Chapter 103: That Sense of Abandonment
It wasn't until Mu Qingshui's car disappeared from sight that Guan Enoch turned around and went back to the villa, and the bamboo in the garden was growing very well, without any signs of decay. Pen, fun, and www.biquge.info
Open the drawer next to his head, there is still the brooch that was customized five years ago, can the past feelings really be found again? That night, he rudely tore up all the beauty of his care, in the world of men, love is love, and not love is not love.
Five years ago, she experienced his love for herself, and also experienced his hard heart, because of love, so she will understand how heartbreaking it is at the moment of loss. At that time, I felt like an abandoned doll, and when that sense of abandonment appeared, no matter how much I redeemed it, no matter how much I loved, I couldn't hide the coldness that was transmitted in my bones.
I am obviously not alone, but I have to fight all the pain and pain alone, because there are cracks, so even if the person I once loved the most returns to my side, there will still be a cold wind blowing in, and there is no longer a sense of security to make me feel at ease.
Because they have experienced disappointment and despair, every despair is like the last straw that breaks the camel's back, and it is not others who defeat their feelings, but themselves.
It was he who made himself lose the ability to live alone, it was he who made him learn to be strong again, and it was he who made him understand that in addition to being vulnerable, he could also have the ability to bear all kinds of pain.
Eno put the brooch back in its place, he had taught himself to be strong and endure difficulties, perhaps this is the relationship between them, which can affect many people, but it is very fragile.
On the balcony, Guan Enoch stared at a piece of bamboo in the yard in a daze, and didn't even hear Sister Ping scream a few times.
"Second Young Master, you're back. Sister Ping saw Ou Chenye coming back, greeted her, looked at the direction where Guan Enoch was, and said worriedly, "Second Young Master, go and see the Second Young Lady, since Mrs. Tang left today, she has been sitting there in a daze, and she shouldn't be called." β
Ou Chenye looked at the direction where Guan Enoch was and frowned. Following her gaze, it was the bamboo, the bamboo she loved the most.
The bamboo they had planted together had blossomed and decayed, but in the year she left, the bamboo blossomed all over the whole field, and the flowering period lasted for a whole season, and finally, all the bamboo became dry and decayed, until all the bamboo was dry.
The piece of bamboo in front of me was planted by myself and Che'er three years ago, although it doesn't look much different from before, but it's not the same as before.
The sound of the mobile phone vibrating suddenly broke the silence, and Guan Enoch also set the mobile phone call to vibrate as before, because Ou Chenye's mobile phone has always vibrate.
"Dad, what's wrong?" Guan Enoch ended a long moment of stance under the vibration of his mobile phone, saw that it was Guan Qingyun's phone, and picked up and asked.
"Noir, your mother is awake. Guan Qingyun's voice came over excitedly, and Guan Enoch stood up very excitedly.
"Really?" Guan Enoch hung up the phone, tears came out of his eyes, and when he turned around, he found that Ou Chenye was standing not far behind him, and wiped away his tears.
"I'll go with you. β
"I'll just go myself. Before Guan Enoch finished speaking, Ou Chenye took her hand and walked out. Guan Enoch looked at Ou Chenye holding his hand, and could clearly feel the temperature from his big hand, with a sense of peace of mind.
It turns out that having someone to share your joys or sorrows with you can also be so worth cherishing.
When he arrived at the hospital, the doctor was examining the official's mother, and when he saw Ou Chenye and Guan Enoch coming in, the doctor nodded at Ou Chenye and quickly ended the examination.
The official's mother opened her eyes weakly, and when she saw Guan Enoch, she was excited to struggle, and Guan Enoch hurriedly stepped forward to hold the hand of the official mother.
"Mom, you're awake, great, you're finally awake. Guan Enoch's tears couldn't stop flowing, happy and uncomfortable.
Guan Enoch also shed tears, and tried his best to reach out and touch Guan Enoch's face, feeling her real existence, and let out a faint voice: "Noorβ"
"Mom, it's me, I'm back, your Noel is back. Guan Enoch held the hand of the official mother tightly, Guan Qingyun held the two hands outside, maybe the waiting time was a little tormenting, but what he was waiting for was full of happiness, as long as you were fine, fortunately, it was still too late.
"It's No'er, our No'er is back, you should be happy, so you have to get better quickly. Guan Qingyun's face seemed to have a lot more wrinkles.
Ou Chenye withdrew from the ward and went through the procedures in person, and in general, he recovered well.
In the evening, Guan Enoch insisted on staying to take care of the official mother, as a junior, he was also a son-in-law, Ou Chenye had no reason to object, but it was not conducive to Guan Enoch's physical recovery. Guan Qingyun saw Ou Chenye's thoughts, and also knew Guan Enoch's physical condition, and he didn't want Guan Enoch to stay.
"No'er, you're not well, go back and rest, and it's the same when you come back tomorrow. β
"But Dad, I want to stay. Eno looked at him with a begging look.
Guan Qingyun stretched out his hand and touched Guan Enoch's head, and then looked at the sleeping official mother: "Silly child, your mother is asleep, and there is nothing to do if you stay, it is better to go back to rest early and come back tomorrow, otherwise when your mother is well, let her know that you don't take care of your body, and let her worry again." β
"Butβ"
"Go back, listen to me, there is me and the caretaker here, now that your mother is awake, there is nothing more important than your body. β
Guan Enoch saw that Guan Qingyun insisted on asking Guan Enoch to go back, looked at the official's mother, and finally nodded.
"Then I'll come back tomorrow, Dad, and you have to rest well. β
"Well, go ahead. β
Guan Enoch was reluctant to look at Guan Qingyun, Ou Chenye glanced at Guan Qingyun gratefully, and then motioned for himself to stay and take care of the official's father and mother, and then left with Guan Enoch in his arms.
The car stopped in front of the villa, and Guan Enoch suddenly said, "Thank you for taking care of my parents all these years." β
Ou Chenye turned his head to look at her, and a touch of distress hit his heart: "Nuo'er, they are Che'er's grandparents and grandmothers, mentors, and relatives." β
Guan Enoch was lying on the bed, imagining these days, imagining what the people around him said to him, from knowing the existence of the child, to knowing why Ou Chenye chose to hurt himself back then, to waiting for the arrival of the child alone, then experiencing death, then waking up, and then remembering everything, it always felt a little unreal, like a dream. When I woke up from the dream, it seemed that many things had not changed, but it was not the circle of life before the dream.
Thinking about it, I fell asleep in a daze.