In short, Wang Yaling may be a very rare girl. I really can't figure out how such a girl can be emotionally frustrated.

But in terms of my financial conditions at the time, I was not worthy of her at all. If you become a writer, it's a different story. There was also a letter from a girl I didn't know. After reading the letter, I learned that the girl's name was Zhang Xiaojuan. She is Zhang Qiuhong's cousin.

The girl was admitted to the town because she was the first in the township and the second in the county to be admitted to the high school.

Just because I said in my letter to her cousin that I was a chef, and after reading her cousin's letter, she said that she was a "water hibiscus", and after reading the letter from her cousin, Zhang Xiaojuan thought I was a complete hypocrite, and wrote me an almost "swearing" letter without her cousin's knowledge.

I didn't write down the contents of the letter at the time, but I had to tell it in a narrative way.

First of all, she suspected that my chef technique was a half-bottle, and scolded me for being colored, fragrant and tasteless, a dish that seemed to be good, but tasteless. Actually, she completely guessed my heart.

You want to say that the girl really deserves to be the "leader" in the county, and her head is good. Her cousin Zhang Qiuhong treated me as a star and threw herself to the ground with admiration. She saw me as a tasteless dish.

And this guess was made without seeing me at all, but only a letter I wrote, can you say that she is not smart? I knew I was such a person.

But where can I admit it? He pretended to reply to her with a letter. In the letter, I compared her to Jiang Qing and the Empress Dowager Cixi, and I said that she knew bad marriages at such a young age, and when she grew up in the future, she would definitely become a disaster for the country and the people.

Now that I think about it, I did a great job. After all, the girl was only a teenager at the time, and she was a child at best, and it was so wrong for me to belittle people like that.

If that girl becomes one day a pillar of the nation, I will be notorious as a virtuous person. This will be a traitor and traitor in disguise. The reason why I scolded others like that was because they saw my sincerity and exposed my hypocrisy.

Am I not like that? Didn't I go to Wang Yaling and write letters to other girls, including her cousin Zhang Qiuhong, when I was about to talk about marriage with Xiaolan?

Yes, how filthy and vile the human heart, including myself, is sometimes so filthy and vile!

Now I'm thinking, if one day, maybe my novel will become popular, maybe I'll be old, maybe my children's marriages will be done, and I'd love to go to this girl and apologize to her seriously, and atone for the sins I used to scold her.

I wish she could forgive me.

Not long after my letter of reply to the scolding was sent, Zhang Qiuhong personally sent a letter of apology. In the letter, she said that her cousin should not have said those things, etc. She also told me that her cousin cried all night after reading the letter I had written. If it weren't for the family watching her, she might have chosen to commit suicide.

When I saw this, I couldn't help but smile on the corner of my mouth, that Lu Xun once scolded Chen Xiying, and scolded her for failing to promise. Now I am scolding Zhang Xiaojuan again, and she almost wants to commit suicide. This is also a kind of ability!

Hey, now that I think about it, I was also young and vigorous. That Zhang Qiuhong also told me to let me take a bus to Lushan County Railway Station from the 19th to the 20th of January. She was waiting for me there and said that she was wearing a short gray-white trench coat on the top and a purple eggplant hakama on the bottom, and that she had the hair that the students raised.

She also said that she would wait there whether I went or not. I thought about it, but I still didn't go that day. Because I've already talked to Xiaolan about getting married. Moreover, judging from Zhang Qiuhong's photos, she is not as beautiful as Xiaolan at all, and she is not as tall as Xiaolan.

Another important reason is that I don't dare to go. In my reply to her cousin, I said that I was a chef and asked if anyone had ever eaten shredded pork with fish flavor and back to the pot. If I really go, wouldn't it be revealing if I made these two dishes that I only knew by name and didn't know how to cook?

Her cousin grabbed me by the handle, didn't she put me under her feet and step on me? It's better not to think about it. I didn't go.

All in all, I may have failed that girl. Maybe it's vanity. In fact, if I do go, even if I don't know how to cook, explain more to her, apologize to her cousin, maybe I can make a good marriage. Who knows?

At this point, readers may say that I am distracted. You'll say that Xiaolan and I are about to talk about getting married, and we're still in touch with other girls. I would say that I didn't bother at all.

It doesn't matter if Xiaolan is ready to marry into my family or not, but she hasn't married into my family yet, so she can't be considered my daughter-in-law. And what about brides who run away on their wedding night? In this case, wouldn't it be okay for me to contact a few more girls for later use?

The third letter I received was from the man who adored me. He congratulated me on finding my other half. I wrote back to him telling him that I had found Xiaolan and thanked him for the word I had given him.

He said that if he encounters anything in the future, he should dare to "try" like me.

The fourth letter I received was from the man who helped a beautiful girl write a letter. His letter poured cold water on my love for literature.

He said that he showed the girl my letter, and that the girl had a good impression of me when she listened to the radio waves, but when she heard that I liked to "climb the lattice", she was not ready to contact me. She said that she hated people who "climbed the lattice" the most.

Do you know what I did after reading this letter? I burned all the literature books that night. Just for the sake of the girl I had never met, I said the phrase "I hate people who climb lattices", and I burned all my beloved literary books.

I'm such an impulsive person! When my sister found out about this, she said to me, "It's hypocritical that you love literature." Since you love literature, you should stick to it, and you shouldn't burn literary books just for what people say.

I now admit that I was a little contrived. However, for a lover of literature, who has not even published a "tofu block", do you think I can not be angry?

Another reason why I burned books was that I felt that I was not as good as Wang Yaling. I don't think my literary talent can even be compared to an ordinary literature lover, what else do you want to be a writer?

If I had burned those literary books and stopped indulging in literature, maybe I would have lived a brilliant life. But I just let the ghost get confused. Soon after the books were burned, I paid for them again.

But the two books "Writers on Creation" and the book on "Dream of Red Mansions" have disappeared forever. This cannot but be said to be a pity. This is the punishment for impulsiveness.

There is also a letter written by Jin Fengqin in Kaifeng, and the excerpt from the letter is as follows:

A dream last night, in which you quietly participated. What I give you is deep and meaningful, of course what I give you is different, I can't be hazy all night, and I don't know who the moon in the water is shining for? Looking forward to a miracle tomorrow?

You are like a book, let me read carefully, the meaning of it, indescribable, read your sincerity, pain and happiness, read your deepest part, read paragraph after paragraph of the story, let me be moved to tears:

I can't help but be happy and bless me, because I have found a sincere and kind confidant, looking up at the blue sky, telling the blue sky that I am no longer lonely.

After reading the letter, I wrote back to her.

A few days later, my father told me to go with him to Xiaolan's house to talk about marriage. Before leaving, we had a small meeting together as a family and called my sister as well.

My sister said that in order to do this, you have to find a matchmaker. My sister thought that my brother-in-law had been a teacher and could speak well, so she asked me to entrust him. But before I could finish my sentence, my aunt's head sticked out.

She chattered a lot, saying that my uncle had nothing to do at home, when he would be able to come back after going so far away, etc.

This novel comes from Kanshu.com