The dark night is like a fig leaf, which can hide the joys and sorrows of the human world. Especially at night in the countryside, it is not only surprisingly dark, but also surprisingly quiet. Except for the occasional few scattered stars in the sky, there was nothing, almost all of them were pitch black.

In the past, Tang Xiyuan enjoyed this qiē, but tonight, Tang Xiyuan listened to the play on his mobile phone

How many people walk but are trapped in the same place, how many live but seem to be dead

How many people love but seem to be separated, how many people laugh but are full of tears

Who knows where we are going, who understands what life has become

Whether to find an excuse to continue living, or to bravely move forward and break free from the cage

How do I save zài?

Wang Feng's "Cun Zài" was played over and over again, and Tang Xiyuan burst into tears and whimpered when she listened to it. On the sixth floor of the dormitory in this small village, even if he cried to death at night, no one would know, thinking of this, Tang Xiyuan felt even more helpless, and hugged his slightly fat body tightly with both hands. Ask myself over and over again how I'm going to save zài.

Looking back on his short 28 years, I really feel that I can't find the meaning of zài, and sometimes Tang Xiyuan even doubts why she came to this world. Is it just to go through this experience in vain? What is the joy of life, and what is the meaning of death?

At this time, Xiyuan thought of her childhood, she had never been loved since she was a child. I don't know what it's like to be loved, and I don't know how to love others. When I was a child, my parents quarreled almost every day, arguing about this today, arguing about that tomorrow, and even sometimes fighting. As long as her parents quarreled, they would call Tang Xiyuan and ask her who she was with, no matter how old Xiyuan was at the time, how afraid she was of facing the quarrel of adults. Whenever her parents quarreled, Tang Xiyuan could only stand next to her and cry, so she was timid and inferior since she was a child, and her New Year's wish every year was to hope that her parents would stop quarreling.

As she grew older, Tang Xiyuan looked at the classmates around her who looked more beautiful than the other, and one was happier than the family, Tang Xiyuan was even more inferior, and she didn't dare to talk to her classmates, for fear of being looked down upon, and she didn't dare to go to a big city to study.

After Tang Xiyuan finished his normal education, he returned to his hometown and became a full-time teacher. When Hee Won and the girl who took the exam with him arrived at Tongjing Elementary School, Hee Won saw two houses on the top of the mountain, one with three floors and one with six floors, and a small playground of about 400 square meters in the middle. Unknown trees are planted around the playground.

Hee-won and the girl stood on the playground and listened to the old principal who received her introduce the school. A gust of wind whistled by, and even though it was only September, Hee-won could feel that the temperature here was a few degrees lower than in other places. Xi Yuan tightened the clothes on her body, took a deep breath of cold air, and suddenly remembered what her mother scolded when she was a child, you are lazy, if you are lazy, no one will blow you if you want to drink the wind. Thinking of this, Yuan smiled, she was very satisfied with the current situation, at least there was enough wind here, and she didn't have to worry about eating.

And the girl who was traveling with her scolded at this time, "What the hell is this place, it's so cold, I don't want to stay here." "Obediently, just stay for a year, and after a year we'll find a way to transfer you out." The parents who followed her whispered comfort.

Xiyuan looked at the tsundere girl opposite, so envious! On the other hand, she found her bag alone, but she was used to being alone.

In the end, Xiyuan chose the 6th floor, where no one wanted to live, (in this elementary school, there are only 11 teachers, including two couples, and everyone thinks the 6th floor is too high and does not want to climb the building), while the girl who traveled with her chose to live on the 1st floor. Her parents said they wouldn't stay here for long anyway.

Xiyuan lived in the dormitory on the sixth floor for 7 years. In the past 7 years, she has watched the people around her come and go, one after another, and the girl who originally came with her has long been transferred to the county seat to be the mother of a child. And he is still alone, he has never thought of leaving, and he has no way to leave, the only thing that supports Xiyuan is the quiet dream every night.

In this rural place, a qiē is so peaceful, Tang Xiyuan lives alone in the room on the sixth floor, giving it to the children every day

After class, I went back to my dormitory early, cooked my own dinner, and then went to bed to read a book for a while, and waited to fall asleep.

In the dream, there was a boy with a sunny smile, baring his white teeth and sweet dimples talking to Tang Xiyuan.

Sometimes they're talking about math problems, sometimes they're eating together, sometimes they're laughing, sometimes they're ......

Although every time the dream ends, the boy disappears, and Tang Xiyuan is looking for it everywhere, but whenever dawn comes, Tang Xiyuan is still so happy, so happy, so happy! She longs for the night every day.

But this qiē may never have it again from now on. Because in the evening, Tang Xiyuan received a call from Xiao Furong, the only classmate who was still in contact.

The call came from the wedding banquet scene, Xiao Furong was obviously a little drunk, and her slightly drunk and excited voice came from the other end of the phone: "Xiyuan, Xiyuan, do you know? Then he sent a photo of the wedding banquet, Tang Xiyuan looked at the familiar and unfamiliar face in the photo, and the bride next to him who was smiling shyly, tears couldn't help but flow down, ticking on the ground, splashing in his heart.

She felt that her dream was shattered, and she listened to "Cun Zài" again, looking at the terrifyingly black sky from afar. At this time, Tang Xiyuan wished that she had the magic match of "The Little Match Girl"! Even if she could have a dream with that boy again if she struck a match!

Thinking of this, Tang Xiyuan laughed self-deprecatingly, in fact, I haven't seen the boy for 10 years, and the news of the boy was told by Xiao Furong, what squad leader was admitted to the Medical University, the squad leader worked in a certain hospital, and the squad leader .......

So the boy in Xiyuan's dream always remains the same as when he was in junior high school.

But Tang Xiyuan always dreamed that one day she would go to the city where the boy was. Will meet him again, will laugh with him again, and be happily together.

That's why Tang Xiyuan can live comfortably in the countryside every day. But a phone call shattered Tang Xiyuan's dream, and the dream didn't come true, what should I do from now on, Tang Xiyuan curled up her body into a ball again, sat on the ground on the balcony, feeling that her head was getting heavier and heavier, and her body was getting colder and colder......