Death is gentle.

It's like falling into a quiet dream. Like a mother's embrace, the whisper of the night, or the warm afternoon sun. I was often captivated by this tenderness, and I couldn't wake up.

However, I still have to accomplish something. I still have people who must be saved. With this conviction, I fought against this gentleness. I tried to go beyond the limits of my body, suppress the collapse of my spirit, and move forward in an almost prostrate position.

In order to save them, in order to save the world, I even crossed the cycle of the world and time. It's like wandering in the shadows of Infernal Hell. Maybe that's the punishment for me. A punishment for my rashness and incompetence. Even though I cried and struggled, it didn't help. There seems to be a boundary that cannot be crossed. It's like a limit planned by mathematical symbols. Countless Cauchy chains that I sketched were exiled forever in eternity.

I can't believe that. I can't believe that there is absolutely no possibility in this world of infinite reincarnation.

But the reality made me despair. The despair turned into a sharp thorn that pierced the fool's spinal cord. But as a fool, I'm still trying in vain.

Reincarnation in effort, and then despair in samsara.

So this time, I "died" again.

I fell into the warm white light, losing my boundaries. I felt like I was diffusing and becoming one with the space around me. I still have a feeling of regret, otherwise even the insistence on self-existence would be consumed by this white light. Then I will go back in time, to the moment when I received the "mercy of the goddess". I'll start all over again, try again, try to avoid all the mistakes—

Wait a minute, I don't seem to be going back.

As a regular experience, I should feel like my body is stretched. Not only my body, but also my eyeballs and ribs were distorted. But I didn't feel that way this time. Everything around seems to be frozen. If you look closely, even the white light around you is no longer dazzling.

It doesn't seem the same this time?

My near-patterned cycle of reincarnation was broken. This made me a little flustered. As the white light around me faded like a tide, my vision gradually recovered. I could even hear some noise around me. The voices were like whispers, like a noisy market. Just as I was bewildered by the sound of the mystery, a presence appeared in front of me.

In the midst of the creepy whispers of evil, something was born.

It appeared suddenly. I noticed something strange in front of me in an instant, but it was difficult to grasp his form. Then, as if suddenly in focus, the figure suddenly became clear.

"Hello, hello! Can you see me? Hello? ”

The form also spoke.

I was so surprised that I couldn't speak for a moment.

"Is there still something wrong?" The other party muttered to himself.

"No, I can see you." I hurriedly corrected.

"Oh, that's good." The other person's voice rose and seemed to be happy, "It's the first time I've seen you." I'm a goddess, hello ha! ”

The self-proclaimed goddess didn't know why he greeted me in somewhat broken English. What should I do in such a situation? Can you give me time to ask on the anonymous version?

Anyway, let's respond in the usual way.

"Hello, goddess."

"Oh, I'm fine. I'm very good, I'm very good! The goddess replied, "I know you are very confused right now, and there are many trans-death gods. It's okay, just ask! No matter what the question is, I'll try to answer you! ”

"I have a question."

"What's the problem? Just ask! Let it go! ”

She didn't seem to be able to grasp what I was asking.

"That...... Why Bunny Girl? ”

The person who claims to be a goddess wears a bunny girl's suit. The so-called bunny girl refers to the Bunny· Girl is the kind of women's dress that is very popular in situations where high school students can't go. A beautiful girl who looks like a big sister wears a sexy low-cut backless outfit with rabbit ears and a tail ornament - this is the bunny girl fat. And, of course, heels and mesh stockings. There are some magazines hidden under my bed that no one else can know, and there are many such big sisters in the magazines. Just thinking about it now makes me blush a little and my heart beats.

So, why is she wearing a bunny fat suit?

"Because I think you're going to like it?"

"Why do you feel that way?"

"Huh? Don't you like it? ”

No, I love it. In my collection, the proportion of bunny girls can be photographed in the top three. So I'm really happy to see this somewhat familiar outfit here. But that's exactly the problem.

"How do you know my hobbies?"

"Because, I'm a goddess?"

The goddess replied in a questioning tone. Please, if you're so unsure, how can I trust you!

