The place I rented was a large compound with more than 10 families, most of whom came from the lower strata of society, including laid-off workers, migrant workers, and small traders. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 infoRecently, a man and a woman lived in the courtyard, they have no children, only a puppy, neither of them works, the man is basically closed, the woman often wears a pajama in the yard to walk the dog, some people in the courtyard say that the man is a gangster of the underworld, behind the people also call it "black boss", although I can't be sure whether this is true or false, but I also feel a little nervous in my heart, because I often see many people in their family gathering, in and out, there are men and women, these people's appearance and behavior do look like people who do not follow the right path. Every night after I slept with Yangyang, I was always scared, what if a thief came in? Of course, my concern is not about money, but about Yangyang's safety. Fortunately, Sister-in-law Li took care of me during the day, which made me feel not so lonely.

With Sister-in-law Li taking care of the children temporarily, I was able to go to work normally, but after arriving at the unit, I was always restless at work, and I was always worried that the children would not adapt to Sister-in-law Li, and I often made mistakes at work, either writing the materials incorrectly, or forgetting about that work. For example, I forgot about the quarterly summary meeting one day, and it took nearly half an hour for the meeting to arrive at the unit. The director criticized me in front of the overall staff at the meeting, and my reason was generally "the child is crying, and I can't leave." ”。 Since I returned to work after maternity leave, being late is a common thing, at first I listened to the leader's training, and I felt very shameless, but then the leader trained me a lot, and I became numb, just cheekily admit a mistake or explain two sentences, and the leader is only limited to verbal criticism of me, because he can't bear to punish the mother of a baby. However, my frequent late arrivals and early departures have had a negative impact on my work and have caused criticism. I also want to be disciplined, but it's just hard to do, for example, when you are about to go out to work, the child pulls down, can you not clean up, wash his little butt before leaving? So it's no wonder if you're not late. I know that in the year-end assessment, I will definitely not be excellent.

I left Lu Tao three days in my heart, and if he couldn't change the head of the real estate certificate to Lu Chenyang after three days, I would send Yangyang back to my mother in the countryside. Although I know that Lu Tao has always listened to his mother, and I also know that my mother-in-law cannot easily change the owner to Lu Chenyang, in that case, as Lu Chenyang's mother, I can live in her house for a long time as a guardian, and I can still live after the divorce, this result is of course what my mother-in-law does not want. Although she did give this house to Lu Tao at the beginning, she definitely didn't want her daughter-in-law to get a brick from her family when she divorced, so the real estate certificate was never transferred to Lu Tao's name. But I believe in Lu Tao's love for his son, I still have a glimmer of hope, I believe that Lu Tao will fight for his son. So I'm waiting patiently, it would be best if I could live in that house properly, and it wouldn't be a long time for me to rent a house with my children in my arms.

Today is the next day, my mother called and heard that I quit my nanny, and made a special trip from home to see me and Yangyang, but she did not express her willingness to take Yangyang back to the countryside, but persuaded me to listen to my mother-in-law and take the child back to live at my mother-in-law's house. Mom said that marrying a chicken is a chicken, marrying a dog is a dog, since I chose Lu Tao at the beginning, I can live with Lu Tao with peace of mind, not to mention that now that I have a child, it would be irrational to think about divorce again. From my mother's words, I sensed that my mother was not happy to accept Yangyang. Influenced by traditional Chinese concepts, my mother thinks that Yangyang is a member of the Lu family and should be responsible for the Lu family. Another reason is that my mother thinks that if I am determined to divorce, it is better to give the child to Lu Tao, so that I will have no burden to remarry, otherwise, that man is willing to raise you and other people's sons for you? The burden of raising a son is heavier than raising a daughter, and when you grow up, you have to build a house for him and marry a daughter-in-law, because this is China, not India. Therefore, it is more difficult for a woman who divorces her son to remarry. But I'm still not willing to move back easily, I can't compromise again and again, didn't I go back last time? What do you think? Didn't you also cry and come out again?

On the third night, Lu Tao really came to my rental house again, but I didn't see the real estate certificate with Lu Chenyang's name written on it, I only saw a notarial certificate, the main content of the notarial certificate is: Lu Tao has the permanent residence right of the house, and his parents will inherit it alone after a hundred years. The meaning of this notarial deed is that since Lu Tao has the right to live in the house, of course, he also has the right to let his wife live in it, but it is obvious that if I am not his wife that day, I will have to leave immediately. I threw the notarial deed to Lu Tao and refused to move back, but my mother-in-law's attitude made it impossible for me to go back. She was clearly wary of me.

"We are not divorced, we are still husband and wife, since we are husband and wife, we should live together, not to mention that there are children, do you want children to suffer?" Lu Tao saw that I was still stubborn, and said to me a little irritably.

"What is there but a piece of paper between us?" I said coldly to Lu Tao.

"What's there? I have children! If it weren't for Yangyang, would I bother you every day? Lu Tao was angry and yelled at me.

"Okay, you don't come, I'll take care of the child alone." My voice also became louder, and the man in front of me was always reluctant to say a warm word to me, which always made me feel very cold.

