The patients and family members in the adjacent bed were almost stunned in the face of Qin Songmu's abnormality, and they all turned their stunned eyes at him. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

Qin Songmu couldn't bother to lean over to pick up his chess, because he felt that the ceiling on the ward was spinning, shaking it so much that he was almost dizzy.

He shook his head vigorously, completely keeping the illusion in front of him away from him, but in the face of the empty bed with only a mattress left, his heart still couldn't calm down. The day before yesterday, the voice and smile of the old man who studied chess games were still lingering in his mind, but he didn't expect that in less than two days, the other party had already passed away.

He looked down at the chess pieces that had fallen to the ground, and recalled his promise to others that he would take the chess to play two games with the opponent the next day. But the next day was the weekend, because of Wei Qingxia's visit, he only came to the ward last night, but he had already forgotten the old man and his promise.

I have lost my trust, and I am a dishonest to an old man who is about to leave the world.

This sad thought arose in his mind and quickly took over the high ground of his ideology.

He wanted to vent loudly, but this was not a place for him to vent casually.

He finally turned around and walked out of the room, not wanting his bitter tears to be seen by the patients and families in that room. Of course, he didn't want the whole ward to see it, so he walked out of the building in despair.

The way he went out was the same as when he came, and he hardly met anyone, and no one saw his gaffe.

He didn't know what drove him to his car, and drove out the back door of the hospital desperately.

At this time, he couldn't help but think that during the days when he came to work in the rehabilitation ward, although he witnessed the departure of many patients, this was the first patient he had dealt with before his death. Moreover, the other party left without warning.

His depression in the ward during this time had accumulated in his heart, and he almost let his body explode.

He had to find someone to talk to and dismiss, so he took out his mobile phone and subconsciously dialed Chen Lijuan's phone-

"Hey, Songmu?"

As soon as he heard that the phone was connected, he immediately asked, "Lijuan, where are you?" ”

"I'm tutoring Dongdong at home."

"Alright, I'll be at your house in a moment."

After Qin Songmu put down this sentence, he hurriedly hung up the phone without waiting for the other party to have any reaction.

Ding dong!

In less than fifteen minutes, he had already appeared outside the door of Chen Lijuan's house.

Chen Lijuan, who had already learned the news, quickly opened the door for him, looked at Qin Songmu, who was lost in his soul, and asked in surprise: "Songmu, what's wrong with you?" ”

Qin Songmu had mixed feelings in his heart, regardless of whether there was anyone else in the room, he immediately impulsively pounced on it, and hugged the other party's delicate body in his arms.

Chen Lijuan let out a coquettish groan, and obediently fell into Qin Songmu's arms, feeling the ups and downs of her chest and the violent beating of her heart, as well as his rough breath.

After a long time, Chen Lijuan finally voiced: "Song Mu, what's wrong with you?" Dongdong is still in the room inside... Don't let him see us like this..."

Qin Songmu's tears swirled in his eyes for a long time before he finally burst out-

He reluctantly let go of Chen Lijuan.

When Chen Lijuan saw his face again, she actually found a man's tearful face, and her heart suddenly tightened: "What happened?" Say it quickly! ”

After Qin Songmu broke away from Chen Lijuan, she felt very tired, so she staggered to the sofa with her 'lead' legs.

Chen Lijuan hurriedly grabbed his arm, supported him on the sofa, and then turned around to pour him a glass of boiled water.

"Song Mu, let's drink some water first, shall we?"

Chen Lijuan came to him again with a glass of water in one hand.

Unexpectedly, Qin Songmu did not go to pick up the water cup, but stretched out his hands, held Chen Lijuan's waist, and brought it to him.

Chen Lijuan was forced to take a step forward, allowing her chest and abdomen to hit his head.

When her body was forced to move, the cup in her hand also lost its balance, and the water in the cup almost overflowed. Chen Lijuan hurriedly went to stabilize the water cup in her hand.

Qin Songmu obviously hadn't vented enough, so he buried his head deep in Chen Lijuan's abdomen at this time, and let out a painful sound: "I can't stand it...

As soon as Chen Lijuan heard this, she knew that he was under pressure at work, so she couldn't help but stroke the hair on the back of his head with her other little hand, and said softly: "Song Mu, what happened?" ”

"Another patient left my ward this afternoon..."

"Oh, isn't that normal? Does that patient have any relationship with you? ”

Qin Songmu's head shook in Chen Lijuan's abdomen: "I only had a relationship with that patient the day before yesterday. ”

"Ahh

"Lijuan, you know what, he's the only patient I've seen leave, and I've ever dealt with them before I died. And just the day before yesterday. I also have a promise to others. But I haven't had time to do it yet..."

"Song Mu, don't forget that you are a doctor, you must be used to seeing all life and death, and don't let your feelings be too fragile."

Qin Songmu continued to sigh: "Lijuan, can you understand my psychology? I was in charge of reviving and healing the dying. But now, I am facing those patients who are dying, but I can't do anything but watch them disappear one by one in front of me... ”

Li Dongdong saw that his mother hadn't come in again for a long time, so he put down the pen for doing homework and went out to find his mother. But as soon as he opened the door, he found that Qin Songmu was entangled with his mother. He quickly closed the door and looked gloomy.

