I don't know how many people like me are there in today's society. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 ｉｎfo

A goddess I've had a crush on since elementary school.,I'm lucky that we're in the same class in junior high school.,The ignorance of the teenager.,So I didn't cherish it.,Although I've been close to her.,She also understands my mind.,If you leave.,But I never said anything.,Until after graduating from junior high school.,I didn't officially confess to her.。

When we separated in high school, I often thought of her and sent her birthday presents, which she accepted. But at that time, I didn't expect too much, and I didn't have the courage to chat with her QQ.

Three years have passed in high school.,And then because of my dad's car accident.,Didn't go to college.,Four years of her college.,I'm confused and adrift.,Whether it's high school or after work.,There will always be two or three women who intersect with your fate.,There are otaku girls who have a good figure and good looks and like animation.,She invited me to move forward on the road of comics.,At that time, I hesitated when I was confused.,Two months after meeting and dragging it apart.。

Then a colleague, maybe not so good, but good looking, we had dinner together, went out to play, she catered to my interests and accompanied me to lie in bed and watch anime, but... The figure that used to appear in my mind always unconsciously appeared, and I was silent and confused and did not accept her! until they are separated again.

It's been so many years, I'm 24 years old, I haven't even officially held a woman's hand, and the first kiss is still there, what!

Until I made up my mind to walk on the road of fiction for the rest of my life, and also made up my mind about my emotions, I haven't seen her for seven years, but I haven't talked much with her except for the blessings of the New Year, and I don't dare to ask too many questions, so as to keep the last trace of fantasy for myself.

Yesterday, I talked to her, the goddess replied to me in seconds, I was excited, I knew where she was working now, it was less than a kilometer away from my place of work, I felt that the world was lit up all of a sudden, and after chatting for a while, the goddess went to sleep.

Because I was an hour later than her, I decided to wake up an hour and a half earlier to meet her. The excitement and the possibility of meeting each other kept flashing through my mind made me toss and turn for more than two hours before I fell asleep.

This morning, the alarm clock woke me up in time, and although I didn't get enough sleep, I still hurried out the door, but I waited half an hour, knowing that it was time for her to go to work, but I hadn't seen her yet.

I had to go around the place where she worked, a big company, bigger than our junior high and high school schools, and she did finance in it.

When I went to work during the day, I regretted for the first time that I was a handicap, I never used mobile phone traffic, there was no QQ on my phone, and there was no WeChat, so I couldn't chat with her if I wanted to. (Because I've never been in love, I didn't think mobile phone QQ was of any use before!) ）

Tonight, I couldn't wait to turn on my computer and chat with her.

It's her birthday the day after tomorrow, and I'm going to ask her out, and I always feel like it's my crush for many years and it's finally going to blossom.

Then she told me that she had an appointment!

I was silent for a moment and asked a question I hadn't dared to ask for seven years. "Your boyfriend?"

When she said no, I will never forget that relaxed feeling, because it was my newfound hope.

However, she replied, boyfriend alternate!

I didn't despair, because of the alternate, I still have a chance, now that I have made up my mind, this time, I am no longer confused, I plan to fight to the end.

asked about her boyfriend's alternate, 28 years old, has a small company, a small owner with a house and a car.

I'm 24, she's 25, and I say four years, and I'm confident to surpass him.

She said she couldn't afford to wait, and directly said that she liked bigger than her, and said that I didn't have a chance.

At that moment I fell into hell, but after seven years of confusion, I finally made up my mind that I was not going to give up, from before on, any of my six-digit passwords were her birthday, including bank passwords! If I don't work hard, it will really make my seven years of confusion in vain.

I asked her to give me a year and I will give proof that I am not worse than him, I like her more!

But for a year, she said she couldn't wait, I gritted my teeth and said half a year, but she still couldn't, she said that her mother was in a hurry, and if she got along properly, he was her choice.

This is what happened tonight, and in only two days, what I thought was heaven fell to hell, giving me a hope in my confusion, and the next day it turned into despair.

I begged her to think about it, after all, it was related to her happiness in her life, but she seemed to be tired of it.

Oh, yes! I've been confused, I haven't seen her for seven years, and I don't have the courage to chat with her, I just chatted with God, and I said such willful words, just say that it is related to the happiness of her life, and no one can stand it!

I give her my last message today, I haven't forgotten the deepest love affair in seven years, and I want to put an end to her.

The most tormenting thing about feelings is not parting, but touching memories that make it easy to stand in place and think that there is still a chance.

So if you're not married, I won't marry, and I want to watch you in my last days!

I don't have much code word mood tonight, so I can only write this paragraph of how I feel at the moment.

I won't give up, tomorrow I will get up earlier and wait in front of her house, maybe there is still a chance, this is my last slimest hope.

If not, let this last period of companionship be the end of this relationship.

It's true that it's unwilling, it's too early to say it, and it's uncomfortable.

In a year, half a year, can my novel really be popular? I'm actually very confused, I haven't signed a contract yet, let alone put it on the shelves, and I've achieved remarkable results! I just hope that if you can, please help me.

Thank you for listening to me so much nagging.

I remember the saying, 'What a man shows off, then what he lacks in his heart.'" I didn't expect that I would be like that in reality, but the novels I wrote were as beautiful as jade. Is this a mockery of me from above?