I don't know what to say, summing up the course of the month since it was put on the shelves, and doing nothing......

I feel like I'm not doing anything, I'm not adapting, and if the goal before putting it on the shelf is to keep working hard for the sake of getting it on the shelf, I'm honest, I'm working hard and I'm always improving. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info

However, after putting it on the shelves, it felt empty......

The results are good, and it stands to reason that I should be happy because it makes money.

But I couldn't be happy, I was upset, every subscription meant that there was a reader who was paying to read what I wrote.

It's a recognition, but it's also a pressure and responsibility.

I really want to update 10,000 or even tens of thousands every day, but in fact, due to various reasons, I am personally dissatisfied with what I wrote, and I would like to rewrite it, but time does not allow it, and the daily update task does not allow it.

From the outbreak on the shelves, it took two days to complete the ten changes, and then the arrears, promises, etc., were put on a stone in my heart.

I gritted my teeth and continued to write, and then the big brother said that it was getting more and more watery......

And then I can't think about it.,And then the update is slow.,Wonderful story.,The more the better.,I don't know which one to choose.,Tangled all the way.,Trying to find the state.,It's been a month of confusion.。

One of the most torturous months for a little budding new like Axiba.

Carvin, state ups and downs, these are all factors that affect the creation, but this is not a reason......

Yes, I don't want to excuse myself.

Because I promised before to give you a good ending, I still have to adapt and learn to bear everything.

In October, I feel that it is a new beginning for me, and I don't plan to go home for seven days of National Day, and I don't go out for recreation, retreat, retreat.

I want to regain the passion and motivation I had at the beginning of writing this story, and write a story that satisfies me, no matter what others say, I think it is an achievement to satisfy myself!

I don't think about anything, I don't care about anything, I think too much, it's like painting the ground as a prison, imprisoning myself and annoying myself.

I once said that I was happy when I wrote this story and enjoyed the pleasure that words bring to me, so I want to continue to please myself......

Thanks to some people's concern, thanks to some people's sarcasm, thanks to some people's silent dedication, let's start anew from October~ Let's sail!!(To be continued.) )