Chapter 59

Cheng Luyang changed the quilt and bed sheets in the guest room again, and when he hugged Qin Zhen to sleep at night, he also invited her to sleep with him sincerely, "The weather forecast says that it will be windy and rainy today, in case of thunder, I am not by your side, what should you do if you are afraid?"

Qin Zhen glanced at him, "You haven't been by my side for the past twenty-six years, if you strike a thunderbolt, you can scare me to death, and my grave will already have hair!"

As a result, there was really thunder in the night, the wind outside was blowing the trees, the rain was mercilessly beating the grass and trees, and the lightning came through the curtains, which was really a little scary.

Qin Zhen received a text message, and touched his mobile phone from the bedside table to see that it was sent by Cheng Luyang: How is it, are you afraid? Do you want your Uncle Cheng to accompany you?

She couldn't help laughing, and replied in a special gentleman's voice: Don't be afraid, thunder and rain are fun, I love it to death!

Cheng Luyang over there was depressed for a long time, and simply replied to her: But I'm afraid, I'm afraid of death!

Qin Zhen laughed, and before he could reply to the text message, he heard footsteps outside the door. Cheng Luyang knocked on the door, "Cheng Qin, I'm so scared of ......"

The voice was resentful and aggrieved, and she simply laughed off her big teeth.

In the dark, Cheng Luyang pushed the door open, walked in lightly with a pillow, squeezed next to her, and the little bird leaned up, "I can't sleep." ”

Qin Zhen moved to the side and patted the bed generously, "That's okay, let's chat with you." ”

It's amazing, sometimes I always feel that she and Cheng Luyang seem to have swapped their genders, but the two of them are very natural and have no sense of disobedience.

"What are you talking about?" Cheng Luyang consciously got into the quilt, "Talk about life and ideals?"

Qin Zhen thought for a moment, "Tell me about when you were a child." ”

Cheng Luyang stopped talking all of a sudden, his mood seemed to be a lot depressed, the smile on his face faded a little, and he muttered: "What's so good about things when I was a child?

"But I want to hear it. Qin Zhen put the pillow up, leaned on the head of the bed with him, picked the most comfortable position, and then turned his head sideways to look at him, "I want to understand your past, and then share your present, in the future, if you behave well, I can also consider living with you." ”

Who doesn't see that she wants to spend time with him?

Cheng Luyang pursed his lips and finally agreed, "Okay, which paragraph do you want to hear?"

"Whatever you say, I'll listen. ”

Cheng Luyang smiled, "Okay, let me tell you about being with my grandfather in the county." ”

He picked the most cheerful one, far away from the neglect of his parents, and at an age when he was still ignorant, he did not experience the differential treatment of his parents between him and his brother, nor did he understand the slightly regretful gaze of others, and only lived under the protection of his grandfather, carefree days.

At that time, Cheng Luyang was only four or five years old, and he would follow his grandfather to the park to practice Tai Chi in the morning. Grandpa and a group of old men and old ladies had a hot fight, and Cheng Luyang obediently sat on the grass next to him, drinking soy milk and eating scallion pancakes.

The cake is made by an old woman pushing three wheels at the mouth of the alley, she appears there on time every morning, and the aroma of scallion pancakes will always make Cheng Luyang, who passes by, hungry for a while.

My grandfather didn't advocate that he eat this fried food every day, not because he was worried that the food outside was unhygienic, but because it was unhealthy - after all, the old woman had also been in business in the alley for decades, and the conscience of the industry was obvious to all. So Cheng Luyang had to accept the rule of eating twice a week, he couldn't move the iron, what if he wanted to eat one more in a week?

Cheng Luyang seemed to think of something funny, and turned his head to look at Qin Zhen: "By the way, I haven't told you how stubborn my grandfather's temper is! That old man is really, simply beyond the scope of human language, all the way to outer space." ”

Before he could start talking, Qin Zhen was already laughing, what kind of adjectives are these?

"Cheng Luyang, you must have been very good at Chinese when you were a child!"

