At the beginning, Yan Yaer still liked the child in her belly very much. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

After all, it was because of this child that he was able to marry An Yichen as he wished.

And after marrying An Yichen, An Yichen looked at this child for the sake of her, and it was also very good to her.

So at that time, she was really fond of the presence of this child.

But now, it can only be said that this time is different from the past, An Yichen is dead, but her life has just begun, and this child has become her biggest burden now.

And this burden will disappear completely in a while. So even Yan Ya'er can't help but have a lot of emotion in her heart.

"Have you really made up your mind?" After all, it is flesh and blood, and the old lady is afraid that Yan Ya'er will be soft-hearted because she is too young.

You must know that this is really a matter related to Yan Yaer's life.

"Grandmother, I have already thought clearly, from the moment he died, I intended to forget about him completely. And I left this child behind, but it reminded me of his existence all the time. ”

Yan Ya'er can't tell what kind of feelings she still has for An Yichen now, and when she dreams back at midnight, she often remembers the scene when An Yichen died in front of her that day.

Waking up from nightmares again and again, she really had enough of this life, she really wanted to completely forget the existence of that person.

"It's good to think clearly, you're still in your prime now, and you have a better future. The old lady patted Yan Ya'er's hand to appease.

"Yes, grandmother, I know, but the doctor is already here?" Yan Ya'er wavered, but she never regretted it.

"He's boiling medicine, he'll be over in a moment. The old lady looked at Yan Ya'er, in fact, until now, she could still see a little uneasiness in Yan Ya'er's eyes.

She actually understands Yan Yaer's feelings now, but there are some things that cannot be taken over just by understanding.

"I see, grandmother, go back to your room and rest for a while. Even if you stay here, you won't be able to help, and you don't need to worry about me, these Ya'er can get through it. ”

She has already survived the most difficult moment, and what awaits her is most likely a splendid future that she has never been exposed to, how could she give up at this time?

The old lady hesitated, but she went anyway. She knew that there were some Yan Ya'er who didn't want people to see.

And he only needs to let Yan Ya'er know that she will always have her own support in the future, which is enough.

"Miss, the medicine is already cured, but do you want to take it now?"

Since An Yichen's death, all the maids have changed their titles to Miss Yan Ya'er, and now, although the maid who serves the medicine is usually well-trained, but at this time, her hand holding the medicine is a little unstable.

If she didn't know what medicine she had in her hand, she would be a little scared.

Obviously she's just a woman, why is she so ruthless to herself?

What is in her belly is her own flesh and blood!

Yan Ya'er's eyes stayed on this maid for a while, and then she pretended not to see anything: "Bring it here!"

Yan Ya'er stretched out her hand to catch the bowl of medicine: "You all go down, you are not allowed to come in unless I call you, and during this period, don't let anyone break into this house." ”

"Yes. All the maids bowed and bowed, and then quickly retreated.

The door was gently shut, but two worlds were formed with the inside.

Yan Ya'er stared at the bowl of medicine with deep eyes, and finally, she took it up and drank it all without hesitation.

The "pop" bowl fell to the ground with a crisp sound, but despite this, no one dared to break in.

Yan Ya'er closed her eyes, but she thought back to the year she had just come to the capital.

If I hadn't come to the capital back then, would it have been different from the ending now?

Although the woman tried to suppress it, she still made heart-rending sounds from time to time, and the people outside the door lowered their heads more and more when they heard this voice, so as to pretend not to hear everything.

Some of them here have been with Yan Ya'er for a long time, and some of them are the maids who the old lady specially transferred over because she took pity on Yan Ya'er.

It stands to reason that it should be difficult for these people to get along well, even if they are serving the same master, they need a lot of running-in.

But the fact is the opposite, because the old lady has always been in awe of Yan Ya'er, these maids began to be small and low, and it is impossible for the maids around Yan Ya'er not to care about the maids sent by the old lady, so the relationship between the two parties is very harmonious for a while.

And now, these two parties have chosen to pretend that they don't see anything, you know, even if the old lady supports Yan Ya'er's current behavior, how can they oppose it without knowing whether they are alive or dead!

Moreover, Yan Ya'er is a county lord no matter what, if she kills the child, there will really be some nobles who don't dislike the fact that she has married someone to marry her, then these maids who serve her can be regarded as able to survive.

Keeping this in mind, several maids tacitly raised their heads and looked at each other, and then lowered their heads again.

When Yan Ya'er woke up from her coma, it was already evening.

There was already a smell of blood all around, but because of what she had ordered in advance, those maids really didn't break in without her greeting the maids.

Yan Ya'er is still very satisfied with this, you know, sometimes she is too smart, and the clever maid is not likable.

Her favorite now is still those maids who do their duty. At the very least, she doesn't have to worry about these maids getting out of her control.

The position of the lower abdomen still seems to be aching, but it is much better than before.

She touched her lower abdomen, which had become flat, and a glint in her eyes that she didn't know what it meant.

She should be happy now, finally getting rid of this burdensome existence, but there is a lot of inexplicable sadness in her heart.

What she got rid of with her own hands is indeed a burden, but this burden is also her own flesh and blood!

It's just that because she doesn't want to live like this for the rest of her life, she is unwilling to be bound by this child to have a great future for her.

Without this child, she can still hope to marry a high-ranking nobleman, which is also her dream all along.