"Do you want me to change into a kindergarten uniform with a little yellow hat? It was hard to find a size that was my size, so I didn't wear it. Are you angry about this? ”

It's not good, the top three costumes have exposed another one. For the sake of my reputation, I have to stop her from revealing all my fetishes.

"No need! No more! Spare me! ”

The goddess shrugged her shoulders with some pity. Actually, you really want to wear a kindergarten uniform!

"Do you believe I'm a goddess?"

"I've believed it for a long time!"

I don't think anyone other than the goddess will be able to enter the gap of this samsara. So from the beginning, I guessed that she was a goddess.

The reason why I can be reincarnated in the gap between space and the world is because I have been "favored by the goddess". If taken literally, I was able to transcend time thanks to the help of the goddess. However, in the previous reincarnation, I went straight back to the past. But this time, it seems that I met the goddess herself.

Why did it come all of a sudden? Or why didn't it show up before? Could it be that this will be the last reincarnation?

The thought of this possibility made my heart feel as if it had been tugged at.

Am I unable to accomplish even my futile efforts?

The goddess didn't seem to notice my tangled heart. She still gushed in a cheerful tone.

"Looks like you believe it! That's great because there are a lot of complicated things that are hard to explain to you! So, let's get to know each other now. I know everything about you, but you don't know anything about me! ”

Indeed, I know almost nothing about the Goddess. When I was in high school, I received a "Goddess's Mercy" mailed me from abroad by my parents. It was actually a small necklace with a line of small words engraved on it in an unfamiliar language. The letter sent with the necklace indicates that the word means "the mercy of the goddess". My parents work abroad all year round, and they also have a habit of traveling. That's why my sister and I often receive this wonderful little object. At first, I thought it was a bit girly for boys to wear necklaces. So I wanted to put it in a drawer next to the totem pendant that my father sent from Africa. However, the material of the necklace was unexpectedly warm, so I kept it on my side later.

When I died, the necklace shattered all at once. Obviously, there was no external force at that time, but the jade, which looked hard, turned into gray powder. After that, I went back to when I first received the necklace in my freshman year of high school. The warm necklace lay squarely in my hand, and I was looking at the lettering engraved on it.

The mercy of the goddess.

Later, when I die, the necklace will automatically shatter. It's like helping me fend off the damage. Then I would go back to the moment when I first got the necklace and read the words "Goddess's mercy".

This was repeated several times, and I finally understood that it was this necklace that was protecting me.

But other than that, I really don't know anything about this goddess. Since it is a goddess, then there should be a myth about her. I searched for a lot of information in the intervals of reincarnation, but I couldn't find any information about her. If this goddess really has such magical powers, then there should be legends about this world. But I can't even find someone who can reincarnate like me.

As I pondered, the goddess cleared her throat. She's about to start introducing herself.

"First of all, my name is Yuzuleafkey."

I froze. What a mash-up name!

The goddess seemed to sense something from my look.

"That! It's a transliteration! Do you know the transliteration? You can't understand my name in the normal way, you just pronounce it like that! ”

"I see."

It seems that the name of the goddess seems to be part of her mystery, and it cannot be given to me to give me an insight into it.

"I felt your strong desire to save everything, so I gave you a necklace."

"Huh? Hold on! I asked, "Can you say that again?" ”

"I felt your strong desire to save everything, so I gave you a necklace. Do you have any questions about the origin of that necklace? Although it was sent to you by your parents, it was actually done under my manipulation. After all, you can accept what your parents sent. ”

"No, not there!"

"What's the problem?"

This goddess actually put her finger to her lips and asked me what was wrong? Although that look is indeed very enchanting, it makes me very excited. But she actually asked me like this, what's the problem?

"That's not the right order, right?"

"What's wrong?" The goddess seems to be genuinely confused.

"I guess I got your necklace first, and then I became obsessed." I tried to stabilize my emotions and said, "I received your necklace first when I started my first year of high school, and then I died in a big crisis. Before he died, he had the obsession of not wanting to die. No matter how you think about it, you can't be obsessed with it before you get the necklace! ”

"That'......"

The goddess seemed a little embarrassed.

"Actually, it doesn't matter if you have that necklace or not."

What a surprise! I thought it was a lifesaver, and the necklace that I had to carefully wipe every day with a cloth and a special detergent was said to be worthless!

