Chapter 48

When Cheng Luyang returned home, the night was already falling. Outside the window, you can glimpse a piece of starlight, like a firefly in the mist, shining quietly.

He turned on the stereo, and stood alone in front of the window in the music that played randomly from memory, wondering whether he was looking at the stars or at the endless stream of cars on the viaduct in the distance.

The CD player was playing a record that I had bought a long time ago, an old English record, and the woman was singing a very quiet ballad, vaguely remembering that when I was studying in England, I often heard background music playing in the bookstore outside the school. After returning to China, he happened to hear the song again while visiting a bookstore, so he bought the record without hesitation.

Icouldbuildthemansionthatishigherthanthedreams.

IcouldhaveallthegiftsIwantandneveraskplease.

IcouldflytoParis.

It’sallmybedcall.

WhydoIleavemylifealohnothingatall.

I could have had a luxurious villa and it was even more gorgeous than the ones in my dreams.

I can get all the gifts I want without having to ask anyone.

I can fly to Paris for as many trips as I want, and everything is under my control.

But why do I live so lonely, empty, with nothing.

……

Even if you don't have to listen to the lyrics, the lyrics pour into your ears like water, making people feel defenseless.

He heard only two voices in the silent room, the woman's long, slow singing, and the dull, silent heartbeat in his chest. He reached out and touched his chest, knowing that he already had everything that many people admired, but he still felt empty.

He thought of Meng Tang, who came to the office to find him in the morning, and begged him with a low profile that he had never seen before, and he gave Meng Tang a scolding and ridicule without a doubt, but Meng Tang was neither humble nor arrogant from beginning to end, and listened to him silently.

He was tired of scolding, and he didn't want to scold anymore, so he let Meng Tang go. But Meng Tang only said one sentence: "Qin Zhen, she is not happy, no matter how many things I have done to hurt her in the past, I just want a chance to make amends." ”

Cheng Luyang froze suddenly.

Meng Tang said: "I am sure to give her happiness, and I also believe that Mr. Cheng, you and I hope that she can get the happiness she wants." ”

He said that Qin Zhen is a person who does not have too many requirements for life, but it is precisely such a person who is the most difficult to satisfy. Because she never seriously thought about what she wanted to get, she never found what she wanted in the constant gains and losses.

"I have witnessed her seven years of growth, and I think I know what she wants in life, and I am confident that I can make up for the mistakes I made in the past in the future, and give her a complete love and life."

He stretched out his hand, earnestly hoping that Cheng Luyang would give him this opportunity and Qin Zhen a chance to be happy. At that moment, Cheng Luyang couldn't say a word, and his mind was full of mixed thoughts.

Qin Zhen wants to get married.

Qin Zhen wants a love.

Qin Zhen didn't have any feelings for those blind dates.

Qin Zhen jumped up like a child and picked leaves, saying that in this way he could get the love of his sweetheart.

……

And that person happened to be the person in front of her who had hurt her, Meng Tang.

He admits that he hates this man very much, and even hates to punch the other party into the hospital and lie down for a few days every time he sees it, no, a few days is not enough, he can't get out of it for the rest of his life! But when he thought of Qin Zhen, he felt that his feelings might not be that important at all.

Later, Meng Tang left, he sat in front of the floor-to-ceiling window in a daze, Fang Kai hesitated for a long time, and asked him innocently: "But director, haven't you always hoped to help Manager Qin find the most suitable person?" ”

Who is the best fit? Is it a blind date who is just unknown to him and Qin Zhen in the vast sea of people, or is it the person who knows her past well and is concerned by her?

Meng Tang was right, Qin Zhen lived cautiously, and never eagerly hoped for anything, but in her long youth, she had always wanted to get the attention of a person, and that person was Meng Tang.

If Meng Tang was with her, maybe she would still be angry at first, but what about after the anger subsided? She will get the love and life she has always dreamed of, so the suffering she has suffered will finally be remedied.

Cheng Luyang felt that he vaguely understood how to do it, but his heart was unprecedentedly heavy, even a hundred times heavier than when he couldn't find a suitable blind date. When he opened the thick stack of materials with the idea of finding a partner for her, he lost each copy, and his heart was more of a happy and mischievous mentality; And at this moment, after finally finding the most suitable person, he felt that someone had turned off the lights in the room, and the world was dark, quiet and empty.

……

The woman was still singing, her voice sad and clear, and the words hit her heart.

Cheng Luyang heard his mobile phone ringing, subconsciously took it from the coffee table and brought it to his ear, "Hey?" ”

The next moment, his expression changed suddenly, he picked up the key nervously, and rushed out of the door without even turning off the stereo. And the song still echoed in the house, and the woman continued to sing, affectionate and helpless:

ButwhenIdream,Idreamofyou.

