Chapter 155: Death, Have You Ever Thought About It (2)
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Chen Ziyu handed the eye drops to Xia Qixi, Xia Qixi reached out to take them, but he stubbornly held them and refused to let them go.
"Stop making a fuss." Xia Qixi looked down at the pictures in the book and asked him not to joke.
"Why do you have this in your bag?" Chen Ziyu said and stretched out another hand with a clenched fist in front of Xia Qixi, slowly opened it, and a white medicine bottle was lying in the palm of his hand.
Xia Qixi's face turned pale instantly, and she forgot about this big hidden danger in her bag for a while, so she carelessly asked Chen Ziyu to go to the bag to help her find eye drops. She didn't want to explain, so she just tried to deal with the past, saying that she bought it for a friend before. As a result, Chen Ziyu grabbed her arm and pulled her up from the bed.
"Xia Qixi, you still have to lie in front of me now, do you treat me as a three-year-old child?" Chen Ziyu was really angry, and at the same time frightened, his voice was very loud when he spoke, but the tone he made was trembling.
He turned the white medicine bottle in his hand around, and raised it in front of Xia Qixi with an explanation: "You don't know what is written on it?" Sleeping pill! With so many measurements, it's simply not something that can be bought casually. ”
What he said was true, this bottle of sleeping pills was indeed obtained by Xia Qixi through a friend in the hospital after a lot of effort, she said that there was an elderly nervous breakdown at home, and occasionally needed to rely on this to help sleep, so she deceived her friend's consent. But Chen Ziyu is not a sentence or two or a few words that can be deceived in the past.
Seeing that Xia Qixi was silent, Chen Ziyu's hand on her wrist increased its strength, and I couldn't wait to crush her bone joints in my palm: "Why don't you speak, I still want to hear what excuse you have to say!" ”
"Okay, I'll tell you everything, but you let go of my hand first." Xia Qixi's wrist has been pinched by Chen Ziyu's bone joints white.
Chen Ziyu was already carried away by anger, and Xia Qixi refused to say anything, so he didn't care about controlling the strength in his hands, listening to Xia Qixi's slightly pleading voice, and after glancing at the wrist he was holding, he gradually relaxed his strength. Try to restore your almost lost sanity.
He admitted that he had never panicked and scared as much as he had just now, and Xia Qixi actually carried a bottle of sleeping pills with him. This was undoubtedly a bomb for him, and before the actual explosion had occurred, he was already wounded and completely wounded.
The measurement of a whole bottle of sleeping pills, everyone knows what it means, and he can't believe that Xia Qixi really had the idea of wanting to be a hundred for a moment. Is he really so hateful that she wants to give up everything? Even if you don't care about his feelings, don't you even think about your own biological parents?
The whole person finally lost all his strength because of the huge shock, and even the tone of his voice was paralyzed: "So, you really thought about death, right?" ”
He let go of his hand and stood in front of Xia Qixi, his whole person was gloomy, like a deflated ball, and continued to add in a particularly low voice: "It's because of me that you lost the courage to continue living." ”
Seeing him sad and sad in front of him, Xia Qixi's heart was not happy. Even if she wanted to say a few words to him, to say that it wasn't because of him, to say that everything was a misunderstanding, to say that she had never thought softly. She can't even deceive herself, so how can she hide it from Chen Ziyu.
Even if the wound that has only begun to heal has to be completely torn open, it is better than continuing to look at Chen Ziyu's existence that has been blaming himself in front of him because of this matter. Since they decided to try to be together, it is destined that the two of them will have to face not only the present and the future, but also the past that cannot be cut off no matter what.
In the past, it was the place where the fate of the two of them began, and there was a lingering involvement in this life.
The fate between Xia Qixi and Chen Ziyu has been cracked because of those misunderstandings and accidents, or the immaturity of the first encounter, which caused this fate to be unbearable. The years have been going around and around, and now they are meeting, since they are still the only ones in each other's hearts, no matter how much they pay, they must be together, and they will continue this broken fate.
Chen Ziyu's hand that had just let go was pulled back by Xia Qixi. Apart from tenderness and tolerance, there is no other emotion. She knew the pain in his heart, so she had to gently help him heal the wound with gentleness. Chen Ziyu had done these things for her a long time ago, but she didn't know about it.
Now, since she understood all this, she must do the same thing, just like he did when he treated himself.
Pulling Chen Ziyu to the edge of the bed and sitting down, holding his hand all the time, Xia Qixi patiently told him the story of this bottle of sleeping pills without the slightest concealment.
