What's the hardest part of being a leader? is that sometimes you have to hurt people you like. In fact, this is a very contradictory point, when you start a business, you have no money, so you have to talk to employees, but when you open people, you have to turn your face and be ruthless, and the boss has been doing it for a long time. In any case, for the sake of 'better development for both parties', the moment you fire your employees, you will still cause them a disservice to them, making them instinctively doubt their professional ability, or even worse, doubt the value of their entire life.

The problem is that Qiao Yun doesn't know how to make this process more acceptable, to be honest, she does think that Bai Qian is not professional, her design, like most design assistants, has no ego in it- She now understands that Parsons's teacher will always say this about her, really after she has a wealth of experience in the industry, and when she comes back to look at this kind of student work not long after graduating from college, the rustiness and confusion are clear at a glance, and she can't understand the elements she uses, but she is speculating and catering to the preferences of the judges and the tone of the season, such a design is very weak in artistry and full of craftsmanship in commerciality, and it is impossible to be adopted. - But she can't say this kind of thing, she really wants to go back to strangling herself a few months ago: what was she thinking at that time, so that she would call Bai Qian and hire her old classmate as her subordinate, which was a completely desperate escape, and in the end the consequences were not suffered by herself.

"Drink water. She picked up the kettle and poured it for Bai Qian at any time, "Do you want to have more?"

Bai Qian was calmer than her, she snorted, "What's the matter, Qiaoqiao, panic." ”

She half-jokingly, "There's no good feast—are you going to fire me and be embarrassed to say it?"

This guess is too accurate, Qiao Yun was speechless for a while, she is now quite self-loathing than the person who is about to be fired: she is no longer a newcomer, but she still makes mistakes due to impulse. - In the final analysis, it is still because of Qin Wei, it is not normal to involve him and her brain, when will this love brain problem be changed?

"I ......," she said, unable to speak, but her expression had already answered. "Why aren't you surprised?"

"There have been rumors that you are going to New York to set up a new design department. Bai Qian said naturally, "Actually, the entire department is mentally prepared, that is, they are guessing whether all of them will be opened, or if one or two can be left." ”

She raised her eyebrows at Qiao Yun inquiringly, and Qiao Yun drank half a glass of water in one go, "Actually, it can't be said to be expulsion, most of them are still in the internship period, but they can't be turned into regular - but they shouldn't all leave......"

Even if you leave one person, you can't say it without Bai Qian, but Qiao Yun feels that continuing to fool her like this is actually torture for her. She closed her eyes, her fingers were about to sink into her palms, and she pretended to be brisk and said, "Xiao Liao is relatively still relatively potential, and his style is suitable for me, I should leave him to do it for a while...... I will discuss with Fu Zhan that they will pay an extra month's basic salary, which will be regarded as a parting gift. ”

She suddenly asked a little weakly, "They don't hate me, do they?"

"No!" Bai Qian shouted, just like when the two of them gossiped a few years ago. "Why are you so unconfident in yourself? ”

"Is there really not?" Qiao Yun will be skeptical, and now looking back on herself, it is all shortcomings, "I am so irritable, I always scold them, and my attitude is always very anxious, and I don't ...... it well"

As she spoke, she was speechless: every word, was it all about the mentors at Parsons? But in fact, she didn't have any malice, she was just anxious, and it was because she was already in the game that she was anxious for them, and she wanted to enter the game but was so unfamiliar, how could it be? She didn't even realize the horror of the game, she couldn't study hard, and she was immersed in her self-esteem—

"Really not!" Bai Qian smiled, "Designer, which temper is good? Rushing to work is all by scolding, Mr. Fu told us a lot of small stories about designers, isn't it more exaggerated abroad? I heard that more than 90% of designers have anxiety disorders, emotional problems or something - you are already okay, sometimes you are in a hurry, but we all know that you don't mean it." ”

"You guys?"

"Well, it's me - those interns don't hate you either, they just fear you. Bai Qian spread her hands, "But you probably don't care about them - isn't it me who asked?"

Qiao Yun was pierced by her, and she felt a lot more comfortable, she touched her nose and smiled, "Qianqian, aren't you really angry?"

"Don't be angry. Bai Qian shook her head, her eyes were still as clear as the lake water, "Didn't you say it at the beginning? I mainly help you manage people, and doing design is a part-time job." ”

She laughed again, "I still feel ashamed of this salary, I feel like I do chores, and I don't do anything, I open more than 20,000 yuan a month - just take it like this, I'm afraid that Mr. Fu and Brother Qing will have opinions about you for a long time." ”

…… Qianqian is no longer the ignorant college student. Qiao Yun couldn't help laughing, laughing and covering her face □□, "Oh my God, Qianqian, I really feel like a failure, everything is a mess, it seems that nothing is done right, I feel like chicken feathers - really, chicken feathers all over the place." ”

"Are you helping me say my heart?" Bai Qian poured water for her, "What should we do if you still fail?"

