I don't know when it started, I feel like I don't really laugh happily anymore, I can't find my old self anymore, I can't get my old self back, maybe it's really the loneliness the more I grow up.

How to say it, I feel as if I am holding something in my heart, I can't say it, I can't talk to it. It's not that I don't want to say it.,It's just that I can't find someone to talk to.,I remember when I used to be good with xx.,Maybe that's the day when I'm really happy.。

I quarreled, quarreled, beaten, and scolded her. I loved and hated, and I felt that I was the most fulfilling at that time. It's just that later, she left, and she never came back, and until now I haven't met a girl like her, a girl who can make me love and hate like her, the girl who can make me feel that even if I give up everything and betray everyone, I have to be with her.

She's gone, even if I do well?

There are a lot of people around me, and how many of them can really communicate? After so many years, many people around me have gone away unconsciously. Can't say why, can't say why and why. People always change, and the only constant is that we are always changing.

I remember when I was still in school, every time I got out of school, a group of my buddies walked out of the school gate in groups. It's either who is settled today, or who has an accident again, and never said half a word, just waved his hand and followed.

Thinking about it now would be silly and naïve. But that time is the most iron, the time when you are worthy of being called a brother, the friendship when you go to school is the purest, and the feelings that are not mixed with any impurities are the true feelings.

Now, it has slowly changed, and we don't want to see all these changes, but the facts and reality are in front of us, and we have to admit it.

Out of the gate of the school, it is another school to go out into the society. You won't be able to finish the school of society in your lifetime. Slowly, we went to the society, the society we came into contact with, the people who came into contact with all kinds of people, and stepped into all walks of life and all circles.

We have found that even if you don't count others and don't cheat others, there are always people who want to calculate you. So we gritted our teeth, learned some means, and learned intrigue.

If people do not do it for themselves, the heavens and the earth will be destroyed. Who dares to say that they have never been selfish? There is nothing to be embarrassed to admit, what has been done is what has been done, and there is no shame. I've been selfish, I've lied to others, I've been deceived by others, but so what? This is human nature, this is life.

In other words, it's all foxes, what are you talking to me about fasting?

When I was a child, I always looked forward to what I would look like when I grew up, and I always fantasized about what I would be like when I grew up. The days passed day by day, time passed day by day, and when I really grew up, I realized that I was too different from the innocent and brilliant thoughts I had when I was a child, and when I grew up, I realized that this was not what I originally thought.

There are many scenery along the way, but there are very few scenery that you can stay and take a few more looks. I also want to save the past, and I want to stay in my best time, but everything can only be in vain.

The joy of childhood can never be found again. Slowly, we all forget what we were thinking and what we wanted.

I don't know why, I know a lot of things will happen, but I can't get anything back. I have lived so much, I have hurt others, I have been hurt by others, I have loved others and hated others, but after a long time, this feeling has been put in my heart, and I don't want to mention it to anyone anymore, and I don't want to hear anyone mention it.

I still remember that at that time, she would always say, Li Kun, don't keep all emotions on your face, for fear that others don't know what's going on, and you won't really grow up. They told me not to smoke, not to drink, or anything.

By the time I really understood, she was gone. Gradually, I learned to restrain myself and control myself, and maybe I really understood a lot in a moment.

It's just that it was just once, lighting a cigarette and thinking about the past. Although I would like to know if she is doing well, happy or unhappy. But that's just my thoughts, and it seems like nothing has anything to do with me.

For example, I can remember very few mobile phone numbers, except for my own and my family, she counts as one, and now I don't know if I can get through.

The last call more than a year ago, maybe the last call in my life, didn't even see each other, and just left.

The more I grow up, the more things I put in my heart, and when I really want to find someone to talk to, I find that the person I want to find will appear for a long time, a long, long time. It's just a matter of time.

I want a lot, and I have to work hard to achieve my dreams. There's no arrangement this year.,Continue to update the code word day after day.,Except for a few days when relatives go out for the New Year.,And then it's the annual meeting of the Youth Writers Association on January 16.,The gathering activities go out for a few days.,After that, I basically stayed at home all day to update the manuscript of the code word.。

I always see a lot of comments saying that I am slow to update, which I do know that I am updating slowly, but this kind of article is hard to write, and it hurts my brain to write. I don't want to write about hydrology, I want to finish this story seriously and start a new book. Later updates and word counts will increase, everything is difficult at the beginning, and it will be easy to pass this beginning.

People will always meet such a few people in this life, themselves, the people they love, the people who love themselves, and the people who spend their lives with them. The person you love does not necessarily love yourself, and the person who loves you does not necessarily love yourself. The person you spend your life with is not necessarily the one you love, nor is it necessarily the one who loves you, but the person who suddenly appears at the right time and place.

Be kind to the people around you, be kind to the people you love, and be kind to the people who love you. Sometimes, some people, some things. Maybe a turn, that's goodbye.

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