Maybesomedayyouwilletrue.

WhenIdream,Idreamofyou.

Maybesomedayyouwilletrue.

Yet when I was in a dream, I dreamed of you.

Maybe one day, you will turn my dream into reality.

When I'm in a dream, it's you that I'm dreaming of.

Maybe one day, you will finally turn my dream into reality.

***

When Cheng Luyang arrived in the community where Qin Zhen lived, she was sitting on a seat on the side of the road in a daze. After he got out of the car, he ran too quickly, and he was sweating in the late autumn night, but he didn't bother to wipe it, but walked up to her nervously and watched her bury her head and say nothing.

She seemed to be frightened, and looked at her from afar like a thin child, sitting alone in the night.

Cheng Luyang didn't speak, and for a moment, he suddenly wanted to squat □ to hug her.

Qin Zhen had been sitting here in a state of confusion, until he saw an extra pair of clean white sneakers in his sight, then he slowly raised his head and shouted, "Cheng Luyang." ”

There was still some hesitation in her eyes, but she was relieved as if she had finally seen the pillar, Cheng Luyang's heart softened, and he handed her his hand, "Let's go." ”

Then he carried her to the hospital, who was so well-behaved.

An hour ago, Qin Zhen received a call from Mr. Li's husband, and on the other end of the phone, the old man choked up and said that Mr. Li had passed away.

With a bang, it was like a thunderbolt on a sunny day, and Qin Zhen couldn't even say a complete sentence. The old man simply said on the phone that Mr. Li's postoperative recovery was not ideal, and although the craniotomy was successful, he was unable to survive the complications because of his old age and poor health.

"The funeral parlor is coming soon, if you want, you can come and see her now, after all...... After all, she has been mentioning you to me all these years, and she misses you very much. ”

Qin Zhen stood there with an empty mind, almost biting his lip and crying, and subconsciously dialed Cheng Luyang's phone after the last moment, and only by taking advantage of this fragile time can he enjoy his good unscrupulously.

And Cheng Luyang really rushed over as soon as possible, gave her all the strength and support, and led her to the hospital.

***

That night, Cheng Luyang accompanied her into the ward without saying a word, and accompanied her to meet Teacher Li's most reluctant.

The old man on the bed had a serene face, as if he had never been tortured by illness, and walked peacefully and quietly. Teacher Li's husband said that she stopped beating in her sleep, and she must have been lucky that she did not suffer any pain.

Qin Zhen just muttered, obviously she was fine when she came to see her a few days ago, and at that time she was still smiling and asked herself to find Ruyi Langjun as soon as possible, and she still had to come to attend the wedding of the two...... But life is so fragile that it inadvertently disappears like a bubble.

She trembled and shook the old man's cold hand, which was skinny and frighteningly cold, and it was no longer the hand that used to hold chalk and write for everyone on the blackboard.

She still remembers that Teacher Li once smiled and said to the students in the audience countless times: "Actually, I used to be a very timid person, and my legs would tremble every time I spoke on stage. But then I became a teacher, and when I stood on the podium again, I saw so many children in the audience looking at me seriously, and I suddenly felt that it was not so scary. Because you respect me, love me, and treat me as the most knowledgeable person, you are like my children in my heart, and no one is nervous or afraid of your own children. ”

She also remembered how this mother-like woman cared for her as if she were her own daughter, secretly called her into the office every day when she was anemic, and then brought out eggs that had been boiled at home and gave her, and even warm milk was still in the lower thermos bucket with hot water.

When he left the ward, Qin Zhen cried, whimpering like a child, and kept thinking that he was late.

Cheng Luyang helped her wipe her tears and comforted her awkwardly: "No one expected this kind of thing, you have already seen her last side, and there is no regret, it's not too late, ah, it's not too late." ”

Qin Zhen shook his head, "It's because I'm late, if I hadn't avoided her because I didn't have a chance in those years, maybe she wouldn't have talked about me for so many years, and in the end it became a regret." ”

Cheng Luyang looked at her crumbling tears, and suddenly wanted to give her a hug.

He felt that Qin Zhen was the most serious person he had ever met, she was kind and cute, and she would firmly remember the slightest kindness to her from others. Such people are easily happy, easily hurt, easily tempted, and more prone to sentimentality.

He really wanted to follow the example of the little prince to his beloved rose, and put a glass cover on Qin Zhen's body, so that he could protect her from harm. But he remembered Meng Tang, maybe the protection that Qin Zhen wanted most came from that person, not him.

