〈Dream〉

Maybe I never dreamed, but it was true that at the age of eighteen I had a whim to have a grand dream of being a scholar, so on the wall of the hotel dormitory from the bachelor to the doctor ten years of paper process, in order to self-encouragement, at that time did verbally make up the mind to self-examination, the result was to give up halfway, and later the online undergraduate also because of the arrival in Beijing after thinking that one step to the sky and underestimated to give up, self-study for more than two years, every day on the post to watch the flow of students and scholars suddenly feel their own small, ignorant and shallow, And the ideals in my heart are gradually as blurred as my own glasses.

〈Target〉

People often say to me: Ah Xiu, it's time to find a girlfriend, I always answer that I am still young, and I simply replied in a hurry: I have talked about five or six before, and I abandoned one before coming to Beijing. In fact, I haven't talked about real love for 21 years, either online dating or secret love, my parents called and said that relatives introduced me to a beautiful and capable local girl, I refused, saying that my heart is too high, in fact, my heart is not high, as long as I can talk to the other party, it doesn't matter, and then I think about it! My friend said: Poor couple, I still retort that I am too young, in fact, I believe in pure love, but I would rather have a girl come to me, under my protection, spoil her. Because I am cowardly, conservative, and inferior, I always hope that a gentle girl can give me encouragement and comfort when I am lonely and confused, and I don't like women with strong bones and arrogance. But I'm used to being lonely now, and it's actually good to talk to my own heart. When I am 50 years old, I believe that I will be more beautiful and beautiful than I am 20.

〈Master〉

There's a story I made up. Once upon a time, there was a lover of literature, lamented by the blind search, and always hoped that there was a mentor who could solve the confusion and lead him into the real palace of literature, for which he studied hard while looking for a real mentor, and found one after another every time he was ecstatic to think that he had found it, and then gradually found that he was not looking for the person, and then gave up learning from it, and persevered and searched again and again, until he was old and found that he was the person he was really looking for.

〈I want to grow up〉

You can be like a child when you're old, but don't grow up forever when you're young. As long as you enter the society, no one will care whether you are seventeen or forty-seven years old, after the contradiction occurs, they are excited and angry to the extreme, and they will only care about who presses down whom, either you bend or I stretch, I stretch you can't bear it, you stretch me can't bear it, everything is in whose interests are justified and who hinders whom. Verbally call you an adult, but in the bottom of your heart you are a child who despises you, and you deserve to be bullied, who calls you small? In the same way, everyone is equal before the law, officials and ordinary people are killed for murder, and those who violate the law are imprisoned.