Chapter 19: Introspection
What Sulfona said after that, Pyeong couldn't remember it at all. The pen & fun & pavilion www.biquge.info was put down at once, and he quickly fainted. Before closing his eyelids in a daze, he suddenly felt a deep sense of frustration. Sulfona's words still echoed in his heart.
"What do you know about me?"
Usually, Sulfona and Shohei usually use honorifics when they talk. But such a flat and cold tone like the current one subverted the impression of Sulfona in Juna's heart. The girl who completely closed her heart looked so strange. Hunpyeong kept repeating Sulfona's words in his heart.
"What do you know about me?"
That's right, the sulfona that Zunpei knows is just a fragment of sulfona, just an illusion that sulfona can make. It's like the beautiful words that an artist on stage says to the host. Everything is a fake, everything is nothingness. The girl who talked to Huanping before may just be deliberately making Zhuoping feel happy. At the end of the day, it's a real fool to take the waiter's smile seriously.
"What do you know about me?"
Sulfona may have hated him from the very beginning. Perhaps Sulfona was smiling in the sun and walking in the shadow of the flat, while laughing in her heart for not changing her rustic coat all year round. The human heart is complex, and even two people who are close to each other can be easily misled by lies and completely unable to see each other's sincerity. As a result, the sulfona that Zopyeong likes is not the real sulfona. In this way, he has no reason to point fingers at the real Sulfona like this.
Speaking of which, he himself also felt that his request was a bit ridiculous. He hoped that Sulfura would become the cheerful girl he had been with before. But the girl herself was just an illusion created by Sulfona. Now this girl who stares at Hiro Ping with cold eyes may be the real Sulfona. It's so stupid for Pyeong to ask a real person to turn into an illusion.
"What do you know about me?"
That's right, Zopyeong doesn't know about Sulfona at all. He didn't know why Sulfura was telling so many lies. Although Sulfona explained her purpose for doing so, Tsuhei's brain didn't understand it at all. Although she understood that Sulfur was doing this for everyone's happiness, the words "efficiency" and "engineering" after that made her vague.
"What do you know about me?"
It seems that there is also a disdain for Huanping in this sentence. It's not that she doesn't understand, but that she doesn't understand it even if she tries to. Indeed, although it can be said that he is in junior high school, his academic performance is still far worse than that of Sulfona. Sulfona also scored much higher than Hunpyeong in the same test in high school, and her mind must be more than a step better than Hunpyeong.
Just like those scientists, although Sona couldn't understand what he said, it must have a reason. Sulfona herself said that everything is carefully calculated, everything is for efficiency. Although he didn't understand the principle, he actually did as he said. People themselves have always been instigated by politicians, driven by businessmen. As long as you give up thinking, everything is subject to Sulfona's words, isn't it?
However, Hoepyeong was unable to do so.
Obviously, he didn't understand anything, but he felt that there was something wrong with Sulfona's approach.
If Sulfona is really on the road to happiness, but she is not happy at all for herself? Although she made a smile with all her might, it was more heart-wrenching than crying.
Is this really the right thing to do?
Pyeong suddenly finds himself questioning Sulfona. Although he knew that now, he didn't think that he was better than Sulfona's brain, but he couldn't help but think so. If Sulfona had been playing the image of a good girl perfectly as before, Hunpyeong would still be in the dark now. But Sulfona showed a flaw, and she herself did not achieve "self-consistency".
The contradictions in her can be seen even by ordinary people. Just like people who don't understand politics will begin to question war when they see that men who usually farm in their villages are forced to go to war. He now has a similar puzzle.
If Sulfona's path was really right, why was she so miserable?
So, Sulfona must have gone wrong somewhere.
She must have realized that something was wrong with her. But she couldn't solve the mistake, so it became more and more painful and crazy.
However, the fact that Sulfona made a mistake does not mean that Hoping can correct the mistake. The problem that scientists encounter when building physical models may not even be able to understand the mistake of the layman. Wanting to save Sulfona, Heepin is like an ant trying to drag a drowning elephant ashore.
It's ridiculous.
Such an act is nothing but hypocrisy. I knew it was useless, but I did it happily for the sake of self-satisfaction. For the sake of the bubble left by Sulfura in his heart, he decided to continue to make insignificant efforts.
"What do you know about me?"
Faced with Sulfona's questioning, Huo Ping muttered to himself in his heart.
"It's because I don't understand that I'm trying so hard to understand you......"
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"Sir, sir!"
Huanping gradually woke up in the midst of a call. He found himself lying flat on the table of the cafΓ©, and the shopkeeper, dressed as a waiter, leaned against him with a nervous expression. The customers in the cafΓ© also gathered around. It seems that the shopkeepers found the unconscious Shohei and placed him in place. He looked around, but didn't see the familiar long straight black hair. It seems that Sulfona is gone.
"Miss said you would wake up soon, and you did. β
He touched his head, and it seemed that he had been unconscious for quite a short time. Only then did he feel the sour taste of gastric juice and an indescribable bitterness in his mouth. The store manager handed over a glass of warm water, and Zhuoping took it and drank it, which made it much better. The onlookers saw that there was nothing wrong and walked away shoulder to shoulder. Anyway, he thinks that these weirdos seem to be quite kind.
"Mademoiselle seems to have gone too far this time, but luckily you weren't particularly hurt. The store manager helped him up and bowed solemnly, "I apologize to you on behalf of Miss." Thankfully you're okay, we almost had to call the medics. β
"Ah...... Don't ......," Xuan Ping waved his hand awkwardly, "Obviously, I grabbed her hand and was put away." The fault should be on me. If you are asked by the doctor and find out that you were beaten by a high school girl, it will be too embarrassing......"
The store manager looked at Shohei and shook his head.
