Chapter 45: A Rare First Time
As the car walked back, Sunny noticed that something was wrong with Phoebe, it was the first time she had seen Phoebe avoid her gaze, and she was very surprised by it, but she didn't say anything.
Phoebe felt like she couldn't face Sunny anymore, remembering Jessica was like a spell, tempting her to figure out how to remember other people's faces. However, Phoebe feels that she can't remember anyone else, because it is a betrayal of Sister Sun.
On top of that, in the past sixteen years, Phoebe has not even remembered what her relatives looked like, and Sunny has an extremely special meaning to her.
Because of her upbringing, she developed an extraordinary worldview.
In the past, Phoebe didn't need to remember others, because either she would, or Sister Sun would, Phoebe never felt unfortunate and pitiful, she knew she was happy.
And today, remembering Jessica is like a pebble, stirring up ripples on the otherwise smooth water surface.
During the afternoon practice, Phoebe rarely seemed to have no energy at all, and everyone thought that when they were helping Jessica just now, Phoebe still caught a cold because she was sitting directly on the stone steps. They all became concerned, and Jessica and Taeyeon also blamed themselves again and again, and made the decision to let Phoebe go back to rest.
But Sunny knew it was something else - she knew Phoebe's habits, and she knew that Phoebe was hard to get sick.
However, there are too many people, Sunny can't communicate with Phoebe, and Phoebe has been avoiding her gaze, which makes Sunny anxious and angry, and at the same time very sad, this is the first time in many years that Phoebe has rejected herself so ruthlessly.
Phoebe felt the love from Sister Sun, and she felt even more sad in her heart, but Phoebe's special body control method decided that as long as she didn't cry deliberately, there would be no tears, and in the same way, even the eye circles would not be red.
Phoebe was just a little slower than she usually was.
In the end, everyone unanimously decided to let Sunny and Taeyeon send Nefibi back to the dormitory, Jessica originally wanted to go, but she also knew that she really couldn't help when she went back, and after Taeyeon left, Jessica had a heavy responsibility to lead everyone, at least to ensure that no other leaders appeared in the team when Taeyeon was away, so she didn't follow.
After returning to the dorm, Taeyeon runs to boil water for Phoebe and asks Sunny to accompany Phoebe, which is a good opportunity for Sunny, and Phoebe understands that she should come or come.
Sunny saw Taeyeon close it, and she waited a little longer before asking, "Why are you avoiding me?"
Phoebe doesn't speak, she doesn't look into Sunny's eyes.
"Stinky girl, don't think I don't know, you're definitely not sick, what's going on?"
Betrayal, or loyalty, this is an extremely difficult choice for Phoebe, so Phoebe still doesn't speak, at least she can do it without deceiving Sister Sun.
Sunny was really angry, but she knew that Phoebe had a special experience and sometimes had to be treated simply and roughly, so she got up and walked to the door, regardless of whether Taeyeon would come in later, pressed the door lock, and then returned to Phoebe's bedside.
This time Sunny didn't sit down, bent down in front of Phoebe, looked at Phoebe's face, and didn't speak.
After Phoebe's face appeared in front of her eyes, memories began to emerge from the age of eleven, and every time she felt safe, it was when Sunny was there, and Sunny did become her reliance many times, and most importantly, only in the eyes of Sister Sun, she was truly in this world.
Phoebe closed her eyes and grabbed Sunny's hand again, rubbing it against her face, feeling Sunny's body temperature while saying, "Sister, I'm sorry." β
Sunny was softened by Phoebe's actions, but soon became even more angry - what do you mean by being sorry?
"What the hell is wrong with you, why are you avoiding me?" asked Sunny with a frown.
Phoebe decides to confess that she thinks she has been so happy in the past five years because of Sunny, so she says, "Sister, I just remembered Jessica. β
"Huh?" Sunny didn't understand what this had to do with Phoebe not communicating with him, so he asked, "When?"
Phoebe was a little frightened and asked, "Sister, didn't you hear clearly?" I remember Jessica. β
Sunny heard the mixed desperation in Phoebe's tone, calmed down, thought for a while, nodded, and said, "So, you think that if you continue like this, you will betray our friendship?"
