excused myself to wash my hands, and temporarily handed Yangyang to Liu Jia to take care of, I quietly walked to the cashier to prepare to pay the bill. I think that when people get out of the car and get gasoline, I should pay for the food, otherwise I will always ask others for cheap, not to mention that I am uncomfortable, and it will be annoying. But when I just took out a few ten-yuan bills from my pocket, Wu Tian suddenly grabbed my wrist from behind me and shoved my money back. In the end, he paid the bill, and also reprimanded me, warning me not to do this nonsense in the future! Listening to Wu Tian's friend's lecture, I was moved and inferior, and I was moved by the fact that I had two good classmates who always treated me as a brother and sister, and because of my inferiority, I was regarded as the object of almsgiving!

After eating, Liu Jia was about to go shopping at the mall, but Yangyang had already fallen asleep on my shoulder.

"Why don't we go back, the child is prone to catching a cold when he sleeps. Wu Tian looked at the sleeping Yang Yang and said.

"I'm sorry, because I didn't have a good time, and I can't even go to the mall. I said apologetically.

"What's this, we'll come back in a few days. Liu Jia said with a smile.

Then we set off, on the way back, I always had in my mind Wu Tian's wide and warm hand that grabbed my wrist tightly, thinking about it, I felt that my face was a little feverish, I quickly rolled down the window glass of the car a little bit, let the wind outside the car blow on my face, to dissipate the temperature and color of my face. It's been a long time since I've felt the powerful palm of the opposite sex, and if you're being held by a hand like this, there's a sense of inescapability or safety, and both of these feelings are what women want to experience, the former exciting, the latter warm. It wasn't until a familiar picture passed by both sides of the car window that I woke up from my fantasy that Taigu had arrived!

"Cover your child's head with your clothes and beware of catching a cold!"

"When you need help or want to use the car, you can call us!"

This is what Liu Jia and her husband said to me separately after getting out of the car, and they kept sending me and Yangyang back to the gate of my mother's house in the village!

"Okay. Goodbye!" I said.

After returning home, I hated the stupidity I looked at on the road, and after taking care of Yangyang and falling asleep, I still kept scolding myself in my heart: What are you thinking about?