Chapter 41 Reflections

Yuan Anping looked at the sky and said to Huo Xiaohan: "It's not early, I'll go and return the food box." You lie down and sleep, you have a cold...... Well, if you have a cold, it's better to rest more. It's not so uncomfortable to fall asleep. ”

"yes, okay." Huo Xiaohan felt a headache, and it did feel better to lie down and sleep.

Yuan Anping carried the food box, because it might take a long time to go, for the sake of safety, he told Huo Xiaohan to latch the door when he left.

Walking to the front hall, after saying hello to Dr. Hong, who was still seeing a doctor, he left Renhe Medical Center with his things.

Walking quietly on the road alone, looking at the antique buildings on both sides of the road, and the people in ancient costumes who came and passed by, in an instant, Yuan Anping felt like a lonely intruder, who should not belong to this quaint picture. His existence is so abrupt that it can't blend in with his surroundings. This feeling came too suddenly, too violently, and he stood on the side of the street in a daze, like a spectator, looking at the people who came and went, and there was a kind of confusion about where to go.

"Sir, sir, what's wrong with you?"

Yuan Anping, who was haunted by loneliness, heard a voice and looked in the direction of the voice in a daze, a child, who looked like a teenager, was looking at him with a puzzled gaze. Yuan Anping came back to his senses all of a sudden, and said with a somewhat sluggish reaction for a while: "Hmm...... Brilliant. ”

Gao Ming felt that Yuan Anping was a little different from usual, but he couldn't figure out what was different, so he couldn't help but ask curiously: "Sir, what were you doing in a daze just now?" I've seen you standing here stunned and motionless from afar. ”

Yuan Anping smiled at him and said, "It's nothing, I'm just thinking about one thing." How did you end up here? Gao Ming was the child of the family that made him a kang at the beginning, and he knew that the other party lived in the city, but he didn't expect to meet him so coincidentally.

Gao Ming smiled a little embarrassed and said: "I promised a good friend to teach him to read and write, his home is near here, I was planning to go home, I didn't expect to meet Mr. so coincidentally." ”

Yuan Anping smiled and advised: "Since you want to teach others to read, you must study carefully, otherwise, it will not be good if others follow and learn wrong." ”

Gao Ming nodded: "I have a very serious study, and I am afraid that I will teach it wrong, so I will teach it with my brother and brother first." ”

Yuan Anping nodded approvingly: "Yes, this rigorous attitude is very good." Being rigorous and conscientious can reduce the chance of making mistakes, and no matter what you do in the future, it is a good habit for you to stick to. ”

Gao Ming was very teachable: "I remember, thank you Mr. for teaching me." ”

Yuan Anping smiled and said, "Well, you're welcome. It's not too early, so you can go home quickly. ”

"Yes sir." Thinking of something, he hurriedly said to Yuan Anping: "My house is not far from here, do you want to visit my house as a guest?" ”

After hearing this, Yuan Anping politely refused: "Let's talk about it next time, I won't go this time, I still have some things to do." ”

"Okay." Gao Ming was a little disappointed in his heart, if he invited his husband home, the family would be very happy. However, he didn't insist on pestering the other party to go to his own house, and the scholar is very particular about etiquette and rules. He thought of the reason for their vacation this time and asked, "By the way, how is Huo Xiaohan doing?" ”

Yuan Anping replied: "It's not a big deal. I should be able to teach you normally in about three days, and I happen to run into you, so I have to trouble you to help me talk to the students in the city. ”

After hearing this, Gao Ming said with a sense of mission: "Sir, don't worry, this matter is on me, and I will definitely notify everyone." ”

Yuan Anping smiled and said to him: "Okay, then it's up to you." ”

Gao Ming glanced at the food box in Yuan Anping's hand and said to him, "Sir, go and do your business, I won't delay you." I went home first. ”

Yuan Anping: "Okay, let's go home early." ”

After watching Gao Ming leave, Yuan Anping sighed. He pinched his forehead, he knew what was wrong, and he also understood that there were some things that could not be escaped.

After returning the food box, getting back the deposit, and ordering a sweet soup with the store, Yuan Anping wandered around the city for a while. I looked around, and on the way back, I passed by the restaurant, and with a food box in one hand and a basket in the other, I went back to the hospital.

