Chen Rong's tears shocked me very much.

In her cries, I heard a woman who was helpless behind the scenes, no matter how strong she was on the outside.

I got up and stood in front of Chen Rong, then squatted down, forcibly lifted her pear blossom and rainy cheeks, and ignored her ashamed dodge, and directly hugged her into my arms, letting the clothes on my chest be wet with her tears.

With the powerful soothing of my arm, she gradually became more and more at ease, and when she cried to the saddest point, she actually opened her mouth and bit my shoulder, leaving two rows of tooth marks.

Although there was an unbearable pain in my shoulder, I was like a statue, standing in front of Chen Rong, like a small mountain, no matter how painful it was, I would not shake it.

Maybe at this moment, Chen Rong regarded me as her conscienceless ex-lover, because in her eyes, at least I looked like him.

But even so, I don't really care in my heart.

All I care about now is whether my behavior can give Chen Rong enough comfort and make her feel as good as possible.

That's all.

I gently stroked Chen Rong's hair, as if this action was most useful to her, her crying gradually became smaller, and her body gradually became heavy.

I guess, she hadn't slept in two days, and now she finally had a shoulder for her to lean on, how could her tense nerves not grasp this life-saving straw and relax quickly?

It took a long time for Chen Rong's cheek to leave on my shoulder.

When she faced me again, she smiled, even though it seemed so bitter.

Chen Rong said, "Isn't my current appearance very embarrassing? ”

I shook my head and laughed, "You're already strong." ”

Chen Rong wanted to cry again, leaned forward, pressed her forehead on my shoulder naturally, buried her head and choked up, "I don't want to be strong, I'm too guilty." ”

When I heard this, I silently thought:

Probably for a woman, the word strong can sometimes be something imposed on her shoulders.

Like the shackles of antiquity, if this woman can have a man to rely on, why should she be strong.

As a man, I've always felt that it's good that women are only responsible for tenderness.

It should be a man who is responsible for facing it strongly.

I don't know if that's right.

After a moment of silence, I proposed, "You haven't eaten yet, why don't we go buy some fast food and find an unlit corner and sit down and eat slowly?" ”

Chen Rong thought for a while and said, "My daughter must be even more uncomfortable than me now." ”

The implication is that she shouldn't be like this now.

I naturally touched Chen Rong's cheek and said, "You cheer up first, so you can cheer her up." ”

Chen Rong's body trembled inexplicably.

Eventually, she agreed to my offer, and we went to buy a bucket of fried chicken, bought some beer, and went up a staircase in a small square nearby.

The side of the stairs is not without lights, but it is a little darker than the brightly lit street corners.

I took a fried chicken wing and handed it to Chen Rong, and helped her open a can of beer, and said, "Let's have a good meal, after eating, if you don't want to go home, I can accompany you to the hotel to sleep for a night, sleep well, and tomorrow, you can deal with things as they should be handled." ”

Chen Rong's face turned red, and for a while she was as shy as a little girl in her twenties.

I was stunned for a moment, and quickly said, "Don't get me wrong, I just want you to sleep comfortably, and I don't mean anything else." At this point, I paused and added, "I understand the pain of not being able to sleep, especially when I'm alone. ”

Chen Rong's emotional intelligence is not low, she understood what I meant, thought about it for a while, and also received my love, took a bite of chicken wings, and asked, "After Jiajia went to your house, what did you say?" ”

I took a sip of beer and said, "I went out at the time, my sister-in-law said that Jiajia is on the wrong path, timely adjustment, there shouldn't be any big problems, the main problem now is precisely you, if you can't have enough energy to cheer up, then Jiajia will definitely have problems, because she is not old enough to bear that, but you can." ”

Chen Rong also took a sip of beer, shook her head with a wry smile, and said, "It sounds so cruel, the more this happens, the more I feel wronged, and then I begin to wonder if I am a competent mother." ”

I said, "I understand, and then there is self-blame, self-blame that hurts to the marrow, and it seems that there is no way to escape that strange circle...... However, I can only say this to you, when such a thing happens, even if you are competent, you have become incompetent, and I say this not to make matters worse, but to keep you from sinking. ”

"Don't keep sinking......"

Chen Rong said with tears in her eyes, "It's so difficult, I even want to die, why is my fate like this?" I don't think I've done anything hurtful, I've been working hard, I still can't understand why I give Jiajia so much pocket money every month, why does she still take other people's money, and the reason why she takes other people's money is just to buy a damn mobile phone! Why didn't she tell me, why ......"

I said, "I want to hear your story." ”

Chen Rong looked at me for a long time, suddenly raised her head and drank the whole can of beer, and then began to tell me her story.

That's more than three hours.

Chen Rong said that she had a marriage before, which lasted for five years, and she was married to her son, but when she got married, Li Jia was already two years old, and when Li Jia was seven years old, the only time the man went abroad and came back was to divorce her......

