In fact, not only other people, but even the grandmother herself was a little crying and laughing, if it weren't for the fact that she saw her little granddaughter's hands wiping her tears to the point of being thin, she would almost think that everything was a prank, and that "things are very strict" were just scaring her, but ......

She turned her head to the side and said to the others who were still standing in the room, "I have something I want to say to Wanwan alone." ”

As soon as these words came out, no matter how curious others were, they had to hold back their emotions and quit.

Because of the farthest distance from the door, Shen Ziyu was the last to walk out, and before closing the door, he couldn't help but look sideways at her sitting on the bed. She was raising her hand to wipe her tears, both wolf and pitiful, and a bit like a kitten lifting a meat pad to "rub her face". The corners of his mouth rose unconsciously in an arc - it would have been nice to see her look so vibrant again, anyway.

Thinking like this, he inevitably slowed down the door, and then he saw the old man who had been standing on the side of the door suddenly turn his head and look at him meaningfully. Shen Ziyu suddenly had a spicy panic (it is normal to be flustered when you covet someone's granddaughter, who will break her leg every minute), and her hand shook unconsciously...... Well, I slammed the door slammed shut.

Grandma: "......"

Ruan Wan: "......"

The grandfather and grandson showed a high degree of tacit understanding at this moment, and they were all in the same mood - why is this person so stupid!

Shen Ziyu...... Forget it, don't mention this guy who wants to find a place to find a rope to hang himself.

Right now, the ward has become a space for two.

Ruan Wan felt comfortable on the one hand, but on the other hand, she was a little flustered. The former is because the closest person stays together, and the latter is because she is really weak - this is the rhythm of settling accounts after the autumn.

Sure enough-

"Say, what's wrong with you?" said Grandma slowly.

“…… I was wrong, I shouldn't have taken care of my body. Ruan Wan hung her head and said in a low voice. She clearly knows that what people who have experienced life and death are most afraid of is that something happens to the person she cares about, and she knows that her grandmother cares about herself, but she is immersed in her own "failure" and cannot extricate herself, in addition to hurting herself, she also hurts the people who care for her.

"What's the use of talking about this now?" Grandma looked at Ruan Wan with a little hatred, "Why didn't you know to think about it beforehand?" Think about how young you are, think about it, think about it, and think about it, and think about it...... She wanted to say this, but her tone was suffocated, she thought of herself when she was young, if she hadn't had Fanghua at that time, she would probably have ......

Is this fate......

The women of their family, from her, to Fanghua, to Wanwan, are they all destined to not escape this threshold?

"Grandma......" Ruan Wan looked at her grandmother's expression, she didn't know that she had touched the "taboo", her heart was sour, and she muttered, "I really love him...... Just like your grandfather...... "Maybe the beginning of this relationship is not pure, it is gratitude, it is not wanting to be alone, it is wanting to grasp the warmth, but she can now touch her chest and say that she is really invested in her feelings." Her happiness in the past was not fake, and the pain in the present moment was not fake.

She unconsciously curled up, her hands around her shoulders, tears broke down again, she said, "I really like him, I want to be with him, I want to marry him, I want to have children with him, and then, always together...... Until you are too old to walk, you can reminisce about your youth together...... I've even said what I should say to him at that time, I'm going to ......" she choked up, "Jinnian, to meet you is my greatest ...... Maximal...... Why is this happening? I am not reconciled! Grandma, I am not reconciled!!

At this moment, in front of this dearest relative, the true feelings that were suppressed in the depths of her heart really broke out.

"I know I'm not good enough, I've been trying to do well, even if, even if he doesn't like me now, but after all, we've been dating for so long, I love him with all my heart, I put him in my heart. Ruan Wan clutched her chest, her five fingers clasped tightly on her clothes, and she gasped slightly because of her overly hurried tone, "I put him in the most important position here, and I can even do anything for him! How could he do this to me!"

Ruan Wan didn't know that words like "how could you do this to me" and "unwilling" were the most meaningless, because they only proved her failure, but she really ......

Grandma looked at her granddaughter who was almost collapsed, her heart hurt to the extreme, and she wanted to immediately hold her in her arms and comfort her, but she also knew that the most important thing to do at this moment was to let her vent completely and □□ the thorn in her heart completely, otherwise the wound would not only not heal, but would suppurate and infect.

"And what do you want?"

"I think?" Faced with her grandmother's question, Ruan Wan was stunned, she was suddenly a little dazed, yes, what did she want?

"The only way you can think of it is to die yourself?"

"......" is not.

Ruan Wan shook her head vigorously.

"Or let's just die with him. ”

...... "How could she possibly do such a thing?"

Ruan Wan shook her head again.

"Or do you want to beg him?" said Grandma, looking at Ruan Wan and asking her word by word, "Do you still want to beg him?" ”

Ruan Wan was stunned.

After a moment, she showed a wry smile and said weakly, "If I say...... I really thought, Grandma, are you going to look down on me?" she lowered her head and covered her face with her hands, "At that time...... When he just left, I really regretted it......" She regretted seeing Yiqiē so clearly, she regretted making Yiqiē irreparable, she wanted to rush up and hug him, wanted to say to him "I was wrong, let's get along!" and wanted to erase all the unhappy things when they never happened. She really thought about this, even if it was only for a moment, because she really didn't want to lose this person, and she knew that if he really left at that time and she didn't get back, they would be about the end of it.

"Then why didn't you do it?"

"Because I ......," Ruan Wan closed her eyes, "I can't do it." ”

It's obviously a simple thing, rush up and hug it, say a few soft words, and it's all over in one breath. This kind of thing, she didn't know how many times she had done it in her previous life, what was the big deal.

