Qin Songmu finished sending the old doctor before hurrying to the third ward. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info But at this time, the deceased had been taken to the morgue by the corpse bearer. The three wards have returned to their former calm.

"Director Qin is here?"

A middle-aged female nurse who had just attended the meeting was carrying the deceased's luggage out of the ward and met Qin Songmu in the corridor.

Qin Songmu had no impression of this female nurse who had reached retirement age, but when she heard her greet her, she guessed that she was one of the nurses attending the meeting.

"Oh, where's Dr. Xiaofang?"

The middle-aged female nurse held a door with a doctor's office sign in her hand: "She just entered the office." ”

After Qin Songmu thanked the female nurse, he walked to the door of the doctor's office. Because the door is usually open, you don't need to knock on the door, you can see the whole inside from the outside.

The office was no different from a regular doctor's office, and since it was the age of computers, two of the male doctors were facing away from the outside, using the computer to edit medical orders or write hospital summaries for patients who had just died. Fang Xiaowan sat at a desk and wept, while an old man in a patient's costume stood next to her, as if bowing his head and comforting her.

Qin Songmu didn't go in directly, but still reached out and knocked on the door frame a few times very politely.

With the sound of bang, the two male doctors who were buried in the computer turned their heads in unison.

The old man also raised his head, and Fang Xiaowan also threw red and swollen eyes...

"Director Qin?"

She and the two male doctors shouted in unison.

Qin Songmu walked in with a smile at this time: "Oh, I'm late." You're done with that patient?"

Fang Xiaowan and the other two male doctors all stood up. Among them, Fang Xiaowan nodded lightly: "Hmm." You are welcome to come and guide the work. ”

Qin Songmu hurriedly waved his hand to the other two male doctors: "Don't dare to be." Hurry up and get busy with yours. ”

The two male doctors saw that the new leader was looking for Fang Xiaowan on purpose, so they obediently sat back in their original positions and continued to busy their work.

As soon as the old man in the patient's clothes heard that the majestic male doctor who came in after him was the new Director Qin, he smiled and said, "Hello Director Qin." ”

Qin Songmu couldn't help but look at this old man-

He looked like an old man over the age of six, with a weather-beaten face, two deep-set eyes, deep and bright, and his hair, though sparse and gray, was neat.

Qin Songmu had just passed by a few wards and observed the patients in the wards from the door. Most of them are dying elderly people and rely on the help of ventilators to regulate their breathing, while this old man is wheezing evenly, if he is not wearing a patient gown, he will definitely not be able to see that he is a patient, and he is a terminally ill patient.

Qin Songmu looked at him in a daze and nodded in confusion.

The old man knew that it was inconvenient for him to stay here, so he turned back to Fang Xiaowan and said, "Don't be sad, girl. I'm not going to delay your work. ”

Fang Xiaowan nodded gratefully: "You always walk slowly." ”

Qin Songmu and the other old men passed by him, and couldn't help but ask Fang Xiaowan: "Is this uncle your relative?"

Fang Xiaowan shook her head lightly: "No, he is my patient." ”

Qin Songmu was almost incredulous: "Could it be that he is also a patient with advanced tumors and participating in conservative treatment?"

"Hmm. As early as more than a year ago, he was judged by experts not to survive the beginning of this year. But you see, he's still alive and well. ”

"Huh? He's a legend. ”

Yes, it was because of his belief that he survived tenaciously. I'll tell you about him later. What advice do you have for now?"

Qin Songmu hurriedly shook his head: "I'm not familiar with our ward, I don't have anything to advise, I originally came to visit the deceased patients and their families, but because I sent Director Ran, I arrived a little late." ”

Fang Xiaowan looked surprised: "The old director left so soon?"

Qin Songmu looked helpless: "Yes, he may feel that he is no longer needed here, and even the handover was hurried over, so he left the ward." ”

Fang Xiaowan looked very annoyed: "These things have all rushed together." The old director helped me a lot. I should have given him it myself. ”

Qin Songmu smiled and comforted: "Don't be angry. He may want to choose to keep a low profile. Didn't alarm anyone, just quietly left on his own. ”

Fang Xiaowan thought for a moment, and then said, "I will visit his house when I have time in the future." ”

Qin Songmu looked at the tears on her cheeks that had not dried, and couldn't help asking, "Do you have a deep relationship with the patient who just died?"

Fang Xiaowan shook her head: "He was only hospitalized here for ten days. When I came in, I couldn't even say a word, but I listened to his family's introduction, and I was very sympathetic to his plight. ”

"Oh, and what disease is he?"

