Lying in bed, listening to Jay's "Obviously".

Whenever this happens, I habitually look at the ceiling.

Because there are pictures of three women on the ceiling.

Lingjing, Jiao, sx, one is nostalgic, one is guilty, and one regrets.

Lingjing, I don't need to introduce more. After reading the rest of the story, you will understand.

Jiao, my girlfriend from college, took care of me for three years. But in the end, I chose to separate.

Why?

If I say it's because I feel unhappy and don't want to push myself. Do you think I'm a scumbag?

Why be together if you're unhappy?

Because...... (The third volume of this story will be repeated.) ）

We haven't seen her in years.

All I have, except for memories, is this photo of her in college.

I often dreamed of her in my dreams, and I dreamed that she cried for me.

And I, except for the tears that never stop, there is nothing I can do.

Because you can't go back......

Every Spring Festival, I visit her parents.

For her parents, I have been taking care of her parents as if they were my own biological parents all these years.

The reason, just for a love word!

Yes, a love word.

That's family affection.

I've also tried to contact her, not for anything else.

Just want to know how she's doing now?

Where are you now?

一qiē都回顺lì?......

But every time her parents said that she went out, she didn't even come back for the Spring Festival.

Feelings are always such a process.

acquaintance

Love

crack

quarrel

apart

resentment

insipid

unconscious,

Gradually sentimental,

One last thought.

Maybe it's not called missing,

It's remembrance, or memory.

Recall the imprints of youth.

SX, a girlfriend I made after graduating from college.

She has a special kind of charm,

There is a kind of graceful atmosphere.

But I know it's not because of Lingjing that I fell in love with her,

It's because of that feeling.

feel

I've asked myself countless times, what does it feel like?

I later learned that it didn't feel like a thing.

It's nothing,

It's just a rhetoric to confuse yourself.

Just a reason to fall in love with yourself.

Other than that, there is no other meaning.

We've been in love for half a year,

Half of us spent half of this half of the year in pain and quarrels with each other.

Why?

Because we all have an unspeakable past,

Entangled in this.

Gradually,

The feeling of heartbeat between each other at the beginning has been wiped out.

feel

Right. It's heartbeat, or love at first sight.

I know a lot of people don't believe in love at first sight,

But I believe it.

And firmly believe in it.

Because of Lingjing, because of ......

Until one day, SX and I quarreled over a trivial matter.

From then on, there were fewer and fewer words between us.

Slowly, he became a stranger......

After so many years, I still vividly remember the scene on the day of the breakup.

In the evening, SX did not return to his house after work. Instead, come to me and get ready to have dinner together.

I remember that I had just joined the work at that time, and my life was very difficult, and I couldn't give her much what she wanted.

As for usual, for yourself, it is even more economical.

That night, knowing that she was coming, I went out of my way to buy some snacks and dishes that I thought she loved to eat.

Sitting at home and waiting for her to come back.

A qiē was originally good,

It's a pity......

While I was cooking, she said go down and buy some water.

I've been waiting for a long, long time, but no one has returned.

I was anxious, anxious with concern.

Who knows how I was feeling at that time?

Afraid!

I'm afraid of her for the slightest thing.

Fear of the night in the city can't protect her beauty.

I hurriedly put down the kitchen utensils in my hand,

Open the door, press the elevator, and go downstairs......

I always felt that the elevator was too slow, too slow.

Hurry up, hurry up!

Nothing will happen to her, right?

Nothing will happen, right?

No, it won't!

I comforted myself as I walked.

When I walked to the door of the community,

Saw SX crouching there, talking to someone: "......"

heartbroken

heartbroken

The whole world is collapsing,

I don't know if I'm going to demolish her at this point.

I don't know if I should go back or come forward.

I don't know what to do next.

In the end, I chose to step forward.

He patted her gently, "Honey, let's go home!"

When I got home, I was silent and didn't say anything.

Just quietly eating the food cooked for her.

She looked at me, didn't eat, didn't speak.

She said she couldn't cook.

So, I learned.

She said she didn't want to go to work.

So, I tried. Strive to let her stay at home as soon as possible.

She said I couldn't give her what she wanted.

So, I desperately saved and made money.

I just want to be together.

Eventually, she spoke. "I went back. ”

I don't know why she said that.

Normally she would stay here,

Be with me,

Looking forward to a future that felt unattainable at that time......

I didn't speak, still quietly swallowing the rice that I didn't recognize.

"If you don't speak, then I'll go!"

We are all stubborn people, and I can do a lot for her silently.

But I just can't open my mouth and admit my mistake.

Even if I'm really wrong.

I was wrong that I shouldn't have been so quiet,

I was wrong that I shouldn't have been expressionless,

I was wrong......

She didn't wait for me to say anything, she turned and left.

I paused for a few seconds,

At that time, I wanted to turn around and rush out,

Shouted loudly: "Don't go, honey!"

But I didn't.

Because I, like Li Yong, am a person who loves face very much.

I saw the bag beside me,

sx package.

It gave me an excuse to chase out,

When I rushed to the door,

found that she was still there,

Just leaning against the wall silently, I don't know what she was thinking at that time.

I know, in fact, she doesn't want to go.

It's only because of her stubbornness that she seems ruthless like this.

"Here, your bag! You can go, and I won't send it!" I said coldly.

The moment I turned to walk in the door, honey, do you know how much my heart hurts?

Actually, I really want to say: Come back, honey!

However, I never spoke.

I ran to the balcony and looked at the exit of the complex, looking, hoping to see her.

appeared, she lowered her head, and slowly walked towards the exit of farewell.

At that time, the heart was torn.

Come back

Come back soon.

Countless times in my heart,

But she,

Or chose to leave.

I scooped up my phone, "Let's go, don't come back! Let's go, I can't accept your temper!"

When I saw that the delivery was successful, I knew that everything was irreversible.

Because, I am a stubborn person.

She, too.

"Ding...... Dingding ......"

I pressed the alarm clock in a daze, it was seven o'clock, and it was a new day.

Scooping up the manuscript, "Those Secret Love Days", I returned to the office, sat at the desk, and continued to write......

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