Chapter 5 The Desire of the Heart

Listening to his words, Xiang Nuanyang smiled more: "Yes, I just want to be a little sun, so that everyone around me can feel warm!" ”

"But summer is coming, too much sunlight will get sunburn haha!" He made a joke. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. biquge。 info

She didn't mind, and nodded gently: "Yes!" You won't need it, because you're in the middle of summer! ”

In a word, everyone laughed.

The dish was set a long time ago, because Zhang Moran was more familiar with her and knew her taste, so it was served quickly, and several people chatted while eating, and the atmosphere was very harmonious.

After a while, Xiang Nuanyang got up and went to the bathroom, Xia Riyan put down his chopsticks and looked at the people around him: "Brother Zhang, do you have something to do today?" I think you're so happy, but why are you a little disappointed? ”

Zhang Moran couldn't help but glance at him, full of surprise: "Xiao Xia, how can you see it?" I thought I hid it well enough, so what...... She wouldn't see it too, would she? ”

"Probably not, after meeting a few times, she gave me the impression that she was a straightforward and lovely girl. If there is a mood, it will not be hidden. What the hell is going on? Can I help? ”

"Help?" Zhang Moran smiled bitterly: "You can help." ”

Xia Riyan's head hurt, "Won't it?" Something to do with me? ”

"No, it's mostly me." Zhang Moran stretched out his hand and knocked on the table, and whispered: "I have known Nuan Yang for a long time, and I have always had a good impression of her, but it is just a good impression!" I wanted to take advantage of everyone's happiness today, send her home later, and then express my thoughts to her. But just now I dismissed that idea. ”

"That's a good thing!" Summer Yan smiled faintly. But I felt a little lost in my heart.

"Alas! You don't know, I haven't had a girlfriend by my side for so many years, because the last breakup hit me too hard, and I didn't dare to get involved in the relationship easily. I don't want to impose my ideas on others. Speaking of this, he looked lonely: "The last relationship was my wishful thinking, I was young and vigorous at that time, and when I saw someone I liked, I wanted to take it for myself, and even unscrupulous means, but in the end, I couldn't get the heart of the person, and I lost both." After that, I figured it out, my next woman, even if I like her again, but if she has someone else in her heart, I will never force it. If she has no one in her heart, even if she goes up the mountain and down to the sea. I'm going to chase after it, too. Hehe, don't laugh at me. ”

"Brother Zhang said laughing, how could I laugh at you, you are a real man! But I don't understand, why don't you say it now? Could it be that Xiao Xiang has a boyfriend? ”

"No boyfriend." Zhang Moran looked at him strangely: "You are so smart, don't you notice that every time she looks at you embarrassed, her eyes will flicker?" You really didn't notice it at all? ”

“…… There is no ......," he bowed his head in shame. It's more than just perceiving! He's just embarrassed to look at her, okay? However, I was also surprised in my heart, and there was a sense of joy.

"I can see that you are also interesting to her! Silly boy, I'm from here, and I'm telling you that you must seize the opportunity to be a man! Since you have a good impression of each other, you as a man should take the initiative! ”

"But you ......"

"Stop! It has nothing to do with me! I think this girl is good, but it's not to the point where she won't marry, so it's just right to dispel this idea as soon as possible. ”

"But...... Alas! Xia Riyan leaned back, next to the back of the chair, his eyes full of loneliness: "Brother Zhang, I actually admire you very much, at least you still have the courage to pursue happiness." But I don't want anything now. In the past, when my family was peaceful, I was a mess and felt like that for the rest of my life. Who knew that after falling from a skyscraper to the negative floor, all of my ambitions were gone, and I don't even know why I am alive now. Maybe it's for the hard work of my parents! Now I just want to make music well, all my hope in life is music, and if I lose this, I really have nothing. But look at me, what do I have now? I have nothing but a guitar, an empty shell, what do you say I can give my woman! Nothing can be given. Instead of letting her suffer by my side, it is better to see her happy in someone else's arms. ”

Zhang Moran was silent for a long time, "Are you really ...... I don't even know how to say hello! Should you be called great or cowardly? Your ideas are outdated, and they are too extreme, today's girls, especially good girls like Nuan Yang, will not ask you too much, a sincere heart is enough! ”

Xia Riyan shook his head helplessly: "Even if she wants it sincerely, I can afford it, and I can't delay others." What is sincerity, I think that being able to take on all the responsibilities of two people together is sincerity. There is a good saying, poor couples mourn everything. Many people who are in love and don't care about anything, they will regret their financial situation after being together for a long time, and I don't mean that she is that kind of girl, but at least my woman I want to give her the best life, and I can't feel bad because others can afford it, and she can't afford it. ”

Zhang Moran nodded: "Maybe your idea is right, but I still think you should express it, after all, such a good girl is not easy to find!" Don't wait until you have bread and it's too late to regret it. ”

"How could it be! I won't regret it. To put it bluntly, now she and I have eyes at most, a little heartbeat, it's better not to change now, don't wait for each other to be inseparable from what happens, Brother Zhang, you know, I'm a dead heart, I will do it to the end if I recognize something, and the same is true for my lover. ”

"Well, I know that, but seriously, do you have any standard codes for choosing a girlfriend? What kind of girl will make you throw away the obstacles in your heart and love regardless of it? ”

Xia Riyan turned his head, looked at the closed door, and thought for a while: "What is the standard?" When the right person appears, all the criteria are for her. I don't have standards. But I think I'll love a woman who weeps for me! Growing up so big, only my mother has shed tears for me, and if a woman really loves me, she will feel sorry for me and cry for me! Forget it, Brother Zhang, don't talk about this, my mind is not emotional. ”

"Well, it's okay, you're still young, so you're busy with your career first!" Zhang Moran took a sip of tea and put away the excitement he was a little excited just now, "Speaking of career, how long are you going to be like this?" You can't play tricks for the rest of your life! ”

Xia Riyan looked at the teacup in front of him, stunned for a moment, and then smiled bitterly: "Of course not." I gave myself time before I was thirty, and after I was thirty years old, I stopped singing if I didn't have any results. Seeing Zhang Moran's warm-hearted appearance, he was a little uneasy, so he said: "Don't worry about me, you know, even if I don't sing, writing songs to make money is enough for me to live, I'm just ...... I want to write to myself. ”

"That's right." Zhang Moran also remembered that Xia Riyan has been running around outside in the past few years, and occasionally if he wants to use money, he will write lyrics for others, and the words he makes are all wonderful, precisely because there are too few works and not much popularity.