After a moment of hesitation, Chen Qingdong did not turn around and leave, but stayed where he was, and asked softly, "Chen Lu, what's wrong with you?" You okay? ”

Perhaps it was Chen Qingdong's gentle voice that touched Chen Lu's heartstrings, and the tears that she had stopped couldn't help but flow out silently. 【Latest chapter reading. 】

Chen Lu didn't hide it, she wiped her eyes directly with the back of her hand, then laughed self-deprecatingly, and said, "What can I do, it's just a stupid woman who no one cares about." Secretary Chen, you don't have to pretend to care about me, I'm used to it. ”

Chen Lu's action of wiping his tears completely softened Chen Qingdong's heart, he simply sat on a chair next to Chen Lu, and said: "It's such a big person, why is it that a person who runs to the balcony at night and sheds tears, like a child." ”

Chen Lu actually felt that his behavior was very stupid, and he couldn't help but smile bitterly, and finally stopped speaking in that mocking tone, but sighed lightly, and said with some grievance: "What else can there be, it's sad, if it's not sad, who wants to shed tears alone at night?" ”

"Sad about what?" Chen Qingdong asked again.

"There are so many sad things." Chen Lu said.

"Tell me about it? Maybe it will feel a little better. ”

"I don't know where to say it."

After saying this, Chen Lu suddenly turned his head to look at Chen Qingdong and asked, "Can you give me a cigarette?" ”

Chen Qingdong was stunned for a moment and asked, "You smoke?" ”

Chen Lu said: "I haven't smoked before, but I often see you men always smoke when they are in a bad mood, so I want to feel what it feels like today." ”

Chen Qingdong is not a conservative person, he does not think that smoking is just a man's patent, so he took out his cigarette and said, "Okay, you can try." However, you haven't smoked before, and the first time you smoked, you certainly didn't feel very comfortable. ”

"Really let me smoke?"

"Really! Are you kidding? ”

"Nope! No kidding! Chen Lu flatly denied it, "Then you can give me one." ”

Chen Qingdong took out a five-yuan pack of Double Happiness from his pocket, which was his most common cigarette.

A few years ago, Chen Qingdong, who had not accumulated much, kept two kinds of cigarettes in his bag in order to run for the future, one was the honest double happiness he smoked, and the other was the high-priced boutique Nanjing that he smoked for others.

To this day, for Chen Qingdong, of course, he can't afford to smoke high-end cigarettes, but he still likes to smoke this kind of incorruptible double happiness, not that he wants to take advantage of this bittersweet memory, but that he does like the momentum of this cheap cigarette, and high-end cigarettes are too soft for him.

After handing Chen Lu a cigarette and helping her light it, Chen Qingdong said: "This cigarette is a bit aggressive, don't smoke too hard." ”

"Okay." Chen Lu answered, and then took a puff gently, although she didn't use much strength, Chen Lu, who had never smoked, was still choked by the smoke and coughed again and again!

Chen Qingdong smiled: "How is it?" I told you to be careful. ”

Chen Lu coughed several times before stopping, and said depressedly: "It turns out that the smoke is so difficult to smoke!" I see that you men like to smoke so much, and you think it's so comfortable! ”

Chen Qingdong said with a smile: "The first time I smoked, it was like this, it didn't taste good, and I choked uncomfortably." Of course, after getting used to smoking, it still feels good, otherwise no one would smoke. Although I don't mean to discriminate against women, I think it's better for a woman not to smoke in order to maintain her image, especially a beautiful woman like you. If you smoke too much, one of the most obvious features is that your face will become dull and your teeth will turn yellow, which is really a bad thing. ”

Chen Lu also smiled: "Hearing you say this, I think I should not try this, if I really smoke and become a yellow-faced woman, and my teeth are yellow, then I am really embarrassed to meet people." ”

While talking, Chen Lu wanted to find a place to extinguish the smoke.

Chen Qingdong said: "Don't destroy it, give it to me." I guess you probably won't finish your cigarette and don't light one for yourself. For me, cigarettes are very emotional things, and it's better not to waste them. ”

Chen Lu hesitated for a moment before handing the cigarette to Chen Qingdong, and asked, "Don't you dislike that I smoked?" ”

Chen Qingdong smiled: "Please, Comrade Chen Lu, this is just a cigarette, don't have so many other thoughts, okay?" ”

Chen Lu couldn't help blushing a little, but fortunately, the light was dim here, and Chen Qingdong definitely couldn't see her face.

In Chen Qingdong's hand, the cigarette shone red-red, and at the same time, the faint smell of tobacco also spread on the balcony.

Chen Lu couldn't take his eyes off Chen Qingdong smoking, and couldn't help but feel a special feeling, and his heart beat violently.

