"Huh?" Jessica's expression froze on her face, her gaze a little evasive.

"It's nothing," Ah Jiu smiled and said, "Let's eat first, and then we'll talk after eating." ”

Jessica silently picked up the chopsticks, and Ah Jiu also picked up the chopsticks, but both of them seemed to be absent-minded about eating, Jessica took the chopsticks and pestled them in the bowl, while Ah Jiu took the bowl full of dishes, but didn't eat a bite.

Suddenly, Jessica put down her chopsticks, looked up at Ah Jiu, and said, "How do you know that I'm not really pregnant?"

Ah Jiu raised his head and said, "I went to the hospital in the afternoon, and the doctor said that it would take eight days to detect pregnancy at the earliest, so we ...... It's only been a few days now?"

Jessica was dumbfounded, she didn't expect to make such a low-level mistake. Shame came from all sides, and Jessica covered her face, wishing she could get through a crack in the wall.

Ah Jiu smiled wordlessly and bitterly: "You are also stupid and cute, and you suddenly like to eat sour, can it represent pregnancy?"

Jessica suddenly became excited, put her hand down and stared at Ah Jiu: "You ignore me, what should I do?" No matter what, we have already had a relationship, maybe you think I'm in it for money, but I don't think so, you can not talk about my boyfriend, but you are my man, I am your woman, you can let go of me, but I can't let go of you." Saying that, Jessica's tears fell, and she stubbornly raised her head, not wanting the tears to fall: "I can only think of such a way, what else can I do?"

Ah Jiu didn't cry because of Jessica, his attitude was different, he made up his mind to make things clear today.

"I can understand your thoughts, but you know what. For me, even if you have my children, I won't necessarily fall in love with you. There is no affection between us, I will only see you as the mother of my children, not as my woman. ”

"Why?" said Jessica, her voice a little louder, "Why? Taeyeon, IU, you can accept it, why can't I? Because I'm not an artist now?"

"It's irrelevant. ”

Jessica got excited, slapped the table and stood up: "What is irrelevant! You're lying! You just like female idols, I'm out of girlhood now, I'm not an idol anymore, you think I'm worthless, right?"

"I don't define my woman by her value. ”

Jessica was speechless and sat down. Said: "Then what do you mean? I can hide it from Xiujing, and I won't cause you trouble, why don't you want to be my man, am I so bad?"

"You're good, you're good,"

"Bah," Jessica smiled disdainfully, "don't talk perfunctory, if I'm really good, good." Why don't you want me?"

"I'm not perfunctory, I can tell you honestly. The feeling you gave me that day. It's the most comfortable I've ever experienced, you seem to be able to guess what I need, and this Xiujing can't compare. ”

Jessica's eyes lit up with a look of hope and she said, "Then why ......?"

"Listen to me. Ah Jiu interrupted Jessica's words and said, "Maybe something like that." It sounds ridiculous to you, but I must tell you that I don't think lust can be greater than affection, I admit, in terms of desire. You have a fatal attraction to me, in fact, from the first time I saw you, I had that impulse, but I told myself that I could not succumb to this impulse, I had to refrain from it, because I was a human being, and I was responsible for my feelings, my lover. ”

"Then you still ......"

"I know you're going to say Taeyeon and IU, and that's part I'm going to explain. I do have different feelings for Taeyeon and IU, but we haven't had a relationship until now. It's not that I don't want to, it's not that they don't allow it, it's that every time I want to do that, there's always a voice processing in my heart telling me no, I can't do this. I am an orphan and have lived inside a temple since I was a child. I have a part of my affection that is missing, IU for me, she is my relatives first, my sister second, and then everything else. The ones that you see, for the most part, are not my needs, but hers' needs, and I know I'm doing the wrong thing, but I'd rather continue to be wrong than losing this loved one, this sister, it's a feeling. ”

"It's the same with Taeyeon, she can feel my thoughts, and we're very compatible. We can even make eye contact without talking. I like this feeling very much, like a soul mate, the last time I quarreled with Su-jing, it was for this reason that Su-jing actually didn't care much about me and other women, what she cared about was whether there was anyone else in my heart, I had to confess, Taeyeon had occupied a small position. ”

"For me, Xiujing is a person who is integrated. She can give me the feeling that IU gives me, she can give me the feeling that Taeyeon gives me, and she can give me the feeling you give me, she has collected all my favorite points, even if it is a flaw, I don't think it is a flaw. ”

"For me, feelings must come before desires, not reversed. I don't have feelings for you in this way, we are in a relationship that is out of control, I don't know what will happen if it continues, maybe I will develop feelings for you, but maybe I won't. That's so unfair to you, are you willing to be my tool to release my desires? I don't want to, although I'm not a good person, but I have a ruler in my heart, I have a bottom line, I can't bully you like this, you are Xiujing's sister, Xiujing is the love of my life, even if I'm a bastard and I cheat, the object shouldn't be you, that's too unfair to Xiujing, so our lives should be two parallel lines, and now something goes wrong, they intersect together, but they should also be two straight lines, there is only one intersection point, and there can be no second one. I can't give up Xiujing for you, even if you have my child, if you insist on a relationship based on desire, I still can't promise you. I will confess to Xiujing, and then ask her for forgiveness, even if she refuses to forgive me, I will not allow myself to accept a relationship that I am forced to accept, that would be irresponsible to anyone. ”

As Ah Jiu spoke, Jessica didn't say a word, staring at him. When he was finished, Jessica asked, "I'll ask one last question, now that you know I'm not pregnant, say these things to me, if I'm really pregnant, confirm it's your baby, are you still like that?"

"I'm still ......"

Jessica suddenly shouted, "Answer seriously!"

Ah Jiu was solemn, frowning and thinking about it, thinking about the situation that Jessica said, but he didn't give an answer for a while.

"I understand, because we don't have an emotional foundation, so you define the matter of having a relationship with me as ONS. Jessica smiled sadly: "What a typical man's idea, okay, I accept it, thank you for 10 billion." ”

"I ......"

"Don't say anything more, you go!" Jessica shouted at Ah Jiu, who had no choice but to get up and walk to the door.

Jessica didn't look back, she picked up the bowl and ate in a big gulp, tears falling down her eyes, mixed with the rice, and eating it all.

Ah Jiu sighed, pushed open the door and went out, and brought the door again, without making a sound. (To be continued.) )