Midnight. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info wake up.

Vaguely, as if in a trance, I saw that my Artemisia Yanran was sobbing exaggeratedly. Shoulders shrugged. The throat choked. But no tears rolled down.

So, the nightmare continued.

Ping Yu actually slammed the door and smashed into Simmons, melancholy and heavy. In my rage, I brandished a green grass towel, ran into the bed, and whipped her body, and she staggered like a fish, flicking left and right, dodging my attacks again and again. Perhaps, I subconsciously didn't want to smoke her at all. In short, there is nothing I can do. So helpless. So painful. So sad.

So, tears welled up.

Teardrops, turned into the sea, at the feet.

I saw the thick high long walls or torii arches, blocking the bright sun, the cold water reaching my knees, and the various sea fish of different sizes hitting my legs, most of them large, unknown sea fish, and glittering sea turtles. I hesitated, hesitated, and trance-seeing, saw a huge black hole, leaned over to probe, and a turtle stretched out its mouth wide and almost devoured my head.

The sea water was all gone, and there were some small fish and shrimp scattered on the long stone slab. I was determined to buy them all and start closing quickly.

Suddenly, it changed, and it became a bunch of red, white and cyan strange swimming fish swimming in a fish basket, and I shouted arrogantly: "Five dollars a catty!" You—that's what you're talking about—you lost your previous number, and you can only pay ten dollars a pound! "That you became another me in an instant—I dug and searched, and finally found a note of one square centimeter with a strange number on it: one, two, three.

I felt a lot of pain in my heel, and when I saw it, I was bitten by a colorful sea turtle, so I hurriedly turned around, bent down, and grabbed this big sea turtle with a colorful body and a strange pattern. Another one howled, and I stuck my left hand on another hard shell with a heavy spot. I raised my hands and showed a ghostly shadow to be the head of my four Brazilian turtles! The ghost shadow shook his head and said that he couldn't afford it, don't don't! As soon as my hand was released, the two unusually beautiful sea turtles with colorful colors shining all over their bodies fell into the sea at once—

I'm not happy either. I would have liked those beautiful fish. But what about the pretty fish that swim around? Although the fish stew is tempting, I want to taste the steamed fish now.

The complex imagery in the dream suddenly came to an abrupt end.

Because I was woken up by my boyfriend, in front of me, it was white, and if I looked closely, it turned out to be the white wall of my house.?

I'm very sad, since I left home to study, the first time Pingyu entered my dream, was actually beaten by me! It's not strange and sad. Until now, I can't let go. I felt like crying, but I couldn't, only tears fell.

I always thought that if a woman studied and got a doctorate, she could be regarded as relying on her life, both in spiritual life and material life. In this kind of life, love and marriage are the most ideal and perfect. It turned out that I was just in a fantasy situation, self-delusional. Everything has to rely on oneself to face the dangers of the world, the framing of others, the framing of relatives and one's own difficulties. This is the only way for you, as a human being, to live in this world. In the journey, without your savior, everything can only rely on yourself, and it is your creation to reach the end, and it is also your destiny to die halfway!

If you want to save yourself, you can only fight on your own! Struggle! It's all on your own! Speaking of the horizon, I didn't expect that my most unfortunate dirty years were really spent alone in a lonely time.

From this, I thought that in the future, in the face of such a family, a family that is not very normal, it seems that my life will have to be spent in loneliness.

Perhaps, I should really start my lonely life in the years spent alone. If you don't look forward to men, there will be no loss; If you don't crave men, you can't despair. Isn't it wonderful to have a one's day? Although I don't like it, I only have to include it when I catch up. Perhaps, when I was far away from China, it also heralded that one day, I would have to bear with it.

Or will we each be separated like this forever and ever?

I can't imagine that a big man is so cowardly, so helpless, so incompetent, whether it is a foreigner or a Chinese lover. I felt like I was disappointed in the man to the house. Although it can't be counted as despair, I basically know all about the ups and downs ahead. Can't a woman live without a man? I don't believe it, but I can't help it. What am I going to do? Do people think about the future when they are desperate?

I seem to see Pingwei's suffering in prison, and it's all my sin. I hated myself, why did I put him to death so unhesitatingly? Didn't you just get what you wanted? Don't I just don't love you? Isn't it just that you are in love with Pingyu? Isn't it just that they won't help you do things? Doesn't it just make your heart so lost that it despairs? How could you be so ruthless in sending him to prison, and that beast got his wish and achieved his insidious purpose, aren't you just an accomplice? You, Artemisia Yanran, you are already terminally ill, you have already committed a great crime, you should have been broken into thousands of pieces a long time ago!

I lay in bed, thinking and grieving. I don't know what to do? How can I be relieved of this pain from the depths of my soul?

I know, even if now I tear my heart apart, or isolate myself from the party and the people, as well as Pingwei, what will happen? And who knows?

It's better to imagine that maybe one day, I can make some contribution to make them look at me, I'm afraid it's just right. However, what can I contribute as an international student? I'm really confused, who can give me direction?

Why do I have to be so bumpy? No matter what I do, there will always be villains by my side? Even the computer guesses the name and guesses the word fortune telling, and will warn that there are always villains around you? I've been calculated by filthy people all my life? Can't turn over?

I resolutely do not believe in evil! I'm going to fight! I'm my own, and no one wants to take it away from me! It's mine, and no one wants to take it away! I want to go my own way! Of course, in this world, what really belongs to me is only myself.

I was at a loss. The bottom of my heart is white, but it can be considered clean.

Looking at my soul as I mourned and wept, I was infinitely sad, desolate, and bleak. I only had one sentence: "Mom, tell me, is this the only way I can do it in the future?" ”

No, I'm going to fight.

Fight.

Death or outburst in the struggle.