But she's ......

Can't do it!

It wasn't until now that I realized that it was really difficult to lose the self-esteem that I had finally picked up. At that moment, her plea for him was already the limit of what she could do, and she really couldn't go any further......

Because she has become a good girl, he no longer loves her as he did in his previous life, and because she has become a good girl, she can no longer do everything she has to achieve her goals like in her previous life.

It's really not a funny joke.

"Then what do you have to regret? ”

“……”

Grandma held up her little granddaughter's face, wiped away the tears on her face little by little, looked at it carefully, and showed a smile: "If you can't do it, don't force yourself." You still have so much to do in your life, and so many options. ”

"But what if I only want him?" Ruan Wan asked subconsciously, since she was reborn, she had never had one choice about her future.

"How so?"

"Why not, Grandma, don't you have only one choice for Grandpa?" asked Ruan Wan persistently.

Since getting the diary, her husband's affairs are no longer an untouchable minefield for her grandmother, so at this moment she just raised her eyebrows and replied lightly: "Your grandfather can die for me when he is alive, and after he dies, he just wants me to forget and live a good life;

“……”

The grandmother looked at the silent and thoughtful granddaughter, and sighed in her heart, feeling that the child's vision was a little worrying. Although she didn't like what Fanghua did, she had to admit that Fanghua's two husbands really loved her, but she was ......

However, there is no need to be so pessimistic, the life of the women in their family has always been bitter and then sweet.

She has been tortured for many years, and finally got what she wanted; although Fanghua was young and widowed, her life is now complete; Wanwan is a good child, a better child than them, and after this catastrophe, she will definitely be fine.

As if verifying her grandmother's thoughts, Ruan Wan's body has indeed been recovering in a good direction since she woke up. It's just that as the saying goes, "Illness comes like a mountain, and illness goes like a thread", so she needs to stay in the hospital for another while.

Compared to physical, mental, and spiritual injuries, it is obviously not so easy to heal. It's just that, compared to the previous "can't let go", she is now trying to "let go".

She does still love Du Jinnian, but she can't like him anymore, let alone whitewash the peace with him again.

At noon, my uncle and grandfather hurried over, he was not with his grandmother before, and he only rushed back after receiving the call. Seeing that Ruan Wan was fine and looked in good spirits, he was greatly relieved, and couldn't help but count Ruan Wan down.

Ruan Wan listened carefully without a trace of boredom, feeling both warm and guilty in her heart. In the end, my grandmother couldn't help but stop my uncle and grandfather, and said disdainfully: "Saying the same thing over and over again, you won't be annoyed?"

Uncle and grandfather were choked and didn't come up, almost not rolling their eyes.

Ruan Wan couldn't help laughing.

The atmosphere in the ward was harmonious.

After "reprimanding" Ruan Wan, the uncle and grandfather began to seriously think about what to buy for their uncle, niece and granddaughter to replenish the body, when he thought of whether to invite a Buddha statue that is beneficial to the recovery of the body home, Ruan Wan, who was full of black lines, saw her grandmother who had gone and returned, and there was an extra thermos flask in her hand. She immediately thought of the porridge boiled in the soup stewed by the old man, and her mouth "popped", and her stomach "gurgled" after being hungry for several days.

She asked flatteringly, "Grandma, did you stew it for me?"

Grandma gave her a roll of her eyes: "I have to be free too." ”

"Oh......" Ruan Wan nodded a little disappointed, and then saw her grandmother unscrew the cap of the thermos flask, and a tempting fragrance suddenly emanated from it, and quickly spread throughout the ward.

"Goo-dong!"

"Goo-dong!"

Two voices rang out in the room.

Ruan Wan struggled to swallow the saliva secreted by instinct, while turning her head to look at her uncle who was also swallowing saliva.

Uncle and grandfather's face was slightly red, and he forcibly explained: "I didn't eat in the morning or at noon!"

"That's not your share. "Grandma is sharp and mending knives.

"......" = dish =

Ruan Wan couldn't bear to say, "I can't eat so much by myself, can I give a little to my uncle and grandfather?"

Grandma's response was to shove a spoon into her mouth: "Leave him alone, drink yours." ”

After taking a sip of soup, Ruan Wan didn't speak again, only silently hugged the thermos flask.

Grandma looked at her little granddaughter's satisfied expression, laughed in her heart, and stretched out her hand to lift her old friend out of the door. In fact, even if the uncle and grandfather are really hungry, they will not really go to rob the younger generation's food, he just has fun and wants Wanwan to smile. Now that he was out of the house, he said, "I'm going to get something to eat, do you want me to bring it to you?"

"Okay. "Grandma didn't say anything polite to him.

"Where did you buy this soup? Give me the address. Uncle and grandfather knew that the person in front of him really didn't have time to make soup, so he guessed that it must have been bought around here, so he decided to go to that house to eat - the smell just now was really delicious!

"People are closed. ”

"Closes at noon?"

"yes, business is good, sold out. ”

Is there something wrong with "......"?

Grandma sent away her depressed uncle and grandfather, wondering where she would find him a restaurant where zài didn't exist at all. Thinking of this, she couldn't help but shake her head, she was also confused. Wanwan has become like this because she is emotionally wounded, and she doesn't know how long it will take to fully heal, she originally didn't want this child to come into contact with others at this time. It's just that when the child who seemed to be a little smart and hard stood in front of her with a thermos flask, obviously apprehensive and seemingly ready to be disappointed, but looking at her cautiously and flatteringly, she relented for no reason.

That's it, just this once, not the next one.