Chapter 177: See Yourself Clearly
Feeling Han Chang's warm lips, Chen Kai kissed greedily, hugged Han Chang hard, as if he wanted to rub the jade man in his arms into his arms, he cherished this moment, this is the scene he has been thinking about day and night for an unknown amount of time, I don't know why, after the last accident, even if he and Han Chang re-established their relationship, he always felt that the girl in front of him always seemed to have an invisible veil of light to himself, although it was as thin as a cicada's wings, but it was firmly across the path of the two of them, and he could no longer see the heart of the woman in front of himOn the contrary, he could always see in her eyes a touch of indissoluble sadness and alienation that made him feel unprecedented gains and losses, this was the first time he had such close contact with Han Chang, although he didn't know why it was today, why it was now, but the worry in his heart disappeared at this moment, and he finally went one step further with Han Chang.
The fragrance between the snorts immersed Chen Kai, he felt that he had never been so happy as now, he couldn't help but open his eyes, wanting to see the beauty in front of him shy, the moment he opened his eyes, his pupils contracted suddenly, his forehead was raised violently, and he looked behind Han Chang with a shocked face, feeling that the pores of his whole body were shrinking at this moment, and dense goosebumps instantly covered his whole body, he looked at the man who pushed open the door blankly, and was stunned for a while.
Zhengji also looked at the two people on the rooftop in a daze, the guitar in his hand also hung down unconsciously, he didn't expect that he would return to the rooftop on a whim, and he would actually see this scene in front of him, that man would naturally not forget it with his memory, and Han Chang in the man's arms Although he didn't see the front, he also recognized it at a glance, Zhengji felt that his chest was a little sore, as if he had eaten more than ten unripe lemons on an empty stomach, why, why did he let go in his heart, and his heart still hurt so much when he saw her warm in someone else's arms, why he told himself not to be sad, but he still couldn't help but feel uncomfortable。
Masaki looked at the two people hugging him blankly, a slight breeze blew between the three of them, and the corners of their clothes floated in a subtle arc, and the three of them seemed to fall into time standing still at the same time, motionless.
Han Chang also came to his senses, pushed Chen Kai away violently, took a step back, and looked at the man in front of him in surprise, it was actually Chen Kai, she didn't know what it was like in her heart, her first kiss was gone like this? Why didn't she have a little happiness in her heart? Why didn't you have a little bit of happiness in her heart? When did you no longer have a little bit of heart for him? Isn't the person you have always liked since childhood the man who holds you in your arms? Why do we always have to tell what is like and what is love at the end? Why do we always watch the person we love drift away, and how much she wishes it was the man who embraced her now.
It wasn't until Han Chang raised her head to look at Chen Kai and saw his expression that she felt that something was wrong, why did he look like this, just as she wanted to speak, the voice from behind her shocked her, as if she had been hit by tens of thousands of volts, her eyes widened, and she felt that her heart seemed to be a flat boat in the stormy sea, and she clearly saw the lighthouse in front of her, but it was out of reach, and the excitement and panic in her heart were mixed together.
"Sorry to disturb me", Masaki returned to normal, a trace of sadness in his eyes sneaked into his eyes, and gently picked up his guitar and stepped back towards the door.
There are a lot of choices in life, one by one choices are like a fork in the road full of life, the details affect the whole life, life is like chess, changeable, each choice is like a murderous fall, as for the killing is happy, or fearful, it depends on the individual's creation and encounter.
But life is not like a game of chess at all, there is no regret in real life, only the time that will never return, and the years that are vigorously extinguished in time.
Han Chang heard the voice behind her, her heartbeat couldn't help but be violent, and she felt the footsteps of Zhengji behind her getting farther and farther, and she fell into an unprecedented contradiction, "Bang" A sound interrupted Han Chang's entanglement, Han Chang's body was stunned, and he slowly turned around, only the slightly closed iron door was left behind him, and the squeaky sound was infinitely amplified in this silent environment, until Han Chang's heart, she stood quietly in place, her eyes were full of deep thoughts, and suddenly, she showed a bright smile, and the whole person seemed to have been reborn, at this moment, the inner voice had already told her the answer, turned around, and looked at Chen Kai with a smile.
"Thank you, Brother Chen Kai, this kiss is to repay you for protecting me, I like you, but I found that that kind of love is not love, but almost the love between brother and sister, forgive me, Brother Chen Kai, you can't be your bride, but you will always protect me, right?" Han Chang's eyes flashed with a light that Chen Kai couldn't see, Chen Kai's whole person was stunned in place, feeling as if the whole person was still above the nine heavens just now, and it was like falling into a yellow spring in an instant, he felt that the withering in his heart was like a dry desert and cracked a little bit, and he murmured: "Brother?".
