Chapter 1692 What I've Been Locked Up Has Always Been Myself!
All the ships were speeding towards the north of the river at this moment. , the latest chapter access: Π¨Π¨Π¨.79xs.Π‘ΠΎΠ .
I stood at the bow of the boat, looking at the scene in front of me, and I felt a chill, and I felt a little unsteady grasping of the fence with both hands. After a while, the boat had already traveled a long way, and it seemed that it was about to reach the center of the river, but at this moment, the fog suddenly began to rise on the river.
The fog came quickly, and soon it was like layers of light veil, and soon it surrounded us, and the fog grew larger and larger, and gradually, even the shadows of the approaching ships became blurred.
When I looked back again, Jinling City also became blurred.
The sky-high firelight and thick smoke were all invisible, only the steaming mist in front of him remained.
At this time, Xie Feng, who had been standing next to him, stepped forward and said to Pei Yuanxiu: "Childe, there is such a big fog suddenly on the river, we may have to be careful. β
Pei Yuanxiu glanced back at him.
Just now, when he was holding me, his palms were hot and his breath was short, but at this glance, it was so cold that it could almost condense frost, and all the warmth and 'excitement' cooled down at this moment, and all that was left was calm.
"I know," he said. β
As soon as the words fell, the men at the helm began to shout: "Look!
"There's a boat ahead!"
"Be careful!"
As soon as I heard this, I hurriedly turned my head to look forward, and I saw that in a hazy mist, some tall things gradually appeared, and in the mist, the outline like a mountain slowly appeared, and then I found that it was all boats, and there were torches and lanterns on the boat, and the light and shadow shone through the thick mist, reflecting this piece of river like a ghostly fantasy land!
Those are-
Xie Feng narrowed his eyes slightly and looked ahead, and after only a moment, he said, "It's Jiangbei's fleet!"
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"Sure enough, they knew we were coming, and they came to meet us. β
Speaking of this, he raised his head and looked at Pei Yuanxiu: "Childe, please-"
Before he finished speaking, Pei Yuanxiu had already reached over and grabbed my wrist, I was startled and looked back at him, and he couldn't help but take my hand and start walking towards the cabin.
I was caught off guard for a moment and stumbled two steps, but when I saw that I was about to enter the cabin door, I was also anxious.
"What are you going to do?"
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"You let go of me!"
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"Pei Yuanxiu, you let go of me!"
I was almost struggling, and he looked at me and said in a deep voice, "There will be danger here. β
Compared to my panic, his voice was as steady as his hand grasping my wrist, but when he looked at me, his eyes reflected more and more lights in the fog around him, as if something was about to be ignited.
My heart trembled slightly, and he no longer had any reservations, and the hand that grabbed my wrist was violently forced, and no matter how much I insisted and struggled, he dragged me into the cabin.
On both sides of the long corridor, there were a lot of torches, and he took me all the way over, as if the cold air on his body was constantly emanating, and the flames of the torches on both sides were constantly fluttering and swaying, and I looked at his face, which was brightened by the firelight, and darkened, brightened, and darkened, as if his dark state of mind at the moment, and as if the situation outside at this moment was unknown.
Eventually, he dragged me to a compartment in the deepest part of the cabin, opened the 'door' and pulled me in.
I turned around and saw him standing at the entrance of the 'door', and I was about to rush out in a hurry, but he propped one hand heavily on the 'door' frame, stopped me, bowed my head and said, "What do you want me to do?"
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"Isn't it, I'm doing something wrong?!"
I looked at his dark eyes and bit my lower lip: "What you want to do, it's none of my business." β
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"I can't stop you, it's useless for me. Now, I just want to get out of here, out of you!"
"You can do whatever you want!"
He said suddenly, his eyes deep and dark: "Even if it stops me." β
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"But I won't let you leave me. β
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"Light, you can't go anywhere!"
All the ties and lingerings of the past have faded from the cloak of tenderness at this moment, even if his breath is hot and long, it cannot hide the almost cage-like truth of this cabin without a window at this moment, and he stands in front of me, like an iron lock, to completely cut off any chance that I may leave.
I suddenly laughed, "You're finally going to lock me up, aren't you?"
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"It's the same as Pei Yuanhao back then?"
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"Build a cage and lock me up as long as I'm alive, as long as I'm under your control, whatever, right?"
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"Pei Yuanxiu, who said it at the beginning, as long as I say no, you will stop. β
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He looked at me deeply, as if I had been dumbfounded by my question, and after a long silence, so silent that I could almost hear myself and his heartbeat weaving and struggling, I finally heard his deep voice, with a strange hoarseness β
"I've always been locked up by myself. β
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My heart skipped a beat, and I looked up at his dark pupils, and suddenly felt a tingling pain in my chest.
I certainly understood what he meant.
He has always understood what he is like in my mind, although the real him has never been like that, but in order to keep me that impression, in order not to destroy the shadow of the fairy-like man in my heart, he has been playing a self that has never been himself.
He locked himself up for so many years.
I know too well how difficult it is for a person to suppress his own heart, although there is no 'wave' on the surface, but the inner heart is like a tiger roaring and struggling all the time, hitting the cage.
It wants to come out, it wants to be presumptuous, it wants to run, it wants to tell everyone that this is its true self.
But, so many years......
He locked himself up for so many years, and finally at this moment, he wanted to completely break free from the cage and be liberated.
My nose was sore, and at this moment I couldn't look directly at those dark eyes, so I could only lower my head, desperately suppressing the churning pain in my heart, and he took a step forward and looked down at me: "Light, anything, anything, as long as you stay by my side." β
I gritted my teeth and choked, "I hate you, doesn't it matter?"
As soon as these words came out, I felt a suffocation of breath above my head.
After a while, I heard his voice a little woodenβ
"You don't love me anymore!"