cpa300_4(); The footsteps were soft, and they were getting closer and closer, and I didn't move half-propped up, but I heard every step approaching more clearly, and the faint shadow in the narrow corridor slowly appeared in front of the cell door.

A pair of dark official boots walked into my sight.

There were still a lot of snowflakes and mud on the boots, obviously I was in a hurry before, and there were a lot of snowflakes on the hems of my clothes, and along the way, I left a faint footprint and the sound of Suosuo, until I reached the gate, and then stopped.

Then, the man slowly crouched down, and a somewhat pale face appeared in the light.

I only felt a tremor in my hands, and I almost fell to the ground.

Light cold!

For a while, I almost thought that I was hallucinating because it was too cold and uncomfortable, especially the light on the skylight above my head shining on his face, his dark face was as calm as the surface of a windless lake, and his eyes looking at me were not cold, not strange, but only full of concern and pity.

Even the fingertips that made me feel cold began to feel it.

"Light Cold ......"

I was still in a trance and thought I was in a dream, but his voice was so real in my ears, low and calm, with a strange hoarseness: "Light......"

“……”

"Are you uncomfortable?"

“……”

"Light, are you hurt?"

“……”

The cold fingertips slowly gained a little sense, I gritted my teeth and barely supported myself to sit up, although I knew that I must be very wolf now, but I still subconsciously pulled the corners of my skirt down to cover my muddy ankles; Trying to see him clearly, he retreated a little more into the corner and let himself hide in the darkness.

"You're here?"

He looked at me as if he was stunned, but he still didn't say anything, only asked in a low voice, "Are you uncomfortable?" ”

"......" I shook my head slightly.

"Come here, I'll take a look."

He looked for my hand, I hesitated for a long time, and finally slowly moved over there, messy hair, dirty face, and haggard demeanor were inevitably presented in front of his eyes, but he just gently grabbed my hand, and saw that there were wooden thorns on his fingertips that had been pierced into his skin because of hard grasping the wooden fence, and now they had swollen into small red dots, and said softly: "Does it hurt?" ”

I shook my head.

I don't know what time it is, but he is still wearing the official uniform of the New Year's banquet, his hair is tied up high, he is not wearing an official hat, revealing a clean and clear forehead, and when he lowers his head and rubs his rough fingertips against my palm, his long eyelashes glisten in the light, and his slightly closed lips are pursed into a soft curve.

Suddenly, it was as if I had gone back in time.

It's as if nothing happened, he is still in Jixiang Village, being the carefree, bravest and simplest fisherman, cherishing his wife.

But my wife......

Thinking of this, a hot current surged into my eyes, and I only felt that my eyes were hot, but I still kept looking at him with my eyes wide open. Although he lowered his head, he seemed to be able to feel my gaze, and he didn't look up, but said sullenly, "What's wrong?" ”

"Why don't you ask me?"

“……”

His fingers also stiffened for a moment, and then continued to hold my hand: "Ask what?" ”

"Ask me if you caused a pregnant woman to have a miscarriage and lose a child who never saw the light of day."

“……”

"I don't ask."

"Why?"

“……”

After a long silence, he still lowered his head, but the shiny eyelashes trembled uncontrollably: "The teacher said that it must be true." ”

My fingers spasmed in his palm.

Fu Badai......

Thinking back to the old man who had always been there in the main hall, even when I was taken away from the main hall, he still "relieved a thousand sorrows when he was drunk, and drunk to death was considered a marquis", I couldn't help but grit my teeth.

I thought, and most hopefully, that all the secrets about me should be told by myself, even the most unbearable and despicable part, I should be told by myself little by little, and no one else will do it for me, especially the person who sees this qiē in his eyes - Fu Badai.

Qinghan's palm pinched my fingers slightly, and said calmly, "The teacher said, you will do that." ”

“……”

"So, he's disappointed in you."

Disappointed? Hearing these two words, my heart swelled with a burst of unwillingness and annoyance, although it didn't come out immediately, but when I spoke again, my voice was clearly cold: "He is disappointed in me?" ”

"Yes." Qing Han raised his head and looked at me, those clear eyes looked very pale in the light, almost transparent, and there was a feeling of extreme clarity: "He said that he could think of what had happened to you, but you had enough strength to fight back, so you would do those things." ”

“……”

But he said it was because of that that he was disappointed.