As for the reason, the man was in love with another woman.

From Chen Rong's mouth, I heard her resentment towards that man, but at the same time, I also heard her forgiveness for that man, saying that it was normal for that man to wander abroad alone and fall in love with another woman, who let himself be busy with work all day?

In fact, I understand Chen Rong's unwillingness, the bitterness in her heart, the reason why she is busy with work is not for that man to live a better life abroad!

Chen Rong's resentment at the beginning also came from this.

What a bloody story, but it happened bloody.

More than three hours, in Chen Rong's words, almost covered her twenty years of love life.

How cruel.

Just like a person has gone through a lifetime, what can record his life is only one page, 31,600 days.

This is a sentence from a poem I have written before.

At that time, I was on a mission at the border, and when I suddenly heard that my grandmother had passed away, I was extremely depressed, and I inexplicably thought of my deceased adoptive father and adoptive mother, brother, and sister-in-law, and even the biological father who had no impression of it, and the biological mother I had never met.

At that time, I couldn't do some physical movements that stimulated the nerves, so I had nowhere to vent, so I could only rely on writing something to soothe my emotions, otherwise I would really be suffocated.

There are a few paragraphs in that poem, it takes a while for heavy rain to fall in the north, but in the eyes of others, it is just a line. One page, it takes thirty-one thousand six hundred days. If there are gods in the world, are all beings devils? Sleep, you fickle devil. Is it ideal for a hundred flowers to bloom, and it is a reality to be buried together. Bloom, that lake of mercury......

It's all a lake of mercury, the meaning is very simple, as long as you jump in, you can't get out, and the more you struggle, the faster it sinks.

I was in such a bad mood at the time, and I believe that Chen Rong's mood at this time was the same, the more she struggled, the faster she sank, and no one could save her.

Then I composed a piece of music for the whole song.

Now, I really want to sing that song to Chen Rong, but I don't have a guitar by my side, and even if I do, I don't know if I can sing it.

Because sometimes I feel that I have been an iron-blooded soldier, a pure man and a real man, how can I still have such a sour, gentle, girly, delicate side?

You may even feel like you are stupid.

It's a shame to show the products of these negative emotions to others.

After she finished speaking, she shook her head and said with a wry smile, "Do you think I'm stupid, in fact, what I said is not a big deal in the eyes of the third person." ”

I touched Chen Rong's hair and said with a wry smile, "It's okay, whose mental journey is smooth sailing?" Everyone has been stupid, and so have I, haven't I heard a great man say that? ”

Chen Rong seemed to be used to me touching her hair, and subconsciously asked, "What's the matter?" ”

I laughed and said, "Fools are the mother of intelligence." ”

A normal smile suddenly overflowed on Chen Rong's face, "Which great man has ever said such a thing?" ”

I smiled and said, "This great man in front of you." ”

Chen Rong was stunned for a moment, and said coquettishly, "Why are you so narcissistic!" ”

I shamelessly said, "I never feel that I am ordinary, nor do I think that every ordinary person is ordinary, the word ordinary is simply an insult to all mankind, besides, my bottom is really great, and everything I have seen is big." ”

Chen Rong laughed completely, pushed me, and scolded with a smile, "You are really a stinky rascal." ”

I shrugged my shoulders and said, "I don't deny it, just take it as a compliment." ”

Chen Rong suddenly became serious, looked at me and said, "But...... Thank you very much, I think you are not very old, but you are quite persuasive, better than many people. ”

I said, "That sounds like you're scolding me." ”

Chen Rong smiled again and pushed me again, "You are really cheap." ”

I said, "Thanks for the compliment." ”

At this time, Chen Rong suddenly kissed me on the cheek, like a dragonfly dotting water.

I was stunned, and then I saw Chen Rong looking at me deeply and said, "Let's go, let's go to sleep." ”

I was very surprised, I didn't expect Chen Rong to agree to sleep with me, thought about it, and said, "Manager Chen, I said before that I would sleep with you because I saw that you were depressed and wanted you to sleep well, and now that you are well, I think the most important thing you should do is to go back to accompany Li Jia." Do you think, the two of us sleeping, where can you and your daughter fall asleep in your arms? ”

Chen Rong shook her head and said, "I want to stay outside for two purposes, one is as you said, take a good rest and face the reality bravely tomorrow, and the other is that I want Li Jia to recognize the reality."

Since I was a child, she rarely leaves me, I need to let her try to think about something on her own, tonight is a good time, she needs to be afraid that I don't want her, afraid that I will leave her, and then I can prompt me to communicate better with her, you are right, I sleep with you, where is it better than me and my daughter hugging each other to sleep? But I think it will be better for me to fall asleep with her cuddling up to her tomorrow night. ”