"I'm not—"

"Okay, okay, let's play with you," Bai Qian said, she pulled Qiao Yun to the sofa, and the two girls sat side by side as before, "I know you're stressed, everyone can see it-I don't know about others, anyway, you don't need to worry about me, you feel sorry for me, I actually feel sorry for you-"

She suppressed Qiao Yun, who was about to speak, "Listen to me - I'm really embarrassed, how can I say it, you think you shouldn't look for me, in fact, I still think I shouldn't agree." When you came to me, I was upset, I wanted to find someone to help you, and I knew that I was not suitable and wanted to try it...... You were irrational at the time, I know, I should be rational - actually, Jiaojiao, you don't have to be embarrassed, just say it, you and I both know in our hearts that I just don't have the talent to do this. ”

Her calm attitude did not make this fact less cruel, Qiao Yun was silent, Bai Qian spread her hands and looked at her calmly, as if waiting for her to admit it, after a while, Qiao Yun said crampedly, "Many people are like this, they may not be so good when they study, but there will be changes after entering society, I-"

She revised her rhetoric. "I know a lot of people are like that. ”

"I also let myself think like this, frankly, and because I envy you, who doesn't like to be famous and rich? You want to say that I don't want to be fake, designing clothes, it's not that it's difficult, I will too--in fact, many times designing shopping malls is more of a technical job, and there is no requirement for talent, that is, talent, I'm not without it, otherwise how would I be admitted to T University?" Bai Qian said, she hugged her hands and suddenly sighed, "But in fact, I know very well in my heart that I really have no talent... … What I'm missing is not the 'talent' part of the talent, it's the 'interest' part that I'm missing. ”

"When I used to study, I took everything for granted, work, love, house, children, it seemed that every step of life was in order, and I just had to live along with it. After leaving society, I slowly began to understand and began to ponder. At first, I thought that it was talent that could easily make good things, but the more I learned about this industry and the more I saw it around you, the more I felt that talent not only refers to your ability to make good things, but also refers to your love for the profession and the interest you put into it. Just because you like it very much, you naturally think from the bottom of your heart, you don't feel that this is pain, you don't need to force yourself, such a person may have a low starting point, only the most basic talent, but I think with this interest over time, he will become very good, this is talent. ”

As you get older, you will have fewer friends, not only because you are more prepared, but also because more people will realize that the answer to life is to live, not to talk. Qiao Yun has rarely had such a retreat conversation with people, she listened to Bai Qian's voice in a daze, as if she had returned to the afternoon when the wind was blowing by the playground, this time she became the dazed person, but Bai Qian seemed to understand something.

"Knowing this, I felt that I didn't have the talent for fashion design, not that I didn't have talent, but I just ...... I don't like it, maybe I'm a little interested, but it's superficial, I don't want to work hard for it, it's not painful, but it's ...... I think it's pretty much it, I don't have the passion for excellence. So I can only go to work for eight hours, and I'm very unhappy for an extra hour. Doing design is blood recovery for you, and blood loss for me. Bai Qian said, she sighed, "It's miserable, it took four years of study to find out this - the choice of college majors is too random, I don't like this line of work at all." ”

"I recognized it, but I was a little unwilling, and I wanted to try it, hoping that my idea was wrong. So you called, and I agreed. She pushed Qiao Yun up, "Look, I'm blackmailing you, 20,000 yuan a month, I want to try it and give myself another chance-"

Qiao Yun was laughed at by her, and she also pushed back, "No, no, don't say that." ”

The two of them quarreled for a while, Qiao Yun's mood was much better after all, and she also told the truth, "Actually, you're right, I know your level...... But I also think that you have the talent, you can try, you can do miracles – I think so well. ”

She rested her face on her knees and said sullenly, "I thought everything too well." ”

"What else?"

"Life now," Qiao Yun said, she hadn't been so relaxed for a long time, she suddenly found that she hadn't said anything like this for a long, long time, and Qin Wei couldn't do it, she couldn't say some things, so she had to sit next to her old classmates, whether it was blowing the air conditioner or the wind with a little haze, her heart was shining with the sun, and the problems that plagued her in life naturally emerged, from indescribable magic to words. "I used to think that there was an ultimate answer in this world, and you know, Qianqian, my ultimate question is...... Career, my ultimate solution is career success, which is to create a personal brand. It's naïve, as if this is a ding, cartoonish kind, you step over, and all problems will be solved. You will always be happy like that, you will always be satisfied, you will become a perfect person, you will never feel pressure, you will live every day like the heroine of the comics, you will get up with slogans, and you will look as good as if you were wearing makeup after sleeping all night......"

