Chapter 113: Reluctance (Second Update)

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Today is the Mid-Autumn Festival, but my bosom boyfriend is dead. Sudden cardiac arrest. In the elevator hall on the fourteenth floor of the building, his eyes were wide open, and his gums were exposed, as if he had died suddenly.

It is said that it was the dawn of a Saturday.

He is an editor of an English-language magazine, handsome, quick-witted, humorous, optimistic and cheerful, especially for his most recent original work, which has just won an international literary award, which means that he has become one of the world's most famous artists......

Who in the mansion doesn't recognize him?

When the security guard on duty can see him in the camera, his eyes are often so melancholy, just like his words, always faint, quiet, and slowly sad.

He knew that I was often alone at night, enjoying the taste of walking on the quiet streets......

That night, the abnormality in the elevator room was quickly discovered by the security guard.

His wife and children questioned, and the security guard said: "He should be very happy, and when he went, there was no pain at all!" The doctor who rescued him said: "Since there has never been a heart problem, there is only one possibility, and that is that he suddenly encountered something particularly terrifying and heart-wrenching." ”

Before the police issued the cremation certificate, they carefully investigated the scene again and found that it was his regular ...... that night Every Saturday, work, study and ...... On that occasion, he was taking the elevator from the twenty-sixth floor where his office was located down to the fourteenth floor, and his frightened face was suddenly visible between the doors of the elevator opening and closing. Looking at the video tape, he was the only one on the fourteenth floor and in the elevator at that time.

On his desk, there is a book called "Five Years of the Master's Diary" by the great domestic historian Luo Ergang, and on the title page it reads: Gift to Ran'er - Walking is a person's religion, which can not only save oneself, but also save others. There is a feeling after reading, sandwiched in the book.

After all, the editor only knows that he has a beautiful wife from a big British aristocratic family, but she is not called Ran'er! Could it be that the well-known alternative female lawyer -- Ran'er?

Advocating lonely walking, I am taking advantage of the off-season, wandering around, walking alone in the charm, but no one knows when I will become his confidante in the depths of his soul on the way home.

He once said: In modern society, there are fewer and fewer people who want to walk, and there are more and more people who can really walk. But when it comes to actually walking, almost 90 percent of people choose to hold back.

I said: if walking is a dream, then the destination is definitely not the end of it.

I also said, "I love walking, so I roam."

He replied helplessly: Walking is the process, and walking is the key. I didn't go, I couldn't make it.

However, I began to float along the Danube or swim in Kilimanjaro......

I like the magnificent and steep Katrakta Gorge formed by the Danube River cutting through the Carpathian Mountains, which runs from Ram at the west end to Kladovo at the east end, including a series of gorges such as the Kasan Gorge and the Tiemen Gorge, although the total length is only 144 kilometers, and the difference between the end and the end of the water level is nearly 30 meters, but the narrowest part of the Danube in the canyon is only 100 meters, only one-sixth of the width of the river before entering the canyon, and the depth increases from an average of 4 meters to 50 meters. The steep cliff wall stands, the water fights for a gate, the river is rolling, rushing and roaring, which has become the famous natural danger of the Danube River, and also contains huge water resources. Isn't that the case with people? How can we unleash nuclear capabilities without being forced to a narrow place?

I also like the blue Danube as it flows slowly through the Austrian capital WYN. To say that this ancient city with a long history, the mountains and rivers are beautiful, the scenery is beautiful, and the beautiful WYN forest stretches out in the western suburbs of the city, lush and green. Walking through the streets of WYN or taking a nap in the park seats, I can hear beautiful waltzes almost everywhere, and see lifelike statues of musicians, which is truly worthy of being called "World Music City". Standing on the Karen Hill in the northwest of the city, the faint mist casts a light veil on WYN, and the dome of the ancient palace, the parliament, the mansion and the spire of St. Stephen's and other churches that glitter in the sun are like beads on a woman's head, and the Danube River is like a jade belt around the waist, with the verdant WYN forest for thousands of miles, which reminds me of the musicians and poets who were born here...... Their famous piece, "Blue Danube Waltz", Op. 314, has even been called "Austria's second national anthem". Listen, the square resounded with the rhythm of a typical three-beat waltz, the theme of the music is beautiful and beautiful, the rhythm is bright and elastic, reflecting a gorgeous and elegant style, I can't help but dance. The last line of the repetition was hummed in his mouth: "You are sentimental, you are young, beautiful, docile and kind-hearted, like gold in a mine, and the truth is awakened there, by the Danube, by the beautiful blue Danube." The sweet flowers soothe the shadows and wounds in my heart, the flowers still bloom in the barren bushes, and the nightingales sing and chirp, beside the Danube, by the beautiful blue Danube. ”