Yuan Anping came to the door with his things and knocked on the door. Seeing Huo Xiaohan who came to open the door, he asked with a smile: "How is it, are you hungry?" ”

Huo Xiaohan smiled: "One point, it's not very hungry." Seeing the food box in Yuan Anping's hand, he couldn't help but ask, "You won't buy that white fungus again...... Lotus seed soup, right? ”

Yuan Anping put things on the table: "No, it's another kind of sweet soup, you drink it, it is said that it tastes very good." Rest assured, this one is much cheaper than white fungus lotus seed soup, and it doesn't cost much. ”

Huo Xiaohan was a little entangled in his heart, he knew that although the other party said so, it would not be too cheap. Thinking that he had let Yuan Anping spend so much money, he felt very guilty.

Thinking that at this point in time, the meal in the kitchen should almost be ready, Yuan Anping said to Huo Xiaohan: "You sit down first, I'll go to the kitchen to get food." As he spoke, he took out some of the apples from the basket.

When Huo Xiaohan saw the fruit, his heart became even more entangled. Because of the vast territory of the Wei State, there were some places in the south that had fruits and vegetables even in winter, and the merchants transported the fruits from the south to the north, and the people in the north also had the opportunity to eat the fruits. It's just that because of the long distance, it costs a lot, and because of this, the price of winter fruits is relatively expensive. Looking at the fruits piled on the table, Huo Xiaohan had never eaten them before, and he didn't know the price, but he just felt that it must be very expensive.

Yuan Anping also dared to take out the apples in the space because he knew that there were also places to buy fruits in winter. There are also a lot of fruits in his space, of course, they are all more common types, the most are apples, then bananas, and two watermelons, a little strawberry, what was cheap to buy at that time, and the amount was not much.

Seeing that there were still eight apples in the basket, Yuan Anping went out with the bamboo basket, not noticing Huo Xiaohan sitting at the table and looking at the apples in a daze.

When he came to the kitchen, he saw a woman in her fifties who was busy working, Yuan Anping greeted him with a smile and said, "Aunt Wang, I've worked hard for you." ”

Aunt Wang smiled and said, "It's not hard, it's not hard." Yuan Gongzi came a little early, and he had to wait for a while for this meal. ”

Yuan Anping smiled and said, "It's okay, I bought some fruit and took it here to wash it." ”

After hearing this, Aunt Wang pointed to a bucket: "Use the water in that bucket, the water in it is clean." ”

"Okay, thank you." As he spoke, he found a porcelain basin with some water and washed a few apples. After washing the apples, he shook off the water in his hands, feeling that the water in winter is really cold, so he took out a handkerchief from his arms and wiped his hands. He has also recently made it a habit to carry a handkerchief with him.

Yuan Anping washed the apple and took one to Aunt Wang: "Here, don't dislike it." ”

Aunt Wang hurriedly refused, saying, "Oh, this can't be helped." How can I take such a precious thing, you can keep it for yourself. ”

Yuan Anping put it on the table: "It's okay, I bought a lot, you can accept it." As he spoke, he lifted the basket, "I'll go back first, and I'll come back to get food later." ”

Aunt Wang looked at the apples on the table, carefully put them away, and planned to take them back to share with her grandchildren. Thinking of Yuan Anping, who was wearing a blue robe and looked like a scholar, he couldn't help but sigh with emotion: "This Yuan Gongzi is really different. ”

Yuan Anping carried things out of the kitchen, and saw a small figure sitting on the flower bed in front of him, holding his chin with both hands, looking troubled. He couldn't help but walk over and ask, "Xiao Yi, why are you sitting here?" "This little guy is Dr. Hong's only grandson, and it is said that Dr. Hong's son and daughter-in-law suffered a disaster, leaving the grandfather and grandson to depend on each other.

Hong Yi heard Yuan Anping ask, looked up at him, and sighed deeply.

