He Tiantian has been sitting on the ground, in a trance, immersed in the pain of memories, unable to extricate himself. Pen % fun % Pavilion www.biquge.info

"Auntie, why are you sitting on the ground?" Zhou Zhicheng sat and looked at his aunt He Tiantian who was sitting on the ground, "Isn't it uncomfortable?"

He Tiantian woke up and said, "I...... I'm fine...... I'm fine......" While he was talking, He Tiantian quietly put the recorder in the pocket of his jacket.

Zhou Zhicheng helped his aunt He Tiantian to rest in the living room, and poured a glass of water by the way: "Auntie, you drink a glass of water." If you don't feel well, you say it, and I'll take you to the hospital. ”

"I probably didn't sleep well last night, and it's fine. You're covered in sweat, so go wash up. He Tiantian kept her head down and spoke, not wanting Zhou Zhicheng to see her helpless and resentful expression.

In this family, she is an outsider, and she will not face her at all.

"Alright, I'll take a shower. Auntie, if you're not feeling well, just let me know. "Zhou Zhicheng grew up in his grandmother's house, and he is very close to his aunt He Tiantian.

After Zhou Zhicheng went to the bathroom, He Tiantian returned to his bedroom with his collapsed and sour legs, and listened to the words in the recorder again.

He Tiantian burst into tears, choked silently, kept sobbing, and almost couldn't breathe.

She has been like a clown all her life, living in a lie carefully crafted by others.

Only now did she understand why she didn't see her parents, so that they couldn't turn a blind eye and hated Jiuquan.

Now she finally understands that her childhood sweetheart has not abandoned her.

Only now did she understand why the Qi family was harsh to others, but they were "generous and tolerant" to her, a person with a foreign surname who had no children.

Oh my God, what a stupid person she is!

He Tiantian felt extremely guilty in her heart, and her eyes unconsciously fell on the dressing mirror next to the bed. The woman inside is not young, her skin is fair, but her face has spots and wrinkles. Those bright eyes are no longer bright and clear when they were young, and a few strands of gray hair faintly appear in the hair.

He Tiantian reached out and touched his face, muttering to himself: "It's already old・・・・・・"

In the lie, she has lived for so many years, and suddenly understands the truth of the matter, she hates herself, and hates the Qi family who deceived her even more.

He Tiantian felt here, suppressed by the lie, and there was a voice in her head, urging her to escape from the cage made of lies as soon as possible.

He Tiantian put the recorder in her bag and went out of the house with the bag.

My mind went blank, and before I knew it, I walked to the train station, bought a ticket to Nanshi, and got on the train.

She wanted to go to her hometown to see where her parents once lived and to find memories of her childhood, because only that time and place had the most real experience in her life, and it was also the happiest time in her life.

Nanshi is about four hours away from Huai City, which is the speed of high-speed rail, and in the past, it took a day and a night.

He Tiantian sat in the car, lying on the small table in front of her, crying silently. The phone in the bag rings over and over again.

"Eldest sister, your phone is ringing!" reminded a middle-aged man on the side, thinking why Tian Tian fell asleep, so he reminded him loudly.

He Tiantian lowered her head, took out her mobile phone, and when she saw the two dazzling words "husband" on the phone, she suddenly felt extremely ridiculous and ridiculous, so she didn't answer the phone and turned it off directly・・・・・・

When the middle-aged man on the side saw this, he saw that this was a contradiction, pretended not to see it, and continued to talk to another person.

Looking at the black screen, He Tiantian's chest was a little less stuffy. No matter what, she will not forgive the Qi family.

The train arrived at the station, and He Tiantian got off the train with the flow of people and got out of the train station. Nanshi is very different from what she remembers. It's been more than ten years since I last came to Nanshi.

Standing in the crowded square, there are all kinds of business people in a hurry, there are lovers who discuss the itinerary together, there are people who sit on the newspaper with their families and wait for the bus, and there are also people who beg the elderly, children and disabled people everywhere with small bowls.