When she first bought this bottle of medicine, when she officially lost her child, she was depressed and lost confidence and courage in life, so she thought of ending this blank life in this way.
She had locked herself in the house for a whole week on a rainy night. My heart is empty, and my mind is always thinking of the image of the blood flowing out of my body that day, the coldness in the operating room, and the words I heard the doctor say in a trance. She really didn't have a good impression of the child before, and even had the idea of removing it when she first knew that she was pregnant, so now the result is to punish her. It's all because she had bad thoughts.
The thought was like a vine growing wildly in her brain, giving her a splitting headache, and she finally sat down in front of the mirror and held the bottle of medicine in her hand. A pile of white pills was poured into the palm of his hand, as if the past was vivid.
Then, there was a sound of footsteps and a heavy sigh outside the door.
Her parents who are already old, and their hearts are on her all their lives, which is really pitiful for the hearts of parents in the world. Since then, no matter how sad I am, I have never had such a thought. As long as I think of my parents' faces, I will try to live no matter what difficulties I have.
Later, I left the city where I lived and had my current job and life. It was not easy to get rid of yourself from the pain temporarily, and it didn't go well at first. So I occasionally use it to help me sleep. Gradually, everything returned to normal, but this bottle of medicine seemed to be a habit, and she put it in her bag.
Sometimes even I forget that I still have this thing in my bag. It doesn't matter to her, but for most people, it's definitely a big deal. Now because of her carelessness, she is seen by Chen Ziyu.
After listening carefully to Xia Qixi's words, Chen Ziyu held her in his arms: "Thank you, you survived bravely." Holding her face in both hands, his eyes were so deep that he wanted to engrave her in his heart forever: "But I still want you to know that even if you really do that, I will never leave you alone." Eternal life and eternity, whether it is life or death, I want you to always be by my side, if you want to escape, I will do whatever it takes, I will find you at all costs. ”
The lips kissed her forehead, leaving a hot mark. It's like a special mark, only he can see and find. No matter where she is in the future or what kind of face she changes, he will find her according to this mark, and bring everything back to his side, along with her heart.
This misunderstanding was finally resolved with the joint efforts of the two people. However, it also happened to give Chen Ziyu a reasonable excuse and an opportunity to take advantage of. Xia Qixi had no way to kick out his bedroom.
After Chen Ziyu lay down beside her, he naturally pulled her over and wrapped her in his arms. But fortunately, she has been facing Chen Ziyu all the time, so that he will not find out that she has always blushed face. At first, she didn't sleep well, and she was used to the night when she occupied a bed alone.
With the previous lesson, she didn't dare to move casually, so she could only open her eyes and look at the ceiling in a daze. The people who were still around didn't move, as if they were really asleep. Xia Qixi's beating heart gradually calmed down in this quiet night, and it didn't take long for him to enter the dream.
Hearing the sound of even breathing in his ears, Chen Ziyu opened his eyes. It was a dark night, and I saw the moon or a small star in what should have been a clear night sky. But what does it matter to him! At this moment, even if it is the end of the world, he has no regrets.
Early the next morning, when Xia Qixi opened his eyes, the position around him was empty. I don't know what I thought, my face turned red. When I got out of the bedroom, I saw Chen Ziyu busy in the kitchen, and the plates on the dining table were fried eggs and sausages.
Xia Qixi reached out and took a piece of sausage, and as soon as it was put in his mouth, Chen Ziyu came out of the kitchen.
"Little glutton, go wash your hands first."
After Chen Ziyu finished speaking, the things in Xia Qixi's mouth had already been swallowed, so he happily went to the bathroom to wash. Chen Ziyu took off her apron, looking at her energetic and good appetite, it seemed that the summer heat in the middle of yesterday was no longer a big problem.
"What do you plan to do after you quit your job?" How about working as an assistant for me all the time? Chen Ziyu looked at Xia Qixi and seemed to be in a very good mood today, and almost all the things on the plate in front of her were eaten by her.
After listening to Chen Ziyu's words, a piece of bread in Xia Qixi's mouth suddenly stuck in her throat, and she coughed a few times in succession, and finally drank the milk handed over by Chen Ziyu. Before she had time to tell Chen Ziyu about the resignation, she didn't expect him to know about it first.
However, this is not surprising, in terms of the relationship between Chen Ziyu and the company, I am afraid that as soon as Xia Qixi walked out of the office, Chen Ziyu had already received a call to report.
"Since you know everything, then by the way, I will also officially inform you, I have resigned, so from this moment on, I am no longer your assistant." Xia Qixi deliberately sat up straight, looking at Chen Ziyu who was laughing with a fearless expression.
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