Chen Lijuan immediately understood Qin Songmu's inner struggle, so she comforted emotionally: "Songmu, for a doctor, healing patients should not be limited to the body, but more to the soul. It is the so-called saying in your industry that 'benevolence heals the heart'. Even if you can't save any of their lives, you can give them the last bit of earthly love before they leave this world. Isn't this a reflection of one's own worth? ”

"But... What can I do but give them a little comfort?"

"Song Mu, you are wrong, did you just give them a little comfort? Rather, it gave them love. For example, your love for that woman (referring to Wei Qingxia) and your love for that little girl (referring to Duan Lili). Of course, there are many more that I don't know about. No matter what form of love it is, it is full of strong human truth. The value you embody is also great. ”

Qin Songmu was sad again: "But... I still can't save them in the end...

"Song Mu, it's not just them, who of us won't leave in the end? Our lives are merely passers-by of nature. But I think that as long as I leave with the warmth of the world, I will feel relieved that my life is worth it. ”

Chen Lijuan's words finally opened Qin Songmu's heart knot, and also made Qin Songmu feel that she was the goddess in her life, giving herself comfort and warmth when her spirit was lonely and helpless.

Under Chen Lijuan's persuasion, he felt that his spirit was full again, so he removed his head from her lower abdomen, and when he faced Chen Lijuan again, he said softly: "Thank you." ”

Chen Lijuan smiled: "You saved my life twice with practical actions, and I didn't thank you properly." I just comforted you a few words, and you want to thank me? ”

Qin Songmu said emotionally: "But your comfort made me raise the sails of life again, such a move is no less than saving my life." ”

Chen Lijuan's smile immediately became solemn: "Song Mu, you finally realized this." Doesn't that mean as much as saving the hearts of those patients? ”

Chen Lijuan's words made Qin Songmu pause, and suddenly recalled Fang Xiaowan's words...

As a doctor, she may not be able to save a patient in this ward. But she said that she didn't regret working here, doesn't that reflect her noble medical ethics?

He was in front of Chen Lijuan at this time, and suddenly he was in awe of Fang Xiaowan, because Fang Xiaowan had already experienced life and death with so many patients, but she wiped away her tears every time, and then smiled again to face the patients who were still alive. Perhaps sometimes, medical ethics are more important than medical skills.

Chen Lijuan was still holding the cup of boiled water in one hand, and when she saw that Qin Songmu suddenly lost her mind, she knew that he had thought of something else, so she asked curiously: "Songmu, what are you thinking?" ”

Qin Songmu quickly returned from Fang Xiaowan to Chen Lijuan in front of her, and shook her head in disguise: "I... didn't think about anything. ”

"Then take a sip of water. My hands are tired. ”

Qin Songmu smiled, quickly took the water cup from Chen Lijuan's small hand, and in order to live up to her wishes, he subconsciously took a sip and praised: "It's so sweet!" ”

Chen Lijuan chuckled: "That's just a glass of boiled water." ”

Qin Songmu said meaningfully: "The sweetness I feel is not the taste, but the soul. ”

Chen Lijuan immediately responded to his words with an affectionate gaze.

As soon as Qin Songmu saw that she was still standing in front of her, he pulled her arm and forced her to sit on her lap.

Chen Lijuan was taken aback: "What are you going to do Songmu?" ”

"I'm sitting, you're standing, what is this? You have to sit too. ”

Chen Lijuan struggled to stand up from Qin Songmu's lap, sat on his side again, and reminded in a low voice, "Dongdong is still in the house." ”

Qin Songmu let out an "oh", took another sip of water, and then put half a cup of water on the coffee table on the other side.

Although Chen Lijuan wanted to lean on him, she was afraid that her son would be in the next room, so she never dared to, and subconsciously moved her body out.

Qin Songmu looked restrained when she saw her, and she couldn't let go, feeling that she didn't know where to put her hands and feet.

Seeing this, Chen Lijuan had no choice but to open the dull situation first: "How is Xiao Lili?" ”

As soon as Qin Songmu heard her ask about the little girl, she looked a little embarrassed: "I've been too busy these two days to take care of going to the second ward." However, Xiaowan often went to see her. ”

Chen Lijuan immediately asked Fang Xiaowan: "Does that girl still live in your house?" ”

Qin Songmu hurriedly swore: "She lives in my house." But I didn't do anything wrong with her. ”

Chen Lijuan nodded: "Don't be nervous. I now fully understand what kind of man you are. ”

Qin Songmu made another promise: "When I get the situation in the ward in order, I will persuade her to move back to the dormitory." ”

"Well, she always lives in your house, it's not the same thing after all. Even if you don't have any thoughts about her, I'm afraid she won't be able to let go of you anymore. ”

Qin Songmu recalled Fang Xiaowan's performance these days, and her heart became more and more heavy.

Chen Lijuan's words changed: "How is that female patient?" ”

"Are you asking Wei Qingxia? Her condition is not good, but her mental state is not bad. ”

Chen Lijuan smiled: "Isn't this your credit?" You don't have to worry about my feelings, you must accompany her through the last years of her life. ”

Qin Songmu scratched his head: "Actually, Duoduo and I have been with her all the time yesterday. ”

Chen Lijuan was stunned: "You pulled Duoduo in?" ”