"Hehe, your Uncle Cheng is not only good at language, but also so good!" Cheng Luyang was very angry, "Okay, don't interrupt, tell you about my grandfather's heroic deeds." ”

Then he told how the old man got up in a daze late at night to go to the bathroom, only to hear someone next door prying at the door of the neighbor's house, and the sound of rustling was particularly suspicious. He looked through the cat's eyes, and found that it was really a thief, so he immediately picked up the broom, slammed the door open, and yelled: "Catch the thief!"

He didn't pay attention to this roar, but he scared the thief and threw all the tools to the ground, and he didn't care about picking it up at the moment, so he could only run away.

Cheng Luyang said: "The old man chased him for four streets, chased him to the ground, stuffed all the money on his body into the old man's hands, and begged the old man to let him live, he still wanted to be a good man." The old man had to let him go to the police station, he ran again, the old man chased after him, and finally scared the thief into tears, and knelt on the ground to beg for mercy. ”

Qin Zhen was stunned when he heard this, "Grandpa's physical strength is so good?"

In the dark, because it was too close to see her silly appearance. Cheng Luyang laughed, "Lied to you, that thief didn't steal anything, the old man is not a fool, why do you want to chase so far? Besides, it wasn't him who stole it!"

Qin Zhen blackened his face and punched him, "I'm not good at anything else, making you up to be great!, a mature and stable woman like me, to be forced to communicate with a monkey like you in a language that ordinary people can't understand, it's just a double torture of the soul and **!"

Cheng Luyang smiled, but did not talk to her as usual, but quietly looked at the ceiling in the dark, and said slowly after a long time: "He is really temperamental, and his lung disease has dragged on for so long, and it has become lung cancer later." The cancer cells metastasized and spread quickly, and the doctor repeatedly advised him to stay in the hospital for chemotherapy, but he refused. Let the doctor wear out his mouth, he is determined to be discharged from the hospital. At that time, the old ladies and men of a building came to the house to persuade them in turn, but he simply locked the door and did not listen to anyone. ”

Qin Zhen's smile disappeared suddenly, and in the dark, she was stunned silently, the first time she heard Cheng Luyang tell her the story of the past so seriously.

His voice was calm and gentle, the opposite of the storm, thunder and lightning outside the window, with a sadness she was not familiar with.

He said: "The old man lost his wife in middle age in his life and lived alone in his later years, and he said that the happiest thing for him was that I went back to the county seat to accompany him." And he loves me and loves me, and pours all his energy into me for the rest of his life, how can he be willing to be admitted to the hospital for chemotherapy and leave me alone at home?"

The old man went home and took his grandson on his life, as he had done every day, cooking and sending him to and from school. On weekends, he would take him out to buy vegetables, and he would point out in the vegetable market like a young master, saying that if he wanted to eat fish, there must be fish in the vegetable basket, and he said that if he wanted to eat potato beef, there would definitely be fragrant potato beef on the table.

In the early days, the old man even coughed up blood at night because of the constant coughing in his lungs, but he closed the door, lowered his voice and covered his mouth to cough, and even coughed under the quilt, no matter what, he didn't let Cheng Luyang next door hear it.

Later, the cancer cells metastasized to the liver, and he suffered from liver pain night after night, lying on the bed tossing and turning, and even used the flashlight on the bedside table to constantly press against the liver, using the pain of the flesh to divert attention.

Cheng Luyang said: "When I was in elementary school, I once learned a text, written by Shi Tiesheng, called "Autumn Remembrance". At that time, I didn't quite understand why Shi Tiesheng's mother would use the arm of the chair against her body, even against a groove. It wasn't until my grandfather died that I saw that kind of thing in his body as well. ”

He paused, as if remembering something, and read out word by word: "I didn't expect her to be so sick." Watching the tricycle go away, I never thought that it would be an eternal farewell. ”

This is the original sentence in the text, Qin Zhen remembers some dimly, but he can't recite it. She looked up at Cheng Luyang and wanted to say something, but saw him laugh softly.

He said: "When my grandfather died, I wasn't scared at all. He told me that he might have to sleep for a long, long night, and he said that I was so naughty that he had to worry about me a lot, and that he could rest well in the future and leave me to my parents. He said that he is getting older, his eyes are not good, and he often puts too much salt in the stir-fry, and the things he makes are getting worse and worse day by day...... That way, I won't miss him too much when I go back to my parents. ”

Cheng Luyang's breathing was very calm, and in such a quiet room, they fell together, and their voices were hoarse and soft.