A six-year-old little guy, sighing like a little adult, this person's appearance of a little ghost is really funny. Yuan Anping couldn't help laughing, sat down next to him, and asked, "It seems that you have something on your mind." Let's talk about it, what is the trouble that can make you sigh so much? ”

Hong Yi sighed again, then wrinkled his bun face, and said to Yuan Anping with a very troubled look: "Grandpa wants to test me for memorizing the name of the medicine at night, but I haven't finished it yet." I'm afraid that grandpa will be angry, and grandpa will look so scary. ”

After hearing this, Yuan Anping looked helpless: "I'm sorry, you haven't finished memorizing, and I don't have anything to do." But are you really unable to remember? Or is it because you don't have a good memory because of playfulness? ”

Hong Yi heard Yuan Anping ask, lowered his head and pinched his fingers, and said with some confidence: "I saw Brother Cheng and them playing, I want to play too, and I don't like to memorize the name of the medicine." He looked at Yuan Anping, "Brother Yuan, you see that you don't have to memorize the name of the medicine, but I am the only one who has to memorize it, and I can't play with Brother Cheng and them." I don't like to memorize the name of a drug, and I don't want to be a doctor. I want to be a chivalrous guest, Brother Cheng said, chivalrous people are so powerful. You can also play everywhere. ”

Yuan Anping looked at Hong Yi, unless he liked it, he couldn't expect a six-year-old child to understand the importance of learning. In their hearts, play is more important than anything else. What's more, it's when you see that others can play, and you have to endorse it.

Yuan Anping thought for a while and asked Hong Yi: "Xiao Yi, have you ever been sick?" ”

Hong Yi nodded: "Yes, I want to drink bitter medicine, it's too bitter, I don't want to drink it." ”

Yuan Anping smiled and said to him: "The medicine is hard to drink, but it's also very uncomfortable to be sick, right?" ”

Hong Yi furrowed his small eyebrows: "Well, it's uncomfortable, my nose hurts, and my head hurts." It hurts here too. He said, pointing to his throat.

Yuan Anping: "Yes, it's very uncomfortable to have a cold. But Xiao Yi, you don't know, there are many, many diseases, which are more painful than wind and cold. So, if you get sick, if you don't have a doctor to treat you, you have to be very uncomfortable all the time, it's very painful, and you can't get better. Isn't it particularly scary to think about? ”

"It's been uncomfortable, can't it be good?" Hong Yi asked with a frown.

Yuan Anping nodded: "Yes, without a doctor to prescribe medicine, if you don't take medicine, you can't get better." It's going to be hard all the time, it's going to be painful all the time. Scary, right? ”

Hong Yi nodded when he heard it: "It's terrible, it's not good all the time, it's going to be very uncomfortable." ”

Yuan Anping said step by step: "Therefore, if there is no doctor, it will be very troublesome, and if you are sick, you will not be able to get better." Think about it, doctors can cure such uncomfortable diseases, how powerful they are. Also, doctors can actually go to many places to play like chivalrous people. That kind of doctor seems to be called a traveling doctor, and you can also make money by treating people by playing all the way. With the money, you can keep playing. How good it is to be a doctor, much better than a hero, I don't know how a hero makes money. How can I buy delicious food without money, how can I ride in a carriage? ”

Hong Yi asked with some disbelief: "Really?" A doctor is better than a hero? ”

Yuan Anping said with certainty: "Really." Heroes can save people, and doctors can save people. Heroes can play everywhere, and doctors can actually play everywhere. Moreover, you must not know that if you want to be a hero, you have to practice, and the practice is very hard, and you have no chance to play. Also, as the saying goes, if you want to beat someone, you must first learn to be beaten, and if you are a hero, you must be beaten first. You have to let someone who knows kung fu beat you, and someone who knows kung fu beats someone, which is much more painful than ordinary people! ”

Hong Yi's eyes widened in surprise: "You want to hit me!" Do heroes have to be beaten? ”

Yuan Anping nodded: "Yes, you can't become a hero with very powerful martial arts all of a sudden, so when you're not so powerful, don't you have to be beaten by those who are more powerful than you?" ”

Hong Yi felt that it made sense, and then said with some fear: "Then I won't be a hero." However, when the doctor has no time to play. Can I not be a doctor? ”

