The air became quiet, and Joel's departure still didn't seem to break the framework of the tranquility, and Lily, Ronald, and Lawrence stood there, no one moving, no one talking, and it seemed that they couldn't even lift their fingers. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

Lawrence looked at Lily longingly, those deep eyes revealed earnestness, but Lily did not speak, just looked at Lawrence like this, but her eyes were full of hollowness, and the vivid expression faded little by little, and finally became black and white, which made Lawrence's eyes dim little by little, and the gray of despair gradually seeped out like a drizzle, and finally all life was crushed, and her eyes were full of tears.

Lu Li and Ke Er exchanged glances, and both of them were a little stunned and at a loss. Lu Li tried to leave, leaving this place for McCartney's family, who was still an outsider after all. However, then Lu Li found out that he missed the best opportunity, he should follow Joel's footsteps and leave together, after that, the atmosphere became silent and solemn, not to mention Lu Li, even Cole, who was standing behind Lily, couldn't find the right time to turn around.

Neither is it moving forward, nor is it going backwards. Lu Li and Cole seemed to be stuck in a quagmire.

Lily looked at Lawrence in a daze, covered her mouth in disbelief, shook her head gently, and then shook her head again, tears couldn't stop sliding down, wetting the back of her hands, wetting her cheeks, all the emotions in her eyes were blurred in those hot tears, pain and struggle, but after all, she couldn't express it in words.

"Mom. Lawrence called softly, and tried to step forward, but as if to startle Lily, she turned around, strode away, and fled.

This simple action almost crushed Lawrence, he stood there at a loss, and grabbed his hair in frustration and anger, but finally took a step forward and chased in the direction where Lily left, "Mom." ”

Cole and Lu Li exchanged glances, then turned around and walked into the room as well. In the blink of an eye, only Lu Li and Ronald were left at the door. Things changed unexpectedly.

Looking at Ronald in front of him, Lu Li was not sure, he didn't know what he should do, and he didn't even know if he should take action. But if you turn around and leave like this, it doesn't seem to be the right choice, at this moment of hesitation, Lu Li saw Ronald stumbling, almost unsteady, Lu Li hurriedly stepped forward and helped Ronald.

After holding on, Lu Li realized that Ronald had almost no strength to stand firm, all the weight was pressed down, and the gravitational force of the car made Lu Li almost unstable, he looked left and right, and could only retreat, reluctantly helping Ronald to sit down on the swing, the whole swing felt the weight, and began to shake violently, and the creaking sound was inexplicable in the dark night.

"Ronald, do you need me to get a cup of hot water?" Lu Li was a little flustered, not sure about Ronald's state, and asked worriedly.

Then Lu Li saw Ronald's eyes, not as he imagined, but as he imagined, but blank, like an endless mist, spreading on the surface of the deep blue sea, except for the monotonous color, he could see nothing, only a blank, it seemed that even the soul was lost.

"Fourteen, what should I do?" Ronald's heavy voice made Lu Li's nose sour, and the intricate emotions were difficult to describe in words, just in words. "I ...... I don't know, what am I supposed to do? This is sin, this is wrong, this is not allowed by God! This is wrong! Now I am watching him continue on this wrong path, what should I do? What else can I do?"

As he spoke, Ronald's voice choked, he raised his hand, and finally put it down weakly, falling heavily on his thigh, at a loss, with nowhere to put it.

Lu Li was silent. He can say a lot of truths, but those hard and cold truths can't heal those wounded and broken hearts.

"Ronald, you know, when I first came to the United States, I was met with a lot of strange stares that I hadn't encountered in China. Lu Li said in a calm tone, these irrelevant words made Ronald turn his head, revealing a puzzled gaze, but the anxious mood gradually calmed down due to the shift of attention.

"At first, I thought it was just because they weren't used to seeing Asians, after all, among a group of blonde people, I was a yellow-skinned and black-haired person, and I was really conspicuous. Lu Li had a faint smile on his face, not too heavy, not too angry, just recounting those stories, "But then I gradually found out that things are not like this, and there is malice and violence hidden in those eyes." What's more, those disgusts and hatreds, not because of me personally, but because of my race. ”

Ronald didn't speak. The situation Lu Li said couldn't be clearer to a Texan. Ronald doesn't know if Texas is the state with the worst race/discrimination, but he can be sure that the situation here is not minor.