Then I did as he said, and lay down beside him and slept with him. But I was afraid that he would leave me suddenly, so I kept my eyes open and looked at the lamp overhead, and I heard him gasping for air, and I heard him tell me with difficulty, I should be good in the future, and be brave no matter what happens, and he will always look at me...... Then he stopped talking, lay motionless beside me, closed his eyes and fell asleep. ”

Cheng Luyang's voice slowly weakened, and he said in a tone like a sigh: "When the morning glory first blooms, the funeral horn has been sounded. But the sun, it is a sunset and a rising sun at all times. When it went down the hill to collect the desolate afterglow, it was when it burned on the other side and climbed up the mountain to spread the blazing sunrise. On that day, I will also walk quietly down the hill, holding on to my crutches. One day, in a certain mountain depression, a cheerful child will inevitably run up, holding his toy. ”

Qin Zhen was stunned for a long time before realizing that he was still reciting a text that she was not familiar with, she reached out to hold him and whispered, "Cheng Luyang?"

Her Cheng Luyang turned his head, there was something shiny in his eyes, and he rested his head on her shoulder, "The day he left, I felt that I really had nothing." No parents, no loved ones, no home. I looked at him alone, and I didn't feel afraid, except that no one would ever love me as much as he did. ”

He reached out and scooped it in the air, as if grasping something, then he closed his fingers and slowly came to his eyes, "There are things that you can't keep no matter how hard you try, like the sun that is going down, like people who are being carried away by death, like colors that are disappearing." ”

Qin Zhen's eyes suddenly became moist, and hot air was constantly overflowing, like an uncontrolled volcano waiting to erupt. She grabbed Cheng Luyang's hand indiscriminately, and then put it on her face, trying to draw his attention back, "There are always things that will stay, such as me, such as I like your mood, such as the future you said, only the future of the two of us." ”

Cheng Luyang laughed lowly, "Well, I know." ”

Qin Zhen reluctantly breathed a sigh of relief, and wanted to pretend to be funny and pat him on the shoulder, teasing, "It's not for you to be so sensational."

However, the next moment, she heard Cheng Luyang whisper in a voice that was low below sea level: "If you love someone, no matter how old or sick he is, no matter how unpalatable the food he cooks, how bad his memory becomes, no matter how many wrinkles he has on his face and how ugly he looks, you will not love him because of this." ”

"Actually, I always wanted to tell him that I worked so hard to learn how to cook, so hard to learn how to take care of someone, because even if he is old and sick, and feels that he is no longer able to be by my side, I have grown up and can be by his side to take care of him. ”

"But God didn't give me this opportunity, and after he had put so much effort into me, I didn't have time to repay even a little bit, and he just left. ”

"I haven't told him yet, you see, I can already cook, I can do laundry, I can take care of the flowers and plants on the balcony, and I can earn money to live on my own...... I did everything he wanted me to do, but the old man was so ruthless that he didn't even give me a chance to show off, and just left. ”

A wet bead fell on the back of Qin Zhen's hand, so hot that she trembled, and she couldn't say a word.

Cheng Luyang closed his eyes, pulled the corners of his mouth and showed a smile, "Cheng Qin, don't uphold the principle that silence is gold at this time, say something nice, help me suppress the shock." The thunder outside was too loud, and I was about to cry, so I quickly comforted me gently, otherwise I would dislike you for not being gentle and considerate enough. ”

The author has something to say: I feel more and more that the big cheap is the most amazing male protagonist I have ever written.

He is not a male god, not gentle, not strong, not crazy and cool, and even fried.

But he must be the most real person I have ever written, saying whatever he wants, honest and lovely.

Oh, actually, the point of all this is that this chapter is really sensational haha.

The urine problem in the last chapter you laughed at me in front of the computer.,I'm going to sort it out.,When the time comes, I'll send it to everyone on Weibo.,Laugh at you.。

And then I haven't had time to send the red envelopes in the last chapter, and they will be distributed one by one this afternoon, so please pay attention to check them.

PS: Can you accept such a big→_→ If you can't, I'll try not to write a sad male protagonist in the future.