Yuan Anping pretended to think about it very seriously, and then said to Hong Yi, who was looking forward to it: "Xiao Yi, no matter what you learn or what you do in the future, you can't have a lot of time to play." Actually, you can do this, didn't your grandfather teach you medical skills? As long as you quickly memorize what he teaches you, won't you have a lot of time to play? ”

Hong Yi asked a little worriedly: "What if I can't remember?" ”

Yuan Anping comforted: "Don't worry, how can Xiao Yi be so smart that he can't remember, it's just that you are not very serious." If you take it more seriously and pay more attention, you will definitely be able to remember. Remember my words, if you can't memorize it, it must be because you are not serious enough, as long as you are serious, you can memorize it. ”

Hong Yi thought for a while and said, "Okay." I'll be a doctor, and my grandfather wants me to be a doctor. ”

Yuan Anping said with a very respectful look: "Yes, how good it is to be a doctor, you can save people, you can make money, and you can play everywhere." Your grandfather is a doctor, you can follow and be a doctor, many people can't be a doctor if they want to! ”

Hong Yi was very happy to think about it: "Yes, Brother Cheng, they all say that my grandfather is amazing." ”

Yuan Anping encouraged: "You will definitely be as powerful as your grandfather in the future, if you work harder and be more serious, you may be even more powerful than your grandfather." ”

Hong Yi asked happily: "Can I be better than grandpa?" ”

Yuan Anping nodded affirmatively: "Of course you can." As long as you take it harder and work harder, you can be more powerful than your grandfather. He coaxed Hong Yi so much because Dr. Hong must want his grandson to inherit the mantle. Ancient doctors paid great attention to inheritance and would not take apprentices lightly, and Dr. Hong wanted his grandson to inherit his medical skills, and he also understood the psychology of the other party. In this case, it is better to like it, otherwise Hong Yi can only fight with Dr. Hong, not to mention the result, the process is at least not good.

Looking at Hong Yi, who was happy on the side, Yuan Anping took two apples in the basket and gave them to him: "One for you, one for your grandfather." ”

Hong Yi looked at the apple and wanted it very much, but he shook his head: "Grandpa doesn't let me accept other people's things casually." ”

Yuan Anping smiled at him: "It's not called casual collection, we both know each other, and we have said so many things, what is it to collect something." You see, I still have it in my basket, and it's nothing to give you two. Come, take it. As he spoke, he put the apple in his hand.

Hong Yi hesitated, but he also wanted to eat apples, so he took it with a smile: "Thank you, Brother Yuan." ”

"You're welcome." Turning his head and seeing Dr. Hong coming over, Yuan Anping got up. Hong Yi also stood up from the flower bed.

Dr. Hong looked at the apple in his grandson's hand, which made Hong Yi very nervous, thinking that the apple was going to fly away. As a result, Dr. Hong said to Yuan Anping with a smile on his face: "Thank you Yuan Gongzi." ”

Yuan Anping replied with a smile: "You are polite, it's just two apples, and thank you for saving Xiaohan." ”

Dr. Hong smiled and didn't talk about the topic anymore, but asked, "Is your husband's health better?" ”

"Husband?!" Yuan Anping's heart was shocked, and he was stunned after hearing this.

Dr. Hong smiled and continued: "I'll check his pulse again tomorrow, you don't have to worry, your husband only needs to recuperate, and it won't be a big deal." ”

Yuan Anping replied indiscriminately.

Hong Yi held two apples, looked left and right, and then asked, "Grandpa, can I eat fruits?" ”

Dr. Hong looked at his grandson and said, "Yes, but you have to soak it in hot water before eating." Then he looked at Yuan Anping and said, "Your husband should not eat cold, you had better soak it in hot water before giving it to him." ”

Yuan Anping nodded: "I remember, Doctor Hong, I'll go back first." ”

Dr. Hong looked at Yuan Anping, who was leaving with a restless look, stroked his beard with a smile, and then looked at his grandson who was looking at Apple Le and said, "Xiao Yi, I won't take the test for you today, and I will take the test tomorrow, you must remember it." ”

As soon as he heard that he could escape the catastrophe temporarily, Hong Yi was very happy, and felt that he was really good today, he had fruit to eat, and he didn't have to memorize the name of the medicine, so he squinted his eyes and said, "Grandpa, let's go back to the house, I want to eat Guoguo." ”

Dr. Hong: "Eat after dinner, don't worry, no one will rob you." ”

Although I was a little sorry that I couldn't eat it right away, I was happy to think that the apple wouldn't run.

