Prologue XII begins anew

I don't know how long I drowned in the dark, but when my body gradually became conscious, I came back from my thoughts, and tried to open my eyes, but found that my eyelids were as heavy as a jack's gate, and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't open them—I clearly understood that this was one of the aftereffects of using what I named 'Destruction of Reason'. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

"Looks like we'll need a little more rest......"

Although I don't know why I suddenly entered the memory, but after re-looking at the memories of the past, I also gained a lot, especially the part about battles and strategies, which gave me a different feeling when I watched it from a third perspective, and also made me more aware of the pros and cons, especially the disillusionment of my sanity that I had been digging into the roots, and after I re-watched the memories, my understanding of it went further.

On the way to escape from the pursuit, I have used the destruction of my mind more than once, and it is precisely because of it that I have successfully escaped from desperate situations several times......

I once simulated a battle in my mind without using Mind Break, and found that even with the fighting skills I had learned, with the body that was better than that of a child of the same period, there was still a big gap in physical fitness with the ninjas who were chasing me, and in fact, even if I used Mind Break, there was still some gap between me and the physical fitness of these ninjas, but this gap did not reach a lethal level, allowing me to use the fighting skills I had learned to maneuver around and ultimately win.

After years of use, I have figured out the bonus effect that Mind Shatter gives me, which allows me to enter absolute calm, It also has the effect of doubling my physical fitness to double that of ordinary children of the same period, and after doubling my physical fitness, my physical fitness is almost the same as that of me in my previous life, which allows me to regain my fighting skills in my previous life without much effort.

It also has a special effect, that is, after using the sanity to shatter, whether it is on the verge of death, or a serious injury, it will be restored in the moment of use, although it is not completely recovered, but it can also make me completely out of the brink of death, and even have a certain combat ability, and I have been out of desperation several times, relying on the recovery effect brought by this special ability.

However, after revisiting the memory, I found that it was not just an injury, its recovery should be comprehensive, not only the injury, but even the physical strength, spirit, and hunger will be effectively alleviated by using it, the reason why I only found this special feature now is because I didn't have much time to think about it when I was hunted down, and when I had time to think about it, the relevant details were already blurred and I couldn't remember.

Of course, there are sequelae of the disillusionment of reason, but compared to death, the sequelae of being in a coma for a period of time are simply incurably light...... Of course, this also shows the location of the coma, if it is not very safe, it is actually no different from death, fortunately I am no stranger to survival in the wild, otherwise I may not have survived this moment.

Thinking like this, I thought about it and thought of a very good, powerful question......

Although the special effect of Shattered Mind can restore the injury, because the recovery is incomplete, I still have the scars left over from the desperate fight - I can't help but sigh secretly when I think of the scars crawling all over my body, I don't feel anything about the scars, after all, this thing is only visible to me, but the rough feeling of stroking it still makes me a little angry, because these scars don't mean anything other than to remind me of my own inadequacy.

If I could, I wouldn't mind getting rid of this scar, after all, my body is still small, and if I keep these scars, these scars will be terrible when I grow up, and I don't want to have any bad associations every time I see my body......

"It is said that ...... With today's technology, it is possible to remove scars from the epidermis and make it smooth and shiny again...... With this technology, it's easy to remove acne and scars from your face......, right? The existence of this technology is really a blessing for beauty lovers, for example, it can get rid of acne...... After the acne is gone, even a three-dimensional character can become as beautiful as a two-dimensional character, right? I can't help but drool when I think about it...... Ahem, ahem, it's wrong, I'm not going to drool...... Uh-huh, but when I think about it, I'll never have to fight around with acne again...... Ah, what a perfect life......"

I was a little excited at the thought of no longer having to fight around with the acne on my face, but after a moment I regained my composure, because I knew very well that the cost of this technology was not something that ordinary people could afford, and with my penniless net worth, it was naturally even more impossible, and I couldn't help but sigh secretly when I thought of the cost of hundreds of thousands......

Feeling that the rest was enough, I stopped thinking about it, but attacked the heavy eyelids again, perhaps because the after-effects of the disillusionment of my mind had been completely eliminated, so after trying for a while, I finally saw a soft white light come into view.