In this big square, you can also see the various states of life. Some people do it to survive, some people do it to live. But no matter who they are, no matter how hard they are, they are all living in the real world.

In the past, He Tiantian felt that she was lucky, but now she found that she was the saddest, like a shadow puppet, controlled by others, without freedom and self.

He Tiantian looked around, his eyes fell on the hanging oversized LCD sign in the square, and a host was interviewing the richest man in Suzhou Province.

This person is Huo Yingjie. He Tiantian also knows, to be precise, he knows Huo Yingjie when he was young.

This person's appearance has not changed much, the years seem to love him very much, and it has not left too heavy wind and frost on his face, the heroic square face, the eyebrows are thick and black, the bridge of the nose is straight, and the eyes are still so wise, as if they can see through people's hearts, and the inadvertent smile can always warm people's hearts.

The death of her parents made her very sad. When she needed someone to comfort her the most, she received the letter from Qi Jianguo to find someone to imitate Huo Yingjie's handwriting and write a broken book, she hated herself for being useless in her heart, and hated Huo Yingjie's unkindness.

In that era, compared with life, feelings are even more small and humble. She chose not to trust, chose to give up, and completely fell into the trap of lies.

After so many years, when she dreamed back at midnight, she still hated Huo Yingjie, hated his affection, hated his broken oath, and thought differently.

Now she knew she hated wrong.

If you miss it, it's for a lifetime!

He stumbled out of the square, hailed a taxi, and gave a place name in his hometown dialect that had changed its flavor: "Master, go to Big Elm Lane!"

The taxi driver was an old driver, and from He Tiantian's native accent, he could hear that He Tiantian had left his hometown for many years.

"I haven't been back for many years, right? The big elm lane is about to be demolished, and Huo Yingjie, the richest man in our Suzhou Province, wants to build a villa there. "The taxi driver is very talkative, and while driving, he explains how Nanshi has changed over the years.

He Tiantian looked at the regressing buildings, trees, and low-rise buildings in his memory, which were completely different and dizzying.

Even if He Tiantian doesn't speak, the taxi driver is still very talkative.

Listening to the familiar country sounds and looking at different environments, the restless and resentful heart also quieted down.

"The front is there. The taxi driver said, "Big Elm Lane, the most famous is the two big elm trees at the entrance of the alley, it is said that they are hundreds old, and they have been there since the Ming Dynasty." Now the big elm lane is also going to be demolished, and the local people, when talking about demolition, specially put these two trees in the negotiation contract, saying that these two trees have been for hundreds of years, and they have become fine, and they will bless the local people, and the demolition can be done, but the two trees cannot be cut down. ”

The taxi turned in front, and the two tall elms, as always, were growing strong upward.

When I was a child, in the summer, many people moved their small dining tables under the trees to enjoy the shade while eating.

On weekdays, these two big elm trees are also the favorite places for friends to play. Little boys roll hoops and marbles under trees, and girls like to throw sandbags, hopscotch and handkerchiefs.

In the evening, the adults come out to chat, brag to each other, Kan Dashan, the east family, the west family is short, it is very lively.

In addition to the rain, there will be a lot of laughter under these two big elm trees.

"Eldest sister, it's here, a total of twenty yuan. The taxi driver laughed, "These two elms are bigger, aren't they?"

He Tiantian nodded and said, "It's very big!

He Tiantian paid the money and got out of the car.

Walked under the big elm tree, looked up at the slim branches and leaves, the big elm tree is still a strong and vicissitudes of life, but the person is no longer the person he used to be.

Changed!

She now has a deeper understanding of this word!

He Tiantian entered the alley from between the two big elm trees, this alley is still so narrow and long, but the bluestone slabs on the road are not as bright as before, and near the wall, there are layers of dark green moss.

The people in the memory came and went, the laughter and laughter were gone, and the people on both sides had moved out, leaving only the dilapidated old houses and weeds all over the ground.

He Tiantian's eyes were sour, and when she looked around, the loneliness of Big Elm Lane was the same as her life, and it had lost its luster and vitality.