After the college entrance examination, there was a big change in my family. www.biquge.info The reason why you can't find me, and I haven't contacted you, is because I don't know how to tell you about it, and I've been avoiding it. It's my pain, and it's my life.

That day, I was taking a nap at home when the phone rang. I reluctantly picked up the phone, and the other side of the phone told me that he was from the X City Police Department, and asked me if I was Xue Zhi, Xue Gang's son. My mind was buzzing and I had a bad premonition. I wish I hadn't gotten that call back then.

It was then that I realized that my parents were working outside the home to make a living, taking drugs and selling drugs! I never thought that they would get into this kind of thing, and once they got it, it would be very difficult to quit. Oh, I scolded the policeman at the time, I don't want to accept this fact, I don't want to accept this fact. However, facts are facts, and I cannot be tolerated. The cop told me that my dad wanted to see me and asked me to go to City X. The policeman only gave me his contact information once on the phone, and strangely enough, I remembered it, and I remembered it very well. Three days later, I called the policeman, told him the itinerary of the train ticket I bought, and asked him to pick me up.

This incident had a great impact on me, and the person I wanted to tell me the most was you, but this incident was a disgraceful thing for me, and I couldn't let myself face you like before, and I lost sleep every night during that time, and I almost collapsed. However, in the end, I held back, and I finally decided not to tell anyone where I was going, because I didn't know what I was about to face, I didn't know what the outcome would be, and I was terrified and confused about the unknown.

When I went to City X alone and saw the policeman, I saw pity in his eyes. The policeman took me to the police station and met my dad. At a glance, my tears flowed down my face.

You can't imagine how virtuous the man I have seen is! He used to be very strong, and his whole body was covered in flesh, the kind that people dare not mess with when they see it. However, what I saw that day was a scrawny, glazed-eyed man who walked as if he was about to float. His deep-sunken cheeks made his eyes look especially large, and his face was full of wrinkles that a forty-year-old man should not have, and he was much older.

I was scared, hated and desperate, and I didn't even know how I got in front of him and sat across from him. At that time, I felt like my whole world was collapsing, and I couldn't breathe. He told me that he did not regret that he chose that path, although the ending was so unbearable and so unsatisfactory, but at least his choice allowed us to live a good life.

I asked him where my mom was, and he calmly told me that she was dead, and that she had been hit by a speeding car while running away, and she was not breathing. He also said that she was lucky and never had to be tortured again. You know? At that time, I suspected that it was not my father who was sitting across from me, it was the devil, otherwise how could he have talked so lightly about his wife's death.

He said that the only person he felt sorry for was me, it was he who dragged my mother into the water, and he became addicted to drugs and sold drugs with him, which caused me to lose my mother. What he didn't know was that I also lost my father, and at that moment, he was completely dead in my heart, and even I was 'dead'.

I wandered around X City for a month, smelling all over my body, no one was a ghost, no one was a ghost, everyone was abandoned, and I became a homeless person. At that time, I really wanted to die, I felt that the whole world had abandoned me, and no one would care if I slept in the stinking gutter. At that time, the only thing of value on me was the mobile phone I used when I was in school. Once a person is down, any kind of person dares to come up and bully you. There was a ruffian who asked me to give him my phone, how could I give it to him, and the two of us fought, sadly, there were many onlookers, but none of them wanted to stand up for me, a filthy beggar. Even though I was hit by him, he still couldn't get my phone.

After that day, I walked with a limp for many days, eating other people's leftovers everywhere, and being chased and beaten by my boss, no one sympathized with me, more despisam and disgust. At that time, I was numb, I didn't know what shame was, and I was blind to everything in the outside world. Until one day, I met the policeman again, and he thought I had left the city a long time ago, so when he saw me like this, he froze.

Hehe, now that I think about it, that policeman is really good eyesight, I'm like that, he can even recognize me at once. If it weren't for him, I really don't know how long I'd be willing to fall. He didn't dislike my dirty smell, he took me to his house, forced me to bathe me, change into the clothes he usually wears, and cooked me a meal, I jumped to the table like a mad dog and began to eat with my hands, he didn't stop me, just watched quietly, just watched like that, until I stopped myself.

I cried so much that I cried so thoroughly that night I slept in his house, a lovely room with a lot of baby stuff, but he was alone in the house, why did he buy so many baby stuff. The next day, I got an answer, a very heart-wrenching answer, but it was also the answer that rekindled my desire for life.

His wife, who had been pregnant with a child but had a miscarriage at the age of seven months, hit her very hard, and she used to shut herself up in the room full of baby items, talking to herself. The policeman was afraid that she would have some accidents, so he accompanied her every day, and almost lost his job. Later, his wife slowly came out of the haze, and when they wanted to have another child, they were diagnosed with uterine cancer by the hospital, and they never dreamed that such an incredible thing would happen to them. Not being able to have children, for a woman, is such a terrible thing, only those who have experienced it can know what it is like.

The policeman told me that his wife did not shut herself off again, as he had imagined, but accepted the fact with ease. He suggested that the uterus be removed, and the child could be adopted, not necessarily biological, and his wife even agreed, although he felt that his wife was a little abnormal at the time, but seeing that she could accept it happily, the stone in his heart was put down, and she made an appointment for surgery. However, the night before the operation, his wife committed suicide by taking a large amount of sleeping pills.

During that time, the policeman had problems with his mental state, and the police station gave him paid leave to recuperate and then return to work. He told me that he also thought about dying, and that when his wife died, he left him nothing, not even a suicide note.

At first, he hated why he didn't even leave him a suicide note, why did he leave him alone in this world! After a long time, he gradually understood that his wife didn't want him to live in the past, didn't want him to be imprisoned in a marriage that had passed away, and didn't want to have no biological flesh and blood because of her relationship. Therefore, he must live well, only in this way can he live up to the heart of his dead wife.

The dead can be remembered in their hearts, but don't spoil themselves, because there are still people in this world who care about themselves, and those who care about themselves can't be saddened and distressed, let alone let them bear the pain of loss.

His words made me realize how ridiculous I had been in the past month, and I felt like I had grown up in an instant. I only saw those rumors you sent me after that day, you told me that you were admitted to university, I know which school you applied to, and then I made a decisive decision and quietly came to the city where the school is located, waiting for your arrival.

After talking about that unbearable past, two lines of tears silently flowed from the corners of Ah Ben's eyes. These things have been pressing him very uncomfortable, and today he finally came out of the tray to Qing Yan, and his whole person was a lot more relaxed.

He didn't know what Qing Yan would think, he turned his head and looked in Qing Yan's direction, but he couldn't see anything in the dark, this was what he wanted, he didn't want to see Qing Yan's expression after knowing this, and he didn't want Qing Yan to see his sad expression.

Qing Yan didn't respond to him for a long time, he thought Qing Yan was asleep, and he didn't know if he heard it, Ah Ben let out a sigh.

"Ben, I'm sorry I couldn't be with you when you were at your saddest. Just when Ben thought Qing Yan was asleep, Qing Yan suddenly opened her mouth, but her voice had a thick nasal voice.

Qing Yan didn't expect such a big thing to happen in Ben's family, but he didn't say anything to anyone, so he just carried it himself. She was distressed and angry, but more understanding.

"It turns out that we can't go back to the past, time is like flowing water, it will only go in one direction, even if we want to go back to the past, go against the current, and what we encounter is no longer the original people and things. Everything will change. ”

"Girl......"

"It's late, go to sleep, tomorrow will be a new beginning. ”

The two were silent, but it was a sleepless night, and all kinds of past events played out in the minds of the two people.