Chapter 117: Frustration
Today, Li Chenxi said that if she wanted to quit, it really hurt Zhang Yuqian, she has been trying her best to be a qualified minister, and she wants to give everyone a warm feeling. But someone came to tell her now that because of the event, she had delayed her time, and Zhang Yuqian felt that she was a great failure.
Zhang Yuqian walked alone on the school road, reflecting on whether what she did was right or wrong during this period of time. What is the reason why the officer feels that it affects his personal time, and even wants to quit. This incident directly hit her confidence, and she felt that it was her personal reason, so she felt very guilty.
I couldn't help but go to the senior brother of the head of the art troupe, that is, her former minister. "Senior brother, I think I'm a failure, I actually failed to keep my officer, let her go like this. I've been reflecting on what I've done wrong, but I just can't think of anything I'm doing wrong, is it because I think she's so annoying and I've been hiding from her questions all the time?"
Now that I think about it, I have been avoiding Li Chenxi for a while, and I have not fulfilled the responsibility of the minister's senior sister to enlighten, so that she does not feel the warmth of home, so she wants to leave. "As a minister, I really don't know what I can do to make my officers feel a sense of belonging? I don't know why I'm going to leave this year, and it's only been a few months since I've been with me? Is it really because of my personal problems, I'm confused. ”
As a minister, it is really not easy, many times, as long as you are scolded from above, you have to take into account the emotions of the officials below, and the slightest carelessness will cause dissatisfaction among the officers. "Actually, I think you've done well enough, don't blame yourself so much now, it's not your reason, it's hers. It's not perfect, it's not perfect, it's great that you're doing what you are now. Last year, no one left, not because I managed it well, but because you were responsible and would not just pick and choose. The senior brother said patiently, because he didn't want his promising successor to be beaten up by this little thing.
Having said that, Zhang Yuqian still couldn't cross the hurdle in her heart, and she was still worried. The senior brother then comforted: "You don't have to be like this now, you didn't leave this term, but I left a lot of people in that session, and after that, a few of us finished things differently." Isn't my senior brother as decadent as you?" "I was optimistic about you and Liu Chengye, although Liu Chengye is gone, but you have carried it alone, and now that you have experienced such a little wind and rain, you are so sad, are you worthy of my trust?"
I really wanted to walk over and pat Zhang Yuqian's shoulder and give her a little strength, but then I thought that it was better to forget if men and women were kissed. Zhang Yuqian was chattering beside her, and her senior brother was listening beside her, not expressing her own opinions, just listening quietly.
After Zhang Yuqian finished speaking, the regiment leader said: "I understand your feelings now, but I still think you have to look away, we can't care what others do, but we can do our part." Well, don't feel guilty anymore, go back to the dorm room and get some sleep, and tomorrow everything will be fine. ”
Time passed little by little, Zhang Yuqian's mood gradually calmed down, and the whole person was not so depressed and decadent just now. Senior brother is right, you can't influence other people's choices, but you can choose to do your part. Since Li Chenxi has done this, why should Zhang Yuqian make herself so sad because of a person who can't be retained, it's not worth it at all.
"I understand, but I still feel that I am at fault, and in the days to come, I will take good care of those who remain, and thank them for giving me trust and supporting my work. That's right, this is the person who was full of confidence at the beginning, not so depressed just now. "I will do better in the future, believe me, I will not let you down, brother. ”
The senior brother of the regiment leader was very pleased, because he was optimistic about Zhang Yuqian's ability, if she wanted to stay in office, then Zhang Yuqian would be the next regiment leader, and no matter how bad she was, she would be a deputy regiment leader.
After Zeng Yihao found out, he also came over to talk to her: "No one can be perfect, and no one has a way to make others as they wish." So I don't think it's necessary for you to be so strict with yourself, then you will be very tired. Zhang Yuqian just attaches too much importance to these ethereal things, and she makes herself too tired, she never understands, don't worry too much about other people's affairs, and exhaust herself.
"When we go out on a trip or choose to go home, I think you need to relax now, you're pushing yourself too hard. Zeng Yihao really couldn't see Zhang Yuqian distressed because of other people's affairs, and it was better to make soup for him with this kung fu.