Then he slowly withdrew his slightly raised hand and said in a deep voice, "Let's go, let's go home." ”

***

Because he was worried that Qin Zhen would not be able to sleep, after Cheng Luyang sent her home, he cleaned up the sofa and planned to spend the night here. He also warmed the milk for Qin Zhen, watched her lie down obediently on the bed after drinking, tucked the quilt for her, and turned off the light.

Qin Zhen looked at his figure with his eyes open, and only called out for a long time: "Cheng Luyang." ”

He snorted, "What's wrong?" ”

She asked him the question again: "Why do you care so much about me?" ”

Cheng Luyang was stunned and laughed, "Is it stupid to cry?" It's said that we are good friends, I don't care about you, who cares about you? ”

Qin Zhen stopped talking again, just looked at him like this, and there were a lot of emotions intertwined in his eyes.

Cheng Luyang's heartbeat suddenly became faster, and his face was also a little feverish, he didn't quite understand what was going on, so he just sat on the edge of the bed and touched her head, "Don't be sad, people live in this world, and the length of age is a lifetime, and they always have to leave." You see, whether it is your parents, friends, teachers, or passers-by, everyone can only walk with you for a short distance, and you will always have to rely on yourself in the future. ”

He felt that it was rare for him to say such philosophical words, which was simply too touching, so he cleared his throat again and continued to say deeply: "You see that you are so old, this truth should have been understood a long time ago, although Teacher Li is gone, the love she once gave you will always be remembered in your heart, isn't that enough?" ”

He remembered a famous quote from a textbook, "Some people are alive, but they are dead; Some people are dead, but he is still alive. ”

He didn't remember what the original sentence was, but he still told Qin Zhen about it, and then lowered his head and smiled at her.

Qin Zhen looked at his gentle and cautious smile, and suddenly couldn't speak.

In fact, I knew what a good person he was, what a soft heart he hid in his body, as long as you showed a little vulnerability, he would put away all the edges and corners and be good to you wholeheartedly.

She looked at Cheng Luyang and suddenly asked him: "Then if you are a small and ordinary person like me, what will you do after you die?" ”

Cheng Luyang was stunned by these words, and looked down at the helpless look on her face, and her heart was faintly sore. He knew that she was inferior, for life, and for her a blank future.

There was a long silence in the house, the windows were not closed, the night wind blew the curtains, Cheng Luyang noticed it, and got up to close the windows. And the moment he closed the curtains, he didn't look back, just said to Qin Zhen in a deep and quiet voice: "It doesn't matter if you are small and ordinary, at least I will remember you." ”

There was no light in the room, only a lonely and quiet darkness, and Cheng Luyang's figure looked a little blurry under the faint light that penetrated through the curtains from outside. Qin Zhen was lying on his side on the bed, just staring at him motionlessly, and suddenly felt that his eyes were hot, and some damp mist was about to pour out.

She closed her eyes and whispered, "Well, I know." ”

For a moment, she didn't dare to open her eyes to look at him who came back, for fear that if she was not careful, she would not be able to hold back the fermentation and swelling in her chest that was about to erupt out.

She could only bite her lip silently, flipped the three words of Cheng Luyang over and over again between her lips and teeth, and then experienced the kind of dependence and liking that went deep into the bone marrow, like a person addicted to poison.

Just thinking of him, that anxious heart can be miraculously calmed, filled with the fragrance of peace and distantness.

***

Cheng Luyang, when I think of you, it's like under the night sky without stars, the fireflies of the whole world have gathered together. They are weightless, they sparkle, they carry my feelings higher and higher, and they set my world on fire as beautiful as day.

And I was in tears on such a night, hoping that the dawn would not come as scheduled.

But in the sweetness you brought, my heart is still sour, because I clearly know that the sky will eventually dawn, and the fireflies you brought will eventually leave.

It was as if in a few seconds, at the sound of my even-breathed breathing, pretending to be asleep, you would leave me silently, take away all the warmth that had been given to me tonight, and disappear behind the door that was slowly closing.

The author has something to say: Ouch, I'm literary again, I'm really embarrassed =v=, I looked for the song in the text, but I didn't find a translator on the Internet, so I flipped it myself [English major, please glance at Ha Lu at a glance and ten lines]

This two-way crush phase won't last long, there will be a breakthrough within three chapters, and the big will break out in about five chapters.

I know that if I don't break out, you'll continue to dive, so I'm going not to sell you before I break out! Because no one bought me, so sad T___T!

The code gentleman took a shot: I heard that there are too many overlords in diving, and Brother Rong is no longer cute! Brother Rong doesn't sell cuteness, and his little friend's appetite is not good!!

Thank you for your true love!

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