Phoebe didn't know whether to be happy or frustrated, but Sister Sun was still the one who could understand herself, so she nodded.
"Smack~" Sunny smiled and patted Phoebe on the forehead, and then said, "Stinky girl, this is a good thing, what are you thinking about all day! β
Phoebe XiΓ n, who had been beaten by Sunny, was obedient and got up and sat down, but still couldn't look into Sunny's eyes.
Sunny sat down across from Phoebe, this time not blaming Phoebe for not looking at herself, but said first, "Listen, even if I can remember anyone, but I still remember you the most, you think about it, what does that mean." β
As if seeing the sun, Phoebe looked up into Sunny's eyes sharply, yes, Sister Sun can remember others, but she is the closest to herself, so this is not a betrayal.
Sunny smiled when he saw that Phoebe was finally willing to look into his eyes, and then said, "I know, this is because you have remembered two people in such a short period of time since you were a child, so you think it's because you didn't care enough about me, right?"
Phoebe nodded.
Sunny also nodded, and said, "However, you still can't be sure, whether you are talking about face recognition disorder from the outside, we can still say to others before, what is your place called?"
"Fusiform gyrus. β
"Well, that's it, we said your fusiform will react to a face shape like mine, so you can remember me. And Taeyeon and I are not much different, we can still explain it this way. β
Phoebe nodded.
Sunny continued, "Now that you remember Jessica again, she has a very different face shape from me and Taeyeon, and since you remember her, you should understand that. β
Phoebe nodded again.
"So, Phoebe, I think there's a good chance you're not a face recognition disorder. But you've always put me first in your heart, right? Just like now, when you just remember Sika, your first reaction is to be scared, to think that it is a betrayal of me. In fact, the mere fact that you think about it shows how unique my place in your heart is. I still remember that you once said to me, 'I like Sister Sun the most~', 'Sister Sun's dream is my dream~', when I hear such words from others, I will think that it is a whim, but only you, it has remained the same for six years. So, you came here, overcame all kinds of difficulties, and became a member of the same group as me. I also like Phoebe the most, because no matter what I do, Phoebe will be with me and support me, you know? I am also very grateful for your company all the time, just like when I was at home, everyone left me, only Phoebe still came to see me every day, to accompany me to take care of my hospitalized father, even if my father used to be so suspicious of you, Phoebe still made me favorite food. β
Sunny said as she let her tears fall, but Phoebe knew that Sunny wasn't sad, but rather grateful.
Sunny continued, "Phoebe, I'm glad you remember Jessica, really, I don't think you're betraying me at all, and I hope you can remember more people, so no matter how far away I am from you in the future, I know that Phoebe can remember faces, so it's safe to distinguish between good and bad guys." And you, maybe just because of the experience when you were a child, you forgot how to remember human faces, and now, you just start to learn to remember human faces again. It's possible, isn't it?"
Phoebe nodded, she felt that what Sunny said made sense, her experience when she was a child was so peculiar, so strange that she didn't even want to remember the faces of her relatives, maybe it was because of this that she couldn't remember people's faces, so she said: "Sister Sun, it was me who was wrong, I understand." β
"We Phoebe are fearless little guys, hmph, you'll only encounter good things in the future, you won't encounter bad things, if something bad happens, you won't, well, use this. Sunny said, pointing his finger to his eyes.
Phoebe nodded: "Okay, I'll use them when things are bad." β
"Well, but don't mess with it, and don't do it like the crazy old man did. Sunny quickly added.
Phoebe nodded again.
Sunny smiled with satisfaction, then looked at Phoebe, and suddenly smiled in a good mood: "Ah, this is the first time I've enlightened you, this really makes people feel like being a sister, haha~"
Phoebe nodded again.
Sunny finally wiped away the tears with his fingers and asked, "Do you have any ideas about how to remember other people?"