"Luckily, I didn't come across a direct shot. Lu Li's black humor failed to make Ronald laugh this time, "So, when I first came to the ranch, I met Cole, I met Lily, I met you, and your warmth and kindness surprised me very much, and the rumored Texas is not like this." ”

Ronald hooked the corners of his mouth slightly, but then he fell, exhaling heavily.

"I never thought it was a mistake to be a yellow-skinned Chinese, on the contrary, I was proud that I was Chinese; likewise, I never thought it was a mistake to choose to come to the United States to study and live on a ranch, this is a country of immigrants, and the world is opening its arms to embrace people from different nationalities, cultures, and races." So, whose fault is it?"

Lu Li didn't deliberately accentuate his tone, but the simple words were as heavy as a thousand pounds, pressing heavily on Ronald's chest, "Sometimes, men discriminate against women, sometimes, whites discriminate against blacks, sometimes, rich people discriminate against poor, and of course, sometimes, New Yorkers discriminate against Texans." Ronald chuckled out loud at the words, but in the blink of an eye, the laughter dissipated like smoke, "There are also times when heterosexuality discriminates against homosexuals and tries to deprive one person of the right to fall in love with another." Whose fault is this?"

"But what about God, what about the Bible, doesn't it matter?" Ronald finally retorted, with a sincere expression and an excited voice.

Lu Li spread out his hands, and instead of facing it head-on, he smiled, "I haven't read the Bible, so I can't answer it." But I believe that God loves each and every one of his people, and he loves him as he is. ”

Ronald's words were cut off in mid-air without landing, and he knew that Lu Li was right. But, but...... Ronald's mind was full of all kinds of thoughts, and in a mess, he insisted on things all his life, insisted on his beliefs all his life, and insisted on his beliefs for a lifetime, and naturally it was impossible to change dramatically in a short period of time.

Lu Li knew this, but he couldn't empathize. Because, after all, he is not a party. He didn't know what Lily and Ronald were going through, and he didn't know what Lawrence and Joel were going through, and as a bystander, he was really limited in what he could give, but there was one thing he was sure of, incredibly sure.

"Most importantly, he's your child, your and Lily's child. Lu Li can see that Lily is deeply in love with her two children, and even if Lawrence's choice deviates from her beliefs, she still has no way to give up. Perhaps, the same is true for Ronald. "Ronald, right now, the whole world is on his side and he needs you to be on his side. Because, if even you and Lily give up, he will have nothing. ”

Such a simple sentence made Ronald's shoulders tremble slightly, and he looked at Lu Li with a shocked face, hesitated for a long time, and the words were stuck in his throat like this, and the serious and rigid expression gradually began to fall apart, and despair and pain, bitterness and sorrow seeped out little by little, "You...... You mean......" Ronald's breathing was a little rapid, and a sentence shattered into countless pieces, and he said intermittently, "Joel...... Joel ......"

Therefore, Joel fought hard for Lawrence, so Joel chose to leave Texas like Lawrence, so Joel refused to communicate with Ronald at the beginning, and it was incompatible.

For Lawrence, Joel is the only thing he has.

Realizing this, all Ronald's anger, all his sadness, all his despair came up, stuck in his throat, almost out of breath, and finally turned into a sigh, and spit out long, long, long, shoulders drooping, looking straight ahead.

The snowflakes seemed to be getting bigger and bigger, and the mighty goose feather snow covered the sky all over the sky, and all the scenery in sight disappeared into the endless white cotton wool, and the rich night seemed to be dyed with a layer of white, becoming bright and white. The night of Christmas is gradually starting to deepen.

Lu Li and Ronald didn't say anything more, just sat quietly, I don't know how long later, the two of them returned to the house, Joel and Cole sat in the dining room, chatting briskly, Lawrence stood in the kitchen, holding a cup in his hand, but couldn't tell if it was tequila or boiled water. Lily's figure was not seen for the time being.

In the end, Lu Li found Lily in the bedroom, he gave Lily a big hug, and then said goodbye to Cole and left.

Walking through this blizzard, Lu Li and Ke Le did not speak, but only let the sound of the wheels crushing the snow and the roar of the engine intertwine, echoing under the endless and silent sky, like a symphony, quiet and magnificent.