“……”

"What others do should not be the reason for you to do evil."

“……”

My throat choked.

"He said that you should not be like those people, but it is a great misfortune to let yourself go with them."

The original unwillingness and anger disappeared at this moment, and I suddenly felt that I was surrounded by those transparent eyes, and behind those eyes, the blindness full of wisdom but obscurity, and I could see that I could not hide the filth and unbearability of myself.

Oh, yes...... What have I done over the years?

I don't want to be like Shangyang Palace, and those women in the harem, for a man's occasional eyes and pampering, I try my best to wear red and green, intrigue, and even jealousy, full of ugliness, but what did I do? Isn't it intriguing? Isn't there a lot of ugliness? What's more, my hands are stained with the resentment and blood of innocents?

I shouldn't use the same evil deeds to resist the evil deeds of others, but I have completely forgotten about them.

No wonder over the years, I have been doing and losing, no matter how hard I struggle, I have lost, not that I really can't do well, but that what I did is fundamentally wrong.

Thinking of this, I smiled bitterly.

When he looked up at him, his gaze and expression were completely depressed.

"Sure enough, I was a student who didn't study well."

Qing Han looked at me, and there seemed to be a faint pain in his eyes.

I still smiled and smiled bitterly: "Do you know, the first class of the students of Xishan Academy will always be taught by Fu Badai himself, and his first lesson will not study the six arts, nor will he educate the royal way, as long as the students firmly remember one sentence - our generation was born in the world, should abide by justice, reproach evil, and create immortal merits with a full stomach, and be blessed in the present world and in the future generations." ”

Qing Han was stunned for a moment, and subconsciously said, "But, I-"

"Yes, but some people are different."

“……”

"His disciple in the room, what he learned in the first lesson is another word."

I was silent with him for a moment, and at the same time spoke: "No matter what is turbulent in the world, but have good intentions. ”

After saying this, he and I fell silent again.

After looking at each other for a long time, I suddenly smiled at him: "Am I one of those students who haven't studied well?" ”

A layer of gloom was cast on his cold face, and he looked at me and didn't speak again.

This sentence, counting the light cold, Fu Badai only taught three people, that is to say, he doesn't want us to create any amazing causes, nor do he want us to be kind to the world, and he will be kind to future generations, no matter what difficulties we encounter, no matter who we meet, we must be kind.

Perhaps, it is because he has foreseen that our kindness may be enough to withstand the immortal deeds of many people.

But I-

No wonder, he would be disappointed in me.

Thinking of this, I slowly raised my head, looked at those transparent and clear eyes, and asked, "Qinghan, what about you?" ”

He looked at me.

"What do you think of me?"

“……”

"I'm not that clean, I was from the beginning." Speaking of this, my voice trembled a little, I don't know if it was the biting cold brought by the falling snow on my body, or the chill that came from the bottom of my heart, and I couldn't stop shivering: "What I have done - maybe, I have already been in hell for a long time." ”

“……”

"What about you?"

Qing Han didn't speak, but the hand holding my fingers kept exerting force, almost embarrassing my slender phalanges and slightly hurting, he didn't let go, even if there was a strange sound outside, he kept holding me like this, his hands and eyes were as firm, without the slightest wavering.

Like his firm words, solemnly ringing in his ears-

"If you're in hell, I'll go too!".

What happened next was so sudden that it almost caught people off guard.

I thought that the turmoil in the main hall was enough to make people chaotic, but when the pitch-black figure broke into the prison as fast as lightning, and with a wave of his hand, he cut through the twelve thick wooden fences together, I realized that one qiē was just the beginning.

As if heralding the beginning of real turmoil, the wind and snow outside became more and more violent.

When he waved his hand, there was even snow on my face blown by the wind from his sleeves, hitting my cheeks with a slight pain, but I kept my eyes open until he stepped forward, slowly took off the cloak covering his head, and said in a deep voice: "Go." ”

I could see his face clearly, too.

Under the long snow-white hair, the eyebrows are clear and handsome, and the face has a demonic spirit.

Words are desireless!