Suddenly it rained in autumn, and the two of them hid under the eaves of the school shop in embarrassment. The autumn rain is fluttering outside, but it is very warm under the small eaves. Zhang Yuqian was wearing a skirt, an autumn rain and a cold, and suddenly shivered, Zeng Yihao hugged her in his arms.
You don't need to be passionate every day, you don't need to be romantic every day, in fact, you only need a small action, which is enough to reflect this precious love. Ten years of cultivation in the same bed, a hundred years of cultivation by the same pillow, two people can know each other and love each other, these are all gifts from God and should be cherished.
From Zeng Yihao's concern, Zhang Yuqian was very useful. No matter how many years two people have been together, they will still be a little excited when they receive each other's care, at least the other party will always have their own existence in their hearts, and they will worry about themselves. "I asked Fang Shaoyuan to send us an umbrella, and we will be able to go back to the dormitory soon, you go back to the dormitory and take a hot bath to get chilled." "The soft-spoken voice is very beautiful in the ears, this is the most beautiful love words she has ever heard, I need to say that I love you, often on my lips, just need simple care is enough.
In the long wait, I finally saw Fang Shaoyuan, who was long overdue. On a rainy night, he held an umbrella and two umbrellas in his hands, and walked over step by step. Zeng Yihao and Zhang Yuqian looked at each other tacitly, and then smiled.
"You can still laugh, I knew that I slept in the dormitory, and you two were here in the rain. Isn't it romantic to walk in the rain, so you can walk back. Fang Shaoyuan's expression made Zeng Yihao push him and push him into the rain. Fang Shaoyuan was defenseless, he got wet in an instant, and immediately dragged Zeng Yihao into the water.
Two people in their 20s were making trouble in the heavy rain, and Zhang Yuqian was laughing under the eaves. They consciously did not drag Zhang Yuqian into the water, because the girl's resistance is relatively poor, and the autumn rain is too cold, and it is easy to catch a cold in the rain.
In the end, Zhang Yuqian was holding an umbrella, and Fang Shaoyuan and Zeng Yihao were playing in the rain. When he arrived near Zeng Yihao's dormitory, Zhang Yuqian asked him to go back to the dormitory, so he didn't have to send it, anyway, he and Fang Shaoyuan stopped by. Seeing what Zeng Yihao was going to say, Zhang Yuqian said directly: "Go back and take a bath, be obedient." It's okay for me and Fang Shaoyuan to go back, don't worry. I'm not going to be left alone, I'm safe. ”
Fang Shaoyuan snickered beside him, Zeng Yihao took advantage of his unpreparedness and pushed him, and accidentally fell to the ground, and his buttocks were immediately wet. Zeng Yihao was afraid that he would retaliate, so he immediately ran away, and Fang Shaoyuan couldn't catch up. can only put cruel words behind his back: "Zeng Yihao, if you have the ability, don't let me meet you tomorrow, otherwise I will definitely take revenge and be ashamed." ”
Zhang Yuqian didn't speak, but just held back her laughter and worked hard. "Neither of you are good people, husbands and wives follow me, and they bully me. We are far away from making bad friends by mistake. Fang Shaoyuan pursed his mouth, Zhang Yuqian felt so happy, but he didn't dare to laugh, he was really afraid that he would be angry.
"Tomorrow you can make an appointment with him, and I'll watch from the sidelines. Zhang Yuqian couldn't help it in the end, looking like he was afraid that the world would not be chaotic, Fang Shaoyuan looked depressed, he was really drunk to this little couple. One or two bullied him, and Fang Shaoyuan was very angry. "When I get to the dormitory, you should go back early, tomorrow's business will be talked about tomorrow, I look forward to your fight. ”
Stuffing the umbrella into Fang Shaoyuan's hand, Zhang Yuqian swaggered in, and Fang Shaoyuan looked depressed. Aunt Sheguan kept staring at him, her eyes were not good, and Fang Shaoyuan walked to the opposite side in a sneering manner. The aunt in this dormitory is known as the dominatrix, and many boys don't dare to stay longer when they send their girlfriends back, Fang Shaoyuan feels that tonight is not good, and there is no chance of winning a quarrel with her.
After bullying Fang Shaoyuan, and being enlightened by his senior brother Zeng Yihao, Zhang Yuqian's frustration was much less, and she returned to the dormitory humming a song.
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