But of course, life is not what you think it is, you will not be perfect, and you will not be satisfied. A rich man will never be happy because he is rich, just like an ordinary person will not get up every day to thank his soundness, the greed in human nature is always with him, and when you have nothing, she constantly thinks, if you don't give up, if you persevere, if you start again from tomorrow, if I have talent...... The vision of [rhyme] carries her failures, if you can't have it, you think too beautifully, and the more difficult it is to let go, the more meaning it will give. But after the moment she had it, she had to face the reality that she could never just want a brand, and this empty trademark couldn't give her so many things in her dreams.

"You know, all our classmates envy you. Bai Qian observed her words, and she suddenly opened the topic. "Do you feel the fact that all the people envy you, and maybe a little bit of jealousy, but some show it, and some hide it well. ”

"Really?"

"Of course it's true," Bai Qian laughed, "We had a class reunion on the twenty-third day of the lunar month, and no one asked you to go, why do you think that?"

Qiao Yun felt a trace of anger of betrayal, a little bit of the trouble of being ostracized, of course, a little bit of jealousy, and mixed with the self-pity of 'living a failure', she showed a complicated smile, and in the end, her competitive nature still won, and she pompously despised it, "As for it?"

"What do you say?" Bai Qian folded her fingers to count, "Chen Rongrong, I am jealous that you are rich, and I may also be jealous that you are in love with Qin Wei." You know Rong Rong, she is bent on climbing up, I don't think she likes Qin Wei, she just doesn't like someone who is more successful than her. ”

"Liang Fang, the one in the dormitory next door, I have liked Qin Wei for many years, I am jealous that you are with him again, Qin Wei still shows affection all day long, she talks about a broken relationship by herself, her boyfriend is not good to her, the two of you are in love like an idol drama, can she not be jealous?"

"Zhang Na, now Shengge is a design assistant, jealous of your beauty and talent, in fact, our current design assistants are the same, you say they don't like you, why? The pay for doing design is so low, you almost can't make a living, and you can persevere because of love, what is more unacceptable than loving this line of work, but only giving up because of mediocre talent?

"And me, I'm jealous of you too. Bai Qian's finger pointed back to the tip of her nose, and said calmly in Qiao Yun's surprised gaze, "I'm not jealous that you have money, our family also has money, there is enough food and clothing, I don't need more." I'm not jealous of your relationship with Qin Wei, I'm close, I know your difficulties, I don't envy this kind of love at all, I'm not jealous of your beauty, I'm not jealous that you have such a successful brand...... I'm jealous that you can find a job that you like and are good at, and you can keep doing it, but I don't, I can't find it, my life is a mess, I don't know what I like and what I'm good at, so I can just go with the flow. ”

"Isn't jealousy because others have things that they don't have and want? I'm only jealous of you, you have what you want to do, and you can do it all the time. I think that's your greatest luck, because 99% of people can't do this, they just don't know what they like and what they're good at, and they can only continue to live like this. It's helpless, but I can only accept it. ”

Qiao Yun didn't know what to say, everything she said was hypocritical and cruel, Bai Qian sighed, "So I envy you very much, and I especially hope that you are good, Jiaojiao, I can't do it, but I hope you can do it, you can always do what you want, so that you can live happily...... I'm also quite anxious for you, I've always wanted to help you, but my ability is limited, and I can't help you with ideas......"

She really hopes that she is good, this care is so pure, so sincere, she can't do it herself, but I hope she can do it, she admits her mediocrity, but hopes that Qiao Yun will fly higher and higher-

Qiao Yun wanted to hide her face on her shoulder and secretly wipe away her tears, but Bai Qian refused, she pushed Qiao Yun and asked gently, "Jiaojiao, aren't you just doing what you want to do now? Why, are you unhappy most of the time?"

Qiao Yun was speechless: she had too many reasons for being unhappy, the design of the new season had not yet found a feeling, the dead line was advancing every day, what should she do after she was separated from Qin Wei and the demon of half the earth?

These words can't answer Bai Qian, can't answer this simple and complex question, she can only look at herself, look at her successful life, spinning wildly but crumbling life, opening up all her weaknesses, and completely erasing her reason - this question can only be answered by instinct.

"I ......," she said eventually, her fingers running through her hair and her whole body hanging down like a dejected mop leaning against a wall, "I don't know, I don't know...... I should be satisfied, but I ...... I can't tell, maybe what I want is different. ”

People will change, what they once wanted, maybe not all the time, Qiao Yun said while thinking, she didn't know that she had such a thought unconsciously, "I still like design very much, but ...... Qianqian, I don't know...... But I may not like [rhyme] very much anymore......" 166 Reading Network