The days of withdrawal are so painful that Theolod can always see himself in another world in a trance, and the person who makes him unforgettable in his memory is the person who has been with him for the longest time, from his debut to a generation of drama bones, from obscurity to fame, from the trough to the peak, during the period when his depression was at its strictest, it was precisely because of the companionship and help of that person that he was able to survive.

'Theo, my dear friend, I believe you can do anything, because you are the most unique person in the world, I knew it from the beginning. ’

Yes, that person will always only treat him as a d, not a bestlover.

In the fog of sweat once more, Theolod's ears remembered the most familiar voice.

Yes, he can do anything, but he can't be your lover and the most important person.

Theolod chuckled and got out of bed, knowing that he was too persistent and would never learn to let go. Obviously, he has become an old man, and the other party has even a grandson born, he still can't let go, maybe his psychiatrist forgot to identify another condition for him, that is, there is an obsessive-compulsive disorder in acting and that person.

Theorod staggered into the bathroom, stood under the showerhead, looked at the haggard and frail face in the mirror, and turned off the faucet until the steaming water vapor covered the mirror with an impenetrable layer of sand.

He has changed from a sixty-year-old man to a sixteen-year-old boy, from one world to another, and the things that belong to the previous world should be put down.

It's like he let go of the dream he has been chasing all his life and just wants to be an ordinary person.

Now a month has passed, withdrawal reactions have rarely appeared, he remembers the last episode was a week ago, and this episode lasted for a very short time, Theolod believes that this is his last seizure, as long as he has a regular routine and more protein and nutrition in the future, he can completely get rid of that period of depravity, and the body's dependence on drugs/products.

As for the psychological aspect, there is no need to worry, because he has no affection for this thing at all.

Theolod came out of the bathroom wiping his hair, and as soon as he turned on the TV, there was a knock at the door.

He dropped the remote control and pulled the door open, and it was Nattle who came, without any surprise.

In fact, Theolod was indeed very moved, after all, he was not the boy hiding behind him in Nattel's memory. And during this month, the other party will often come to visit Theorod, who is rehabilitating from drugs, and sometimes bring him some food supplements, as a bad teenager, Natel treats his brother as fiercely as when he is rampant on the street.

"Just in time, Nattel, I want to tell you good news." Theorod smiled and invited him in.

"You've finally given up on rehabilitation/drug addiction and returned to the arms of the fluttering immortals?" Nattle didn't want to blurt it out.

"No, actually, I think I succeeded."

"Oh grass! What did you say?! It's true?! Nattel's eyes widened in surprise. In fact, to be honest, when he first saw Theolod's half-dead and painful appearance, he thought that this kid would not be able to hold on for a day, but who knows, he actually came over day by day with his god-like perseverance.

Although Natel has always been a bad boy, and he may have to squat for several years if he is thrown into prison, he is righteous enough and respects Theorod's choice very much, if Theorod gives up, he has no opinion, and if Theorod succeeds, he will be happy for him from the bottom of his heart.

Seeing that his little brother nodded slightly, Natel put down the box and plastic bag he was holding, hugged him directly, and patted his emaciated back, this child has suffered too much, and his body is thinner than a month ago, but it is finally over, and he will find a way to raise him back in the future.

"It's good to be done, it's good to be done! God finally opened his eyes, it looks like I came at the right time, you see, what I brought with me! Natel let go of Theorod and gestured to him with the plastic bag.

Through the transparent bag, Theorod saw several CDs and a large bag of popcorn.

On the covers of those discs was a name, "The Godfather," which was probably the name of a movie, and three more films were made.

Suddenly, the smile on Theolod's face disappeared.

"Hey, brother, you don't know how much effort I put into getting this set of DVDs, I know you kid hasn't seen many movies since he was born, it's okay, I don't want to waste money on movie tickets, we can still get DVDs, hehe......" Nattel made a "you know" expression, which obviously means that the set of movies in his hand and the box of DVD players next to him are "unknown".

"I heard that this film is a man's Bible, about the mafia, and has won an Oscar, that sounds pretty cool, right? I wanted to use this to encourage you, but I didn't expect you to survive on your own. Come and put away this pile of your grandmother's wool on your table and make room for it. ”

As he spoke, Natel took out a large bowl from the kitchen, poured all the popcorn into it, and stuffed it directly into Theolod's arms, and then began to study how to connect the "unknown" DVD player to the ten-inch TV.

Theorod stood silent, watching Natl get busy. His family is also very difficult, with a single mother and a six-year-old little sister. The DVD player or DVD is not something his family can afford, and the money he gets through various "ways" in his hands, part of which is subsidized for the family, and part of it is used to buy injections for recreation, so he has grown so big and has never seen a few movies, and it is natural that he is so excited.