"Why, you-"

Before I finished my words, Qing Han already reached out with a cold chill on his face and pulled me into his arms.

I didn't have time to react or speak, I was already being held by him, and walked out with no desire. There was nothing to see in the dark corridors, except for me and his gasps, and our heartbeats, mingled with the howling of the wind and snow. But he couldn't hear the sound of his heartless footsteps at all, and he could only see his cloaked figure like a ghost, and he walked outside until he saw that the iron door of the prison was open, and there were no guards in the cell.

Outside the iron gate, there were at least twice as many guards lying on the ground as usual.

I just felt terrified.

Pei Yuanhao really redeployed those guards in order to prevent me from escaping, but he couldn't have imagined that even so, he couldn't resist this unpredictable master.

With a hint of trembling, I whispered, "It's all, you did it?" ”

He didn't want to speak, he still kept moving forward, and in the wind and snow, he only saw his white hair constantly flying, almost blending with the snow.

I looked up again at the light cold.

He only looked at me and didn't speak.

I don't need to say it, I already understand that he and Yan Wuxian have joined forces.

It is not too difficult to get out of the prison of the Criminal Department, not only because Yan Wuxian has subdued all the people outside, Lord Shilang personally came to visit the prison, perhaps, he still has the power of the eldest princess behind him, these people also have to agree, and open the three layers of prison doors outside for him to enter, which also makes it convenient for Yan Wuxian to enter and exit as if entering a no-man's land.

Although even if the iron door is closed, it may not be able to stop him, but the appearance of the light cold at least reduces unnecessary obstacles for him, and no one immediately finds out that the prison has been robbed, giving us time to escape.

I was completely speechless, the wind and snow on my face was not pleasant, and I only knew at this time that I had only been in prison for half a day, and the last light of the sky had been swallowed up by the darkness when we walked out of the prison, and only the cold eyes had been bright and firm in such a wind and snow.

I looked at those eyes, and for some reason, I felt a chill.

At this moment, Yan Wuxian in front suddenly stopped.

Qinghan hugged me, almost bumped into him, hurriedly stopped, and asked, "What's wrong?" ”

"Someone."

"Huh?"

He and I were stunned, and when we looked up, there was a long road ahead, full of wind and snow, and there was no trace of anyone; But we reacted immediately, he didn't need to watch.

Speechless said: "I can't get out." ”

I looked up at Qinghan a little helplessly, but saw that he was not nervous and flustered before, but said firmly: "We don't go out." ”

“……？”

Even the desireless was slightly stunned, and looked back at him.

Qing Han said: "Let's go to Jixian Palace!" ”。

It is not too difficult to get from the prison to the Jixian Palace.

Especially there is a martial arts master like Yan Wuxian to open the way, after a while, we have arrived at the Jixian Palace, at this time the snow is falling heavier and heavier, almost filling the entire sight, I can't see the front of Yan Wuxi, the only thing I can grasp, I can feel, is only the man who has been holding me tightly around me.

When we walked to the Great Palace, it was quieter than any other place, except for our breathing, only the sound of falling snow was left, which was raised one after another, dense and dense, like a human heartbeat.

Yan Wuxian stopped and glanced back at us.

He didn't speak, but the silent gaze clearly told us that we had arrived.

Qinghan's face was whiter than snow, and he gasped slightly: "Thank you." ”

Yan Wuxian glanced at me again, didn't speak, just waved the dust in his hand, turned around and jumped, and disappeared into the snowstorm.

I didn't speak, I pressed against my cold chest, and I could feel the throbbing in it.

I always thought that he was too tired, but at this time, he looked up at the Jixian Hall in the pitch black without a trace of light on the steps, and his breathing was a little more rapid than before, and I realized in a trance that he was not tired.

It's fear.

What he just did was a prison robbery.

It was to kidnap a felon, whose crime had just been revealed in front of the civil and military officials, from the prison, which he might not even dare to think about in the past, but now, it really happened.

The hands that had been holding me tightly were as cold as ice.

I subconsciously reached out and gently covered the back of his hand, he didn't even feel it, he still raised his head to look at Jixian Palace, the light of those eyes seemed to be slowly engulfed by darkness as night fell.

Or did I speak first, breaking the stiff silence—

"Why, looking for him?"