Yuan Anping came to the door with a worried face, thinking of Dr. Hong's words, for a moment he couldn't push the door open as calmly as before. Standing in front of the door and pondering for a while, it was not a way not to go in, so I pushed the door and walked in.

Huo Xiaohan, who was originally in a trance, heard the sound of the door, looked up, and saw that it was Yuan Anping, with a smile on his face: "I'm back." ”

Yuan Anping was stunned for a moment, and tried to keep his expression as usual and replied: "The meal will have to wait for a while." He took out the washed apple and said, "I met Dr. Hong's grandson just now and talked to him for a while. That little guy is a big ghost, and it's very interesting. ”

"Dr. Hong's grandson?" Huo Xiaohan hadn't seen Hong Yi yet, and for Dr. Hong, he was very grateful to the other party for saving him.

Yuan Anping: "Yes, I heard that he is six years old, about the same age as Fat Dun." ”

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At night, when everything is silent.

Because of something in his heart, Yuan Anping did not fall asleep. Listening to Huo Xiaohan's sleeping very peacefully, he got up lightly.

Outside the door, look at the courtyard lit by moonlight. On a moonlit winter night, it feels a little brighter than ever. He put on his scarf and sat down at the stone table in the courtyard. Leaning on the stone table, looking at the bright moon in the sky, the cold came from all directions, he didn't care much, the cold could make his messy mind clearer.

Before he knew it, he had been in this world for more than a month. However, he did not have a real understanding of this world until now. He didn't get along with the people in the village much, and even avoided getting along with them at the most of the time, and most of the people around him were simple and ignorant children. Although he said that he was afraid of trouble, in fact he knew that he was afraid, afraid of coming into contact with the people here.

Leaving the original familiar qiē and coming to a completely unfamiliar world, a world where you can't find anyone like yourself, this doesn't mean that you can live a rich life and get over a qiē. He has lived in the original world for more than 30 years and has formed an established outlook on life, worldview and values. And this world is completely different from the original world. He understands that he can't compromise and accept that the world is completely different from what he can accept, so he can only live with a knot in his heart, because he knows that he can't compete for the whole world alone.

He understands that this world is different from the original world, and because of the difference, he actually doesn't have much security. There is no talk of equality for everyone, only a hierarchical class concept, the household registration system divides people into three, six, nine, and so on, and there are slaves who can be bought and sold at will, and they can buy and sell people, which is still a legal behavior, which makes it difficult for him to accept. There is no concept that life is more important than a qiē in this world, but there is a powerful person who can decide life and death, and there are parents who can kill their children without breaking the law.

In this world, there are too many existential beings that he can't accept, and all he can do is close himself off, and he can't deceive himself when he doesn't see it, because he can't change the world, and he can't accept those that make him feel cruel. He can't compromise, and he doesn't want people to feel like a weird being who doesn't fit in, so he doesn't have contact with the people in the village, but he doesn't want to live alone, so he prefers to contact children who have not been fixed by the dogma of this world. He knows that he doesn't want to live uncomfortably, so he can only live a confused life. It's a pity that there are too many things, and it backfires.

Thinking of what Dr. Hong said, he didn't expect that in the eyes of the other party, Huo Xiaohan was his husband. It was only then that he realized that he seemed to have done a lot of things that were okay in modern times, but not out of place in this world. It was only then that he suddenly realized that things had taken an embarrassing turn before he could react.

He still remembered the scene when he first saw Huo Xiaohan, as a modern person, he had never seen a living bullied child who couldn't even eat enough, so he felt pity. All he can do without money is to give some food and care, because he knows that the person who has been abandoned by everyone cares most about having a person who really cares about him. As long as there is a person who still treats him sincerely, he does not have to completely deny himself, he has the courage to live.