"I accept all lung cancer patients here. He was suffering from terminal lung cancer. ”

Qin Songmu thought for a moment, and couldn't help nodding again and again: "Yes, lung cancer is currently the most incident tumor in the world. It's no wonder that our ward has a separate ward for such patients. ”

Fang Xiaowan looked very gloomy: "I studied chest when I was in college. However, in the face of these incurable lung cancer patients, there is still nothing they can do. ”

Qin Songmu had always wondered why she was working in this ward, and when she thought of her own experience, she couldn't help but sigh: "Maybe this place is not suitable for you at all." You should go and serve those who have hope of healing. ”

Fang Xiaowan glanced at him, and then retorted: "But these unfortunate people who are about to come to the end of their lives need doctors even more." ”

Qin Songmu was puzzled: "Do you still like to work here?"

Fang Xiaowan nodded without hesitation: "Of course I like it." Even if I can't cure their illness, I can give them a little warmth when they need help the most, and it is the greatest comfort for them before leaving. ”

"But... When they do leave, you're still sad. ”

Fang Xiaowan was silent for a while, and then said sadly: "I feel that I have seen it open, and let the comforting people face everything calmly, but when the people die, I still can't accept it." ”

Qin Songmu smiled bitterly: "Some people say that we are very cold-blooded as doctors, and we can't be anxious about patients, and we are very numb in the face of their birth, old age, sickness and death. But if we are really emotional, we will keep ourselves in the abyss of pain forever. Because as doctors, we have to face the pain and death of patients at any time. If you are sad about the pain or departure of every patient as you do, you will allow yourself to live in a haze forever. ”

Fang Xiaowan pondered for a while before slowly saying, "Maybe our ward is just the opposite of the obstetrics and gynecology department. They are responsible for welcoming new life to the world, and we are sending the patients we are responsible for out of this world one by one. In the obstetrics and gynecology department, when the cry of a baby is heard, it is accompanied by the laughter of the people around you. And when our patients quietly close their eyes and leave, the people around them are crying goodbye. This smile and cry that picks up life may be a true meaning of dialectical life. Perhaps, this farewell to life can convey the warmth of this world more than welcoming life. ”

Qin Songmu was surprised by Fang Xiaowan's words, and felt even more impressed by her: "Doctor Xiaofang, you really have you, and you are quite philosophical." ”

Fang Xiaowan was a little embarrassed: "It's... nothing, it's just my perception of working in this ward for more than three years." ”

"Oh, you've been working for more than three years?"

"Yes. I went from strange to familiar, all the way to full of affection for every plant and tree here. ”

Qin Songmu couldn't help but ask another question that disappointed her: "Then how many patients have you sent away in the past three years?"

Fang Xiaowan's expression was stunned, and the crystal tears quickly fell from her eyes-

Qin Songmu knew that he had lost his mouth, and hurriedly apologized: "I'm sorry." I've inadvertently hurt you again. ”

Fang Xiaowan turned her face to the side and thought for a moment.

Qin Songmu was silent for a while, then changed the topic: "How many years have you been practicing medicine?"

"It's been sixteen years. ”

"Sixteen years, how old are you?"

As soon as Qin Songmu's words came out, he regretted it again, and couldn't help but apologize: "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have rushed to inquire about a girl's real age." ”

Unexpectedly, Fang Xiaowan smiled: "You call me 'girl', which makes me very happy." However, I have no choice but to admit that I am thirty-seven this year. ”

"Oh?" Qin Songmu showed a look of surprise, "I really didn't expect it." I thought you were in your twenties. ”

"Yes, maybe it's because I'm not married. Otherwise, I would have become a yellow-faced woman. ”

Qin Songmu looked incredible again: "You... Aren't you married yet?"

"Yes. I'm already an old girl. ”

"Alas, are you too picky? Otherwise, with such good conditions as you, there is absolutely no possibility of becoming a 'leftover woman'. ”

Fang Xiaowan shook her head indifferently: "I'm not picky. It's just that in the vast sea of people, I haven't met a man who makes my heart move. ”

Qin Songmu couldn't help but look at Fang Xiaowan carefully a few more times, and couldn't help but feel a sense of ape, but at the same time, he showed a discouraged gloom. He couldn't help but think in his heart, this old girl waited until thirty-seven and was not married, then her heart must be unattainable. I'm already a man who is almost five years old, and I still can't help but be delusional about her. People are not their own food at all.

When these thoughts surged up in his heart, he was calm.

However, he may not have imagined that the seemingly untouchable woman in front of him is inseparable from his future life.