"......," he looked down at me.

"You're looking for him? Why? ”

Even if he had contact with Yan Wuxian because of Pei Yuanhao's relationship in the Juma River Valley before, I still couldn't connect the two of them, but I have to believe that when I didn't see it, they might have had more contact, and even he could ask Yan Wuxian to come and save me.

Qing Han swallowed a mouthful of saliva to calm himself down a little before he spoke: "I can only think of him." ”

“……”

"I think—I can feel it, he doesn't want you dead."

“……”

"I can feel that there must be some relationship between him and you."

“……”

By the way, Yan Wuxian once asked me about the name tag on my body, and even mentioned the person I liked, and there are indeed some relationships between him and me that even I haven't figured out clearly.

And Qing Han, just this time, felt it keenly, so he went to find him.

I couldn't help but grab his hand: "Light cold." ”

He didn't speak, only raised his head to look at the steps, and gritted his teeth vigorously: "Let's go up." ”。

Because the snow fell too quickly, a thick layer of falling snow had accumulated on the steps outside the Jixian Palace, and the two of us walked all the way, all behind us were messy footprints, as if reflecting the chaos that happened today, at this time it was too late to think that these footprints would expose our whereabouts, because not far behind us, there was already a sound of the alarm gong.

When I looked back, I was greeted by the messy firelight of the night.

I couldn't help but feel a sinking in my heart: "They found out!" ”

"Hmm."

There was an indescribable tremor in his voice.

I suddenly reacted to something-

Although Yan Wuxian came out to deal with those guards, with his skills, he was still wearing a cloak when he broke into the prison, which means that he deliberately wanted to hide his identity, even if those guards woke up, there was no way to identify him, but everyone knew that before the robbery, the squire Liu Qinghan came to visit me in the prison!

Sooner or later, he will be discovered!

As soon as I thought of this, my heart immediately sank, and I looked up at him: "Light cold! ”

His face became more and more pale, as if he had no desire to leave, and when he had to face this qiē alone, the fear in his heart was about to crush him, and I could even hear the sound of his teeth smashing, and when he spoke again, his voice trembled violently: "I, I--can't help it." ”

“……”

"His condition is that he can't expose himself, and that's all I can do."

I was anxious: "Then why do you have to-"

He looked at me and didn't speak.

In those eyes full of fear, there was always something that was holding on.

I was speechless.

Finally ascended to the Jixian Palace, here because of the New Year, there is no one for a long time, the silence is as dark as an ancient tomb, we plunged into this darkness, but more clearly heard the noisy voices behind us, closer and closer, closer and closer.

They already know it's a light cold!

By doing so, he is clearly cutting off his own back road!

Thinking of this, I suddenly had a change of heart-

He has cut off the back road in the capital!

My whole body couldn't help but be excited, and his hands subconsciously tightened his thin waist, and he also felt something, and looked down at me.

It's just that in such a night, I can't see his eyes clearly.

It was dark in the Jixian Palace, there was not even a trace of light, but because he was too familiar with the environment here, even if it was dark in front of him, he still led me all the way, and only the sound of two people gasping for breath was heard on the empty corridor, and the sound of heavy footsteps shook the snow on the eaves of the corridor overhead, as if something was collapsing behind us.

After a while, we had already walked through the study hall, and in front of us, there was the book pavilion.

I had even seen the terrace of the Ask Book Pavilion in the night.

Qing Han also looked there, as if it was the end of our escape, and I couldn't help but feel a little nervous - there was no road here, and the people behind were already about to catch up, he brought me here, what should we do next?

Before I could figure it out, his hands holding me had already been released.

I looked up in confusion, and I heard him gasping slightly, and whispered in his ear, "You go to the front terrace and wait for me." ”

I looked at him nervously, "What are you going to do?" ”

"Wait for me."

He repeated it again, giving me a gentle push on the shoulder, and I looked at him, believing that he wouldn't get me out and throw me here, so I nodded and walked forward.

Out of this long corridor, there was a large clearing, and the thick snow made it a cold place like an ice cellar, and I stepped on the steps, and there was a terrace behind me, but I did not immediately climb up, but leaned against the cold pillars and looked ahead with wide eyes.

