At 23:59:18 on February 29, 2020, this is Zhou Jie's 40th birthday once every four years, and Zhou Jie has been hesitating on the Oriental Building for more than 40 minutes. The Oriental Tower is the tallest in Dongfang City, Dongfang Province, with a roof 606 meters from the marble floor and a freefall movement that takes 11 seconds.

The cold wind is like a knife, the knife is painful to the bones, and the night rain is like a whip, and the whip scorches Zhou Jie's soul.

"There is no regret medicine in the world, even if you do it all over again, it should still be like this." 18 years ago, Zhou Jie, who graduated from university, was paranoid and found another way, but he didn't know that he had embarked on the road of no return.

In the first 18 years, Zhou Jie studied hard, and he was the pride of other people's children and the whole village. After stepping into a prestigious school, he found that the university was completely different from what he imagined, and Zhou Jie regretted going to college, but he did not have the courage to drop out. He understands that his parents will drop out of school and fall into the abyss of loss.

"After graduation, maybe everything will be fine. “

The four-year college career is happy for most students, unrestrained, starry sky, flowers before the moon. However, for the cowardly and inferior Zhou Jie, it is confused, tormented, hesitant, and even more a cage.

In the summer of 2002, Zhou Jie couldn't wait to go to work. At this moment, he has been praying for four years, he can't bother to say goodbye to his classmates, he just wants to race against time and work hard to study. Looking forward to the day when I can be full of wings and fly high.

Zhou Jie knows how stupid birds fly first, knows how to reward diligence, knows how to be prepared for danger in times of peace, and knows how to pay and be grateful; he firmly believes that the ugly duckling will become a swan.

Another 18 years, creation makes people. Once high-spirited, high-spirited, and indomitable, Zhou Jie, the second uncle of secondary school who has now passed the age of confusion, has become a "scum!

"Standing on the tuyere, pigs can fly. I'm such a stupid bird, stupid bird, the stupidest bird in the world, I haven't learned to fly for 40 years, hehe...... Zhou Jie SB, the verification is completed......"

"The vast majority of people in the world don't know where the tuyere is, but there are always a few pigs who are lucky enough to stand on the tuyere......"

With 18 years and 6,575 days and nights, Zhou Jie has a keen insight that the current "new crown epidemic" is not only a crisis, but also an opportunity, and he is sure that he has found the next outlet for pigs to fly.

At this moment, the tuyere is only one step away from Zhou Jie; However, this step is far away and out of reach. It's like Tom, the boxer in Jack London's "A Steak", who is a little closer to knocking out his opponent.

At this moment, Zhou Jie seems to understand that Huang Zhong in "Romance of the Three Kingdoms" is old and strong, "Huang Zhong, who is not convinced of the old, desperately fights in Dingjun Mountain, just for the future of his children and grandchildren."

Zhou Jie was extremely envious of Huang Zhong's old age and still had a chance, and even more envious of Huang Zhong for seizing the last opportunity. Although Huang Zhong was seriously injured and died after the battle of Dingjun Mountain, Zhou Jie was extremely eager to have the opportunity to fight to the death and died without regrets.

Now it is the world of young people, everything looks at money, and people are as cheap as dogs in middle age. Zhou Jie, who was in debt and covered in bruises, was lonely and helpless. To this day, he is still extremely eager to do something for his family, friends and society. Although, he became an unquestionable scumbag.

Don't complain, don't worry about people. Zhou Jie just lamented that the "new crown epidemic" made me reach the "let pigs fly to the wind" that he longed for all his life, but it became the last straw that crushed me.

The road under his feet is his own, and Zhou Jie must keep smiling until the end. Sneered at all kinds of revenge social behaviors that are not uncommon. Zhou Jie, who scored full marks in mathematics, physics and chemistry in the college entrance examination that year, if he retaliates against society, he will harm too many innocents. Zhou Jie firmly believes, "China's rapid development will inevitably be accompanied by various social phenomena, but some people are lucky to fly, and my ability and luck are not good." Whenever we compare the history of China vertically, we also compare the countries of the world horizontally. Zhou Jie is extremely proud of himself as a Chinese, and the leadership and political system of the Communist Party of China is great. "Don't complain, don't worry about people, Zhou Jie only has gratitude and regret, just because he couldn't change something for his family and society.

Zhou Jie has stumbled through too many detours in his life, and he is good at learning and has a high level of understanding, and he also has wisdom that is difficult for ordinary people to achieve. Whenever he fails, Zhou Jie is always self-motivated, "Although I failed, I was one step closer to success, and even if I didn't succeed in the end, it was also a valuable asset left to my son and daughter, so that they could avoid detours."