He originally planned to wait for this winter, when he came up with an idea to make Huo Xiaohan have the ability to make money, he could leave it alone. The so-called teaching people to fish is not as good as teaching people to fish, they have the ability to make money, and they have the ability to live without relying on others, so that people can be more confident. It's just that things didn't go as he expected, and all the Qiē came too suddenly. Originally, the most troublesome result he expected was that the Huo family found out that they had given Huo Xiaohan food. However, he thought that even if the other party knew, at most he would just come to blackmail himself and secretly extort some money, but he didn't expect that they would use the topic to make a fuss, and he didn't care about Huo Xiaohan's reputation at all, and even wanted Huo Xiaohan to marry him. In the end, he overestimated the Huo family's friendship with Huo Xiaohan, he thought that after all, he was biological, and he always cared a little bit about it, but he also underestimated his own oil and water in their hearts.

Yuan Anping felt very guilty about causing Huo Xiaohan to be seriously ill, in the final analysis, the cause of the incident was caused by his too inconsiderate work. The guilt in his heart, coupled with his anger at what the Huo family had done, made him do something to help Huo Xiaohan break off his family. He knew that he had done it again, but what he was thinking at the time was that if he broke off his relatives, he would be able to take people out, and he would be able to take people to see a doctor, even if it was ...... Even if people can't be saved, as he said, Huo Xiaohan was born as a member of the Huo family, and death will no longer make him a ghost of the Huo family, and he will not be reincarnated in such a family in the next life.

It's just that in the eyes of others, he thinks so much about Huo Xiaohan, but he has a personal affair. I had been worried about Huo Xiaohan's illness before, and I didn't use my brain in this area, but now that I think about it, it is really not a trivial matter that concerns Huo Xiaohan's reputation.

For Huo Xiaohan, he was pitiful at first, but after getting along, he became familiar with it, and he treated him like a younger brother. He really didn't think about anything else, not to mention that he never thought about the fact that he liked men, even if he really liked men, he was in his thirties at a psychological age, and he couldn't think much about a child who hadn't had his sixteenth birthday yet. It's just that the question now is ...... I unknowingly became a couple with each other in the eyes of others.

He took a long breath. He will not shirk his responsibility, if Huo Xiaohan really wants to marry him and ask him to be responsible, he is willing to marry, and he will be good to the other party, there will definitely be no three wives and four concubines or something. Of course, he didn't have a narcissistic idea that Huo Xiaohan liked him. The only thing he was worried about was that if one day, Huo Xiaohan had a sweetheart and hindered the other party's relationship because of himself, then he would be too guilty. I made up my mind to keep an eye on the point carefully, and when I saw who he liked, I tried to make that person believe that the two of them were really nothing. Thinking of this, he couldn't help but diverge his thinking. He felt that Huo Xiaohan should find a knowledgeable person, a smart person, who would not believe the rumors of the so-called relatives, and had to be good to him, because of what happened to this child, his personality was a little soft, his attitude towards life was a little negative, and he was very insecure. Come to think of it, people who are knowledgeable and smart don't seem to be easy to find. But fortunately, Huo Xiaohan is still young, and the age of Shuang'er is generally older because it is not easy to marry. He feels that everyone has their own destiny and can always meet the right person...... bar.

Thinking of marriage, Yuan Anping couldn't help but think of himself in his previous life. Because of the early death of his parents, he has always wanted to have a family of his own. He doesn't have much pursuit of love, in his concept, love is not a necessity for marriage, and it is important to be suitable for food, but he wants to have a home. He has a wife who knows cold and hot at home, and has lovely children, so he has been working hard to make money. He also had two girlfriends, the first was a colleague, and they broke up after less than a month of dating, because he had no father, no mother, no money and no house. The second girlfriend was introduced by a friend, dated for more than a month, and broke up for the same reason. Later, I tried to go on a blind date, but unfortunately it never worked, and many of them passed him without meeting. As the year drags on, it becomes even more difficult to find the object. Later, he looked down, or rather looked away. Many things can't be forced, he no longer cares about marriage, waits naturally, and is committed to living his life well. It's just that I didn't expect that I thought I would struggle to survive in the last days, but I came to a completely strange world.