"You may not know it, but she has been practicing martial arts since elementary school and junior high school. He majored in judo, but he also has good attainments in taekwondo and modern martial arts. Even Muay Thai, something that girls don't learn much, is very proficient, and attaches great importance to the skills of actual combat sanda. β
"Huh?"
"I haven't competed since high school, but I've been a regular at national competitions. It was also known as the 'long-haired monster' and was feared by the martial arts community of middle school students across the country. Although I haven't said so, the entire Kanto region thinks that Miss is the queen of the middle school martial arts world......"
"Eh, eh, I always think this could be used as a synopsis for another book......?"
"All in all. The store manager said with a serious expression, "A layman like you, a casual wave of the lady's hand can make you fall to the ground like a pig and roll around." No, I think it's too ugly for a man to roll, so Miss made you simply faint. β
It didn't seem like Sulfura was as weak as he thought she would beβshe was stronger than she thought. She hadn't pulled her hand away so forcefully beforeβit must have been part of her gentleness.
But isn't the manager's wording a little aggressive?
Huanping always felt that although this person provided the necessary care and explanation, he seemed to have some resentment towards Xuanping in his heart.
"Wait...... You say, miss?"
"Yes. In fact, this shop is run by Sulfona's mother's family. For us, the current boss is Miss Sulfona. Nominally, it was under Miss Sulfona's father, but that man never interfered with the operation of the shop. The store manager nodded, and the tense expression on his face was also a little relaxed, "In this era of economic downturn, Miss has been very good to me." To be honest, this shop doesn't actually make much money, but the young lady has never lowered my treatment. β
ββ¦β¦ That's right......"
It seems that the store manager seems to have a deep relationship with Sulfona. It seems that he is also helping Sulfur to vent his anger on himself.
It suddenly occurred to him that he could get more information from this person.
"So, what kind of person is Sulfona's father?"
He sat back in his chair, but the store manager was still standing next to him.
"I've only seen him a few times, but he feels like a very gentle person. The expression is always very serious, and it feels like being strict with others and being strict with yourself. Ah, please forget my words, you shouldn't judge your employer's ...... like that."
He was a little surprised, because this impression was far from what he thought. He thought that the soulless uncle was a sex offender who would smirk at the high school girls' school uniforms. According to the description of Mr. Store, the person seems to be quite decent.
"I've heard some rumors about it......," he said, rubbing his head, "I heard that he's not a painter, and he had a solo exhibition five years ago." It's full of high school girls in school uniforms......"
"Ahh That's what you're talking about. The store manager nodded knowingly, "It seems that you have some misunderstanding of Kurata - but he is often misunderstood by people who don't know him." Mr. Kurata is not a pervert like you would do to a high school girl, and the reason why he often paints like that is to commemorate his deceased wife. β
Is this guy casually sarcastic again?
Mr. Kurata and Mrs. Kurata met in high school, and they were always in love, and then they got married shortly after graduating from college. The store manager explained, "But when I gave birth to Miss, Mrs. Cangtian died of dystocia. Since then, Mr. Kurata has been missing Mrs. Kurata a lot, and his style of painting has changed. He had been painting the scene when he and Mrs. Kurata met. β
That is to say...... The girls in the exhibition are all the wives that Mr. Kurata remembers?" said with some surprise, "I thought he was painting sulfur, ah Ringo......"
"It's understandable that you think so, thinking that their mother and daughter are too similar. But if Mr. Kurata had drawn a young lady, how could he have known five years ago what a young lady looked like in a high school uniform? β
The store manager's words woke up Hiropei at once. It was only then that he discovered this unreasonableness. In this way, the police's inference seems to be wrong. Sulfona's father doesn't seem to be that kind of bastard, so he didn't do anything to Sulfur either, because Sulfona herself doesn't say anything about it.
"That'...... Sulfona's relationship with his father...... How?"
"I don't know how, but her father seems to be hiding from Sulfona......?"
The store manager also seemed to be confused about this.
"Before, if Miss was at home, her father would never have come home. Sometimes I spend the night in the studio outside. There is no heating in the studio, so it will be a little cold at night. The young lady had given her father a futon several times, but her father had missed the time. The young lady said that it would be bad for her father to go on like this, and that men would not be able to take care of themselves very well. So I leave the house by myself at night. So that his father would come home. β
"Then she ......"
"Sometimes I just sleep here, and there's a room for interns. And the young lady said that her father also knew about the shop, and that if he spent the night here, his father would not be worried. In fact, every night Sulfona's father would call here, and he had just called - ah, I don't know if the relationship between father and daughter is good or bad. Obviously they are thinking about each other......"
The store manager's words later, Zunping didn't listen to it anymore. He began to realize what kind of mistakes he had made.
The relationship between Sulfona's father and Sulfona is not so much bad as a misunderstanding. This does not affect Sulfona's love for her father. And it is only natural that Hunpyeong would be angry when she insulted her father in front of Sulfur like that.
ββ¦β¦ What do you know about my father, Mr. Zohei?"
Ho Ping recalled Sulfona's cold eyes again in his mind.
"Or what do you know about me?"
As if driven by something, he grabbed the store manager's shoulder.
"Can you tell me where Sulfura has gone?
The manager scratched his head in annoyance.
"A moth like you has opened your mind. But I'm sorry, I don't know where Miss has gone now. But the direction she walked when she went out didn't seem to be the direction of home......"
Xuan Ping hurriedly rushed away. It was already pitch black outside the coffee shop. If a high school girl walks around casually during this time, she doesn't underestimate that she will be called to tutoring by the police. At such times, where can Sulfura go?
A gust of cold wind slammed into Hirohei's face.
The familiar late night, the girl who is played with by fate, and the dark fairy tale that predicts death...... Xuan Ping thought of a possibility.