Zhou Jie can only sigh that creation makes people, Zhou Jie is extremely calm, he is sure that his son and daughter will not believe the "golden and jade words" of the father who brought them shame, even fools will not believe "scum, laughing stock".

Confucius said: "It is enough to die at night." Zhou Lao said, "Facing the wall for ten years, breaking through the wall, it is difficult to reward the sea and heroes." ”

At this moment, Zhou Jie is insignificant, he can't afford to buy a plane ticket, and he is not a hero, just a scum and a laughing stock.

"It's time to put an end to everything....."

Zhou Jie buttoned his suit 10 seconds in advance, habitually straightened his favorite red and black striped tie, and sent out three WeChat messages edited in advance, one for his wife, one for his old sister, and one for his son Zhou Hao, opened his arms on time and jumped down.

"It's a pity, I don't have experience, I said that my head would land first?...... It should be going to hell, my mother who has no face to see heaven....." Zhou Jie laughed at himself.

The Oriental Building is 606 meters high, and Zhou Jie, who once scored a perfect score in physics in the college entrance examination, clearly knows that the 11-second free fall movement will be the end of his life.

Once other people's children, the pride of the village, gradually became a scum who hated Devil May Cry, was in debt, and was sure that there was no chance of turning the tables, perhaps only taking this last step was the best explanation for his father, wife, and daughter. Because as a scumbag, it is of no value to the family and society, and the last words are only one sentence "I am tired, my existence can only embarrass you, just when I am new crown pneumonia, this is the fig leaf I carefully weave for everyone, only in this way you will not endure the cynicism of others because of me." ”

"Heartfelt thanks to the new crown, the new crown is so good, it gave me a fig leaf, in fact, I was tired for a long time".

Zhou Jie is by no means a selfish person, and now he has become a scumbag, he can only bury his love for his relatives and friends deep in his heart, and the man does not flick when he has tears......

"Come on, it shouldn't hurt...... It turns out that 10 seconds can be so long......"

"Click! Click......"

A bolt of lightning went straight to Zhou Jie, "Haha! Hahaha! God finally favored me and personally sent me on the road......

"Ah, what the hell, don't play with me, I can't afford to play!" A tornado devoured Zhou Jie like a black hole when he was about to touch the ground.

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Zhou Jie woke up with a slight snoring, "Where is this? A scumbag like me is only worthy of eighteen layers of hell" Zhou Jie felt the warmth and softness of the quilt, it turned out that hell was not terrible at all, Zhou Jie giggled.

"Dad, what the hell are you doing?!" What are you laughing at in the middle of the night, it's weird. ”

"Who's talking to me?" the voice is so familiar!" Zhou Jie's laughter stopped abruptly, thinking secretly.

"Dad, Dad, you're having nightmares again, don't scare me!" sounded in his son Zhou Hao's familiar voice.

"Your sister, the lightning just now was Lord Yama who came to collect my son?....... God took pity on me and sent my son to the eighteenth floor of hell to accompany me?!...... This time it's over, and when I'm dying, I'm going to pit my wife, son, daughter, father, sister, father-in-law, and mother-in-law again!" Zhou Jie suddenly thought of it, stood up with a swish, squatted down and curled up in a ball, and cried.

"Thief God, please stop playing with me! Don't do this, I go to hell voluntarily, I don't want Hao Hao to accompany me, I just don't want to continue to drag them down and become a shame for them! Woo woo...... Woo...... Woo......".

"Mom, Mom, come on, hurry up, Daddy's ghost!" Zhou Hao screamed while pulling my head and shaking it.

"In the middle of the night, you two still don't let people sleep, shut up!" Zhao Na rushed out of the bedroom, and the light in the living room turned on.

"What's going on, isn't this a snail house of less than 50 square meters rented by our family of four? Hell turned out to be like this? Impossible, absolutely impossible ......"

Zhou Jie thought to himself, and hit his head against the wall fiercely, "It hurts, it hurts, and it's a little dizzy." It's not hell, oh no, the tornado didn't kill me?

"Your sister, God is going to play with me even harder, what should I do?" Zhou Jie thought secretly, cold sweat broke out, and his whole body convulsed.

"Mom, is Dad a ghost?

"Don't do it in the middle of the night, what are you not doing, you are going to scare my mother to death!" A large basin of cold water splashed on Zhou Jie's head.

"If you come here, you will be safe, let's figure out the situation first" Zhou Jie thought to himself, "Where is this? Who am I? Who are you?" Zhou Jie imitated the zombies in the movie and made a strange sound.