Of course, I also love Kilimanjaro, the "King of Africa", known as the "Roof of Africa". The peaks are steep, below 1,000 meters above sea level are tropical rainforest belts, between 1,000 to 2,000 meters are subtropical evergreen broad-leaved forest belts, between 2,000 to 3,000 meters are temperate forest belts, between 3,000 to 4,000 meters are alpine meadow belts, 4,000 to 5,200 meters above sea level are alpine desert belts, and above 5,200 meters are snow-covered glacier belts. So, in Hemingway's novel "The Snow of Kilimanjaro", what does it mean that the body of a leopard that has been dried and frozen on Mount Kilimanjaro under snow, near the western peak of the temple known as the temple of God, is covered with snow? What does the leopard look for in such a cold place? No one has explained. Perhaps it doesn't matter what the leopard is looking for, as long as it appears at such a height, it has a unique charm in itself. It is a wonderful description of a dying person, or the gloomy gloom and gray tones, which make the square summit of Kilimanjaro, like a dawn in the darkness, light up the essence of the whole novel.

What I also want to seek, in fact, is not the immortality of the soul and the immortality of the spirit?

I feel that even though my life is in a state of end, like a leopard and a hajin, it still has a primitive, quiet, and sublime beauty.

Hemingway didn't just want to tell me that death does not mean nothingness and disillusionment, as long as the spirit remains, then death can be as vast as the whole world.

I figured it out, my chaotic thoughts, my lonely heart, finally have a home, I can be brave and positive to yearn for a noble soul! I have a heart-to-heart with my bosom boyfriend, like soul mates.

We continue to communicate with each other in our hearts.

I'm such a careless wandering girl.

It wasn't until half a month later that I suddenly saw the news of his death on the Internet page.

I seemed to feel that my heart also stopped suddenly in a trance, and then my frozen heart had a slight pain, until the sharp pain came, like a drop of thick ink falling on the snow-white rice paper, slowly filling the whole paper......

I was already dressed in white and rushed back to the twenty-sixth floor of the building.

But no one knew me - it was the merciful security guard who allowed me to see his study...... I thought it was floating in front of the bed, my right hand caressing the sheets of the little orchid on a white background and the quilt with white clouds on a blue background, and muttering incessantly: "At first, I was reading on the bed in the office, and I had to sit upright when I read it, and I didn't dare to make the slightest mistake." I like the kind of "unrelenting" that Rohr just said. The act of being 'cautious and diligent' is the so-called 'reluctance'.

This is what the ancients meant by 'deacon'.

Whoever has this virtue will surely achieve success in the future. There should be another sentence, called 'how much evidence there is, how much words are said'. This is the essence of learning and living people, and it should be used for a lifetime.

After receiving my 'Yi Mei'er', I will send you a book and a thank you......

For those who don't read, I'm really a reader.

There are three reasons for this: first, although I have not undergone systematic education and have no teacher, I have attended the 'Royal School of Political Science and Economics' after all; second, although I have not been promoted by the soul, my spirit has been wandering hard; third, I am not strict in my studies, but I am ashamed to know it, and I have the courage to change it, and Confucianism can be taught, and it is ......

It was as if I had finally become water, and there was not a single place in my body that was not wet......

I insisted on going to the fourteenth floor alone, and when the elevator door opened, I saw a girl in white, tall and tall, with long shawl hair, black and shiny silk threads covering both cheeks, and bright eyes full of doubt......

Then, when the dust settled, the soft and soft words that came over were: "Oh! There are so many people! Then I'll wait for the next trip!"

So, I saw the girl in white smiling, and a black glow flashed in her crooked crescent-like eyes.

I was stunned and dumbfounded: Isn't that the same person I was many years ago?

That sentence was the first thing I said when I first met him, but there were really many people in the elevator at that time.