When did it first start?

Lelin couldn't help but search in her mind for a while, and then, remembering the summer when she was young. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ

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The cicadas are chirping in the trees outside the window, probably singing songs that humans can't understand.

Accompanied by the chirping of cicadas, she scooped spoonful by spoonful of banana boats in front of her and gulped down ice cream.

After a reunion of more than two months, she has too much to say to her biological mother.

- The neglect and alienation of the biological father, the hypocrisy of the stepmother, and the "oil bottle" brought by the stepmother, the "sister" who sticks to herself all day long......

However, when she looked up, she saw her mother staring at her watch in a daze.

Every now and then, it is customary to look out the door of the restaurant.

What Lelin wanted to say was suddenly stuffed in her throat.

I can't spit it out, and I can't swallow it.

If you have to talk about the benefits that the experience of her parents' divorce has brought to her life, learning to read words and emotions is probably the most valuable asset.

Mother's movements were so obvious, if she couldn't see the anxiety and impatience in it, it would be really too uninteresting.

"Mom, you...... Do you have something to do?"

The mother was relieved for a moment, and exhaled almost without a trace, but was seen by Le Lin.

"Mom ...... Today Actually, I actually have an appointment with Uncle Liao......"

"Is that Uncle Liao who combs the middle type?"

Le Lin asked as she followed her mother's words.

"Mmmm, it's him, Arlene still remembers......" The mother hesitated for a moment, pinched Le Lin's face, and said with a feigned smile: "But, how can this be as important as dating her own daughter?"

A wave of disgust swept through Lelin's heart.

Why pretend?

If you really think that a date with your daughter is more important, why do you keep looking at your watch and looking out the door?

However, what else can she do except slander herself?

Tear her down to your face?

In exchange, it is nothing more than tearing each other's faces. What awaits her is her mother's chatter about how difficult it is for her, and how irresponsible her biological father is.

If you're lucky, there's an after-show, where the mother hysterically curses herself, calling herself a traitor, eating inside and out, and being ungrateful.

Why bother?

It's best to get together and disperse.

If you are false to me, I will be false to you.

No arrears to each other.

"Actually, I'm going to tutor in English today. ”

Le Lin lowered her head, not wanting to show her flaws.

"Really?"

The mother couldn't help but smile, and immediately realized that her excitement was too obvious, so she quickly froze her expression and pretended to praise: "It's really diligent." ”

"I've been talking to my mom for a long time, but there's an English test next week......

The childish performance is embarrassed, and he can't hide the strong expectation in his eyes.

But she is not afraid to show flaws.

To this day, Lelin still remembers how she said this.

She wanted her mother to stay.

She hoped that her mother would stay for her, no matter how reluctant she was.

Even if she refused.

"Of course, it's more important to study, and my mother can make another appointment with you at any time. ”

Mother's blindness was the first thorn in Lelin's heart.

"Well, actually, I would rather go to cram school. ”

The sentence she replied with a stubborn smile was the second thorn in her heart.

The mother smiled very gently, like the spring wind: "Arlene is more sensible than before." ”

"Really?"

"Yes, sensible children are the most endearing. ”

This sentence is the third root.

It's the deepest thorn.

In the process of constantly compromising with disappointment later, the thorns kept increasing.

- "Your Aunt Zhang said that she wanted to go on vacation abroad. ”

Her father's words were only half spoken, and she had already understood the subtext.

The immature half-sister Zhang Yan didn't understand, and happily clapped her hands and shouted: "Yay! Go travel! Go play!"

"But I still have to go to school. ”

Le Lin feigned embarrassment and said.

She noticed that when she said this, there was a flash of relaxation in her stepmother's expression.

dragged the family and set off with the two little ghosts, how could the two people be comfortable in the world?

"It's fun to go with the whole family, can't you take a leave of absence? It's just a week. ”

However, the stepmother asked with a pretended pity.

"In a week, I missed a whole unit, and I will pull down a lot of homework...... Why don't you two go and Dad and Aunt Zhang? Zhang Yan and I will go to stay with my grandparents for a week. ”

Understanding, apologies, just the right expression.

"Does it matter?" asked my father pretendingly.

Le Lin was stunned, and almost said what was in her heart.

But her father's unintentional dilemma was met with her eyes.

The fourth thorn.

"It doesn't matter, my grandparents are closer to Zhang Yan's school, and I just need to pick her up. ”

The fifth thorn.

"Arlene is the most sensible. ”

Father gently rubbed her head and complimented.

"Hmm. ”

"Sensible children are the cutest. ”

Sixth.

The word "sensible" has been like a mantra ever since.

It is Tang Seng's mantra that makes the supernatural powers as vast as Sun Wukong unable to cross the thunder pool by half a step.

Gently decline reluctant invitations.

Be empathetic and say what the other person wants.

Don't be in a dilemma.

- "I just can't see clearly, teacher, let me sit in the second row." ”

This was what she said when she was in high school, when the class didn't want to share a table with a thug in the second row, and the head teacher looked at her in embarrassment. She is the class leader, anyway, any problem will be assigned to her in the end, so it is better to give the head teacher a face.

- "It's a shame that I've got something to do this weekend, so I don't have to count my club trips." ”

These are the words she said when the club she participated in at the university organized a trip. The 25-seater minibus happened to have 26 people to leave. Rather than being selected and persuaded to leave, it is better to refuse first, and you can also win a good reputation of "empathy".

- "Work is important, you better go and finish things first, you can watch the movie anytime." ”

This is what she says when she is on a date with her boyfriend and the other party keeps getting calls from work. Such an absent-minded and boring date, it is better to solve the siege for him first.

……

Thorns, the more pierced, the more they are.

The heart has long been pierced into a thorn ball.

It's not bad, but it's back to its original shape.

When loss becomes a habit, it makes people stronger.

She must be "sensible".

It's her way of survival.

It's her protective color.

If you reject others "sensibly" first, you can avoid being stabbed by the other party's refusal.

But.

However......

She doesn't want to be "sensible".

No one has ever seen that behind every refusal, there is a temptation again and again.

No.

Maybe everyone can see it.

It's just that her "desire to welcome or refuse" must only care about people who care about themselves, right?

……

At this moment, Le Lin secretly stroked her chest and calmed down. She lowered her eyelashes and deliberately didn't look at Chai Jue.

But I couldn't help but guess repeatedly: Did he see what was on his mind?

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