It was already completely dark, and I could not see him, but I could only see the outline of the Jixian Hall in the night, and all the scholarly gentleness had faded in the darkness, like a fortress.

What is Qinghan going to do when he goes back at this time?

I don't understand, I can't see clearly, time passes little by little, the snow is getting heavier and heavier, but there is still silence ahead, I don't even know where the light cold has gone, but in addition to the sound of falling snow, there are also noisy voices getting closer and closer. Those people, they have already rushed to the foot of the steps outside the Jixian Palace!

Oops!

Qinghan is still in the main hall, is it going to be discovered by them?

As soon as I thought of this, I immediately panicked and hurriedly wanted to go back, but as soon as I took a step, I saw a burst of light suddenly appear in front of me, slowly flickering in the night.

What is that?

My eyes widened to know what was going on, but the light grew brighter and brighter, and in a moment the orange light was already in the night, illuminating almost a large part of the house.

That's—

I looked at it carefully for a while, and as the light became more and more intense, I suddenly breathed a sigh!

Fire!

That's firelight!

What's going on, how could Qing Han light the torches at this time, aren't those people already about to catch up?

I stared nervously ahead, watching the fire grow brighter and brighter, and my heart sank, until at last I suffocated as the flames burst out of the house.

Fire!

Light cold is setting fire!

Jixian Hall is the only palace in all the houses in the palace, the only one is all wooden, and the whole hall was built without an iron nail, so there can be no open flame here, not even incense, and this is a place for royal teaching, and there are also a lot of books, any little spark may cause the most ruinous blow here.

But this time-

I opened my eyes wide, the darkness of the night slowly subsided in front of me, and the fire quickly swallowed up one room, two houses, and more pavilions, and a fire dragon burst out of the hall in an instant, and the water droplets turned into snow fell, and were engulfed by the raging fire, making a sound of almost struggling, but it still could not stop the fire dragon's wild dance, and in an instant it had roared and engulfed the entire hall, and a wall of fire ignited in front of my eyes.

At this moment, I was completely frozen, watching the fire raging in the Jixian Palace, and the beams that had burned in front of me quickly collapsed because there was no iron nail support, but the rumbling noise only fueled the fire even more.

The blood-red firelight reflected half of the sky.

At this moment, a figure appeared in the sea of fire.

In the firelight, he looked thinner and more vigorous, and even the outline of his face became clearer, and his eyes were illuminated by the flames.

I watched in a daze, watching him stand in front of the sea of fire, as if he was about to be swallowed up by the sea of fire.

"Light cold!"

Hearing my shout, he turned his head sharply, and with it the long hair that was tied high behind his head, and was reflected by the flames behind him, like a rising flame.

Suddenly, I seemed to suddenly feel that he was a real fire.

And I can be reborn in such a blazing fire!

I don't remember how the fire ended, but when he came up to me, his face turned paler and paler in the light of the fire.

He slowly walked up to me and hugged me.

Hold it hard.

However, I don't know if it's my delusion, but I feel that at this moment, I am supporting him.

The hall kept collapsing, but the fire was getting bigger and bigger, I hugged him tightly, he was trembling, I was trembling, the two of them looked at the front hard, only to feel that the scorching fire almost dried the blood.

I gritted my teeth hard, listening to the sound of his teeth chattering and knocking, and after a long time, he trembled and said, "This time, the teacher must cripple me." ”

I looked up at him.

He glanced down at me, and even smiled, but the smile was almost on the verge of madness: "All his ancient books—"

“……”

No wonder, the fire is so fast.

What he ignited was the most precious ancient books brought by Fu Badai, and those classics that he had treasured for half his life, all of which were turned into ashes in this fire.

If Fu Badai knew, even if he practiced with his cultivation, he was afraid that he would scold him, and he might even vomit blood and faint.

Thinking of this, I suddenly laughed, and said in a trembling voice: "Do you know, I used to make him angry, and every time he wanted to beat me up, but every time I didn't get beaten, do you know why." ”

"Why?"

"Pretend not to know," I looked up at me and laughed, "Pretend I don't know anything, he can't do it." ”

He was stunned for a moment, as if a light flashed in his eyes, and suddenly smiled. The two men stared at each other in the flames, smiling nervously, as if they were going crazy.