"Think about it, if someone dies and suddenly goes back in time......," the goddess explained, "wouldn't he go mad?" He will feel that he is not normal, and eventually lead to a nervous breakdown. It's pathetic! ”

Indeed, what the goddess said makes a lot of sense. If it weren't for this necklace, I would have been overwhelmed when I suddenly returned to my first year of high school. I would doubt that the previous memory was correct. But because I have the necklace in my hand, I am able to locate my existence.

This necklace really helped me a lot.

"Also, the game Loop is realistic now. Like retreating into a hunter's dream, or going back to a campfire or something. Even if it's a dead read, it must be real enough. So we voted democratically and decided to make a goddess necklace. ”

The goddess seems to have said a lot of wonderful things.

"Wait a minute, why are you still going through the vote? Who is voting? ”

"Of course, it's the staff who support the goddess."

"Staff?"

I don't know why the goddess suddenly uttered such a modern vocabulary. The worship of gods is generally rooted in human history, so it is inevitable that it will carry some backward labels. But this goddess in front of me seems rather unclassical.

"The goddess also needs to pay attention to a lot of things. How can one person do it? Are you thinking of the goddess too simply? ”

Yuzuleafkey stuck at her waist and seemed a little dissatisfied. Indeed, I seem to really underestimate the work of the goddess. If the Goddess needs to pay attention to the troubles of every believer, it does require a lot of manpower. From the perspective of the gods, we may also think that we humans have too many things. But I always felt a little disillusioned. Shouldn't a goddess be something greater, more beyond human imagination?

"I always make a mess when I have too much work! Questions like what to wear today, what accessories to wear with, etc. Once you have chosen your clothes, what kind of makeup should you wear them? These were all prepared for me by the staff. ”

The work of the staff of the goddess seems to be a little different from what I thought. Isn't it the larger work of collecting the wishes of believers, or observing the workings of the universe? The staff felt like a mere personal assistant, or a stylist.

"Then why don't you choose your own outfit?" I tried to ask.

"Because people don't have taste. It's the thing called the Fa God, I don't understand. ”

The goddess's answer was straightforward. I see. The help of the staff is needed because the goddess is not good at this. But I don't understand fashion either, so I can't laugh at the goddess. It's just that I suddenly feel that the goddess has become realistic. It's like stepping off the altar. It used to feel like a big shot enshrined in the temple, but now the goddess looks like a celebrity who is very popular on social networks. I've heard that those real-name verified influencers also have a whole set of operating systems behind them. The information on clothing, food, housing and transportation published by these Internet celebrities on the Internet is strictly arranged by the staff. The goal is to maintain the reputation of the influencer.

If you think of the goddess as an "internet celebrity", then everything is clear.

"There are also requirements for what you eat at each meal."

"Let's control your diet. I understand. ”

"Then I got up and brushed my teeth, and everyone was helping me."

“…… You're just living a simple life and can't take care of yourself. ”

The admiration of the goddess in my heart has been reduced by 50 points.

"And then the greeting or something, it's also arranged for me."

"Greetings?"

"That's right! Modern people need to pay attention to greetings! You must know how to be polite, otherwise you will not be able to gain a foothold in society! ”

The topic of the goddess suddenly became extremely realistic. I am in constant reincarnation, and I am no longer the young and ignorant high school student. In order to achieve my goal, I also used to work part-time, and even went to work for some companies that were in a gray area. I deeply understand that the words of the goddess are correct. It's just—

"Then the greeting you said, is it 'Hello, Hello'?"

"That's right, that's it!"

The goddess nodded confidently. She really seems to think "Hello, Hello" is a great line.

"Then you sometimes add wonderful words to your conversations - such as the previous ...... such as 'Fashen' and 'Trans-Death'"

"That's a personality line!"

The goddess puffed up her chest with joy, and I quickly pretended to look away.

"You're very perceptive." The goddess was on the rise, not paying attention to my embarrassment, "It's a shame that you can discover my personal qualities so quickly." The staff told me that doing so would make my 'character attributes' more distinct. ”

It's more distinct, but it's too distinct. I stared blankly at the goddess. Was she tricked by those so-called "staff"?