She felt a special masculine taste in this young and promising man, and this taste made her obsessed.

At this moment, she suddenly thought of the sentence that Zhang Ailing wrote on the back of a photo given to Hu Lancheng that Chen Qingdong had said on the first day they stayed here and discussed "Lust and Caution": When she saw him, she became very low, low to the dust, but she was happy in her heart, and flowers bloomed from the dust.

At this moment, in front of Chen Qingdong, Chen Lu deeply understood Zhang Ailing.

Chen Qing said, "Do you want to open some windows?" I'm going to choke you. ”

Chen Lu shook his head lightly and said, "It's okay, I don't know how to smoke myself, just smell the smoke." ”

Chen Qingdong smiled: "Smoking secondhand smoke is very harmful to health. ”

Chen Lu also smiled: "No matter how harmful second-hand smoke is, it should not be as harmful as a person who smokes first-hand smoke, right?" You're not afraid, what am I afraid of? Besides, life is so short, if you live so carefully in everything, it will be too boring. ”

Chen Qingdong nodded and agreed: "Yes, what you said is very philosophical." Indeed, I also think that people should not live too seriously in their lives, especially when they are young, poetry and wine take advantage of their youth! ”

Chen Lu said with emotion: "Yes, poetry and wine are in their prime!" Sometimes when I think back to the past, I don't think I'll ever be like this. ”

Chen Qingdong flicked the cigarette ash into a disposable paper cup next to him and asked, "If you are really given a chance to do it again, what do you want to do?" ”

Chen Lu said without much thought: "If I am really given a chance to do it again, I will definitely change my attitude towards marriage and career." In the past, I was too young, and I could only see a surface when I saw problems, thinking that I understood everything, but in fact, I didn't understand at all. Now I finally understand, but it's too late. The ancients said that there are ten things that are unsatisfactory in life, and there are no two or three people who can talk to others. That's a great saying! I read this sentence a long time ago, but it is only now that I really understand the helplessness in this sentence. ”

Chen Qingdong was silent for a moment and said: "Yes, if everyone can have a chance to do it all over again, then there will definitely be a lot of regrets in this world." ”

Then, Chen Qingdong asked again: "Chen Lu, in fact, I am also very curious, why did you marry Zhang Yulong, a gentleman, in the first place?" ”

After saying this, Chen Qingdong immediately felt that he was a little abrupt, so he immediately said: "I'm sorry, I said this sentence without thinking much for a while, I hope you don't mind." ”

Chen Lu smiled self-deprecatingly and said: "I don't mind this, there must be many people who think that it is a joke for me to marry Zhang Yulong, and many people think that I married Zhang Yulong completely because I coveted his family background, Secretary Chen, you should think so too, right?" ”

Chen Qingdong felt a little embarrassed, this obviously hit Chen Lu's pain point, but he did think so again, tonight, in such an atmosphere, Chen Qingdong didn't want to lie, so after hesitating for a while, he said frankly: "I do have some such thoughts, because with your conditions, if you don't consider Zhang Yunlong's family background, he will definitely not be worthy of you!" ”

Chen Lu did not deliberately defend herself, and said honestly: "Actually, I did have this reason when I married Zhang Yulong, but this reason is not all. I am a girl from an ordinary family, or even a poor family, with no money and no background, but I am more careful than the sky, and I always want to make a career and change my destiny. Originally, I hoped to change my fate by going to university, and since elementary school, I have had this idea, and I study hard every day, and my grades have always been in the top three of our school. Later, after I entered junior high school, my grades were also among the top in the grade, and I never fell out of the top ten. I believe that with my grades and my hard work, I will definitely be able to be admitted to high school and university in the future. ”

Speaking of this, Chen Lu's voice suddenly became a little low, and she was silent for a moment before she continued: "It's just that when I went to the third year of junior high school, my younger brother should also be in junior high school, our family is too poor to afford so many children to go to school, in order to provide for me and my younger brother to go to school, my eldest sister dropped out of school and went home to help farm before I finished junior high school, so my parents also told me that after I finished junior high school, I can't go to school anymore, or I will go home to help farm, find someone to marry in a few years, or go out to work, The same will marry in a few years. ”

"I don't want my destiny to be a peasant woman or a worker, and then marry a man who is also a farmer or a worker, I want to go to college and change my destiny! However, I told my parents that I wanted to continue studying, but when I was going to take the university entrance examination in the future, I was beaten and scolded by my parents, in their minds, girls are just spilled water, and they just need to find someone to marry in the future, and there is no need to go to college at all. My dad even told me that if I could finish junior high school, he would be completely worthy of me! I was really unwilling to succumb to my fate like this, so in the summer vacation after my third year of junior high school, I chose to take my junior high school diploma, ran away from home, and cut off relations with my family. ”