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Yes, she decided to go back to Xuancheng to have a look.

There was a feeling of impatience, and she wanted to go back and check it out right away.

It's been five or six years since my grandfather died, and she has never gone back, and there are some things she really can't bear to go back alone.

So she has been running away, and she has not even gone back to worship at Qingming Festival.

With so much going on lately, she still wanted to go back and see.

After thinking about it, she set off to go back.

It is very fast to return to Xuancheng, the high-speed rail is only four hours away, but what she wants to go back to is not Xuancheng City, but belongs to a place called Pingli County under Xuancheng, which is not the final destination, it takes two hours to return to Pingli County by car from the city, and then to Baishui Town below, it also takes more than an hour, so she needs to have seven or eight hours of travel.

This time is a long time.

Xi Kun didn't understand why Qin Nuan suddenly made such a decision, and he didn't know where she was going to take the car with him, since she packed her luggage and set off, Qin Nuan's face became strange, and she was still leaning on his shoulder, her eyes were half-closed, and she didn't mean to speak unless necessary.

He didn't know what was wrong with the girl, but he still decided to accompany him silently and didn't ask anything, maybe she needed to be quiet even more.

By the time they arrived in Pingli County, it was already seven or eight o'clock in the evening, and this was because they were taking the high-speed train a little more.

Even at seven or eight o'clock in the evening, Qin Nuan still chartered a car in the county town and returned to the town.

When he arrived in the town and stood at the car stop, Qin Nuan didn't move for a long time.

Standing here, she is a little homesick.

The emotions in his eyes were somewhat mixed.

I wanted to follow this familiar and unfamiliar path back to the place where I used to be called a writer, but I just couldn't take a step.

She felt her legs heavy, incomparably heavy.

Suddenly, he breathed a sigh of relief and said, "Let's find a place to live in the town first!"

"Okay!" Xi Kun nodded.

Walking in the town, Qin Nuan's footsteps were light, and the two found a relatively clean hotel to live in.

After staying here, Qin Nuan kept standing by the window, as if he was caught in some kind of memory.

Confusion in the eyes, pain, sweetness, and all kinds of emotions rush by.

After Xi Kun came out of the bathroom, he found that Qin Nuan was still maintaining this movement, and he had simply become a sculpture, motionless.

At this time, the worries hidden in my heart instantly rushed to my heart.

But before he could ask anything.

Qin Nuan turned around and said, "Do you see that street outside?"

Xi Kun nodded.

"That's the path I always took in elementary school, junior high school, and high school. Her eyes followed one direction of the street, the direction of return.

She didn't seem to want Xi Kun to answer anything, but continued: "I have lived here for many years, and although I haven't come back for five or six years, everything doesn't seem to have changed much, but it seems that everything has changed again. ”

"I was picked up by my grandfather, if it wasn't for his kindness and raising me as an adult, I would never be where I am today. She said slowly.

"Before I was in the third grade of elementary school, my grandfather would send me to school, which was relatively close, and after I became independent, I went to school by myself. "Alone, she seems to be understating.

In fact, at that time, how much she longed to have a friend, the degree of that longing was extremely intense, but no one was willing to stretch out their hand and become friends with her, because of the belief of everyone in the village, they felt that children without parents were not welcomed by the world, and they would kill people close to her, and they would kill their parents as soon as they didn't see her born.

Because the thoughts in the hearts of adults are like this, so the children have also been edified, for Qin Nuan, they are full of strong malice, ridicule is often, sometimes some vicious words left a permanent shadow in Qin Nuan's heart, at least for now, the shadow is like dirt, so that her heart is clouded by a corner.

Sometimes, the words of children are far more harmful than the words of adults, because they belong to the same age group and the same level of understanding.

In the eyes of a child, a companion as big as herself should be willing to approach each other and play with each other, but she is the only one who is isolated and hated.

Others don't lack any friends, but she doesn't.

So she gradually closed her heart, only when her grandfather was there, she would have a different time, she would smile sweetly, and she would make movements that were more in line with this age.

It's really because of this kind of inner hurt when she was a child, so when anyone approaches in the future, she is very vigilant and completely refuses, regardless of whether the other party has good intentions or some intentions.

So much so that I don't have any friends until now, which is actually quite pitiful.

But once she got used to it, she didn't feel anything extra.

It's good to live alone, and as long as you can get through anything, it's not a problem.

She no longer has the ability to accept friends.

These things, she just thinks about them subconsciously, and she doesn't say them.

She continued: "When I got to junior high school, it was boarding, and at that time, it was far away from heaven and far from hell. ”

For Xi Kun, this statement is a little difficult to understand, because according to what Qin Nuan said, heaven is a very good place, and hell is a place that everyone does not want to go, but he did not interrupt Qin Nuan's narration.

"When I was in junior high school, I went back once a week, stayed two days on Saturdays and weekends, and on Friday afternoon, I was the most nervous and looking forward to it, I wanted to go back and see my grandfather, but I didn't want to go there. ”

"When I was in high school, I went back once a month, and at that time, my grandfather was actually seriously ill, but he hid it and didn't tell anyone. "Including her, including the man.

Because grandpa's health has always been a little bad, since she can remember, it was like that, saying that it was because she didn't have the talent to learn the Tao, but she was forced to learn, so she couldn't avoid the five disadvantages and three shortcomings, grandpa explained that what he lacked was the life of the three shortages, but this just made his body look a little weak, in fact, it wouldn't be a big deal, she just believed it so simply.

Because grandpa wouldn't lie to her.