"Still pretending?!I'll teach you to pretend!I'll teach you to pretend!" The stainless steel basin clattered on Zhou Jie's head.

"Mom, don't fight, Dad may be sleepwalking, I heard that sleepwalking will become an idiot if you are interrupted!" Zhou Hao cried, protecting his father with his chubby little body.

"Wow, mom, mom......" The youngest daughter Zhou Yu ran out barefoot.

"First borrow the slope to get off the donkey, pretend to sleepwalk, get through the tricks, and figure it out. Zhou Jie was in a hurry and thought about it.

Zhou Jie slowly opened his eyes, looked dazed, looked left and right, and suddenly said, "What are you tossing in the middle of the night? Who splashed me, my head hurts, I am bleeding, why is my head full of bags?"

"Dad, you're sleepwalking, I'm almost scared to death by you!Mom, hurry up and help Dad stop the bleeding, wrap your head, get clean clothes, do you want to go to the hospital?" Zhou Hao shouted.

"Waste dim sum, forget it when you die, the family of the Chinese New Year has been gnawing on steamed buns and pickles for more than a month, the landlord urges the rent every day, the water and electricity property fees have not been paid, and the mobile phone is in arrears for a few days, what hospital to go to?" Zhou Hui complained while finding the medicine box, and felt distressed, while skillfully helping Zhou Jie stop the bleeding and bandage.

"Hmm? It's going to be down in a few days? Hell also has a cell phone? No, it's not hell, it's my old home. No, no, when I committed suicide, my phone should have been shut down tomorrow. Zhou Jie was in a state of confusion, but he could only smirk, pretending to be sleepwalking just now, knowing nothing.

"Where's my phone, give me my phone!" Zhou Jie swooped up, looked for his phone everywhere, opened his phone and looked, 3:14 on February 27, 2020. There is no WeChat sent to his wife, sister and son.

The suit and tie were not wet, and they were lonely and stubborn in the simple closet. In the mirror is Zhou Jie's sloppy face, the only difference is the thick gauze just wrapped around his head.

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"Damn, God really knows how to play? I crossed in fashion? And only for three days? What can I do in three days, I can only repeat the torment for three days. Usually cross to buy a lottery ticket to make a fortune, during the epidemic there is no place to buy lottery tickets. Zhou Jie thought secretly.

"I was sleepwalking just now, you guys go to bed, I'll go to the bathroom. Zhou Jie locked himself in the small toilet, did not turn on the light, opened the small window of the toilet, and the cold wind poured in, only in this way can I stay awake.

"Knock knock, knock knock" Zhao Na's rough knock on the door came from Zhou Jie's ears, "Put on a down jacket, don't die, a cold and fever will plague our mother, don't you know that it is the epidemic period?"

At the beginning of 2010, Zhao Hui and Zhou Jie fell in love at first sight, not disgusted that I had no car, no house, no savings, and after a flash marriage, she gave birth to her son Zhou Hao in the same year.

To this day, Zhao Hui firmly believes that her vision is not wrong, and Zhou Jie is just lacking a little luck. After ten years of getting along, she understands Zhou Jie's love and guilt for his family better, and deliberately treats him simply and rudely, so that Zhou Jie can alleviate some of his guilt.

Zhou Jie saw all this in his eyes and remembered it in his heart, but he couldn't repay it. Guilt plunged deep into his heart like a stinger.

Zhou Jie took out half of the white general hidden in the drawer and took two bites fiercely. Half a year ago, Soft China was replaced by a white general, and now it is also a luxury, and it is time to quit.

Nowadays, each meal can only guarantee one egg for her two-year-old daughter Zhou Yu, who loves fruits and often clamored to eat apples, and her 10-year-old son Zhou Hao always lets his sister eat noodles and pickles with his parents, and the epidemic will continue for at least a year.

Everything that Zhou Jie is good at, he can't get a penny in the short term, his relatives and friends are afraid of Zhou Jie's borrowing money, and the continuous failure of entrepreneurship has not defeated him, and the sudden epidemic has made Zhou Jie completely desperate. Facing the unpredictable future, I don't want to drag down my relatives and friends, I just want to apologize with death.

"This is a crime against my relatives, and I must apologize with death!" This sentence has often sounded in Zhou Jie's ears recently. If there is a way to get his wife and children out of the predicament of life, Zhou Jie does not mind enduring the ten tortures of the Manchu Qing Dynasty and atoning for his father, wife, and children.

"Since I've been through three days, maybe God wants me to do something for three days and three nights. What can I do now? What do I have to do?" Zhou Jie thought frantically.