"Do you think you're the only one who has the right to take care of your children? Don't forget that I am Yangyang's father, and I also have the right to take care of him and have the right to be with him, which is stipulated by law. Lu Tao not only roared, but also scratched with his fingers, and was very emotional.

"Don't talk to me about the law, the law is made by certain people, and I can not obey it. I gave birth to this child, and you want you to give birth to one of your own. I waved my hand at Lu Tao and began to talk nonsense, I found that I liked to see Lu Tao angry at the moment.

In the midst of our quarrel, Sister-in-law Li came in, and as soon as she entered the door, she reprimanded us both as an elder:

"You're both fathers and mothers, or are you so ignorant? Is it good for your child's growth that you are noisy all day long? ”

As soon as Sister-in-law Li spoke, Lu Tao and I stopped squeaking. At this time, Yang Yang, who was sleeping on the bed, was awakened and cried. I hurriedly picked up Yang Yang and shook it, and I couldn't help but cry. I am very reluctant to shed tears in front of others, I sometimes hate my weakness, but now I really can't control my emotions. Before I met Lu Tao, I always thought that my future love was beautiful, romantic, and my marriage was happy, and I even sketched my beautiful married life in my mind many times, but I never imagined that it would be so disappointing to achieve, to be honest, if I had known that marriage would bring me so many sad things, I would rather not get married and be single for a lifetime!

"If you insist on not going back, then send the child to my mother every morning, and I will send the child back to you in the evening, do you think this is good?" Lu Tao, who was silent for a while, spoke again, but his tone calmed down and stopped yelling.

I didn't answer, I was in a state of grief, who is the child to see now, it's not the point to send it there, the point is that I can't figure out why I want to marry this person in front of me who doesn't love me despite my mother's obstruction?

"That's a good idea, let's do it, I'm going to go out to work after a while, and I can't help you watch the child for a long time, so it's best to let the child's grandmother come to see him." Sister-in-law Li pushed my shoulder and said.

"I'd better get another babysitter over." I wiped my tears, but I still refused to forgive Lu Tao.

"Look at the child's nanny, so do you have a grandmother? Show grandma, you don't have to pay your salary or buy milk powder, why not? Sister-in-law Li continued to persuade me.

I started to hesitate.

"Okay, I was wrong, I promise I won't get angry at you again in the future, please forgive me." Listen! This is probably the one hundred and second time Lu Tao has apologized to me since he got married, and there will be one hundred and second time soon, and for some people, the word 'guarantee' has become his mantra.

"Xiaoyan, I said that's it, you are no longer a child, you are a mother, you should consider the overall situation, you can't just care about your own temperament."

In the end, after Lu Tao and Sister-in-law Li's persuasion of me in turn, I was silent, which was equivalent to agreeing to give Yangyang to my mother-in-law to show me, and I really had no other good way. In fact, I know very well that as a mother, I must think about my children, I must put the interests of my children first, for the sake of my children, sometimes I should bow my head and lower, I can't blindly emphasize my self-esteem, I have to learn to endure, and even more so in the future. The road ahead is no longer for me to walk alone, but with a small person by my side, and I must always take care of him.

Seeing that I no longer objected, and knew that the problem had been solved, Sister-in-law Li withdrew. After Sister-in-law Li left, Lu Tao came over and picked up Yangyang, gently pressed his big head against Yangyang's little head, and learned the sound of cow barking in his mouth, which made Yangyang laugh "giggle, giggle" non-stop. Although Yang Yang doesn't see his father every day, he has never been a stranger to his father, every time he goes to his father's arms, he doesn't look for me for a long time, unless he is sleepy, he will turn his little head around to find me, the person who coaxes him to sleep, but if he can't see me, he will cry immediately, maybe in his opinion, Dad's arms are just a playground, and my arms are his little nests.

"Don't make your child laugh all the time, if you laugh too much, you'll get hiccups." I was suddenly dissatisfied that Lu Tao always made Yang Yang laugh, blamed him, and hugged Yang Yang back from his arms.

I don't know why, for Lu Tao's every move, I always want to blame, subconsciously, I always want him to know that I am not satisfied with him, we have entered the divorce channel, and it seems to have become a task to express dissatisfaction with each other, otherwise how to pave the way for divorce? If you are mutually satisfied, isn't there no reason for divorce?

"If you don't make your child laugh, will you make him cry?" Lu Tao was really unhappy, and asked me rhetorically.

"How do you speak? Who said Jean cried? It's not good to cry or laugh, it hurts your body. "I hate Lu Tao's either/or inference.

"That little child, who doesn't cry or laugh, doesn't become a nerd?"

"Go, don't mess around with me, I'm going to sleep with the child."

"Am I messing around? Are you reasonable? ”

"If you mess with me again, I'll send Yangyang back to the village tomorrow!"

"Okay, you're amazing, I'll go!"

Alas! It was not easy to drive Lu Tao away, otherwise we would have to bother Sister-in-law Li to help us pull the rack.