The line of sight gradually changed from blur to clear, the first thing that caught my eye was the white ceiling that I was quite familiar with, and then, a small hand like a lotus lotus appeared in front of my eyes, it swayed left and right, so that I didn't react for a while, and my eyes couldn't help but sway left and right with its swaying, maybe my appearance at this time was a little ridiculous, right? With the pleasant chuckle of "poof......", the lotus-like little hand slowly retracted, and my eyes naturally fell to its owner.

She is a girl, just the first time I saw her, I found out that she was the girl I rescued, if I expected correctly, I should have been taken to this hospital by her in a coma, I am naturally very grateful for her return, but when I looked at her carefully, I felt that her appearance felt quite familiar to me, but for a while I couldn't remember who she was, so I couldn't help but look at it carefully......

The girl sitting next to me has a long pink hair that looks dreamlike under the light, it is like a wave behind her, from time to time I can also see a handful of hair scattered on the bed through the vague gap, obviously her long hair is really long; she is not very old, and belongs to the level of a young girl, but her delicate and lovely face has initially shown the beautiful style of the future, especially what caught my attention is the beautiful dark blue eyes under the curved and slender eyebrows, these big eyes give me the first impression that is full of aura, and it seems that I have tasted itThe 'Star of Hope' is dazzlingly beautiful, and at this time it reveals the mind of its owner, revealing a three-part contemplative and seven-part curious inquiring look.

The more I look at her look, the more familiar it feels, and it seems to be ...... It's Lux who has shrunk N......

"Lux?!"

I couldn't help but be surprised by the thought that suddenly came to my mind, and then after taking a closer look at the girl's face, I couldn't help but affirm this thought, because the girl in front of me was nine points similar to the future Lux in terms of hair color, eyes, and appearance, and although she was still a little baby fat, it could not be denied that her appearance was indeed very similar to what I knew of Lux - this discovery shocked me for a moment, and then a burst of joy and a hint of disbelief came to my heart.

I haven't been able to see Lux in years since I 'died' and was reborn, which is undoubtedly a very painful thing for me, but the truth will not be transferred by my will, so I can only bear the pain of being separated from the two places (in fact, it is no different from heaven and man), although I also hope in my heart to see Lux again (even if it is only on the screen), but my reason tells me very clearly that it is impossible!

Now, however, the impossibility has become a reality, and I do see Lux again, even though she is still a young girl......

looked at the boy who was suddenly stunned in front of him, looked at the shocked expression on his small and delicate face like a girl, and looked at the joy of reunion after a long absence and the strong love in his eyes...... Lux, who had already learned about the boy's memories from his past life to the present, glanced at the boy with a little pity, and then hooked the corners of her mouth, curved her eyes, and showed a shallow smile to the boy.

Lux remembered all the images she had seen in the boy's memory, the most impressive of which was the boy's infiltration to rescue dozens of innocent civilians before he was about to be promoted to a key member of the party. The reason for the incident is very simple, just dozens of civilians were captured by the special forces of the Atlantic Federation, but in order to lure and annihilate the ace unit where the boy belongs, the special forces released the news that they were ready to shoot these dozens of civilians, and as the special forces wanted, the boy's ace unit did take the bait.

If it was just like this, of course Lux would not be impressed by this, after all, the ace unit where the boy was located did not carry out many rescue missions, but this time it was different, because the members of the ace unit near the shooting site were only the boy and his two companions, but only these three people finally succeeded in annihilating the special forces and successfully rescued these dozens of civilians, but the boy also paid a great price for this!

Lux had counted the number of times the boy had been hit by the enemy in this battle, no more, no less, exactly thirteen, and of those thirteen, six of the attacks broke through the boy's armor and penetrated deep into the boy's body. Even in the bones, it was deeply damaged, and after the battle, although it was treated several times, the boy's originally strong body was weakened by a few points, and he was no longer as brave as he used to be, and even later, the boy still needed to use drugs to control his physical condition in order to continue to live, and the reason for this situation was only to save dozens of civilians in that area.