Theorod knew what his mood represented right now, and he knew that in the month he had been in this world, he had been running away from the movies and TV shows, because he was afraid to face the most obvious facts. However, he also didn't know how to refuse Nattel's kindness, if he had been accompanied by that person during the worst of his depression before, now he also has a part of the credit for this month's abstinence.

"Hey, why are you still stupid? Thread! Thread! Natle gestured to the half-beaten pile of wool on the coffee table.

Theorod sighed helplessly, cleaned up the coffee table, and sat down on the couch with Natel.

At first, playing the DVD was not a success, because Nattle was always unable to connect every cable correctly, and it took several retries before the picture and sound came out of the TV.

At first, Theolod couldn't concentrate at all, but gradually, perhaps due to the "bad problems" in the past, he would look at it with the eyes of scrutiny and research no matter what movie he watched, and he began to examine every character in the movie, study the psychological changes behind them, delve into the impact of the development of the plot on the characters, and then began to study the acting skills of each actor......

Gradually, he found that he could not hear any sound, he realized that he had already fallen into a fascination, and he found that he could no longer escape this fact.

In the montage of the priest's blessing and the final strangulation, the first part of "The Godfather" comes to an end, and Natel shouts "Well killed!" Joyfully! these! Later, as soon as he stretched out his hand, he just wanted to take out some popcorn from the popcorn bucket in Theolod's arms, but he found that the popcorn bucket had bottomed out at some point.

"Damn, when did you finish eating?" Natel looked at Theorod, but was startled when he burst into tears, "Hell, are you crying?" reads;！ Just watch a movie, don't you want to?! ”

"That's great...... Theorod muttered as he stared at the rolling credits.

"What?" Natl didn't hear what he was saying at all.

"Whether it's acting, or plot, or even soundtrack editing...... That's great......" Theorod laughed, his voice still nasal, "There are so many good movies and good actors in this world...... No...... I can't ......."

“…… What the are you talking about......" This time, although Natel heard Theolod's voice, he couldn't understand what the other man was saying, "You're not going to be stupid for rehabilitation, are you?" Feed? Hey! ”

Seeing that Theolod didn't react, Natel stretched out his hand and shook it in front of him, snapping his fingers a few times before the other party slowly turned his head.

"I decided, I couldn't give up, I couldn't do it, it was too obvious...... "Theorod said, his tear-drenched blue-green eyes glinting with a dazzling and scorching light, giving his face a strange beauty to his cheekbones protruding because he was too thin.

This was the first time Natel had seen Theorod so excited, and he couldn't help but ask a little sluggishly, "What to decide?" ”

"I'm going to Hollywood, I'm going to be an actor." Theorod replied firmly.

Yes, he can't escape, acting has gone deep into his soul, even if he came to another world and became a teenager, but he still loves acting deeply, no regrets, he used to die for performance, but now this enthusiasm has not diminished, but has become deeper. He can't be an ordinary person, he can't keep his life away from anything related to movies, he can quit drugs, but he can't quit acting.

In the past, he thought that he quit the film industry because his love for acting had turned into disgust and exhaustion, but now, after watching this movie, he found that he could never be disgusted with acting, what he hated was that he no longer looked like himself, that he forgot to pursue the joy and freedom of acting, and was bound by fame, fortune and awards.

He still wants to walk on that road of no return without hesitation, but this time, he will act for his dreams and his original intentions.

“…… You must be making me laugh......" Natel looked at Theorod blankly and exclaimed exaggeratedly, "Don't dream, you say quit/drugs, okay, I support, I understand, but become an actor...... Caitou, you have to think about it, it's impossible for people like us, can we compare with the top students who have gone through professional and systematic learning? Thousands of people who go to Los Angeles every year, thousands of people who look better than you and are more handsome than you, do you think you can stand out? You can only get worse than you are now when you go to Los Angeles! ”

Theolod watched quietly as Natle reacted so excitedly, and at the end, he wiped away his tears, the heat in his eyes gradually subsided, but there was not the slightest sense of loss after being struck. He looked at Natel extremely calmly and firmly, and a faint smile gradually rose on the corner of his mouth: "Thank you, Nattel, but this is my dream, whether I succeed or not, I can only be judged if I try." ”

For some reason, Natel felt that Theorod's emaciated body was hiding a sleeping giant.

"So you mean I'm not qualified to convince my friend to stop going down the abyss? That's right, you're already a 'clean' person, and I, a dregs of society who have nothing to fight and rob and take drugs, don't have the right to be blind to you! Somehow, a wave of anger suddenly ignited in Nattel's heart, and he angrily unplugged the DVD player and slammed the door with his DVD.

Theolod sat on the couch, looked at the small screen covered with snowflakes, and suddenly sighed.