Han Chang nodded, and gently hugged Chen Kai again, "Thank you", two words spit out from her mouth, slowly leaving Chen Kai, she turned around and walked towards the door of the rooftop, her heart was unprecedentedly clear, she recognized herself clearly, she recognized her feelings, she didn't love him, but her admiration for him since she was a child gave her an illusion of falling in love with Chen Kai.
Chen Kai trembled his hands and watched Han Chang's back turn into a smaller and smaller figure in his pupils, he went back to the past in a trance, holding her hand by himself, dodging the pursuit of the naughty boys, returning to the time when she bandaged his wounds with her little hands, and returning to her asking herself in a childish voice: "Brother Chen Kai, does it still hurt?"
"Brother, is it just a brother?" Chen Kai's pupils emitted into a misty circle of light and muttered to himself, his eyes were stunned at random, his pupils shrank, and his gaze became firm again, "No, I don't want to be your brother, I want to be the person next to you, and accompany you to the end of the world."
Han Chang, who left the teaching building, felt more relaxed than ever, she had never been so clear as she was now, what she wanted, what she liked, what she loved, her heart had never been as pure and thorough as it is now, she looked in the direction of Zhengji, but found that he was nowhere to be found, and her heart was a little lost, but in an instant, she was reinvigorated, she believed that all misunderstandings would be resolved, and all those who missed would be recovered.
Masaki walked slowly on the road in the park, all that kept coming to his mind was the picture he had just seen, why, why he had already told himself the answer, but there was always a trace of unwillingness and dryness in his heart, why he had let go, but he always wanted to keep it, why he saw her in the arms of others, his heart would be so uncomfortable, is this the common nature of every man? Seeing beautiful things, he will subconsciously take possession, is there a person in everyone's life who has loved but can't get it.
Masaki stood by the lake, he could see the busy bridge not far away, the bridge IQ stood a piece of advertising racks, those advertising racks that have experienced countless wind and rain seem to have been standing on the bridge since they were sensible, the rusty iron frame stands day after day and year after year in every sky and white clouds from light to dark in the rapid change of time, witnessing the rise and growth of the city, like a monument of the old times that has not changed from iron frames, but the content of the advertisements it carries is changing more and more alternately, from the white cloud brand to the big treasure ah every day to change to the essence of Ikalu herbs, from 386 to 586 and then into the Pentium era, from running to running to two to running to three to four and then to the core era of the day after tomorrow, from Andy Lau Jacky Cheung's concert to the super girl happy boy of the day after tomorrow
The past seems to have been buried grandly, but the future is looming.
Masaki thought of the Tai Chi beginner manual at the bottom of the bookcase, which he bought at a roadside stall on the street on a whim after watching martial arts dramas as a child, and there was a period of crazy obsession with martial arts, delusional that he could also become a generation of heroes, and I still remember that I imitated the movements of the villain in the book at that time, and the practitioner over and over again, always looking forward to one day being able to fly the eaves and walk the wall like the protagonist in TV, for some reason, the content of the cheats at that time inexplicably appeared in my mind, and laughed at myself slightly, Masaki suddenly wanted to return to that pure childhood like in the past, practicing the Tai Chi that naively thought he was a cheat, he squatted slightly, recalling the content of the book, made a starting pose, slowly according to the movements in the memory, step by step, not fast, not slow, movement and static, he felt that his heart was also slowly immersed in this action, and the distracting thoughts in his mind disappeared little by little, in the end, he didn't seem to feel his own existence, but involuntarily played Tai Chi, feeling the smooth flow of air in the limbs, unconsciously closed his eyes, but he seemed to be able to "see" Everything around him is general, the willow trees are gently shaking, the flowers and plants are faint, everything is not seen with his own eyes but it is as detailed as what he has seen with his own eyes, he feels that his spirit is like a wireless radar, radiating to the surroundings, forming a strange magnetic circle, and everything in the circle is under his control.
Zhengji played Tai Chi over and over again, but there was a commotion on the bridge in the distance, the passing crowd began to be restless, the bustling crowd even began to exclaim, the people under the bridge looked at the bridge in amazement, did not understand what was happening above, suddenly changed, a figure supported the thick stone beam guardrail, the figure jumped up, towards the bridge under the cross, the body was vacated outside the bridge, like a thief flying around in a martial arts movie.
The surrounding crowd was in an uproar, people couldn't help but be surprised, the bridge was more than ten meters high from the riverbed, and you need to look up if you want to see the bridge, but this person has no psychological pressure in the face of such a high bridge, and he jumped on it, the weight of the person is at least one hundred and twenty pounds, such a weight plus gravitational acceleration, plus jumping from a height of ten meters, a whole process, and finally the reaction force exerted to him when this person lands can reach an almost sky-high price of 6000 Newtons, such a force is added to this person's legs, people seem to have foreseen the appearance of comminuted fractures of his legs, and have to admire his courage to see death as home。