Phoebe shook her head and said, "No, I remembered it very suddenly just now, just like I remembered my sister you and Sister Taeyeon at the beginning." β
"Oh~" Sunny felt that she understood, but it felt even stranger, at least, she remembered that when she remembered the other person, she actually saw the other person's face, not how the other person felt for herself.
However, she didn't dwell on this issue, considering that Taeyeon went out just now and would be able to come over soon, so she said, "Well, this matter will be talked about later, it's still the same as before, don't tell others how you remember others." But what you said gave you a feeling or something, no problem. Well, Sika's matter, let alone what I just remembered, or sooner or later, someone will react that you became like this because of Sika's matter. β
Phoebe nodded: "Well, I understand, don't worry." β
Sunny smiled and hugged his chest, and then suddenly said, "By the way, this is the first time that you girl refuses to communicate with me, do you know how sad I was just now?"
"I was wrong. β
"Well, I'm thinking about it~" Sunny stepped in and hugged his chest, tilting his head and starting to ponder.
Phoebe looked at Sunny at this time, her heart was at peace, she suddenly felt something, got up and said, "Sister Taeyeon is coming, I'll open the door." She remembered that Sunny had just slammed the door, and she couldn't let Taeyeon find out about Sunny's struggling, or they wouldn't be able to explain it anyway.
"Huh, how are you?" As soon as the door opened, he saw Jeong Tae-yeon walking from the living room with a food plate.
"Well, okay. Thank you, Sister Taeyeon. Phoebe nodded, looked at Taeyeon's things again, and wondered, "What is this?"
"Well, I made it for you, kimchi spicy soup, it should be able to get rid of the cold. Taeyeon was happy to see that Phoebe was normal.
Sunny said over there, "Taeyeon, you're crazy, we're all singers, how can we eat spicy food?" β
Taeyeon stuck out her tongue, "I remember hearing people say that this thing goes cold." β
"Sister Sun, Sister Taeyeon is also kind, don't blame her, I just don't drink it. Phoebe said, looking back.
In fact, they were told when they debuted that they were forbidden to eat irritating foods in private in the future, which also included spicy taste. And this kimchi was deliberately put in the refrigerator in the dormitory by Joo Youngna, so that there would be a show to come to the dormitory to shoot, so that the Korean people could know their Korean attributes through the guΓ² camera.
Then, Phoebe took Taeyeon's things and brought them to the kitchen, Phoebe looked up and saw that Sunny and Taeyeon hadn't followed, so she looked down at the bowl that Taeyeon had made, stirred it with the spoon in the bowl, shook her head, poured it out, and brushed the bowl.
After Phoebe cleaned up, she thought that she would be back early anyway, so she went to the house, and she wanted to ask the two of them, especially Sunny, what they wanted to eatβPhoebe herself felt that there was no other good way to atone for her sins. As she walked, she wondered how the love between the two sisters was so cheerful.
As soon as she arrives at the door, Phoebe sees that Taeyeon and Sunny are both sitting cross-legged on her bed, while Taeyeon is holding her right hand with her mouth open, and Sunny is sitting across from her, acting and posing exactly like Taeyeon.
Phoebe was about to ask, when she heard Sunny laugh out loud, and then lay down on her back, rolling around, and shouted: "Ah~~~ Lost again~~ Lost again~~"
"Hey, hey, hey. Taeyeon smiled like a little fox.
"What are you doing?" asked Phoebe.
"Go, go, it's none of your business. Sunny said.
"Well, it's none of your business, what should you do. "Taeyeon is also an attitude.
Then I listened to Sunny say, "I'm not convinced!
Taeyeon said, "Next week~" (yes, it's three)
"Ah~Sister Taeyeon~You're the whitest~The most beautiful~The best singing~Let me do it once~Let's go next week~Okay~" Sunny is coquettish.
"Go!" Taeyeon yelled, then turned to Phoebe and said, "Phoebe, what do you think you are used to Sunny!?"
Phoebe shook her head and turned back to the living room, deciding that since she couldn't ask them what they wanted to eat, and Sunny wouldn't say, she would save this chance for Sister Sun to punish herself. As for now, Phoebe thought about it, found a book that she often used to write and draw, and decided to expand on her previous plans.