From this rescue operation, Lux saw the boy's kind nature, and what happened afterwards made Lux fully understand the boy's character, his temperament is gentle, but not lacking in determination, he is sensible, but not lacking in adventurous spirit, he is good at creating opportunities, seizing opportunities, and is better at killing with one blow, and at the same time he is also a very determined person, and he believes that things, unless they really can't do anything, he will work hard to do it until he succeeds...... Of course, the boy is not without flaws, he is cold-blooded to the enemy, indifferent to life, and has a little grudge, but these shortcomings are not outstanding under the cover of the boy's advantages, and can only make people sigh that no one is perfect.

All of the above makes Lux clear about the boy's character, but what makes Lux feel shy is what she perceives from her memories and the boy's emotions, and his love for her - in fact, when Lux saw a girl named 'Lux Klein' suddenly appeared on the screen of her mobile phone, she was also quite surprised, and then Lux watched the anime called 'seed' from beginning to end. Although the background of the story and even the characters are still somewhat different from the world she is familiar with, the main characters are almost the same, such as the girl named 'Lux Klein', the leader named 'Siegel Klein', and even the characters such as 'Aslan Sara' and 'Yitzhak Joor' that Lux has never met, all of which she either knows or has never seen in person.

Although Lux does not agree with the process and ending of this anime, does not agree that his father will break with Uncle Pakrit and lose his life, and does not think that he will fall in love with a crying boy named 'Kira Yamato' - although this boy can be strong at times, after looking at all the experiences of the boy named 'Lu Hengqi' in front of him, the partner that Lux is looking forward to has unconsciously become him, and his gentleness, decisiveness, wit, firmness and his magnificent experience are deeply shocked. Attracted Lux.

And what Lux admires the most is the boy's consistent love for 'Lux Klein', although there is no shortage of women in his life, and even has some relationships with some women who love him, what he loves deeply in his heart is still the character in the second dimension that is not recognized by the world - for him, 'Lux Klein' is not just a simple name.

She is the lover of his dreams~ person, he seems to be able to hear her voice, her call, she carefully comforts him when he is decadent and frustrated, she strengthens his faith when he hesitates and wavers, and she shares joy with him when he is happy and joyful...... She was his only spiritual support, a pillar that even his best friend could not replace, she was not strange or false to him, but seemed to exist in his mind, like a living person.

The boy's deep affection for 'Lux Klein' almost penetrated into his body, his bone marrow, and his soul, and this deep affection was clearly 'felt' by Lux who had been holding his hand, which made her unable to tell for a moment whether he loved 'Lux Klein' as he knew it or her current self...... In this vague feeling, Lux felt a ray of love for the boy in front of her, and she had no intention of running away, because she also sincerely hoped that her future partner would be like the boy in front of her, and she would be consistent with her.

But before that, Lux decided to make it clear to the boy in front of her that she was different from what he knew of as 'Lux Klein', and that she was not a replacement for his known 'Lux Klein', although they both had the same beautiful name.

"I don't know if people should call you Lu Hengqi, or an unknown boy?"

The crisp and melodious voices echoed between each other, and I instantly caught the words from the mouth of the girl in front of me, who was suspected of being Lux Klein, Lu Hengqi.

I don't remember that I had the habit of sleepwalking, and it was impossible for me to confide my real name in myself during sleepwalking, so the girl could learn my name, it must have been through some unknown means...... But then I remembered the slightly teasing words behind the girl—'a' unknown boy?—and it was really laughable to describe it as 'a'.

I didn't rush to answer the girl's inquiry, I just stared fixedly at the girl in front of me.

Maybe my gaze was aggressive? Or maybe it was something else? When the girl was stared at by me for three seconds, two blush appeared on the girl's white face, which made her look more shy and cute, although I don't know why she blushed, but her cute appearance at this time still made my eyes shine, and it also made me understand more definitely that she was real, not what I imagined.

"You can call me 'Qi'. ”

Looking at the girl in front of me, whose face was becoming more and more 'ruddy', I did not continue to be silent, but opened my mouth to answer her question.

"Well, people will call you 'strange'......"