Before the hall collapsed, he led me up to the terrace.

The flames behind him stopped our pursuers, but it was only temporary, and he and I had reached this point, and there was no way out.

Thinking of this, I couldn't help but shudder, he took my hand, slowly walked to the terrace, looked back, then looked at me, and said seriously: "Don't be afraid." ”

"Light Cold ......"

"Listen to me."

“……”

I stood in front of him, really obediently closed my lips, didn't say anything more, he looked down at me, his eyes flashed with the firelight, as if there were a thousand words, but at this time it was really too late.

He raised his hand, and I thought he was going to touch my face, but those trembling hands reached up to my chest and began to unbutton my shirt.

I was stunned and looked at him incredulously.

His fingers were not dexterous, and he was not familiar with women's clothes, especially at this time, and he trembled so badly that it took a long time to untie one, and then, the second.

Under the drooping clothes, my fair skin was naked inch by inch/exposed, shining white in such a dark night.

It was reflected in his eyes, but it was quickly engulfed.

This was originally the most intimate action between husband and wife, only in the bed/between the curtains, but now he is doing this to me, but there is no such charm/charm/affection, on the contrary, the two of them are like trapped beasts trapped in a desperate situation, and their breathing is fierce.

While explaining, he looked into my eyes and said, "The fire here will attract all the guards in the palace, and this place is the closest to Shenqimen, and the guards there will definitely all come." ”

“……”

"You, go from here, go to the small room at the foot of the right side of Shenqi Gate, and someone will be waiting for you."

“……”

"He'll arrange how you get out, including how to get out of the capital."

“……”

I looked at him and felt nothing but the thing beating in my chest stiffened.

I wasn't surprised at all, even if I never thought about it, but I didn't forget it, outside Uncle Oni's ferry hall, he told me that he would arrange it.

With the help of the power of speechless desire, he snatched me out of the prison, but did not venture out of the palace, but instead walked to the Jixian Hall in the deep palace, because lighting a fire here can attract the attention of the pursuers and all the guards nearby, attract them, and then let me go to the Shenqi Gate to find the people he has arranged, and then I can go out of the palace smoothly.

Sure enough, he had already arranged everything.

But—

Why do I feel now that I am not afraid, not suddenly, not even moved?

I am afraid!

He cut off his own way of retreat, but why, what comes out of his mouth is my way.

What about him?

What is he going to do?

I was getting more and more afraid, when he took off his robe from my body, only the thin undershirt was left, I was already shivering with cold, he also felt my fear, from his eyes, from his breath, from every inch of skin, his hands slowly touched my shoulders, and the heat of the fire in his palms kept coming.

But it can't reach my heart.

"Light cold, you-"

He looked down at me, his eyes flickering in the light of the flames, but there was something in it, but it remained steadfast, unchanged from the beginning to the present.

He said in a deep voice, "Light, not me. ”

“……”

I gritted my teeth hard, and the sound of a struggling gege came out of my throat, as if a trapped beast had been cornered, and my eyes were red from the firelight.

"You said that the person you chose was me."

“……”

"But my choice is not you."

“……”

"Lightness, I can't do it, I can't do it, my first choice is you. And you should choose someone who puts you first, who will protect you and cherish you at all times. ”

“……”

"I can't be the best."

My chest was already cold.

The fire of Jixian Hall burned half of the sky, and those wooden beams finally couldn't support it, and they collapsed violently, and a huge cracking sound resounded in the sky, as if it was also in my heart, something collapsed and shattered to the ground.

Qinghan turned his head to look, his eyes were almost a little red, but at this moment, he seemed to be more awake, turned his head to look at me, he stuffed something into my hand, but at this time I was too late to take care of it, just grabbed him hard, but he broke my fingers little by little, the nails scratched a long blood mark on his hand, he seemed to be in great pain, because the whole person was trembling, and the tip of his nose could even smell the tragic smell of blood, but no matter how painful it was, how he struggled, He didn't hesitate, and when he pulled his hand from me, he gritted his teeth and jerked me off the terrace.

I was stunned.

When I fell from the terrace on my back, and the wind whistled in my ears, I suddenly remembered something.

Many years ago, there was this.

It's like reincarnation.

At that time, I carried