"Now that you've said your name, let me introduce you a little bit...... Their name is Lux, and Luxe Klein ...... But people are not the same as what you know of 'Lux Klein', so if you like people, please let us start over. ”

An emotion called 'courage' made Lux no longer feel shy about the boy's gaze, she opened her eyes wide, and looked straight into the boy's eyes, although it was a bit rude, but Lux did not care about these at this time, but confided in the boy what she thought and what she wanted to say, until she finished speaking, Lux suddenly realized her gaffe, and her already hot cheeks became even hotter in a blink of an eye - like a ripe red apple, delicious and tempting- But she still insisted on staring at the boy named 'Qi', expecting his answer.

To be honest, the words of the girl in front of me made me confirm her identity, but her euphemistic gesture startled me a little, but the focus of my attention was not her signal, but her emphasis on 'she is not her'.

It's a bit of a tongue to say, but I do feel the notion that 'she's not her', so I don't need to talk about the physical differences, and the personality she currently displays is different from what I know as 'Lux Klein'...... But this difference didn't disgust me, but it gave me a feeling of 'she's so cute, ......', and I can't deny that 'she's not her', but I could tell from the words that came out of the girl's mouth that she didn't feel bad about me, and even liked me a little.

From this, I realized that the girl in front of me, also called 'Lux Klein', might have some ability to sense my memories, and even feel my emotions at the time, otherwise I would not have been able to explain why she would know that I was in love with 'Lux Klein'.

"I don't know how you got my memories and my feelings for 'Lux Klein'...... But as you may know, I expected 'her' to be in front of me......" I paused, and seeing that the girl still didn't speak, I curled the corners of my mouth, showed a shallow smile, and continued: "I was incredulous when I recognized you just now, because I never thought that 'Lux Klein' would actually appear in front of me. ”

"And your audacity just now is certainly not quite the same as the 'Lux Klein' I know, but I can't deny that you are indeed cute, no, very cute...... Just like you now, like a ripe, delicious and tempting red apple, I can't wait to take you into my arms and bite your lovely cheek at once......"

"But I can't do that, I know exactly what you mean, you're not her, so I like 'Lux Klein,' but I don't think you want to be a substitute for her, right?"

"So let's start over, but allow me to give you my affectionate name for her......"

Looking at the look of anticipation in the girl's eyes, I realized that I could not refuse her expectations at all - I knew that when I knew who the girl was, I could no longer refuse her, even if 'she was not her', because my love for her was deep in my body, in my bones, and in my soul.

"People don't mind, because ...... People want to hear that, too. ”

The pretty face of the girl in front of me was still rosy, and her eyes were still looking at me, her expression was overflowing with joy and anticipation, as if waiting for my 'endearment'......

"Then I'll be respectful and obey, thank you, my favorite Lux......"

Staring at Lux in front of me affectionately, I couldn't help but sigh softly in a trance......

"I still remember that the previous life was empty, and all kinds of thoughts came to my heart; autumn went to spring and came to another life, suspected of Zhuang Zhoumeng butterfly; I looked up and looked graceful, and I seemed to be familiar in the hazy way; I was willing to go through all kinds of hardships, just to be in my heart. ”

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The above poem was written by me for 'Trick Klein (the male protagonist) in this book, and it may not be very well written, so please forgive me......

The meaning of the poem is as follows:

I still remember that my past life will eventually be empty

refers to the fact that all the achievements of the actor in his previous life are meaningless.

All kinds of thoughts welled up in my heart

I have traveled to a strange world, and it is difficult to avoid all kinds of tastes.

Autumn goes to spring and comes again

Autumn refers to the previous life, and as for the spring and life, it naturally refers to rebirth.

Suspected Zhuang Zhoumeng butterfly

Reborn with memories, in a familiar environment, it is always easy to confuse people.

Look up and look graceful

Refers to seeing a graceful figure in front of you.

Vague déjà vu

As a male protagonist who is deeply in love with Lux, he will naturally have a sense of déjà vu when he sees Lux.

I wish to overcome all kinds of suffering

Yu can be understood as me or, therefore, this sentence needs to be explained in conjunction with the next sentence.

Just for the sake of love in my heart

Following the previous sentence, it is: I am willing to go through all kinds of hardships in the world for the sake of the affection for you in my heart.